GrEaT tImE

1st day of my holidays n i think i did enjoy it. This morning went to mac with mei xuan n michelle.. ate hotcakes. yummy yummy! step into ikea b'cos michelle wanted to buy a cookie jar for her fren b'day.. gf, i also want! ( joking, later i fat ar) never knew that ikea is such a beautiful place though i stay here for 7 years already.. saw some really eye- catching stuff, making miwanting to have a house right now so that i can decorate it. As i always love the beach... i always wanted to have a house when i open my door, i will be able to see a pic of a dolpin as if like it is jumping. den my hse will be of sky blue or te type of greenish blue just like the clear sea water... my living room will a ship or the beach with sand as my flooring. my room shall be decorated as if i live under the sea.. having water bed. maybe hav a rainbow somewhere in my hse too ... haha just an imagination. it's already 2.20am... a little tired . this evening i spent my time at cheryl's house to watch vcd ' The Excorist' . not a very nice show .. n not scary too.. alomst fell asleep. Saw cheryl playing her organ just now.. make mi so admire of people who knows how to play instrument... hmmp. Must really go n learn something after my a level. mostly is guitar ba, if possible i would like to try the piano.. it's so classy. can't imgaine myself playing instrument , must be very funny haha... tml there's no tennis training. heard that next week also dun have.. hai~ no wonder jj tennis so slack. nvm, shall ask mummy to play with mi, hope she dun mind playing with a lousy player like mi :P Love tennis more and more le.. think it's gonna be , part of my life soon. Playing sport is so fun and exciting... nv regret joining this cca. well, i'm going to sleep le.. goodnites !

@deine=> piggy

GaLs NiGhT oUt

Yoz! Beside mi now is mei xuan and melissa .. in my hse now are cheryl who is sleeping soundly haha dream sweets wor bf.. Just now they ate dinner n we went to send jon to the bus stop...After which go get badminton racket which belongs to melissa. she went to restring it! wath some tv.. crack some jokes n chiong pw.. now we are slacking. Get back my results yesterday.. thot i did quite well. was elated abt it. get A for math n C for econ though ti fail my Gp by 0.5 but pass my chinese for the 1st time! hmm.. wonder if we will be slping today anot cos dun think got enough bed to share. Tml can eat macdonald breakfast le. Despite it is the last day of school.. it' s the first time i'm not excited at all cos so mayn things to do = pw, a level chi though i'm not gonna study for it , a week of lessons, australia trip, class chalet... Wanna say sory to Vanessa cos i promise her to go out with her but think have to push back... feeling tired le. end now...

adeline=> brain dead

Yoz!!! just put down two phone calls which lasted for at least 2 and a half hr.. yupz.. was toking to melissa n chun fong. haha.. today quite moody b'cos of uwa! argh.. have to go to australia le if not needa pay $1150 leh.. so expensive! the school cheat $$ one lor.. say what needa pay for the air tickets cos booked le.. but when i tell my dad, he says not so early pay one. den he says maybe the teachers go there is free 1 if not it is impossible for us to pay so much.. hai~ WHATEVER... what's done is done.. how ask mi not to tink carefully.. nvm. go there n enjoy ba. i wanna go watch my tv le.. the time now is 1.25a.m. lol.. tml is a BIG BIG day b'cos it results day!. quite worried in fact but nothing can be done le. ok.. byebye

