Bad week again

Dear diary,

i feel like every thing is happening again.. what happen to me in the past repeats.This whole day hasn't been that great afterall. n definitely, tomorrow wun be any better esp when there is gp paper ( my worst subject) On monday, we had our mock math paper. the questions are not as difficult if i had study harder for it. However, i'm glad to see that they are not so alien to me , at least i know how to start all the questions. Tuwsday went home to study for chemistry though i had math paper as well. I study from 3.30 to 2am, trying hard to know what is going on for ionic quilibrium. Just can't get myself to understand it. The paper really was a disaster... i nv felt the way i had ydt after the paper. it was really really frustrating n i knew i'm going to flunk the paper badly. Not a single question i got it correct when ms yamuna came in for the last lesson which really turn me off. Just after a motivated talk, the next lesson was hers. I do agree with her that we are not performing well but not her assumption that we flop the paper cos we have two tests today. Because i knew everyone study for chemistry and not math. The paper wasn't difficult at all after she gone through it but they just weren't so straightforward. Also there isn't really enough time to complete the paper for a few of us... i hate to see this happen when it is so near to our major exam. I was thinking that if i do well for this paper, i can so call complete my revision for physical chem but nope, it demoralised me cos despite the effort i put, i get nothing out of it. Hope it doesn't mean my grade for chem is going worst cos in the past once my grade drop before a major exam, it always bring me sth bad. pray hard it wun!
Went home ydt anly at 7pm , my brother pick mi home. at ard 8plus, i felt pain ard my eye. i told my mum but she nv say anything... only at 11 plus i felt sth different den look into the mirror n realise my left eye is swollen. haha.. thot today can dun go school le. morning woke up, it became worst but i dun wanna miss lessons so go school lor. It subside after a few hours so i thot nothing lor but during econ lesson, it started swelling again. by then , i already got an early form from mdm lim. thinking if should go for gp anot cos tml got mock paper ma. when asked who is lecturing, haha it solve my problem. cos mr chan is going to lecture n i dun think will learn anything much. so went home! step out of school, my eye like better alot le. ah ha.. the problem lies within the school. go home n slp for very long... woke up to watch da chang jin. so sad... my eye got swollen again. mum ask mi to go se doctor tml during break cos now all the clinics are close! see how first... ok needa do half of revision 7 before i can go slp...
hope tml gp can pass can le.
@de|ine => swell eye