31th May 2006
Dear diary,
Went for my driving lessons ytd n today. I met a female instructor ytd. She's damn good la n a very shuang huai person. Enjoy her lessons :) Also i think yesterday i was so lucky cos i did my parking once only n i got in! It's like after 3 months of playing, enjoying n seriously i forget how to drive. Right at the start i thot .. it's going to be a goner cos i forget my handbrake and want to start driving le. Phew... i'm blessed!
But today it is a nono .. n better not happen on my test day. During vertical parking, i'm suppose to turn one round den full lock but i forgot n turn full lock right at the start.. no wonder it was a mess - big one! Thank god, he's patient n help me recap. Finally i realise my mistake. I was feeling tired n not focus .. it nearly landed me up the kerb on the road. Need to read up.
Next week gonna sucks big time. Sure meet tt scary instructor at least once lor. Count me blissful if i'm able to change grp or not meet him for the 5 days!
After driving lesson today, went for grocceries shopping with my parents. Had a really early dinner, had fun with daddy. all the jokes n teasing.. feel like a small girl again :) Then went to clementi to get my photos. Nice! i wanna place them in a nice scrap book n shall decorate it. Reach home , just nice for Singapore idol. I think the last 3 not bad.. Jonathan is a gd potential - top 5 ya ( dick lee says so) Hope he gets in . Den 9pm , switch to scv channel 55.
My flu is getting worst in the night - wondering how m i going to get a sweet n nice slp?
@de|inegonnadreamofcarstoo
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Long lost found
28th May'2006
Dear diary,
My days are brighten up just by words. Caught up with my frens and i had a great and short time chatting with them. At the same time , I realise I might be losing my frens in a few more months physically. I gonna miss them so much esp u my girls.
Begin to wonder about my life in university... the university,the course I will be entering is one that never cross my mind. It was one of the most abrupt move i had taken without serious consideration. A new life is going to grow there- a new circle of frens, a new environment, a brand new kinda of stress after 7-8 months, a new home. Life is full of surprises, full of up and down, full of unknowns.
Things come and go.
I dream of you - heaven.
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Time is with me
Go with every breath of yours
Time is running out
Use it wisely or never
Time has flown
Recap your memories for you can
Time for future
Path your way for it counts
Seconds, minutes, hours passed
Learn not to regret for it's gone
confused by my thoughts... living out of space. I need a cabin.
@deineinamess
Dear diary,
My days are brighten up just by words. Caught up with my frens and i had a great and short time chatting with them. At the same time , I realise I might be losing my frens in a few more months physically. I gonna miss them so much esp u my girls.
Begin to wonder about my life in university... the university,the course I will be entering is one that never cross my mind. It was one of the most abrupt move i had taken without serious consideration. A new life is going to grow there- a new circle of frens, a new environment, a brand new kinda of stress after 7-8 months, a new home. Life is full of surprises, full of up and down, full of unknowns.
Things come and go.
I dream of you - heaven.
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Time is with me
Go with every breath of yours
Time is running out
Use it wisely or never
Time has flown
Recap your memories for you can
Time for future
Path your way for it counts
Seconds, minutes, hours passed
Learn not to regret for it's gone
confused by my thoughts... living out of space. I need a cabin.
@deineinamess
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Vanessa
26th May' 2006
Dear diary,
Yesterday was indeed a better day. I enjoyed all the classes i walked in to and did had a moment of fright during one of my classes. Words of humour, encouragement n unbearable were present. It wasn't that bad afterall to befriend your students. They tend to talk to you while you realised they are really some innocent bunch of kids. Sound like I'm so old.. well at least a few years older :)
Woke up as usual this monring but not to school instead I went to ying xian hse. Edlyn , yingxian and I were baking brownies, cookies and making konniyanu for the teachers in qwss. They are really very nice to us during these few months. Mr Chai and Mrs Toh esp.. help me out alot. Thanks!
