Heez.. cool!

Dear diary,

I will be blogging an entry on what happen yesterday. Woke up at 11am n at around 12 plus, i went with my parents and sisters to Scotts for shopping. Haha.. bought a adidas tennis outfit ( i love it very much) n 2 tops which was meant for new year.. quite early still. after that, went home for lunch n at around 4.15, i went to meet melissa to go to orchard together to meet our UWA friends. Went to Cineleisure to check out the time for 'Meet the Fockers' but Bryan n Rachel not here yet so when Bryan came, we decided to have dinner at Cafe Cartel. Ate ath like chicken curtel n had a Blue Haven drink... den we took some neoprints. It was den Melissa saw something ' Ear Piercing at $3.90' haha.. suddenly i have the urge to have my third ear hole.. so I asked melissa if she wants it. Both of us want but we are afraid of the pain.. finally yupz, we go for it. Haha.. meli says she scare so she go 1st.. after she took I feel that it is very pain coz she nv says anything. den offer to hold my hand.. b4 the 'gun' shot into my ear.. i was really scare den i felt a pinch of pain n it is done! Phew... quite ok la.. cos it last for less then 3 second. hmm.. watch 'Meet the Fockers' at 9.45pm n it lasted for about 2 hrs. Melissa's dad send mi home so I reached home at about 12am.. just in time to watch my fav hongkong drama. Been watching tv till 2 den i went to bed.. school is starting in like 3 more days yet i haven complete my homework n never started studying! Feel like a bad girl.. think my result for the test next year when school reopen will be my worst of all.

@deine => i still wanna slack!

A mErRy mErRy ChRiStMaS

It's so cool having to celebrate Christmas ... A season for giving n sharing. This year Christmas is special because I spent my time with my new friends whom I have met this year, giving and receiving presents from them. Yesterday, I went out with my sister, Cynthia to town where I went shopping for Christmas gifts. Bought presents for Melissa and family, my best n twin 'sister' . Besides that, I also bought a present for Chun Fong n Yong Shen as well as a present for my secondary gathering. After walking round n round shopping.. finally I get everything. Feels so great to buy so many gifts but if only I have more cash.. it will be even better. Lol... dream on! Reach home around 6.30 n shortly, my brother's friends came to party.. ate dinner. In between, I spend my time wrapping gifts... so fun! At around 9.15, I went to town again to change a present cos i bought wrongly... after that walk from heeren to paradiZe to meet my friend.. wow, really like traffic jam. I walk for quite sometime before finding that shopping centre which i nv heard before. Den after their game of pool.. we were off to heeren again. That's where we waited for the countdown.. every1 in town were crazy. There seems to be snow everywhere.. people's laughter ... When it is around 1.10am, i needa go home already as I afraid I could not get the last bus.. so I walk alone to the bus stop. On my way there, I was being sprayed twice all over my hair! haha.. well, since it is Christmas... of cos I just smile n try to walk as fast as I could.
I didn't magange to catch the last bus 14 n 123 or I took 111.. n walk a distance home. When I reached home, i chatted with my brother's fren who is my senior in secondary till they let ard 4 plus den off to bed.

Today is the real Christmas Day! I spent my afternoon in melissa's house for lunch. Yupz, we exchanged gifts n watch Cinderalla Story halfway.. den i went tuition. I was so sleepy thrughout.. n fell asleep many times.. think the teacher saw it but she just never say anything. N it was dman hot ar.. in the room without air con cos it is down. I was perspiring...

Presents:
Towel from my tennis coach
An anklet n an very interesting box from Yong Shen
Beautiful earrings from Michelle galfriend
A cd ( The Album) from Shili
A tennis skirt, bear, sock, message in a bottle from Melissa!
A nice handmade greetings from Valerie
Touching handmade cd greeting from Rachel
A card from yan qin
Wanna thank them for giving such a memorable Christmas 2004...

@deine=> wish that every1 had a wonderful Christmas

The worst movie ever

Finally we get new tennis net in our school court. I enjoy tennis training today :P perhaps was in a good mood ba. At 11.28am, my mum called mi asking where m i n told me that my family is going for a movie at 1.15pm which means that I have to rush home.. so took a bus for 45 minutes n reach home at ard 12.15pm. I was like a person rushing for my last train... took a quite bath n out I m in the car with my parents n elder brother without my twin sisters. Went for lunch n head to great world city to watch OCEAN TWELVE. Oh my gosh.. thought it would be something exciting... in the end... i watch till i sleep n wake up every 15 minutes. Spending an hour in the cinema, my elderly brother ask , 'Hey wanna go out anot? I dun understand the show.' I was like ' Hey thanks for asking me to watch this show la' I would be grateful to you if it was night time when I couldn't sleep . All four of us endure for another hour n it still haven finished plus totally dun understand what the show is all about! First time in my life, I walked out in the middle of the show. Besides, spending time sitting in the cinema trying to figure out what m i doing here? If anyone is reading this... please dun watch ocean twelve unless u can't fall asleep. After movie, I went home n asked my sister, cindy to go out again. So we went to Tiong Baru to buy some Christmas gifts n here she is tempting mi to eat ice-cream! haha.. well, i just love ice-cream so i ate it lor. Zi Hong, if u r reading this.. hmm i think i know what u r thinking. but just wanna tell u that i'm not haha. Walking ard Tiong Baru, we couldn't get what we want so we go to Great World City again ya.. saw so many nice stuff but i lack of cash!! This is the worst thing that could be happening.. when u see some thing that u like it so badly but u just can't afford it! For a moment i wish i won a prize with lots of cash... haha. STOP DREAMING! Just now spend my time writing n wrapping presents n came online till now... so that's all for the day. Tml is another cip day n hope to do some studying.. seriously pray that i do so...

@deine ==> dun wanna study!!!

Salvation Army!

17-12-2004

Tennis training in the morning n went to do cip again... but today i did something different. The Salvation Army :P It is much much easier than Youth Challenge. All Michelle and I need to do is to ring the bell. Initally, both of us ring the bell but Michelle one was working well n think that if we were to rinf for 6 hours.. our hands will be tired. So we took turns - 15 minutes interval.. may be short but when we are doing it, it's LONG! haha.. time passes so slowly for the 1st 3 hours but was alright the last 3 hours. Our legs hurt! so painful.. n tiring... but it's alright la. Saw many many cute little kids haha.. i remember there is this little boy around 3 years old... he keep bugging his mother to let him donate. haha... when he succeed, all i saw is a big smile. So innocence... kids are so cute n ingorance. They have no worries at all.. if only we can always remain as little children but that is impossible. After doing cip from 12 to 6 , i headed home to rest. At 9pm, i went out again to meet my secondary school friends for a late night movie. Was quite shock when my mum actually allows mi to haha... anyway, i meet them n we played pool before going for National Tressure at orchard cathy. I was quite tired after a whole day so... i fell asleep during the movie. haha... pig rite? but, i really cannot make it anymore... only to woke uo when my friend woke me up. Lol.. never in my life i slept so long in the cinema. After the movei, yuan xun , elmo n me share a cab home.. n here i m again heading to my bed ... zzzzzz

@deline => wishing for a longer holiday

A busy week

Dear diary,

I have been quite busy for this whole week.

