To my ex-roomie, i may not know what has happened but to you my dear, please hold on and stay strong no matter how hard life is going to be. i may not be able to share your burdens but know that i do care and will always be there for you when u need a listening ear like how we used to when we were staying together.

it's funny when you find yourself telling others to stay strong and have faith in themselves when all you ever did was to give up on yourself. so tired of pretending to be who you wanna see...

strolling down the park
having memories of being a young kid on the playground
playing with packs of candles,
protecting it from the wind.
if our childhood never ends...
life will never be so complicated.

what you need is not only time...

life at 20

dear diary,

is it wrong to be someone nice?
is it wrong to treat everyone as friends?
why do human beings differ so much?
does everyone has a motive behind all their actions?

i wanna get out of Singapore and NTU ...

family day!

cam-whoring... with my sisters n cousin.

Enjoyable day!

dear diary,

i'm so happy...
firstly, i haven touch my books for 2 days. been playing and giving myself a break away from studies. but i know this is not what i'm suspose to do cos there are so many projects on hand now. hmm, next week is packed with projects.

on thursday night, we ( ahmad, toon lee n i) were in yanni's room playing cards n chit chatting till like near 5am. I couldn't take it so went back to my room to zzz..

had a fun time with my nbs camp frens. had bbq at my house with good foods. haven had such a great time with them bitching, making fun of pple... remind me of 2e2 gatherings every yr at my hse there bbq-ing. really hope that the friendship with my nbs frens will always remain ... having gatherings once in a few months is really nice. so fun-loving, interesting n real...

my cousin is staying overnight today ... had a chat with her a while ago. tml gg to my dance class, meet up with jas den meet up with my mum's side relatives to celebrate grandma birthday! haha, can see all my young n noti cousins.

i wanna go on DIET n i wanna run, play tennis and do something challenging to spice up my life!

Yea, i'm so happy! It's my last day of the mid term break though i'm still i hall because tml there's project meeting. Well, guess there will be prj meetings like everyday of next week. Sigh... isn't it suspose to be a BREAK?
I have nothing to do so went to my sis blog to 'steal' some pictures.
According to her, that's my bro who was caught by her when he missed the red light. Apparently, he is too engrossed in eating the chocolate...
Thanks daddy for buying us this camera. It's so slim n nice :) Hee, next time i can post more more pictures!


Mummy cooked me this PuRpLe PoTaToEs before i came back to hall last sunday. It's so unique ... i have nv see such potatoe b4. BUt it tastes really great.. mummy says it's from US. but i dun recall seeing that in USA. anyway, i love eating potatoes :P

Went home ytd to have lunch with my family. But it turn out to be a cold war... sigh, i know how lucky the kids in my family are. As in ya, we have everything we want.. but sometimes it's not the money that can solve things like our feelings. Sometimes I just choose not to explain things to u because we all come to realise that you will nv understand us. So what's the point? U shld know that everyone of us have different ways of leashing out our anger or pour out our sorrows. I may not be able to look things from your view.. but at least try to listen to us. To you my dear, dun worry so much... everyone will have to go through that stage. I have been there before, i know how it feels... but u gotta learn to face the reality n trust me, everything will be fine alright?

Happy birthday to my two mischievous sisters.. though u are older but u girls still look and behave like u r 14 lo. Haha... glad that u're happy with your results but please continue to strive harder cos i believe u have the potential to do better ok? Ya, happy collecting your presents and share with me too! lol...

i can't wait for the holidays to come!

dear diary,

i'm so looking forward to the holiday.
there's so much i wanna do that i think that 1 week of 'holiday' is NOT enough

so many projects on hand ... a no. of movies i wanna catch... i wanna go shoppin, roller blading... n slp!

it's just abt me.

dear diary,

i have just moved into hall 3 this week. Though i didn't really know my room-mate but she's nice and funny. enjoy her company...

i wanna watch musical highschool 2 and hairsray! hmm.. anyone wanna watch with me? this coming week is the last week before the recess week. I foresee a packed one.. but gladly i have only 3 days of school! yes!!!

yesterday night i went supper with most of the pryo n guoxiang. We had prata... well, i guess hall life is really much abt late nights n supper. But i will CONTROL.

All these while I have been listening to others about the way life should be. Like in university, so called the entrance to relationships... Although sometimes i really feel like being wanted, but it was never a 'yes i want this badly' kinda thing. People who knows me long enough will know that i'm pretty much a family gal. And of cos i enjoy the company of friends... The warmth i get from my family can never be replaced which partly also make me feel that I do not need the love of someone special. I cherish the many important people and pals in my life right now n glad that they have entered into my journey giving me love, happiness and support.

A near stranger asked me, ' What is my favorite animal?'

My reply, ' Dolphin'

He smiled and said , ' Your character should be somewhat close to a dolphin then..'

a whole new life

dear diary,

i slept almost the whole day... was moaning over what happen still.

I refused to do anything... was day dreaming the whole day till evening time when i need to go for my elective concert. It was pretty boring. Had supper with nicole at lau pau sa. Thanks gal, i enjoy your company.

will you be there if she need u?
will you stay by her when everything falls apart?
will you put a smile on her face even if she cry?
will you guide her through the journey when she's lost?
will you treasure the rare moments of silence?
because she is all of the above.
the one who needs you.
the one whose life get torn apart.
the one who cry to sleep.
the one who gets lost in her life.
the one who cherish silence moments.
for all you know,
she is not a ordinary girl.
unknown

Hate myself!!!

I hate myself!

how could i bloodly hell miss out the whole of part a of my 20% assignment? Argh.. it cost me 20 marks GONE!

The worst is I only realise it like after 10 hours! This is damn important towards my final grade n i have gave me away! All because I miss out that qns which i totally NEVER see at all.

Ah... being sick during an impt paper is bad enough... having to commit such a mistake is WORST!

Having to put in time n effort n to realise it has all gone down to the drain is heartbreaking... now my heart is really broken.

I dun wanna grow up... den i won't have any problems...
Sometimes i really wanna do nothing. CAN I DO THAT?

dear god, i pray for happiness and optimism in life.