Looking through my friendster. Went to vanessa profile n browse through. My closest friend during my sec 1 and 2, She's just someone whom I always remember despite us not having much contact after sec 2. Many things we done are really sweet memories. Can never forget them... Realise that i miss talking to her on the phone, going out for a movie every a major exams, went to her dad office and walk around suntec city. Simple things that we did when we were younger. Shall take the move and ask her out someday!
Booked the tickets for Da Vinci Code this evening for tml night. This show is in great demand! Meeting the girls .. finally ever since east coast park trip. Tml gonna be a crazy for us i hope as the GSS is here. Some good food as well for dinner n definitely photos.
Gonna treat someone who has always been nice to me soon. Should be quite a surprise for her ba, i hope. Be sure to check for my message!
@deine
Dear diary,
Yesterday was indeed a better day. I enjoyed all the classes i walked in to and did had a moment of fright during one of my classes. Words of humour, encouragement n unbearable were present. It wasn't that bad afterall to befriend your students. They tend to talk to you while you realised they are really some innocent bunch of kids. Sound like I'm so old.. well at least a few years older :)
Woke up as usual this monring but not to school instead I went to ying xian hse. Edlyn , yingxian and I were baking brownies, cookies and making konniyanu for the teachers in qwss. They are really very nice to us during these few months. Mr Chai and Mrs Toh esp.. help me out alot. Thanks!
Looking through my friendster. Went to vanessa profile n browse through. My closest friend during my sec 1 and 2, She's just someone whom I always remember despite us not having much contact after sec 2. Many things we done are really sweet memories. Can never forget them... Realise that i miss talking to her on the phone, going out for a movie every a major exams, went to her dad office and walk around suntec city. Simple things that we did when we were younger. Shall take the move and ask her out someday!
Booked the tickets for Da Vinci Code this evening for tml night. This show is in great demand! Meeting the girls .. finally ever since east coast park trip. Tml gonna be a crazy for us i hope as the GSS is here. Some good food as well for dinner n definitely photos.
Gonna treat someone who has always been nice to me soon. Should be quite a surprise for her ba, i hope. Be sure to check for my message!
@deine
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Bored!
24-05-2006
Dear diary,
I slept at 3plus while watching CSI NY . Kor woke me up to ask me to go to my bedroom. Thanks! Just after everyone left except kor .. my phone rang. It's my saviour! lol.. he save me from having a boring and slacking day at home :) But life in school not so nice like last week. Hmm luckily I was only a relief teacher. In the past, whenever relief teacher come to class... I would fall asleep cos it's the only rest time in school. Today I was in a sec 4 eng class n these 2 boys were sleeping when the P was walking past la. Haiz. from the start of the class, nobody really listens to me so it's pointless to say the same thing over and over again.Had to walk over and wake the boys up n say 'hey, can u wake up? the P is outside.' Feel so si bai!
Felt so bad for reading the instructions given wrongly. I'm supposed to divide the class into groupss of 4 n instead I divide them into 4 groups! Late nights are really nono... Apologise to the teacher.
Went to my sister class early in the morning n they were not in class. I had to wait outside for so long den back to staff room to check out with the other teachers n back to her class again.
Hopefully tml will be a better day:)
Working towards hong kong!
@deinesawyou
Dear diary,
I slept at 3plus while watching CSI NY . Kor woke me up to ask me to go to my bedroom. Thanks! Just after everyone left except kor .. my phone rang. It's my saviour! lol.. he save me from having a boring and slacking day at home :) But life in school not so nice like last week. Hmm luckily I was only a relief teacher. In the past, whenever relief teacher come to class... I would fall asleep cos it's the only rest time in school. Today I was in a sec 4 eng class n these 2 boys were sleeping when the P was walking past la. Haiz. from the start of the class, nobody really listens to me so it's pointless to say the same thing over and over again.Had to walk over and wake the boys up n say 'hey, can u wake up? the P is outside.' Feel so si bai!