13-12-2004
As usual, i went for my tennis traning till around 11am. I was on form that day hehe , managed to play quite well with Cheryl. Hope I will improve further... At 2 plus , i went ot Valerie's mum house to help out for the bbq in the evening, Halfway, I left to play another round of tennis with my teacher. Had our bbq at 5p.m , feel elated to meet my australia group mates again. This time round. we were not the strangers we used to be but good frens. Late at night, we went to Valerie's house, bathe n watched a movie - Honey. But I was to tired to watch so at 2.30am, i went home to zzz... quite scary to walk home alone at night though haha but it was quite funny. Coz, i fake all my way through.. pretending to be on the phone lol. By the way, wanna thanks zi hong for all his effort to make that wonderful video n the effort to burn cd for us.

14-12-2004

Had onli 4 hours of sleep.. n soon I'm in an angel costume at Raffles Place for fund raising. Haha, feels like a little girl. It was awkard initally when everyone is staring at you smiling n pointing. However, after a while it was alright. Hmm.. not as bad as i thot it was suppose to be. Walking the ballet shoes on the street is so painful... ouch. Melissa and I met Michelle n Cheryl at taka. We ate lunch in Delifrance... yummy. Then , took neo-prints together.. it was nice :P the second machine.. we have so many extra pictures that we dunno how to give each one equally. As I was rather tired, I kinda of wanna rush home to get some sleep as I have tuition at night. Feel quite bad be'cos we could have shop more. Lastly, had chemistry tuition at 7.30 n was late cos i overslept. Time pass very quickly during tuition that we only managed to complete 2 n a half question hee...


15-12-2004

As tired as i were, I still have to drag myself to the video editing course which begin at 9am. It is a tiring course. Perhaps, i were not interested ba as I slept almost half the lesson that my fren had to wake me up... haha. Had lunch with my friends at the nearby hawker center... den took bus home with lawrence. Once i reached home, had a heachache which hurts like hell... so the best thing to do is SLEEP. like a pig huh? but these few days really lack of sleep.. cannot take it already. At 6.30pm, mummy called home n ask my brother n mi to go down to raffles place.. so we took a cab down n realise she said wrongly. It was supposed to be a Raffles City. My fussy brother insist to take a cab though it's like one stop mrt onli... so I had to give way n waited for like 15 minutes n he walked away to the mrt station. Guys r that troublesome! My parents went shopping with their frens... n mum told mi she is going to buy a watch for me. heez, i were feeling quite excited till i saw the price, I went stunned! $180 dollars omg... but she bought it cos she says it's nice n can change the strap of the watch too woith 3 other colours. Love ya mummy n daddy! I also bought a white jacket. Guess today i spent quite alot on my parents... think they r in a good mood lor. Ate dinner at Raffles City food court - Chicken Katsu Curry Rice. hmm... make mi remind of the curry rice i ate in Australia in Perth City.
Tomorrow , I will be going to the library to do cip with my girlfren haha Michelle For 5 hours.. hope it goes well n pray hard that I dun feel dizzy with books around mi.

@deline --> feeling better , hoping to turn in soon :P

Fund Raising

Dear diary,

06-12-2004
I went for tennis training in the morning.. think my tennis is still the same. Hmm, what is more meaningful i did that day was a fund raising. This is introduced by one of my tennis mate- mIchelle. I went to China Court to help raisie fund on behalf of Youth Challenge. Actually it helps build up my confidence level when i have to approach strangers on the street trying to persuade them to contribute to these elderly living in redhill estates - one room flat houses. They actually live in a poor conditions where some dun even have a bed to sleep on. What I have learn from this experience is that not all wealthy people are as generous as we thought they are suppose to be. I appreciate those ordinary people whom i met on the street n i m inspire to be like them to be a kind hearted soul. I understand that the candle is expensive but is really really for a good cause... i just wish i could buy all but i'm still a student. There's nothing much i could be but at least i give all my energy to do the best i could.

a caption taken at king's park 

meli n me  

nice waterfall at orchard glory 

lunch - kebah 

scenery at KING'S PARK 

Group 3 ourside freemantle night market 

GROUP 3 after fish n chips 

ANNA N GALS 

CELT - part of uwa 

ROTTEST ISLAND 

04S23 - touring around UWA 

Currie hall 

My journey in AUSTRALIA

Finally, i'm able to blog an entry here. It's been long since i write an entry cos i went to australia from 23-11 to 5-12 which is last sunday. I really enjoy myself very much over there, n i'm glad that I had no choice but to go to Australia instead of backing out. It's worth the money goin to a whole new environment to learn more new things as well as touring around the area. Everyday is so meaningful n i realise that the pace there is slow and relaxing unlike Singapore where we have a hectic lifestyle. The teachers are are very friendly and young, lessons are interesting.


24-11-2004

MATILDA BAY
Had our mroning job to matilda bay at around 7a.m. The weather is quite chilling and is really an experience cos I haven had a chance to exercise with such a cold weather. And it feels so good! It's really a great thing to start of a wonderful day. My second day in Australia!

COTTLESLOE BEACH
Cottlesloe beach is a beautiful beach with sand that are so fine that when u stand on it, u feel like u're sinking down. Having a fastastic night scenery and it's very windy. If you are looking for a place to relax, it is definitely a great place.


25-11-2004

DEBATE
We had a debate between the guys n gals ' Men are more intelligent than women'. Haha.. of cos as smart women of today, we have proven that 'Women are equally or more intelligent than men'. Is's quite funny during our debate cos we have to be a little thick skin n prove to the guys how good we are but sad to say, these are the facts. hehe.. no offence :P

SHOPPING
This shopping mall which I never take down the name of it, is a nice place to buy stuffs during Christmas season every Thursday at night time. As you know, shops in Australia closes very early unlike Singapore, they closes at 5. yupz, during our shopping in the shoppin gmall, mi n melissa actually lose our way back to the meeting point. By the time we reach there, i were sweating like one kind haha. It was quite tiring to run with bags of stuff with us. So the moral of this is that the mall is damn big!


