Dear diary,
After a week of school after prelim, i didn't really study but still got do homework that was given. Hmm.. only subject that i met my target was math. But still i'm so disappointed with my paper 1 , expect to do better. Paper 2 which i give up actually surprised me. Chemistry was quite expected that i won't do well. Econ haven get back yet so no comments. The one that is very worrying for me is gp. Today i get back my paper n i think i'm the lowest in class. I get an F9 for gp.. can't believe it! Nv get so low an F9 before in my whole life lor. What should i do to pass gp? thinking...
After school, we celebrated keng ee n mei xuan birthday. To both gals, happy birthday! Hope u guys will have a great weekend celebrating ur birthday with ur loves one ya? Mei xuan, sorry that i nv write in ur card, no one pass to me... rmb to give mi on monday ya. I nv atend the talk on grad nite cos i wanted to go home so that i can go out with my family! Daddy n mummy, love u guys lots! My sisters n bro wanted an adidas bag which they mentioned last sat n on tuesday, my parents walked around orchard for 3 hours just to find the bag they wanted. But i was rather pissed off with my siblings when they saw that what my parents bought was not the one they liked. I was pissed off because they only think of themselves, can't they see how much dad n mum putting in so much effort n time to buy for them? Also, the bag isn't cheap. Even if the bag isn't what they like, they shouldn't 'criticised' it. My parents walk for 3 hours to find it , they went to so many shops till mummy's foot got blisters. So we went to change the bag today. went to city link, spend abt half n hour or more thinking what to change cos that adidas shop also dun have what they want. The guy
there told us that we can go over to suntec city to see if they have what we wanted. Argh, there goes my tennis! Suppose to play tennis at 5, but since we are going over to suntec city, it is imposible to make it for tennis. Luckily we managed to find the bag they like... den we went over to nike to take a look. We look at their bags n dad took one of them. I saw it n say ' hey this looks better'. I only commenting but didn't ecpect dad to say ' den buy it lor' I dun wanna buy cos it is very expensive since we have already bought the adidas bag. So i say dun wan.. so expensive. Dad says it's ok.. as long as u all study hard den it's fine. Aiyo, i feel so bad! I rather he dun buy it for me cos it will make me feel guilty if i did not do well for my exams which i did ( my gp flunk!)In the end, he bought it for me. Also i'm not really in need of a bag even if i like it , i should have stop him but it's difficult to change dad's mind. well, we eat prata in suntec den walk to topshop. Hmm.. another surprise! my sisters saw the colour of the adidas bag they wanted whihc was already out of stocks in most outlets in s'pore. Den we saw a bigger version their bag which kor says he wanted to buy it. moreover, it got the colour he wanted n there is only one left. We gave him a call den send him mms. The assistant told us not to buy cos it is not worth the price (69)so we nv buy. But.. when we reached home my youngest sister says she like the bigger bag den she will pay 50 bucks. we had a bet, cos my youngest sis (cynthia) n I said we saw the same bag in queensway while mum n third sis ( cindy) says they saw a different one. so mum gave cyn 15 bucks n cindy gave 10 bucks to bet while cyn fork out the rest. If it is the bag, she will get sponsored but if not, she will den have to buy it herself in suntec if she wants it. As expected, the bag was sold. Dad n mum are really nice! They called topshop to ask to reserve the bag cos it is the last one n went to buy it for her. Where to find such parents? I'm so blessed! In a day, my house got 3 more sling bags.. n total cost more than 200 bucks! plus all the carpark fees, 3 days of shopping.. the cost of petrol... those sports wear.. n foods. Accumlate to be an awesome amount.
@de|ine => thankful to god for giving mi such a wonderful parents n a great family!
Friday, September 30, 2005
Sunday, September 25, 2005
My short n after prelim holidays
Dear diary,
Finally prelims is over but there is still a levels! Well, just have to take one step at a time...
Went to the dental on friday, my teeth got holes! argh.. but i brush teeth at least 3 times a day la. when i ask the dentist why got hole, my dad laugh my mi den the dentist smile! so throw face.. end up i got no answer! it hurts so badly that i nv want to talk in the car to my parents when they talk to me. The dentist says i have to go back after two weeks cos this is just a temporary refill, the nurse says if it really hurts very badly den give them a call. Gosh, i already feel tt it's so painful after the thing , can't imagine the extreme pain.