Felt so bad for reading the instructions given wrongly. I'm supposed to divide the class into groupss of 4 n instead I divide them into 4 groups! Late nights are really nono... Apologise to the teacher.
Went to my sister class early in the morning n they were not in class. I had to wait outside for so long den back to staff room to check out with the other teachers n back to her class again.
Hopefully tml will be a better day:)
Working towards hong kong!
@deinesawyou
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Back to school
20th may' 2006
Dear diary,
It's really shocking that I actually had the chance to go back qwss for relief work. I thot i will be rotting till school starts cos the chances of any job agencies call is almost 0%. Went to school for 2 days. Hmm the feeling is weird. Aterall,I am not used to speaking loud in front of the class n the lack of confidence. Had nothing for all my classes to do on Fri.. while on thursday i gave out their geo papers. Sad and happy faces ... it's hard for me to bring myself back to their feeling of knowing the results. Of cos, those who did badly will be upset but as much as i want to console them .. I didn't. Cos i knew nothing I say will make them feel good at all. So let the tears out if necessary.
Friday after school.. i went out with ying xian and edlyn. Had lunch in IKEA - favourite meatballs! den headed to queensway for some shopping. Next time i shall visi that place more often , it's rather a nice place to look out for clothes. I bought a top n manage to bargain successfully! Feels awesome :) Then we went to town n ying xian finally got herself a bag. I wanted to buy the shoes i saw on wednesday in Novena Square so meet up wiht rowena to accompany mi. Sadly, the shoes had all been sold out. So fast! I think the whole Singapore has none of the design anymore. Sob sob... y did I hesitate to buy it on wednesday? Argh.
Ate subway.. damn! i love the cookies.. yummy yummy! Ate 1.5 cookies. It's so had to shed those pounds away with all these food tempting me. Felt so full so went back to town again - far east. Just look around, tried not to look at the clothes so that i will not buy them. Rowena had ur eyebrow shaped before we left. It hurts n i can see n sense it. Ai mei jiu wan ren!
Tml will have more of my hair trim cos i felt no difference though i cut it on wednesday. This week is fully filled up. I like it this way! Hmm izzit better for me not to work? Cos once i start working, i feel like going on shopping spree. That's bad as i usually spend more than i earn.
@deine needs to learn self-control.
Dear diary,
It's really shocking that I actually had the chance to go back qwss for relief work. I thot i will be rotting till school starts cos the chances of any job agencies call is almost 0%. Went to school for 2 days. Hmm the feeling is weird. Aterall,I am not used to speaking loud in front of the class n the lack of confidence. Had nothing for all my classes to do on Fri.. while on thursday i gave out their geo papers. Sad and happy faces ... it's hard for me to bring myself back to their feeling of knowing the results. Of cos, those who did badly will be upset but as much as i want to console them .. I didn't. Cos i knew nothing I say will make them feel good at all. So let the tears out if necessary.
Friday after school.. i went out with ying xian and edlyn. Had lunch in IKEA - favourite meatballs! den headed to queensway for some shopping. Next time i shall visi that place more often , it's rather a nice place to look out for clothes. I bought a top n manage to bargain successfully! Feels awesome :) Then we went to town n ying xian finally got herself a bag. I wanted to buy the shoes i saw on wednesday in Novena Square so meet up wiht rowena to accompany mi. Sadly, the shoes had all been sold out. So fast! I think the whole Singapore has none of the design anymore. Sob sob... y did I hesitate to buy it on wednesday? Argh.
Ate subway.. damn! i love the cookies.. yummy yummy! Ate 1.5 cookies. It's so had to shed those pounds away with all these food tempting me. Felt so full so went back to town again - far east. Just look around, tried not to look at the clothes so that i will not buy them. Rowena had ur eyebrow shaped before we left. It hurts n i can see n sense it. Ai mei jiu wan ren!