26-11-2004

RESEARCH
Early morning, I played crab soccer and soccer with people who are mostly from my group. Went to class as usual at 9, here I m meeting Anna. She's a very nice lady who can read our minds. As most of us were quite tired, she sparkles our day with a game which is excitig and yet stressful. Haha, my group ( Mao, Val, Meli, Rachel n Mi) lose by a point. But it's alright, we had given our best. The whole afternoon, my group spent our time in the main library which is very very big - 3 story with lots of lots of books. We're here to do our researh for our essay n I have a good tip for people out there who are lazy to copy their notes from the books. U can actually use ur camera to take the pages u like and go back and write r notes. Yupz, that's what a few of us did.

FREEMANTLE
During the evening, we set off to FREEMANTLE which is a night market. In fact, we had our dinner at one of the famous FISH N CHIPS ( cicerellos) . The servings there is big that even though melissa n I share , we couldn't even finished it. After diner, we walk around the area and took some group pictures. It was there that I almost injured Valerie . Sorry Val, :p The night market is not very big but I bought some stuff there for my friends and family. The things there are quite cheap as well. So, if any1 wans to go perth, this place u just can't miss it!

27-11-2004

It's the weekend n we were off to Orchard Glory - it's a farm with beautiful cottages and scenery. On our way there, we stop at a few area as follows :

KING'S PARK
It is here where I need to thank the agency for allowing us to get to know more about the native Australian- The Aboriginees. We actually get to see the tools that they use in the past to create entertainment for themselves as well how they go about hunting. Furthermore, they show as some of their dance steps which is very different from what we do nowadays. A few guys from my group learn to dance from them.. and I an see that they are potential dancers heez. So cute, when u see they hop around :)

CAVERSNAM WILDLIFE PARK
This wildlife park had allows me to have a closer look at some of the popluar animals in Australia- the Kolar Bear , Kangeroos as well as Wombat ( i dunno how to spell). I get to feed the kangeroos n the emi. hehe, it's ot as scary as i thought it was. At the wildlife park, i also mangaed to see the process of shaving a sheep fur n get to carry those cute little puppies.

ORCHARD GLORY
Finally, we have reached our destination and the view is really stunning! I'm amazed by what I have saw here. It's like a fairyland with nice waterfalls and cottages. It's here that I get to know more about my group members as we played lots of games - polar bear, blindman folds and many more. It's the first time I played polar bear n I survive by being a alive polar bear. haha... cool huh . I din expect it to happen as well, perhaps luck is on my side. We had bbq for dinner - hmm, there's beef, chicken wings, potatoes salad, saguages n not forgetting orange juice since it is an orange orchard. We girls, squash lots of orange to make orange juice. it's damn tiring but it's really fun cos we had no machines to help us.. so all we have is our hands. Anyway, the oranges there are sweet n tasty! At night, an astromoner taught us how to identify the different stars above. By the way, this is a fact- stars do not twinkle. Yupz, it's interesting to see the types of zodiac in the sky as well as some other names which i can't remember. After which, we continue to play games till 3a.m. n a few of us including mi went for a night walk. In the end i think left valerie and one or two other who stay up to wait for the sunrise. As a pig, I m off to sleep so as to have a better day tomorrow.

28-11-2004

WINERY
Early morning, we ate a filling breakfast n went to vist the winery, The person in charge told us more about the process of making a wine - fermentation tt's chemistry. hmm... but we didn't get a chance to drink it! So unfair, the guys get to drink. That's where our stay at ORCHARD GLORY ended.

COMOS CENTRE
We headed back to CURRIE HALL n drop by at comos centre where we get to view the other planets n the sun around the universes. It's very interesting to find out how big how universe is where there are uncountable glaxies around us.

STRAWBERRY FIELD
It's a pity we can't pick the strawberries and eat cos they spread some stuff on it today. However, I get to bought a strawberry wine back n some chocolate. I learnt that the redder the strawberries, the sweeter it is.

WILDLIFE
The last stop is at this wildlife which i dunno the name. I fed the ducks and birds here.. it's a short trip but memorable.

29-11-2004

ANTOMY and HUMAN BIOLOGY
Early morning, we went to Antomy and Human Biology which has increased my insight on Forsenic Palynology. Plants could also help solve a crime by seeing th pollen grains or spores in a plant...Over there, i also get to learn how to determine the number of days a person had died through maggots.

POLICE ACADEMY
In the afternoon, we arrive at the police academy. It's one of the best police academy here with new facilities. There's a 'manmade' village there where police recruits are being trained so as to prepare them for different situations faced in future. This village includes a bank, apartment, guardian , fastfood restaurant.... Seen a crash car where one of their colleages died on duty. It's quite heart-breaking.

30-11-2004
ROTTEST ISLAND
We spent 2 hours touring around rottest island n there are lots of surprises for mi as i get to see many many beautiful beaches so blue n green , vast n wide. Besides, Rottest Island used to be a prison for the Aboriginees in the past. And I was told more about their conditions in the prison - harsh n brutal methods were used to enforce discipline. The prisoners were treated very badly...I shall stop cos it is so saddening.

01-12-2004
Today , we did our normal routine by attending lessons n during evening we attend a lecture by a famous professor in USA. erm.. i dun really understand what he is talking. I dun deny that i fall asleep during the talk but i just can't figure out what's going on so ya.. it's better to be in a dream land. haha... opps. Had a sercret between our group n my teacher.. just wanna say that thanks for what u have decide that day. We love u!

02-12-2004

FRANCIS BURT LAW , FREEMANTLE PRISON N a EDUCATIONAL CENTRE
Hmm... i didn't quite like today cos i hate prison. ya.. but still i have to go despite what i hate about it but i shall not talk about it. Hmm.. one memorable thing i remember is the trial on a ex convict - Moodyne Joe who escapes many times from the prison. My whole group had a act on this trial n it's very funny. Lerroy sings n there are many funny stuff which happen that ends up people laughing away... Besides, we also went to the actaul court where trial are seen going on. Everyone has to keep silence throughout the whole trial. yupz, i can see some serious faces in there n an feel the tense atmosphere over there.

03-12-2004

FAREWELL PARTY
After so many days of doing our essay, our group n Mr Carl Ng who went through so many sleepless night, we finally hand up our final product. To celebrate, we had a farewell party. We gave presents to Anna who had been with us these days teaching us alot of stuff. Though she stay for a while. My group is so sweet, We send her off n rush to stand rows at the carpark... wishing her well n goodbye. Anna, you rock! At night, we did our reflection which is a sad thing but it's also very touching. It's here I realise how much I feel for everyone who comes into my life. Almost everyone share what went through the days spent in Australia. A useless person like mi was the first to cry when i read my thoughts n feelings. I still remember saying this ' Everyday seems like a series of dramas entering into my life' The days in Australia are really exciting, meaningful n most of all i have made lots of friendship bonds. I hear the many voices of graditude to people who are important to them n making this trip impossible. Most importantly, the one who will always stands out in our heart is our dear Mr Carl Ng who is every helpful n fun loving. He teaches n plays with us everyday, just like a big brother. Without him, our group would not be as united as we can right now. After our reflection, we did a sweet thing for him by singing ' LIKE A ROSE' by A1 to him. Most of us went to hug him... n many of us had tears in our eyes. Mr Ng, thanks for all the wonderful things you have done for us n I will always remember this trip. Now you are still in Australia, hope you enjoy urself! After all these sad events, it's time to PARTY! haha.. we did mass dance all the way till we are really shag n started to play games again. As alot of us are damn tired, we decided to stop n 6 of us went for a night walk at MATILDA BAY - the place where i've been to on my second day. The sky is filled with many stars.. a starry starry night. That night, when we reached back at currie hall, i couldn't fall asleep so went to chat with my teacher for almost an hour den off to sleep at 5am.