@deline=>lalalalala haha

1 after another

Phew.. today was an lucky day i suppose. had to hand up our written report by today n i nthe morning i almost had 'heart attack'. earyl in the morning, i realise that i had forgotten to remind michelle to bring the diskette as well as found out that we can't use normal file to hand up our report.. thanks god.. michelle bought her laptop n fortunately the printing shop has the binding service. Was rushing like a train .. running to the canteen to buy an empty diskette n den to the pe department to ask for a computer so that michelle can send the file thru msn but her laptop seems to be unable to connect to the net... thot we have to take taxi to her hse to get it le. thanks to wonderful pe teachers .. they help us solve the problem by an amazing thingy call thumb drive i think haha. Within like 30 minutes, we done everyting but later tt mdm lim came back to us saying we file the wrong cover page! den again.. chaos, like mad ppl going ard to ask if they have extra cover page.. once again, we manage to get it. Think today is also another sad day for my best buddy-melissa. she has been toking on the phone for i think at least 2 hrs on her handphone n skipping gp n econ though my pw grp all skip gp la. haha. didn't mean too but was too tired n lazy to attend opps. hope u r feeling better melissa.. well, some things u really have to let it go n STOP thinking abt others, certainly not in ur case.. wanna say sorry to mdm lim that after promos, i had not been really doing ur tutorial .. but u r ever that bubbly n nice to us. i'll try to do ok.. really. Continue our op after school .. must say that jjians r rich man! walk everyday also got laptop.. cool! haha.. m i jealous? hmm i guess so.. lol. I have decided not to go to the australia trip though i had paid $200 , thot it was kinda boring having to spent 10 days there. so rather dun go.. den also dun have extra work. Thot of wanting to get a job during this holidays so that i can pay back my dad the 200 bucks. hmm .. anyone got any job to intro? well, i will be my 1st job. shld be quite excited! Well done to my gal gang.. pw grp, manage to almost complete our op today.. i'm looking forward to the overnight thingy.. must be very grat having u guys over.. tml is another op day.. think needa prepare speech ba. i'm going to watch my tv le.. think i bathe after that haha stinks! lalala... tonight has quite a no to be done too.. hw!! chem , chi .. math :P

@deline=> no comment

Mood Swing

M i exhausted from the rushing train.. having to have this thought once i woke up early this morning. What have i done having to see my eyes so weary. Just another Saturday routine... going to tennis, rest, tuition , tv, computer n sleep. During tennis, we played mini tennis, had drill, rally n physical training.. it was fun though my team lost.. well, competition is not about winning ya? Realise that i m still unable to judge the ball... use the wrong stroke at times. After tennis, i suddenly feel so angry n frustrated .. i dunno what happen to me.. feel like running. think i got influence my melissa .. everytime when she is upset, stress, angry.. she run. Melissa! call for fun haha... u la, yesterday u so moody den u passed to me... lol..joking ar, dun take it seriously. i'm crazy today.. feel like shouting .. wanna go to the beach!!! i wanna see my stars.. my moon... hear my waves! GIVE ME PEACE ... if only i have many many bottles.. everyday i will write all my troubles n throw them away in the sea so that my problems will be washed away! Think i had a slight gastric just now.. actually thot i can skip my dinner.. but still i ate a portion of my dinner. My secondary school mates are having a gathering now at Sentosa.. n i can't even join them.. sob sob. cos i m a busy girl who can't manage her time n can't even take some time off for herself to rest!I miss my frens.. if only all of us can stay togather again. why good things always have to come to an end? tell me why.. why? I'm strengthless... thoughtless...life is meaningless...painful

FinAlly i gEt tO EnJoY LiFe

No pe..just slacking... Yesterday slept at 2 plus.. was a little frustrated cos too much things at hand. Pw, chem , math n chinese hw.. after exam le still got so many homework! Had tuition also.. so when i reach home it's like 10 already.. miss my fav show again. So yupz, i stayed up to watch it... thus sleep at 2. This morning was like so hazy... perhaps i was too tired . After school, i went to jp with melissa.. we walk there from school haha thinking it can burn tsome calories? lol, think in the end we eat more than what we burnt.. i ate prima deli - chocolate fudge slice.. yummy n we share delifrance. After that melissa went to meet her bf n i'm off to tennis. Wasn't having a good weather today as after playing for an hour onli.. den it started raining.. so our coach ask us to play badminton.. as in learning how to serve n smash the shutter. Gosh.. i did a rather bad job.. keep missing the shutter. played till 7 den headed home n ate some western food.. watch tv.. n here i m .. online! nothing much interesting today, now i'm chatting with 5 frens . This Saturday thot can go for bbq at my condo but seems like the venue has change to sentosa. well, meaning i can't join them den got tennis n tuition.. looking forward to my holidays so that i can meet my friends again. A level chinese and oral presentation are coming.. hope i can handle them well.. hopefully by then, i m more able to speak louder and slower in front of the examiners. nothing much le.. think wil be sleeping at 1a.m tonight ba.