Tml will have more of my hair trim cos i felt no difference though i cut it on wednesday. This week is fully filled up. I like it this way! Hmm izzit better for me not to work? Cos once i start working, i feel like going on shopping spree. That's bad as i usually spend more than i earn.
@deine needs to learn self-control.
Monday, May 15, 2006
back to me
15th May'2006
Dear diary,
Finally i feel that i am back! At least I slp at 2am ytd n woke up at 8 plus. Went to international plaza with winnie today to the different job agencies. Erm, we walk into a few job agencies .. hopefully it helps! kinda of having the feeling that we are touring Singapore- chinatown area cos we couldn't find our way to have lunch. Ended up in China square n found our subway some how or another.
Last week, I had two days of tennis training - nv felt so on form b4! Feel like having more :) Right now at this time.. i could have been learning dance with rowena n jeannie but i felt difficult to bring up the subject to my parents. After all i didn't look like i can dance or ever learn real dance before despite showing much interest. I shall take up while studying my university course in NTU. Went for the hi-tea in Ntu yesterday... i feel the stress in this course. So competitive however I think i enjoy the challenge.
This week, i had it all filled up! Tennis on tuesday n thursday, out with cheryl on wed n sat , i'll be seeing my sec sch mates. As for sunday, i just have to pray for good news to come by tml.
@deinehasworktodo.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Driving
11th May 2006
I feel it coming n I am freaking out! Yes.. driving test, though it's like 1 month away. Damn rusty, I can't even rmb what m I suppose to do. Gosh... can anyone give me some tips? So afraid of getting that instructor i dislike during my training sessions. The sight of him is more than enough to make me tremble!
@deineworries
I feel it coming n I am freaking out! Yes.. driving test, though it's like 1 month away. Damn rusty, I can't even rmb what m I suppose to do. Gosh... can anyone give me some tips? So afraid of getting that instructor i dislike during my training sessions. The sight of him is more than enough to make me tremble!
@deineworries
m0v|eS= b|eed
11th May'2006
Dear diary,
Is life ever gonna be like this again? Like those in the movies? When will I ever get to do this again?
Every story begins with a heartbeat.
Times when it hurts, it bleeds.
Moments of joy, it pumps every drip of blood to all.
The excitment it brings, never fail to keep this story moving.
It's the people, the objects, the places that show
The peaks of every scene happening.
A story that kept in one life
Beyond that movie, there lives a image of a lifetime.
@deineisbeyondreadable
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Good morning Singapore?
9th May'2006
Dear diary,
Good Morning Singapore? Time reading 7.56am .. 2 hours past since my eyes were wide opened. Practically did NOTHING yesterday except to go online n watch television. My thighs has been aching since i went for yoga class! Damn it... so pain though i nv felt it till hours after the lesson. Could have went for a jog or something with my parents this morning but when i think of having to stuck in the middle of the 'jungle' when i'm tired.. it just took away my motivation of going. If only losing those pounds were as easy as eating.
Today will just be another ordinary local day but it will be a lot of relaxation n pleasure. Mum has booked facial appointment so just go there n bear with the pain n enjoy later. Shopping trips with mummy to Paragon sounds cool! Gotta help mummy choose her Chomel watch =) Leading like a princess life huh? well, in 2 more months all these luxurious life will be gone! So cherish it before I taste the bitter days.
If I choose to go Ntu, it will means less time home ( gonna stay in the hostel).
Less time with my family , less communication , more independent, serious time mangement, more experience of reality. Yupz.. it's time to learn!
@deine suddenly realise the importance of time.
Dear diary,
Good Morning Singapore? Time reading 7.56am .. 2 hours past since my eyes were wide opened. Practically did NOTHING yesterday except to go online n watch television. My thighs has been aching since i went for yoga class! Damn it... so pain though i nv felt it till hours after the lesson. Could have went for a jog or something with my parents this morning but when i think of having to stuck in the middle of the 'jungle' when i'm tired.. it just took away my motivation of going. If only losing those pounds were as easy as eating.