04-12-2004
SURPRISE
Early morning, we had a surprise activity which is a test on essay one that is the same as our promos paper. As much as i hated this, i still strive through but i know that i wun be any better.

PERTH CITY
The day that I have been waiting for has arrived! That's shopping for at least 5 hours! Before shopping, I went to the ART GALLERY n saw a sculpture which looks like real . Besides, there are also some interesting paintings which interest mi... Then , meli, mr ng, bryan , yan chin , soo eng n I went shopping around perth city.. we walk street after street . haha, can't believe i actually had this opportunity to do this just like movies. I bought a shirt, jean, coffee, nougats, chocolates... n ate ice cream! yummy yummy! I had one of the best meal in Austrlia - curry beef rice.

KING'S PARK
Here we are again visiting the King's Park. Saw the astonishing night view of Perth Den we did a dance n i think peopl earound there should be wondering if we are a bunch of mad people cos it's cold out there n i dun think they can even hear the music cos it's very soft...ya, at 10.20, it's time to depart n head to the airport. That's when we are departed from Mr Ng who is still staying in Perth for a week. As much as we want him to go to the airport with us, he couldn't.

AIRPORT
Bringing along those heavy lauguages, time really flies. Singapore our homeland.... When our bags are being checked, mine was being hold on n i were quite scare that time. Actaully i had 2 tools in my bag which is used to make earrings so i had to gif it to the officer there. When we checked in, i feel like being cheated cos the foods that i bought are more expensive but it's alright la. Bought a pair of ripcurl slipper there... i like it!

05-12-2004
At 12.30, we board the plane. After 5 hours, we reached Singapore... saw our loves one waiting for us... great to see all the happy faces that we have bring back to Singapore!
HOME SWEET HOME...

1 more day

It's been a few days since i blog my last entry. Well, there isn't much happenings these few days. On friday, I finally had my tennis training and it din really went well. Perhaps the day before i slept at 4 plus ba.. hee, don't know why i just can't get to sleep so i spend like almost an hr and a half packing my 2 untidy drawers but i found some treasure. I learn how to do slice serve on friday and looks like i really needa buck up. Tomorrow, I have another training too but i will only be joining them for like half an hour cos got economics tutorial! argh... can't even play for a good 2 hours of tennis before i leave singapore. No excitement towards the trip to australia maybe i think that go there is mostly for banging hard into gp which i don't really have much interest in it. Hopefully once i m there, it will help chance my point of view. Wanna thank melvin for lending his laptop over to australia... i will take very good care of it :)

@deline => feeling tired. (wishing her time could stop at this moment. moment of freedom)

Being 17th

Dear diary,

finally, i m turning 17 today... what's life like being 17? Went for lessons this morning... hmm. din really listen once again n den mi n meli went for uwa meeting. Nowadays been spending lots of cash.. i m running out of cash!!! can anyone donate to mi? hmm.. dream on adeline. Wanna thanks melissa n chun fong for accompanying mi to swesden n chun fong for treating mi. Feel so touched by melissa... she gave mi another present n a really really very nice birthday card created by herself. What can i say... this close 'sister' of mine has been thru with mi for 11 months plus le. Thru the good n bad times, we have been for each other so many uncounted waves n rainbow. hoping our relationship will last ever.... this holidays is getting busier. though i been trying to escape. Someday, i will still have to face it! How i wish i have a longer holidays...

@deline=dreaming

end of party 

early 17th b'day cake 

Thank you girls

Dear diary,

A wonderful n fruitful day i have spent with my great 04s23 classmates. I celebrated my 17th birthday yesterday though it was 2 days early but it was still nice. We had hotplate for dinner.. wanna apologise to melissa for keep making fun of her... sorry! After that, we went to queensway as we wanted to make our class jersey.. we spotted a FBT jersey All of us liked it n we intend to make two class t-shirt.. white n black! As we walked, i realise i had forgot to take my birthday cake which was suppose to be taken by 9 so i rushed over. Luckly the uncle waited for mi before he closed shop... Thanks uncle n ur cake taste real nice! Hey gals, i like ur presnt ( a skirt) very much.. gonna wear it someday when i go out with u guys ok? My dear pw group... what a surprise after u guys left huh. I'm sort of lost when i saw the presents u guys gave mi... all my favourites - a pair of star earrings, a necklace with a dolpin penant, famous amos n birthday cards! Melissa,Cheryl n Michelle that was the most meaningful birthday i have received. Thank you sooo much.. read till i m touched. I've never in my life receive so much present in a day.. all b'cos of u guys , i have broken my record! Hope u guys enjoy as much as i do.. goodnite.

@deine- day dreaming..

Feeling bloated!

Dear diary,

6.30a.m., my day begins. As tired as i was, i must still go to school for come chemistry and mathematics. Mum n dad dropped mi at the bus stop in front of NUS. waited for around 15 minutes.. finally 198 came. I knew I was already running late... only at 7.35 i got up the bus. It was imposible to get to JJ by 8. Once i get down the bus... walk at quite a fast pace with Michelle's huge present in my hands... Spend 2 hrs in the lecture but nothing went in... Next was math lecture, it was even worst. I was not even listening. Sorry mdam lim but just wasn't in the mood to absorb anything. In the end, still i'm the one losing out rite? hai~ what the hell is complex number all about? Hmm... it's all for me to find out during this holidays. This holiday sucks like hell. No free time for me this november... the trip for UWA was damn stupid. Make a wrong choice from the beginning.. it's all about work n work n work with little time for shopping n fun i suppose. Reach home at 1+, it was raining heavily so had dad to fetch me home from the mrt station. Slepe for like half an hour n my family is all ready to set off to Chinatown Square for tim sum... that was my only meal plus a few snacks (Rotiboy- yummy!) for today. haha... cos i ate quite alot n dun feel like eating for dinner anymore. when i reach home, my childhood fren with my mum's frens came over.. n we watch a show about a dog. A story about a guide dog ... having to have 3 parting from his close people. A sorrow but meaning show. Now.. it's time for Singapore Idol results.. bye diary... Goodnite!