@de|ine=> tired , feeling fine

LiFe SuCkS!

During the day, i was doing fine till just hours ago sitting at the art house.. listening to some " interesting debate" kinda boring! Got cheated! reach home only at 10 when they say 8 can leave le. Anyway, today perhaps i was in bad temper.. my bro din wanna fetch mi from the mrt today . well, it's ok.. just tt i was hungry n tired.. just feel like reaching home soon. while walking halfway home, bought mash potato but din even ate more than 2 spoon, i dropped my spoon onto the ground. Hell! Once i reach home, i went online.. n here came the storytelling. I'm sorry but was not in a good mood today. I might be harsh to him.. but all he told mi are small little things which i think it isn't that important. nvm.. it's over.. i do all i can n if it doesn't help i can't do anything too.. not that i dun wanna help u but i can't do anything more than u can .. hope u understand it..
Hmm wanna say Happy Birthday to a fren online.. hope u read this. Sorry that i forgot ur b'day but really hope u enjoy urself today.. ya. Will be getting results only by next wednesday .. not very excited abt it. Tml will be doig pw again.. hope we do things quick n smooth.. gonna wait till 1.25a.m. today to watch my fav serial again.. though tml got sch. can't help it.. it's my fav!nothing going to stop mi. gonna have panda eyes tml.. n will be doing my hw later while waiting ya... thanks melvin for ur concern :) ur a great fren...

@deine=> feeling hell

StORy dAy!

Yesterday was a busy day , woke up n head straight to school... for tennis! haha , we learn how to serve from 9 n had a competition with the guys. we won! all thanks to the other girls in my team, they r great! We then ran 1.6km... after that continue our tennis . Din played well yesterday.. was quite fed up. At night, i went for a birthday party, hmm a children party with alot of foods n i ate lots of mashmarrow.. so yummy :) At around 11 plus, i'm getting tired n went to rest in the car.. end up talking to a fren for an hr plus as well as smsing.. i fall asleep in the car n it was damn hot.. can't even sleep well, had to wake up n fan myself! This morning woke up at 11.30, din do anything much just watching tv. Hmm.. i read finished a book today . think i spent 3 hrs on it .. ya time pass so fast. Now i'm online, wonder if today was a bad day tt a few of my frens had troubles. Was loss of words when they lose control.. what can i do? Things cannot be controlled in life.. at times, we have to learn to face it n release it .. yes, it's tough.. but many times, we don't have a choice.. no one can create a perfect route for one self. we have to believe in fate n destiny too. Finally, the day has come in one more hr .. it wil be tml when start start all over again... results!!! argh.. hate it. Well, wait n accept it adeline!

@de|ine=> feeling fine

GrEaT dAy!

Suppose to do pw today but we end up doing like nothing haha....forget everything about it after promotional exams. However i think we had fun cos i had it. Anyway, after pw we went to causeway point to shop. But causewaypoint was sort of quite boring... n we end up taking neoprints. It's really great having all girls in a group cos we can just chat anything under the sun ( quite talkative ya? but no la, this is one way to de-stress!) After which, we went to the largest library to borrow some books.. i borrowed Danielle Steel's books... they are great! Though most are about love stories but they have very nice plot.. one of the nicest books i have read is The House of Hope Street.. read till i cry. So sad. I love to read books about how people survive through their saddest moment in life cos they are the ones whom we should applause for them... they r great people. just admired them. Finally slacking for so many days, i can get to do something tonight n the coming days tt is to read! haha.. ok enough of books.. now is back to shopping! Melissa, cheryl n I went to orchard just to eat n walk walk ... din shop in fact. I ate the tom yam seafood in Taka... din like it. We also went in to some sports shop, oh my gosh just love tennis more n more after seeing those nice outfit. this gives mi motivation to wanna learn how to play tennis better... talking abt tennis, tml will be playing with denis.. :) Once again we took one more neoprint n den headed home... Today , i feel elated! hope this feeling will goes on till my results are out! Cos i know once my results are out, i'll be crying again... ( cross my fingers)