Today will just be another ordinary local day but it will be a lot of relaxation n pleasure. Mum has booked facial appointment so just go there n bear with the pain n enjoy later. Shopping trips with mummy to Paragon sounds cool! Gotta help mummy choose her Chomel watch =) Leading like a princess life huh? well, in 2 more months all these luxurious life will be gone! So cherish it before I taste the bitter days.
If I choose to go Ntu, it will means less time home ( gonna stay in the hostel).
Less time with my family , less communication , more independent, serious time mangement, more experience of reality. Yupz.. it's time to learn!
@deine suddenly realise the importance of time.
Monday, May 08, 2006
Bored!
8th May 2006
i'm feeling freaking bored! anyone has any jobs to offer? if any, do contact me! seriously living a life of no life... ok, what rubbish m i talking?
@deineboredtodeath
i'm feeling freaking bored! anyone has any jobs to offer? if any, do contact me! seriously living a life of no life... ok, what rubbish m i talking?
@deineboredtodeath
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Nus acceptance!
7th may 2006
All smiles!!! Went to check my application status in Nus. Accepted to my first choice.. glee :) Anyway, I most prob will be choosing accountacy in Ntu after it is best known for this course. And after much thinking, accountacy is rather interesting too.
@deine=> i couldn't wish for more. Contented!
All smiles!!! Went to check my application status in Nus. Accepted to my first choice.. glee :) Anyway, I most prob will be choosing accountacy in Ntu after it is best known for this course. And after much thinking, accountacy is rather interesting too.
@deine=> i couldn't wish for more. Contented!
Scorpio woman
7th May 2006
Dear diary,
Sometimes while talking to a pal of yours, have you wonder what kind of person is he/her?
Do you exactly knows the person whom you have been for so long?
Was reading an email from mei xuan and read about scorpio woman.
A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character. A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong. She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it. If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling. She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career. She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered. Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress. She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew. If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman. She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a "Nobody". If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.
Maybe this 'short' note will enable you to knows me better for I'm quite a typical scorpio ( i think so).
Anyway, yesterday went out with Rowena and Yong Shen. Had craving for laska for dinner so we settle down in Food Republic. Hmm I din really talked alot cos i felt like going to bed. Anyway, went to swensen for Earthquake. While we were waiting n eating, both rowena n I listen to yong shen about his army life n those ghost stories. So eerie n frightening but yet it is funny too! Once i got home, knock out n had a night of nightmares.
Half a bullet stuck on my head. Not dead... rescue!
Figures moving everywhere. All out of sight.
Woke up , felt really dizzy.
Look around , i found no one - not my sisters.
Blue, shiny pieces of wall with images.
Lost .. seems like a fantasy land.
Turn around and around, faint.
Hours has past only to realise I slept for only a short while.
@deine=> floating in space
Dear diary,
Sometimes while talking to a pal of yours, have you wonder what kind of person is he/her?
Do you exactly knows the person whom you have been for so long?
Was reading an email from mei xuan and read about scorpio woman.
A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character. A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong. She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it. If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling. She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career. She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered. Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress. She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew. If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman. She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a "Nobody". If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.
Maybe this 'short' note will enable you to knows me better for I'm quite a typical scorpio ( i think so).
Anyway, yesterday went out with Rowena and Yong Shen. Had craving for laska for dinner so we settle down in Food Republic. Hmm I din really talked alot cos i felt like going to bed. Anyway, went to swensen for Earthquake. While we were waiting n eating, both rowena n I listen to yong shen about his army life n those ghost stories. So eerie n frightening but yet it is funny too! Once i got home, knock out n had a night of nightmares.
Half a bullet stuck on my head. Not dead... rescue!