@deline - shag

More n more fun n excitement!

Dear diary,

8.30 a.m. , my eyes suddenly open after a long n sound sleep. have a urge to watch a movie. went into dad's room n took out love actually ( borrowed from michelle). although i dun really understand the show cos it is quite confusing.. but i liked the last part where the boy ran to say goodbye to his love one.. btw. talking abt show, yesterday watch 50 first dates at meli's hse. It really touched my heart.. can see what a guy could do if he really really loves you. so sweet heehee. back to today... played tennis with mum at around 11.20? n i haven even played for an hour n it rains!!! haven been touching my racket for almost 2 weeks? well, next monday there's a combined training. hope don't have physical training cos it's very boring n i hate it! slept for half an hour... eat my lunch n off to jurong complex. meet meli n chun fong there with jj badminton team.. quite extra but nvm. badminton is quite different from tennis.. it uses lots of waist n more strength i suppose. was tired after that but still feeling alright. had a date with melissa to ikea so yupz shopping woke mi up. want to buy some gifts for my pw mates cos thet are such a great bunch of cool, fun, interesting, fabulous gals. so after walking around.. i finally bought 3 beautiful glass bottles.. hope they liked it. gonna do some things to it tonight! den went to put my bag in my hse.. on the way, we pass by haagen daz. been wanting to work cos i nv worked b4. so melissa went to ask the manager who seems to know mi. perhaps everyday i pass by there so he knows me ba.. but i will consider working anot cos u know next yr jc 2 le.. sob sob. despite wanting so much to work but i still have other factors to think through - sch work, project from uwa , tennis training, shopping, date with vanessa... full house. hai~ life is tt hectic ar.. cannot believe that i'm living through this type of life. may be good may be bad.. godd cos i'll nv be afraid of nothing to do .. bad cos i'll nv get to do sleep n do what i want. Nvm... accompany cf n his teammate to change the badminton grip den went to eat my fav swedish meatballs! haha.. damn full while eating me n melissa started racking our brains for michelle's present. n ah ha..we got something in mind but it's a secret cos michelle might be reading this b4 we gave to her. so michelle if u are reading this.. be prepared to get a big surprise this friday... gf, think u will be either laughing or crying help haha...but it's the thought that counts right? oh.. n i saw my secondary school classmates in ikea haha... btw, tml will be meeting my sec 3 n 4 class. quite excited! tt's for today! tml will be meeting melissa n cheryl too...

@deine = relax.. excited

One off

wanted to blog yesterday night but my computer was sort of down. yesterday, my chinese a level was over . hmm.. dun think i can make it la but it's over leh anyway. after that we had trial run for oral presentation n we did make some changes to make it better haha.. was quite nervous though it is not the actual one. pray hard that i will do better than that on the actual day... michelle, cheryl n mi went to jp after op while melissa went to see her bf. our intention was to buy dividers n there i met rowena n her classmates who are all in the dance. haha they skip dance! lol, lucky i quit dance once i went to try out once.. nv regret my decision cos i love what i m doing now that is to play tennis.. it's really a fun cca n i get to know lots of friends. we walk around jp.. n i suddenly crave for ice cream n so we end up settling down at Anderson Ice cream.. omg.. it's taste so yummy! of cos.. nice foods will cotirbute to more fats ya? lol. meet some schoolmates well, can't avoid it cos jp is the nearest mall down that area. as we walk ... we went into the wallet shop n a pencil case caught her eyes. we spent some time deciding what to buy... n when we r done, we approach the salesgirl n she told us they dun have 4 of them. was sort of disappinted at 1st but thanks to michelle who ask if they are still coming more stocks. n yupz, our pw grp is going to buy that same pencil case.. sounds cool cos on the pencil case it printed 'Girls Rock'. yea, indeed i find my pw grp rock.. u guys really rock my world upside down haha.. may our friendship last 4ever like a never ending road.... once i got home, i slept like a pig! no tennis for this whole week.. hmm, wonder isn't gd or bad? anyway, i needa go n memorise my speech le.. wish mi all the best!

What a unfair world!

Continuation of yesterday... while watching my fav serial. i've been overwhelmed by emotions... yesterday episode protray a family makes up of a loving couple who are both in the police force, they have a daughter n a baby boy. The whole family were suppose to celebrate their dad birthday but he din came home tt night. He went to look for his enemy ... n they fought . ther serial shows how the triad chief using an axe to injured him.. it was horrible, his finger was cut off. den the triad chief place him in the police office car.. n push it in to the sea. Soon, the police found the car but there is nobody in it. A mystery yet to be solve. The police found a necklace which was meant to be given to his wife as promise on his b'day. Throughout the investigation, she was a very strong woman . But this night, she woke up n the middle of the night, wanting to pour a glass of water instead she broke the glass n pricked her fingers while clearing it. At that moment, i can see her sorrow.. she says ' husband, where are you? i miss you so much. when are you coming back to us.. please please come back..' tears came rolling down my cheeks too.. so touching, the love for her husband is beyond description... what a sad story.. till now, no one knows whether her husband is alive anot thought the possiblity of him surviving is just 10% as he has lost a lot of blood... looking forward to see tonight episode. now, i m in melissa hse tying these.. suppose to do pw now but guess we slack 1st den continue later haha... wat a lousy group leader right .. lol. Hey gals.. 4 more days to pw.. so we must jia you ok? hee, but u guys are doing much better than mi.. i have a soft voice . sob sob.. for a moment, i wish i have a loud voice n have confident in myself to face my audience. ok.. now i'm going to join them in a movie, 'Pearl in the eyes' i suppose haha.. goodbye! tata

adeline => wishing everything is just a dream

WhAt can i do?

TWO more days to chinese a level n FOUR more days to my oral presentation.. sob sob. this is my first time doing speech, so terribly afraid that i will stammer n forget what to say. so worried that i wun be able to answer their questions ... will tend to pause to think. another battle to fight is my chinese a level, it's as if i m going to a battlefield knowing what will be the outcome.. worst of all with no strategy. Now that i'm in jc, i feel that this jc of mine has place very little emphasis on chinese.. in the past, my teachers have done so much to prepare us for our o levels. Here, i have nothing but myself... almost no advice to go through this battle. I'm so lost... like a child looking for her parents... like a girl drowning, waiting for a buoy. Phew... just got a shocking call from a gal friend's guy. told him a lie to save my friend.. hope he din realise it cos i'm a bad liar. Wanna wish Vanessa a Happy Belated Birthday ( 01-11-1987). I still remember our deal.. trying hard to fork out some time for u.. dun worry gal! Continue my blog another time cos i m going to watch my fav show again.. hope it helps to relief my stress.. may god bless mi..