That afternoon, i went out with cheryl to orchard. We went far east den walk around... spent some time in one of the shop to choose a flower rubber band den end up we nv buy. i think we spent abt 10 minutes. den go to the third level n see earrings. I bought a pair of dolphin n butterfly earrings. but i gave the butterfly earrings to her :) den we walk to wisma n taka. end up eating at the food court .. one of the jap food, we share it cos wanna leave some space for our yummy shake. After which, we went to hereen ( one of the accessories shop)haha.. rmb just now i was saying abt the flower rubber band? we saw it again but this tiem round we were more interested in the flower pin which we bought. It was nice n sweet. Den cheryl bought 2 pairs of butterfly ear stud. one is purple n the other one is white.. we each have one of the colour n she gave it to me. lol... hmm den we went to take neoprints with our flower. Oh next is the best par, as promised, i bought cheryl to billy bomber's to try their shake. each of us order cookies n cream shake. we were sitting inside den every table like have food so we thot better order some food too, end up we order potatoe salad. i dun expect it to be such a big portion cos it is not very expensive given that it's an amercian restaurant! We ate till we ere so bloated la but still left half a plate! our shake also left alot.. den cheryl suggest to play game. we play cai quan. i dunno how to play den cheryl teach mi.. end up i keep losing. or rather, i nv win once at all. den we play siscors paper stone.. i also keep losing. hmmp.. eat so much lor! in the end, i quit playing den we try to eat a bit more. both of us wanted to drink more of the shake cos it is so delicious n really nice. Each of us pay 10 bucks.. walk to centre point to buy cheryl's young cousin present. Initially wanted to buy barbie doll for her once but cheryl's mum says buy sth useful so we bought stationary set instead. Cheryl n I walk to the mrt station den she took mrt while i walk to the bus stop. Kinda weird walking alone in orchard... waited rather long for bus. watched tv the whole night n turn in at ard 2?
On saturday, i went to my cousin's 21st b'day. Nothing special.. mi n my other female cousins were gossiping abt his friends... hmm i didn't drink this time round, dun wanna feel dizzy again after my last experience. Watched 'Full HOuse' in his house.. omg. rain is so cute la! haha, nowadays i'm really into korean shows! n this is really bad.. cos a level is so near. This short break, i've been slacking, nv touch my book at all n din even wanna look at them. slept at 3.30am
Woke up at 12pm... watch tv for hours, talk on the phone with melissa for hours too. went to queensway at ard 5pm. at 6, i went running ard my compound n queenstown stadium. ( i met amanda so ran with her) reached home only at 7.30... been lazing ard for a few hours le. Now i needa go prepare some sch stuff which have to be given by tml.
All i wish right now is - everyday after today, i'll be able to pull myself through. even if i fall, i must still stand up n walk it through. Determination n courage is all i need..
Finally prelims is over but there is still a levels! Well, just have to take one step at a time...
Went to the dental on friday, my teeth got holes! argh.. but i brush teeth at least 3 times a day la. when i ask the dentist why got hole, my dad laugh my mi den the dentist smile! so throw face.. end up i got no answer! it hurts so badly that i nv want to talk in the car to my parents when they talk to me. The dentist says i have to go back after two weeks cos this is just a temporary refill, the nurse says if it really hurts very badly den give them a call. Gosh, i already feel tt it's so painful after the thing , can't imagine the extreme pain.
That afternoon, i went out with cheryl to orchard. We went far east den walk around... spent some time in one of the shop to choose a flower rubber band den end up we nv buy. i think we spent abt 10 minutes. den go to the third level n see earrings. I bought a pair of dolphin n butterfly earrings. but i gave the butterfly earrings to her :) den we walk to wisma n taka. end up eating at the food court .. one of the jap food, we share it cos wanna leave some space for our yummy shake. After which, we went to hereen ( one of the accessories shop)haha.. rmb just now i was saying abt the flower rubber band? we saw it again but this tiem round we were more interested in the flower pin which we bought. It was nice n sweet. Den cheryl bought 2 pairs of butterfly ear stud. one is purple n the other one is white.. we each have one of the colour n she gave it to me. lol... hmm den we went to take neoprints with our flower. Oh next is the best par, as promised, i bought cheryl to billy bomber's to try their shake. each of us order cookies n cream shake. we were sitting inside den every table like have food so we thot better order some food too, end up we order potatoe salad. i dun expect it to be such a big portion cos it is not very expensive given that it's an amercian restaurant! We ate till we ere so bloated la but still left half a plate! our shake also left alot.. den cheryl suggest to play game. we play cai quan. i dunno how to play den cheryl teach mi.. end up i keep losing. or rather, i nv win once at all. den we play siscors paper stone.. i also keep losing. hmmp.. eat so much lor! in the end, i quit playing den we try to eat a bit more. both of us wanted to drink more of the shake cos it is so delicious n really nice. Each of us pay 10 bucks.. walk to centre point to buy cheryl's young cousin present. Initially wanted to buy barbie doll for her once but cheryl's mum says buy sth useful so we bought stationary set instead. Cheryl n I walk to the mrt station den she took mrt while i walk to the bus stop. Kinda weird walking alone in orchard... waited rather long for bus. watched tv the whole night n turn in at ard 2?
On saturday, i went to my cousin's 21st b'day. Nothing special.. mi n my other female cousins were gossiping abt his friends... hmm i didn't drink this time round, dun wanna feel dizzy again after my last experience. Watched 'Full HOuse' in his house.. omg. rain is so cute la! haha, nowadays i'm really into korean shows! n this is really bad.. cos a level is so near. This short break, i've been slacking, nv touch my book at all n din even wanna look at them. slept at 3.30am
Woke up at 12pm... watch tv for hours, talk on the phone with melissa for hours too. went to queensway at ard 5pm. at 6, i went running ard my compound n queenstown stadium. ( i met amanda so ran with her) reached home only at 7.30... been lazing ard for a few hours le. Now i needa go prepare some sch stuff which have to be given by tml.