Figures moving everywhere. All out of sight.
Woke up , felt really dizzy.
Look around , i found no one - not my sisters.
Blue, shiny pieces of wall with images.
Lost .. seems like a fantasy land.
Turn around and around, faint.
Hours has past only to realise I slept for only a short while.
@deine=> floating in space
Saturday, May 06, 2006
Movie
6th May 2006
Dear diary,
it's 4.51am right now. What the hell am i doing at such a weird timing when everyone is sleeping? I just woke up at 3 plus am after a long sleep from 9pm.
Got up at 6.30 n tag along with my parents to climb the tallest hill in Singapore. I felt so useless... i couldn't even catch up with my dad. He's amazing! As I walk up that steep slope, i really feel like stopping. Daddy is so encouraging.. he keeps showing the come on signal. It's time like that I really enjoy pushing myself to stay beside him and have some conversation with him. He's an inspiration to everything in my life... nobody else can make a difference in my life as much as he does.
Went to catch MI 3 with denis in the afternoon after for-god-knows since i met him. Thanks for the treat! Tml he's going to Taiwan for his training... hope things goes well there ya :) Feel rather bad that I wanted to go home for dinner instead of hanging ard a little more. Kinda feeling home sick whenever i step out of my house now unless I'm with my family members.
Today, i receive a no of smses from my friends. Feel so touched n all of a sudden i felt that actually i did have a big bunch of pple who are ard me outside. Sad to say, I can't turn up for all the appoinments due to financial and laziness n of cos weirdness. However, i do hope maybe after sometime den we meet up. I do really feel the need to stay at home now - give me a few more weeks.
I didn't know one month can create big changes in me. Somehow I felt I have changed. To someone better I hope.. I had this feeling that is beyond description of everything i see once I'm out of my house. The people i see on the street make me feel alienated. Those roads that i used to take don't seems to make me feel so belonged. Whenever i see teenagers on the street like me - give me the image of 'spolit brag'. We have come so far but only to realise nothing is build out of our own hands. Not saying I'm not one of them but now, I really would try to build my own future with my own hands. Thoughts has been running through every now and then about what I wanna do/ how am i suppose to do? When i look upon my bro, i question my dad this morning. I told him i felt that certain things i feel that mummy n you shouldn't give to him. Hearing from dad, i wish i could tell him it doesn't matter to hurt him once to make sure he learns. Only by suffering to obtain the things you want, will you learn to treasure everything u have. For a short moment before i sleep, I gave thought to my future n had an idea of what it is to become. All set ready for it to come... to be a successful person. Not only do i want to bring happiness to myself but esp to my parents. Owe them way too much.. it's time to move on to bring the happiness i have been receiving n make them feel this way too.
My communcation with my siblings has grown tremendously as I was telling denis about my sisters calling me whenever I'm outside. Just that short little conversation will make me wanna rush home to be with them, to teach them , to have fun with them. Gals, if u r reading this. wanna tell you that u had no idea what an impact of everthing u do make me feel touched. Thank you!
@deine=> i feel grown up
Dear diary,
it's 4.51am right now. What the hell am i doing at such a weird timing when everyone is sleeping? I just woke up at 3 plus am after a long sleep from 9pm.
Got up at 6.30 n tag along with my parents to climb the tallest hill in Singapore. I felt so useless... i couldn't even catch up with my dad. He's amazing! As I walk up that steep slope, i really feel like stopping. Daddy is so encouraging.. he keeps showing the come on signal. It's time like that I really enjoy pushing myself to stay beside him and have some conversation with him. He's an inspiration to everything in my life... nobody else can make a difference in my life as much as he does.
Went to catch MI 3 with denis in the afternoon after for-god-knows since i met him. Thanks for the treat! Tml he's going to Taiwan for his training... hope things goes well there ya :) Feel rather bad that I wanted to go home for dinner instead of hanging ard a little more. Kinda feeling home sick whenever i step out of my house now unless I'm with my family members.