GrEaT tImE

1st day of my holidays n i think i did enjoy it. This morning went to mac with mei xuan n michelle.. ate hotcakes. yummy yummy! step into ikea b'cos michelle wanted to buy a cookie jar for her fren b'day.. gf, i also want! ( joking, later i fat ar) never knew that ikea is such a beautiful place though i stay here for 7 years already.. saw some really eye- catching stuff, making miwanting to have a house right now so that i can decorate it. As i always love the beach... i always wanted to have a house when i open my door, i will be able to see a pic of a dolpin as if like it is jumping. den my hse will be of sky blue or te type of greenish blue just like the clear sea water... my living room will a ship or the beach with sand as my flooring. my room shall be decorated as if i live under the sea.. having water bed. maybe hav a rainbow somewhere in my hse too ... haha just an imagination. it's already 2.20am... a little tired . this evening i spent my time at cheryl's house to watch vcd ' The Excorist' . not a very nice show .. n not scary too.. alomst fell asleep. Saw cheryl playing her organ just now.. make mi so admire of people who knows how to play instrument... hmmp. Must really go n learn something after my a level. mostly is guitar ba, if possible i would like to try the piano.. it's so classy. can't imgaine myself playing instrument , must be very funny haha... tml there's no tennis training. heard that next week also dun have.. hai~ no wonder jj tennis so slack. nvm, shall ask mummy to play with mi, hope she dun mind playing with a lousy player like mi :P Love tennis more and more le.. think it's gonna be , part of my life soon. Playing sport is so fun and exciting... nv regret joining this cca. well, i'm going to sleep le.. goodnites !

@deine=> piggy

GaLs NiGhT oUt

Yoz! Beside mi now is mei xuan and melissa .. in my hse now are cheryl who is sleeping soundly haha dream sweets wor bf.. Just now they ate dinner n we went to send jon to the bus stop...After which go get badminton racket which belongs to melissa. she went to restring it! wath some tv.. crack some jokes n chiong pw.. now we are slacking. Get back my results yesterday.. thot i did quite well. was elated abt it. get A for math n C for econ though ti fail my Gp by 0.5 but pass my chinese for the 1st time! hmm.. wonder if we will be slping today anot cos dun think got enough bed to share. Tml can eat macdonald breakfast le. Despite it is the last day of school.. it' s the first time i'm not excited at all cos so mayn things to do = pw, a level chi though i'm not gonna study for it , a week of lessons, australia trip, class chalet... Wanna say sory to Vanessa cos i promise her to go out with her but think have to push back... feeling tired le. end now...

adeline=> brain dead

Yoz!!! just put down two phone calls which lasted for at least 2 and a half hr.. yupz.. was toking to melissa n chun fong. haha.. today quite moody b'cos of uwa! argh.. have to go to australia le if not needa pay $1150 leh.. so expensive! the school cheat $$ one lor.. say what needa pay for the air tickets cos booked le.. but when i tell my dad, he says not so early pay one. den he says maybe the teachers go there is free 1 if not it is impossible for us to pay so much.. hai~ WHATEVER... what's done is done.. how ask mi not to tink carefully.. nvm. go there n enjoy ba. i wanna go watch my tv le.. the time now is 1.25a.m. lol.. tml is a BIG BIG day b'cos it results day!. quite worried in fact but nothing can be done le. ok.. byebye

@deline=>lalalalala haha

1 after another

Phew.. today was an lucky day i suppose. had to hand up our written report by today n i nthe morning i almost had 'heart attack'. earyl in the morning, i realise that i had forgotten to remind michelle to bring the diskette as well as found out that we can't use normal file to hand up our report.. thanks god.. michelle bought her laptop n fortunately the printing shop has the binding service. Was rushing like a train .. running to the canteen to buy an empty diskette n den to the pe department to ask for a computer so that michelle can send the file thru msn but her laptop seems to be unable to connect to the net... thot we have to take taxi to her hse to get it le. thanks to wonderful pe teachers .. they help us solve the problem by an amazing thingy call thumb drive i think haha. Within like 30 minutes, we done everyting but later tt mdm lim came back to us saying we file the wrong cover page! den again.. chaos, like mad ppl going ard to ask if they have extra cover page.. once again, we manage to get it. Think today is also another sad day for my best buddy-melissa. she has been toking on the phone for i think at least 2 hrs on her handphone n skipping gp n econ though my pw grp all skip gp la. haha. didn't mean too but was too tired n lazy to attend opps. hope u r feeling better melissa.. well, some things u really have to let it go n STOP thinking abt others, certainly not in ur case.. wanna say sorry to mdm lim that after promos, i had not been really doing ur tutorial .. but u r ever that bubbly n nice to us. i'll try to do ok.. really. Continue our op after school .. must say that jjians r rich man! walk everyday also got laptop.. cool! haha.. m i jealous? hmm i guess so.. lol. I have decided not to go to the australia trip though i had paid $200 , thot it was kinda boring having to spent 10 days there. so rather dun go.. den also dun have extra work. Thot of wanting to get a job during this holidays so that i can pay back my dad the 200 bucks. hmm .. anyone got any job to intro? well, i will be my 1st job. shld be quite excited! Well done to my gal gang.. pw grp, manage to almost complete our op today.. i'm looking forward to the overnight thingy.. must be very grat having u guys over.. tml is another op day.. think needa prepare speech ba. i'm going to watch my tv le.. think i bathe after that haha stinks! lalala... tonight has quite a no to be done too.. hw!! chem , chi .. math :P

@deline=> no comment

Mood Swing

M i exhausted from the rushing train.. having to have this thought once i woke up early this morning. What have i done having to see my eyes so weary. Just another Saturday routine... going to tennis, rest, tuition , tv, computer n sleep. During tennis, we played mini tennis, had drill, rally n physical training.. it was fun though my team lost.. well, competition is not about winning ya? Realise that i m still unable to judge the ball... use the wrong stroke at times. After tennis, i suddenly feel so angry n frustrated .. i dunno what happen to me.. feel like running. think i got influence my melissa .. everytime when she is upset, stress, angry.. she run. Melissa! call for fun haha... u la, yesterday u so moody den u passed to me... lol..joking ar, dun take it seriously. i'm crazy today.. feel like shouting .. wanna go to the beach!!! i wanna see my stars.. my moon... hear my waves! GIVE ME PEACE ... if only i have many many bottles.. everyday i will write all my troubles n throw them away in the sea so that my problems will be washed away! Think i had a slight gastric just now.. actually thot i can skip my dinner.. but still i ate a portion of my dinner. My secondary school mates are having a gathering now at Sentosa.. n i can't even join them.. sob sob. cos i m a busy girl who can't manage her time n can't even take some time off for herself to rest!I miss my frens.. if only all of us can stay togather again. why good things always have to come to an end? tell me why.. why? I'm strengthless... thoughtless...life is meaningless...painful