@deine => free.. fabulous!

i'm lost

Finally i have finished my promos... have no comments to all my papers. just wish to pass them. All i do today is sleep n sleep... once i'm awake, i'm in front of the tv switching channel to channel. Ya, exams is over n i'm suppose to relax right? But i don't know why my mind still seems so heavy. been asking myself what m i thinking but to no avail. I played tennis with mummy today ( almost couldn't make it cos booked the wrong court, lucky the other court is empty). Think i have improved a bit as i'm able to rally with mum. but my serving still sucks.. buck up adeline! ya.. i'll try... Tml will be pw day, lost touch with pw for a long long time le. haha, tml shall be a ladies afternoon with snacks n laughter all around. hope my life tml will be better n brighter with my pw mates with me. i bet they will be going to the new wason at anchorpoint buying those tibits :P Right now, i'm listening to 93.3 , ling zhi (DJ) is telling story again. just love her session very much as sometimes, the stories that she is telling resembles my life journey.. some are so sad n it really brings back those memories ( bad n good) hmm.. looking forward to play tennis on friday again with my fren. Should i find a day to go library too?

@deine=> feeling lost ( going to my room soon to lie on my bed n allow my brains to start
rolling...)

A TiMe 2 Reflect

been quite happy everyday though it's kinda geting boring each day with my daily routine. wake up late everyday, watch tv, play computer, listen music n sleep.. if not go to anchorpoint and walk walk. yupz, that's my life right now. feel like studying econ but always din manage to do so till just 30 minutes ago. flip the tys to look at the 1st three months topics. Gosh found out that i din know quite a lot. hmm... quite alot of things happen these few days especially my friends ard mi. ya, but just wanna let them know that i do care alot about them, no matter what happen i just hope i'm able to be there with u guys ya. sometimes, it hurts to be apart but this always happen for a reason. don't worry about the future cos u nv knows what will be happening. just look forward to it n let time tells u the whole story... what's ur will always be urs . i'll pray for the best to happen .. but please do take care my friends.
Can anyone who is reading this b4 econ mcq paper, explain to me what's ppc all abt? been trying hard to figure it out.. but it is like an alien to mi... can't get anything out from it! hoping to find out more tonight.. thanks wilopo for telling mi a little about it.

Keep Slacking!

oh no... i've been slacking again! argh... die ar, exams haven over yet n here i am playing already. how? hmm... what can i do to get my motivation again? anyway, today i woke up like ard 10 plus den watch tv. After that, i spent almost an hour to get prepared to go to Plaza Singapura with melissa. hehe, to catch a movie, Wimbledon=> very nice. it's exciting haha just like watching a real tennis competition. wa, imagaine having to meet someone who has the same interest with you.. hmm, like that can spent more time together and have fun at the same time. haha.. ok i'm toking crap here ( dreaming) today, i ate ice cream twice .. while going home i went to buy chocolate fudge sundae den just now while accompany my dad, i manage to persuade him to treat mi n my twins sisters Haagen - Dazs. Yummy! lol.. think my fats are coming back sooner or later ya :P anyway, time to do some reflection le.. how should i spend my time these few days.. must meet up to jjc standard- self discipline, self motivation... can i ever make it? Doubt So!

@deine=> flustered

Worries in the cloud

Finally, exams is gonna be ove.r.. i'll survive to the day i get my results. Today had my chinese paper. Gosh, never had i sit down for 3 hours and 15 minutes for a paper. Hmm.. hope i can pass it , though i've been failing it. Miracles do happen rite? hehe.. dunno why today feel so happy. all my worries are up above. 2Day shall be a free day .. no studying.. only PLAY n PLAY n PLAY. YEsH! this is the life i wanted. however, only once in a blue moon otherwise will be sick of life. Come to think of it, although exams are stressful but looking at another point of view. it's quite a good way of dieting haha... manage to shed of 2kg :) but hope it wun come back anymore. Wanted to catch a movie.. but today just dun feel like going out. tml there's no skool till next tuesday. quite shiok ar.. but on sunday n monday, i'm booked. on sunday, i have to help my cousin as she is preparing for her o levels - chemistry and math. well, hope i can help her.. shall my best. on monday will have to coach my sister too on math.. at times, i just don't really understand how my sisters are able to take their exams so lightly. tml is their paper n here they are slping for already an hour?