Today, i receive a no of smses from my friends. Feel so touched n all of a sudden i felt that actually i did have a big bunch of pple who are ard me outside. Sad to say, I can't turn up for all the appoinments due to financial and laziness n of cos weirdness. However, i do hope maybe after sometime den we meet up. I do really feel the need to stay at home now - give me a few more weeks.
I didn't know one month can create big changes in me. Somehow I felt I have changed. To someone better I hope.. I had this feeling that is beyond description of everything i see once I'm out of my house. The people i see on the street make me feel alienated. Those roads that i used to take don't seems to make me feel so belonged. Whenever i see teenagers on the street like me - give me the image of 'spolit brag'. We have come so far but only to realise nothing is build out of our own hands. Not saying I'm not one of them but now, I really would try to build my own future with my own hands. Thoughts has been running through every now and then about what I wanna do/ how am i suppose to do? When i look upon my bro, i question my dad this morning. I told him i felt that certain things i feel that mummy n you shouldn't give to him. Hearing from dad, i wish i could tell him it doesn't matter to hurt him once to make sure he learns. Only by suffering to obtain the things you want, will you learn to treasure everything u have. For a short moment before i sleep, I gave thought to my future n had an idea of what it is to become. All set ready for it to come... to be a successful person. Not only do i want to bring happiness to myself but esp to my parents. Owe them way too much.. it's time to move on to bring the happiness i have been receiving n make them feel this way too.
My communcation with my siblings has grown tremendously as I was telling denis about my sisters calling me whenever I'm outside. Just that short little conversation will make me wanna rush home to be with them, to teach them , to have fun with them. Gals, if u r reading this. wanna tell you that u had no idea what an impact of everthing u do make me feel touched. Thank you!
@deine=> i feel grown up
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Yoga
4th May 2006
Dear diary,
2nd day already n I haven get used to the day n night thingy. Anyway, yesterday I went out to meet Winnie and Jain for dinner. It feels weird when i step out... I realise Singapore gals are really really SKINNY. Bean pole trend over here.
Head down to taka n went to Guess, Zara to look around. Lacy clothes everywhere , look at the price of some stuffs that i bought. Regret not having buy the jeans short from Usa. It's sooo much cheaper that here lor! But usa is damn far, is not like i want den can go back n buy it.. so forget it!
Woke up at 6am , wash up n changed into my sports outfit. Went for yoga class with my mum in Bukit Timah. I feel so stretched during n after the class. It was fun n healthy activity to do. Some of the pose i couldn't do it at all n i tried but ended up laughing at myself. Haha.. i think all those aunties n uncle must be thinking i m mad. After yoga, went to the hawker centre n ate quite alot. My appetite has grown tremendously since i came home. Miss local food so much. Had chicken rice yesterday, ate carrot cake n peanut panckae this morning. Yummy!
I think this is a good way for keeping me away from western food for quite sometime :)
Spend 25 minutes having hair treatment at home. Feel like going for a hair cut soon, i feel so heavy! Going for facial too =) M enjoying life to the max...
Right now, i wanna find a job quickly n start saving again. I wanna go elsewhere at least one more time before uni begins. Jain, Pulau Tioman sounds a perfect idea!
My perspection of shopping somehow changes I think. Tend to go for more expensive items instead of buying so many clothes that are cheap n not so long lasting.
Can't wait to meet up with my girls n have more fun soon!
Eversince i come back, i feel so much closer to my family. The closeness with my sisters makes me love them so much more. Those calls of asking me to come home quickly make me feel that they are so sweet.
@deine=> i love my family!
Dear diary,
2nd day already n I haven get used to the day n night thingy. Anyway, yesterday I went out to meet Winnie and Jain for dinner. It feels weird when i step out... I realise Singapore gals are really really SKINNY. Bean pole trend over here.