All i wish right now is - everyday after today, i'll be able to pull myself through. even if i fall, i must still stand up n walk it through. Determination n courage is all i need..
Friday, September 23, 2005
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Runaway
I dun wish for more... i just wish for long legs. I wanna run away, away from this relistic world. A world that I dun wanna live in. I dun see happiness that other people get to see in life cos my life has nothing to make me feel like wanting to go on. I wanna give up everthing I have to go to paradise...
Where is our happiness?
Every cycle of life, we undergo different stages.
Begin a toddler is the best.
That's where I define my happiness
Too bad that none of us can turn back time
Looking back the past 17 years,
I dun remember any memorable memories
I turn back , only to see a river
I saw the tears from my eyes
These stream of unfateful events occuring in my life
Every now and then, I dun have the courage to live
So far, I have encounter 5 major events that affect my life
Leading to where I m today.
It may be few but it change my life.
Each n everyone give me the same feelings
DISAPPOINTMENT, FEAR, LOST
I knew it's coming near me once again
It's so near that I'm so afraid of seeing the sun out.
Yes, my life is 100000 times better than a majority of ppl in the world.
I have a wonderful family, many friends...
But I dun have the 'luck' of moving towards success
The endless effort put into something
Only always to result in the opposite
Am i wrong in wanting to achieve something?
Am i wrong in believing that i can do it if I put in my best?
Am i wrong in not wanting to face failure?
Tell mi!
I m tired of thinking where n what i did wrong.
I m tired of telling myself yes u can do it
I m tired of everyone placing hopes on me
STOP telling mi i can when i myself dun even know how
Begin a silly, foolish n immature individual
I only have a solution...
It's another new day, it's raining heavily outside.
I want everyday to rain ... so that i hide my tears
I cry to release all my unhappiness
Catch me cos i'm falling...
Where is our happiness?
Every cycle of life, we undergo different stages.
Begin a toddler is the best.
That's where I define my happiness
Too bad that none of us can turn back time
Looking back the past 17 years,
I dun remember any memorable memories
I turn back , only to see a river
I saw the tears from my eyes
These stream of unfateful events occuring in my life
Every now and then, I dun have the courage to live
So far, I have encounter 5 major events that affect my life
Leading to where I m today.
It may be few but it change my life.
Each n everyone give me the same feelings
DISAPPOINTMENT, FEAR, LOST
I knew it's coming near me once again
It's so near that I'm so afraid of seeing the sun out.
Yes, my life is 100000 times better than a majority of ppl in the world.
I have a wonderful family, many friends...
But I dun have the 'luck' of moving towards success
The endless effort put into something
Only always to result in the opposite
Am i wrong in wanting to achieve something?
Am i wrong in believing that i can do it if I put in my best?
Am i wrong in not wanting to face failure?
Tell mi!
I m tired of thinking where n what i did wrong.
I m tired of telling myself yes u can do it
I m tired of everyone placing hopes on me
STOP telling mi i can when i myself dun even know how
Begin a silly, foolish n immature individual
I only have a solution...
It's another new day, it's raining heavily outside.
I want everyday to rain ... so that i hide my tears
I cry to release all my unhappiness
Catch me cos i'm falling...
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Dear diary,
Been having my prelims lately... n it's not going to end till next thursday! argh... had a bad chemistry paper 3 yesterday. I already fail it! despite what i had learnt, i had a mental block during the exam.. just cannot think. I nv do environmental chem till as i totally forgot abt it ( leave the ans booklet below my desk) only to realise the last 5 minutes. my organic chem is a total disaster. Hai... i knew this was coming. a bad phenonmenon of my phy chem test. Study till 4.30am makes no difference :(
The only paper i will do well is math paper 1.. paper 2 i tink can also forget abt it le. dunno how to do statistic at all.stupid math .. test so much on memory work for what?
I hate A levels!!! I really need a miracle pill urgently to pull me through this horrible, terrifying n disgusting EXAM. Dunno why i'm feeling so pissed off at this moment in time...
who can help me in math paper 2? ( feel so lost)
i'm a saddist...
@de|ine => desperate help needed .. call 995
Been having my prelims lately... n it's not going to end till next thursday! argh... had a bad chemistry paper 3 yesterday. I already fail it! despite what i had learnt, i had a mental block during the exam.. just cannot think. I nv do environmental chem till as i totally forgot abt it ( leave the ans booklet below my desk) only to realise the last 5 minutes. my organic chem is a total disaster. Hai... i knew this was coming. a bad phenonmenon of my phy chem test. Study till 4.30am makes no difference :(
The only paper i will do well is math paper 1.. paper 2 i tink can also forget abt it le. dunno how to do statistic at all.stupid math .. test so much on memory work for what?
I hate A levels!!! I really need a miracle pill urgently to pull me through this horrible, terrifying n disgusting EXAM. Dunno why i'm feeling so pissed off at this moment in time...
who can help me in math paper 2? ( feel so lost)
i'm a saddist...
@de|ine => desperate help needed .. call 995
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