FinAlly i gEt tO EnJoY LiFe

No pe..just slacking... Yesterday slept at 2 plus.. was a little frustrated cos too much things at hand. Pw, chem , math n chinese hw.. after exam le still got so many homework! Had tuition also.. so when i reach home it's like 10 already.. miss my fav show again. So yupz, i stayed up to watch it... thus sleep at 2. This morning was like so hazy... perhaps i was too tired . After school, i went to jp with melissa.. we walk there from school haha thinking it can burn tsome calories? lol, think in the end we eat more than what we burnt.. i ate prima deli - chocolate fudge slice.. yummy n we share delifrance. After that melissa went to meet her bf n i'm off to tennis. Wasn't having a good weather today as after playing for an hour onli.. den it started raining.. so our coach ask us to play badminton.. as in learning how to serve n smash the shutter. Gosh.. i did a rather bad job.. keep missing the shutter. played till 7 den headed home n ate some western food.. watch tv.. n here i m .. online! nothing much interesting today, now i'm chatting with 5 frens . This Saturday thot can go for bbq at my condo but seems like the venue has change to sentosa. well, meaning i can't join them den got tennis n tuition.. looking forward to my holidays so that i can meet my friends again. A level chinese and oral presentation are coming.. hope i can handle them well.. hopefully by then, i m more able to speak louder and slower in front of the examiners. nothing much le.. think wil be sleeping at 1a.m tonight ba.

@de|ine=> tired , feeling fine

LiFe SuCkS!

During the day, i was doing fine till just hours ago sitting at the art house.. listening to some " interesting debate" kinda boring! Got cheated! reach home only at 10 when they say 8 can leave le. Anyway, today perhaps i was in bad temper.. my bro din wanna fetch mi from the mrt today . well, it's ok.. just tt i was hungry n tired.. just feel like reaching home soon. while walking halfway home, bought mash potato but din even ate more than 2 spoon, i dropped my spoon onto the ground. Hell! Once i reach home, i went online.. n here came the storytelling. I'm sorry but was not in a good mood today. I might be harsh to him.. but all he told mi are small little things which i think it isn't that important. nvm.. it's over.. i do all i can n if it doesn't help i can't do anything too.. not that i dun wanna help u but i can't do anything more than u can .. hope u understand it..
Hmm wanna say Happy Birthday to a fren online.. hope u read this. Sorry that i forgot ur b'day but really hope u enjoy urself today.. ya. Will be getting results only by next wednesday .. not very excited abt it. Tml will be doig pw again.. hope we do things quick n smooth.. gonna wait till 1.25a.m. today to watch my fav serial again.. though tml got sch. can't help it.. it's my fav!nothing going to stop mi. gonna have panda eyes tml.. n will be doing my hw later while waiting ya... thanks melvin for ur concern :) ur a great fren...

@deine=> feeling hell

StORy dAy!

Yesterday was a busy day , woke up n head straight to school... for tennis! haha , we learn how to serve from 9 n had a competition with the guys. we won! all thanks to the other girls in my team, they r great! We then ran 1.6km... after that continue our tennis . Din played well yesterday.. was quite fed up. At night, i went for a birthday party, hmm a children party with alot of foods n i ate lots of mashmarrow.. so yummy :) At around 11 plus, i'm getting tired n went to rest in the car.. end up talking to a fren for an hr plus as well as smsing.. i fall asleep in the car n it was damn hot.. can't even sleep well, had to wake up n fan myself! This morning woke up at 11.30, din do anything much just watching tv. Hmm.. i read finished a book today . think i spent 3 hrs on it .. ya time pass so fast. Now i'm online, wonder if today was a bad day tt a few of my frens had troubles. Was loss of words when they lose control.. what can i do? Things cannot be controlled in life.. at times, we have to learn to face it n release it .. yes, it's tough.. but many times, we don't have a choice.. no one can create a perfect route for one self. we have to believe in fate n destiny too. Finally, the day has come in one more hr .. it wil be tml when start start all over again... results!!! argh.. hate it. Well, wait n accept it adeline!

@de|ine=> feeling fine

GrEaT dAy!

Suppose to do pw today but we end up doing like nothing haha....forget everything about it after promotional exams. However i think we had fun cos i had it. Anyway, after pw we went to causeway point to shop. But causewaypoint was sort of quite boring... n we end up taking neoprints. It's really great having all girls in a group cos we can just chat anything under the sun ( quite talkative ya? but no la, this is one way to de-stress!) After which, we went to the largest library to borrow some books.. i borrowed Danielle Steel's books... they are great! Though most are about love stories but they have very nice plot.. one of the nicest books i have read is The House of Hope Street.. read till i cry. So sad. I love to read books about how people survive through their saddest moment in life cos they are the ones whom we should applause for them... they r great people. just admired them. Finally slacking for so many days, i can get to do something tonight n the coming days tt is to read! haha.. ok enough of books.. now is back to shopping! Melissa, cheryl n I went to orchard just to eat n walk walk ... din shop in fact. I ate the tom yam seafood in Taka... din like it. We also went in to some sports shop, oh my gosh just love tennis more n more after seeing those nice outfit. this gives mi motivation to wanna learn how to play tennis better... talking abt tennis, tml will be playing with denis.. :) Once again we took one more neoprint n den headed home... Today , i feel elated! hope this feeling will goes on till my results are out! Cos i know once my results are out, i'll be crying again... ( cross my fingers)

@deine => free.. fabulous!

i'm lost

Finally i have finished my promos... have no comments to all my papers. just wish to pass them. All i do today is sleep n sleep... once i'm awake, i'm in front of the tv switching channel to channel. Ya, exams is over n i'm suppose to relax right? But i don't know why my mind still seems so heavy. been asking myself what m i thinking but to no avail. I played tennis with mummy today ( almost couldn't make it cos booked the wrong court, lucky the other court is empty). Think i have improved a bit as i'm able to rally with mum. but my serving still sucks.. buck up adeline! ya.. i'll try... Tml will be pw day, lost touch with pw for a long long time le. haha, tml shall be a ladies afternoon with snacks n laughter all around. hope my life tml will be better n brighter with my pw mates with me. i bet they will be going to the new wason at anchorpoint buying those tibits :P Right now, i'm listening to 93.3 , ling zhi (DJ) is telling story again. just love her session very much as sometimes, the stories that she is telling resembles my life journey.. some are so sad n it really brings back those memories ( bad n good) hmm.. looking forward to play tennis on friday again with my fren. Should i find a day to go library too?

@deine=> feeling lost ( going to my room soon to lie on my bed n allow my brains to start
rolling...)