Head down to taka n went to Guess, Zara to look around. Lacy clothes everywhere , look at the price of some stuffs that i bought. Regret not having buy the jeans short from Usa. It's sooo much cheaper that here lor! But usa is damn far, is not like i want den can go back n buy it.. so forget it!
Woke up at 6am , wash up n changed into my sports outfit. Went for yoga class with my mum in Bukit Timah. I feel so stretched during n after the class. It was fun n healthy activity to do. Some of the pose i couldn't do it at all n i tried but ended up laughing at myself. Haha.. i think all those aunties n uncle must be thinking i m mad. After yoga, went to the hawker centre n ate quite alot. My appetite has grown tremendously since i came home. Miss local food so much. Had chicken rice yesterday, ate carrot cake n peanut panckae this morning. Yummy!
I think this is a good way for keeping me away from western food for quite sometime :)
Spend 25 minutes having hair treatment at home. Feel like going for a hair cut soon, i feel so heavy! Going for facial too =) M enjoying life to the max...
Right now, i wanna find a job quickly n start saving again. I wanna go elsewhere at least one more time before uni begins. Jain, Pulau Tioman sounds a perfect idea!
My perspection of shopping somehow changes I think. Tend to go for more expensive items instead of buying so many clothes that are cheap n not so long lasting.
Can't wait to meet up with my girls n have more fun soon!
Eversince i come back, i feel so much closer to my family. The closeness with my sisters makes me love them so much more. Those calls of asking me to come home quickly make me feel that they are so sweet.
@deine=> i love my family!
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Home sweet home
2nd May 2006
Dear diary,
Arrive on this sunny n small island at 5.10am. Weather is pretty warm with my long sleeves. A long flight of 18 hours - movies, food n music.
A month has flew past me before I could even turn back to catch a breath.
Disneyland... seems to be so far away when I was a child. It don't even exists as a place in my mind. All along I thot it is a lala land-something like paradise.
I have fufilled my wishes to be a 'teacher', to go Usa... n the next to come shall be my driving lisence. I'm pretty worry about that truthfully.
Had good news from Ntu. Finally, the day when I dun have to worry about anything has arrived. It feels really good =)
It is made of glass... nice strawberry cake.
freezing till my hands are numb!
what a big pizza! 18 inch
hello mr bush! kn0ck knock
looking for liberty?
Cherry blossom..
does it look like it is taken from the 86th storey?
Standing in the Empire building...
Pasta! Creamy n yummy
King kong is in North Carolina...
Astonishing! Cinderella Castle
Guess who's house is this?
Minnie!
Cinderella carriage
Yupz.. these are some of my pictures taken in Usa!
Jetlag... gosh. my head keeps spinning like it will nv end.
@deine=> i'm stuck again!
Dear diary,
Arrive on this sunny n small island at 5.10am. Weather is pretty warm with my long sleeves. A long flight of 18 hours - movies, food n music.
A month has flew past me before I could even turn back to catch a breath.
Disneyland... seems to be so far away when I was a child. It don't even exists as a place in my mind. All along I thot it is a lala land-something like paradise.
I have fufilled my wishes to be a 'teacher', to go Usa... n the next to come shall be my driving lisence. I'm pretty worry about that truthfully.
Had good news from Ntu. Finally, the day when I dun have to worry about anything has arrived. It feels really good =)
It is made of glass... nice strawberry cake.
freezing till my hands are numb!
what a big pizza! 18 inch
hello mr bush! kn0ck knock
looking for liberty?
Cherry blossom..
does it look like it is taken from the 86th storey?
Standing in the Empire building...
Pasta! Creamy n yummy
King kong is in North Carolina...
Astonishing! Cinderella Castle
Guess who's house is this?
Minnie!
Cinderella carriage
Yupz.. these are some of my pictures taken in Usa!
Jetlag... gosh. my head keeps spinning like it will nv end.
@deine=> i'm stuck again!
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