@deinE=> getting bored

BrEaThE AgAiN

I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face today
Forget the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more
I'll breathe again~

had my math paper today, hmm.. think i will pass but hopefully i can pass well. my next obstacle will be my econ paper.. i have to pass it otherwise i will fail my overall :( Looks like tis promos is not any better than common test 2. Pray hard that i get promoted...

@deine => need more oxgyen...

IN NEED

GIVE ME A BREAK!!!
i'm so sick n tired of life!
Having to decide wanna go uwa anot... wondering gp can pass anot... thinking if i can study, understand n apply all my notes in promos anot... if i should sleep tonight.. whether i have spent my time usefully today...what should i do next... sleep? after promos can i play... or do pw... or study chinese... or die? if only everyone has nine lives n forget everything ... i will choose it.
every second i m thinking.. is it stress or is it i nothing better to do? think is i nuthing better to do ar.

Life is getting boring... i'm becoming not me each day...

@deinE=> sick...

what should i do

Standing at the crossroad
I am confronted by numerous obstacles
Somethings that I can't hide myself from
Trying to search hard for an answer
But to no avail
'Please help me'
I plead looking at my guardian star
Give me a cognitive enhancer
Allowing my brain to work like a rocket
Thousands of things for me to crack my cells
If only you were here right beside me
'Time' is the only resource I need

sometimes when one has so much to think of... she just hope the world will end soon. A bomb dropping onto her head will solve all troubles. Going to a faraway paradise where u n me don't even know. Hoping it is as nice as a storybook.. angels everywhere... a place full of comfortable and peace.

@deiNe => helpless...

sleepless nite

tml is my mock math paper... jus now tried practicing but found out that quite alot of things i still dunno. should i take it as an exam or practice tml? hmm... needa thank melissa for pulling me along to run for 4 rounds ya..hehe cos i eat alot today going to be like a pig already :P . This afternoon i was panicking cos i lose my production notes.. was so afraid tt i cannot find that during the revision for econ, i din even listen.. waste my time onli! hai~ luckily, a miracle happen. i found it! yupz, that's about it for today. i gtg to do more math to overcome my FEAR. Good luck to myself tml ya :) cross my fingers n a step towards my dreams...
@deiNe => stress

my world is like a spinning ball ... like a building that has just collapsed. so hard to pick it all up again, even impossible to...

BoRiNg!

YeSH! i finally got myself a tag-board hehe.. so proud of myself :P. Feel quite relax today... in the afternoon i met rowena to do some math.. but only manages to do 5 questions in 2hrs. Once again, i slept for 2 hrs when i got home :) hmm.. don't really feel like going to school tml anyway there isn't any impt lessons tml except econ lecture. Promos are just abt a week to go... stressful ar. JC LIFE = NO LIFE! ok.. i've nothing much to write le. goodnitez!
@dEInE quite awake... feeling happy

DrEaMs

quite a tiring day today though i slept for 2 hours inthe afternoon. just completing studying my monopoly... some parts still cannot understand y. i shall find it out soon. Tomorrow there' a chinese spelling, i have yet to study n planned to study it tml morning. As tired i am, yet i can't sleep when i'm lying on the bed. What does it imply? Deep inside of mi have so many fears... unspeakable thoughts n feelings. Suddenly just feel like going to the past~ to my secondary school days where i study hard n play hard. A journey i nv regret to enter... a place where i feel i'm living. Can i ever turn back time? how i wish there's such a technology which can stop time at my happiest moment. I dislike the life i m going through now though i have many frens around me. Does everyone encounter this at a stage of their life? well, just pray that i'll tide over this n move on to another part of my journey... Goodnitez!
@deiNe => sleepy. troubled. hope for the best!

thoughts...

standing in the middle of a deep blue ocean
hearing the sound of the waves, feel the breeze
walking down a quiet road with shinning stars
listening to the meaningful and soothing songs
wishing all these can last forever...

A math day!