A TiMe 2 Reflect

been quite happy everyday though it's kinda geting boring each day with my daily routine. wake up late everyday, watch tv, play computer, listen music n sleep.. if not go to anchorpoint and walk walk. yupz, that's my life right now. feel like studying econ but always din manage to do so till just 30 minutes ago. flip the tys to look at the 1st three months topics. Gosh found out that i din know quite a lot. hmm... quite alot of things happen these few days especially my friends ard mi. ya, but just wanna let them know that i do care alot about them, no matter what happen i just hope i'm able to be there with u guys ya. sometimes, it hurts to be apart but this always happen for a reason. don't worry about the future cos u nv knows what will be happening. just look forward to it n let time tells u the whole story... what's ur will always be urs . i'll pray for the best to happen .. but please do take care my friends.
Can anyone who is reading this b4 econ mcq paper, explain to me what's ppc all abt? been trying hard to figure it out.. but it is like an alien to mi... can't get anything out from it! hoping to find out more tonight.. thanks wilopo for telling mi a little about it.

Keep Slacking!

oh no... i've been slacking again! argh... die ar, exams haven over yet n here i am playing already. how? hmm... what can i do to get my motivation again? anyway, today i woke up like ard 10 plus den watch tv. After that, i spent almost an hour to get prepared to go to Plaza Singapura with melissa. hehe, to catch a movie, Wimbledon=> very nice. it's exciting haha just like watching a real tennis competition. wa, imagaine having to meet someone who has the same interest with you.. hmm, like that can spent more time together and have fun at the same time. haha.. ok i'm toking crap here ( dreaming) today, i ate ice cream twice .. while going home i went to buy chocolate fudge sundae den just now while accompany my dad, i manage to persuade him to treat mi n my twins sisters Haagen - Dazs. Yummy! lol.. think my fats are coming back sooner or later ya :P anyway, time to do some reflection le.. how should i spend my time these few days.. must meet up to jjc standard- self discipline, self motivation... can i ever make it? Doubt So!

@deine=> flustered

Worries in the cloud

Finally, exams is gonna be ove.r.. i'll survive to the day i get my results. Today had my chinese paper. Gosh, never had i sit down for 3 hours and 15 minutes for a paper. Hmm.. hope i can pass it , though i've been failing it. Miracles do happen rite? hehe.. dunno why today feel so happy. all my worries are up above. 2Day shall be a free day .. no studying.. only PLAY n PLAY n PLAY. YEsH! this is the life i wanted. however, only once in a blue moon otherwise will be sick of life. Come to think of it, although exams are stressful but looking at another point of view. it's quite a good way of dieting haha... manage to shed of 2kg :) but hope it wun come back anymore. Wanted to catch a movie.. but today just dun feel like going out. tml there's no skool till next tuesday. quite shiok ar.. but on sunday n monday, i'm booked. on sunday, i have to help my cousin as she is preparing for her o levels - chemistry and math. well, hope i can help her.. shall my best. on monday will have to coach my sister too on math.. at times, i just don't really understand how my sisters are able to take their exams so lightly. tml is their paper n here they are slping for already an hour?

@deinE=> getting bored

BrEaThE AgAiN

I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face today
Forget the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more
I'll breathe again~

had my math paper today, hmm.. think i will pass but hopefully i can pass well. my next obstacle will be my econ paper.. i have to pass it otherwise i will fail my overall :( Looks like tis promos is not any better than common test 2. Pray hard that i get promoted...

@deine => need more oxgyen...

IN NEED

GIVE ME A BREAK!!!
i'm so sick n tired of life!
Having to decide wanna go uwa anot... wondering gp can pass anot... thinking if i can study, understand n apply all my notes in promos anot... if i should sleep tonight.. whether i have spent my time usefully today...what should i do next... sleep? after promos can i play... or do pw... or study chinese... or die? if only everyone has nine lives n forget everything ... i will choose it.
every second i m thinking.. is it stress or is it i nothing better to do? think is i nuthing better to do ar.

Life is getting boring... i'm becoming not me each day...

@deinE=> sick...

what should i do

Standing at the crossroad
I am confronted by numerous obstacles
Somethings that I can't hide myself from
Trying to search hard for an answer
But to no avail
'Please help me'
I plead looking at my guardian star
Give me a cognitive enhancer
Allowing my brain to work like a rocket
Thousands of things for me to crack my cells
If only you were here right beside me
'Time' is the only resource I need

sometimes when one has so much to think of... she just hope the world will end soon. A bomb dropping onto her head will solve all troubles. Going to a faraway paradise where u n me don't even know. Hoping it is as nice as a storybook.. angels everywhere... a place full of comfortable and peace.

@deiNe => helpless...

sleepless nite

tml is my mock math paper... jus now tried practicing but found out that quite alot of things i still dunno. should i take it as an exam or practice tml? hmm... needa thank melissa for pulling me along to run for 4 rounds ya..hehe cos i eat alot today going to be like a pig already :P . This afternoon i was panicking cos i lose my production notes.. was so afraid tt i cannot find that during the revision for econ, i din even listen.. waste my time onli! hai~ luckily, a miracle happen. i found it! yupz, that's about it for today. i gtg to do more math to overcome my FEAR. Good luck to myself tml ya :) cross my fingers n a step towards my dreams...
@deiNe => stress

my world is like a spinning ball ... like a building that has just collapsed. so hard to pick it all up again, even impossible to...

BoRiNg!

YeSH! i finally got myself a tag-board hehe.. so proud of myself :P. Feel quite relax today... in the afternoon i met rowena to do some math.. but only manages to do 5 questions in 2hrs. Once again, i slept for 2 hrs when i got home :) hmm.. don't really feel like going to school tml anyway there isn't any impt lessons tml except econ lecture. Promos are just abt a week to go... stressful ar. JC LIFE = NO LIFE! ok.. i've nothing much to write le. goodnitez!
@dEInE quite awake... feeling happy

DrEaMs

quite a tiring day today though i slept for 2 hours inthe afternoon. just completing studying my monopoly... some parts still cannot understand y. i shall find it out soon. Tomorrow there' a chinese spelling, i have yet to study n planned to study it tml morning. As tired i am, yet i can't sleep when i'm lying on the bed. What does it imply? Deep inside of mi have so many fears... unspeakable thoughts n feelings. Suddenly just feel like going to the past~ to my secondary school days where i study hard n play hard. A journey i nv regret to enter... a place where i feel i'm living. Can i ever turn back time? how i wish there's such a technology which can stop time at my happiest moment. I dislike the life i m going through now though i have many frens around me. Does everyone encounter this at a stage of their life? well, just pray that i'll tide over this n move on to another part of my journey... Goodnitez!
@deiNe => sleepy. troubled. hope for the best!

thoughts...

standing in the middle of a deep blue ocean
hearing the sound of the waves, feel the breeze
walking down a quiet road with shinning stars
listening to the meaningful and soothing songs
wishing all these can last forever...

A math day!