what s semster...

Dear diary,

I do not know where to begin with... anyway it's the lat day of my papers. And i can't believe that it's getting worst each semster. Ya, life ain't easy but must it be that difficult?

Initially the thot of having just 3 papers was like.. well, u can do it! it' only 3.. but when u started to pile up the amount of notes, textbook, tutorials etc.. n see that mountain stacking higher and higher and what you know is that i have to get all these words into that small little brain , that's why stress enter.

It's always like that... n i do not understand why I always have to break down during exams. It was not once nor twice.. but thrice on/off. I'm so sorry for having my frens around mi to having to worry about me... comfort me and telling me that everything will turn out well. But i'm also grateful and thankful that i have friends around me who i can rely on esp cher n hj. To my parents whom i cried over the phone for almost an hour just before my last paper because i was so scare and panic. It's really nice to see them when they came over to send me dinner and tonic at 11.30pm. I feel like giving them a hug but i didn't.

I'm always thinking and worrying about every single thing... my brain is working the wrong way. Ever since my last paper till now, i'm still stoning the whole day. it's a feeling i do not know how to describe, it was not happiness definitely. i'm going aimlessly... just have to pray the outcome is what i wanted. i hate myself for being such a weakling.

i wanna sleep but i couldn't sleep depite of the 2.5 hrs i had this morning before the paper...
I wanna fly into my dreamland! leave this real world and enter into my comfort zone...

Boat and piggy are still having exams, it' been long since i see them! Miss you so much... Chelle, thanks for your call and we will be able to meet up really soon maybe next week? Meli, i din receive your msg but saw it at friendster jus now.. thank you. Are you having fun travelling? Bring me along!!!

Tonight, Dad is bringing me out to chill out... i miss the small talks we had in the past.
What else have i missed out? hmm... going to groom myself up for the next one week and start tennis-ing plus lotsa and lotsa of movies n drama. i wanna watch prison break 3 :)
Hopefully my parents have plans to bring me overseas.. anywhere is good. I misses the beach...

@delphin -> nothing means more to her as compared to ...