it was 3.13am this morning when i actually wrote a long entry but it's all gone! Boo... lousy blogger, waste 1 hour plus of my time.
hmm let mi recall what I have wrote.
I'm pondering how human beings understand their feelings and know what to do at the right time... how our brain actually works. I felt my heart dropping at times just like i
'm sitting on a roller coaster. No idea why i feel this way though... Feelings we felt at a particular point of time is different and it might never occur again, that's why we keep dairies to write our everyday life. And as days passed, we can flip the pages and relish those days no matter it is a sad or happy entry.
Just finished reading a book by Mitch Albom-just one more DAY. Although i may not understood in depth about what the doctor is trying to convey but i love his writing.
From his book: the word 'divorce' in Latin means 'to divert' All divorce is to divert you, taking you away from everything you thought you knew and everything you thought you wanted and steering you into all kinds of other stuff, like discussions about your mother's girdle and whether she should marry someone else.
But there's a story behind everything. How a picture got on a wall. How a scar got on your face. Sometimes the stories are simple, and sometime they are hard and heartbreaking. But behind all your stories is always your mother's story because hers is where yours begins. Mother's day is around the corner... it's time to thank all mums for the beginning of our stories.
Wednesday
I finally managed to hear melissa voice! Talked to her over skype. It's wonderful having to hear from her again despite we being so far apart. Realizing how much we have missed in each other life like the white glasses she is wearing now, her birthday celebration with her hostel friends and having to do assignments. Jia you ba. Soon you will have your one month break le!
Thursday
Yea.. it's my last day of work! Hee...finally i can get over this dull life of working in the office. No more hearing og complains and seeing her irritating face. Nevertheless, it's one more job experience added into my resume on shipping logistics. Now i understand a little on the process that needed to be done before shipment can be process. Have to fo shipping advice, pro invoice, tax invoice , getting samples for customers. Yupz..This is my 6th job , of all i still like relief teaching and roadshows better. Both jobs offer different kind of sense of achievement and happiness. Hmm, from what i have learn in organizational behavior last semester in school , i totally agree that responsibility in a job task is important in motivating someone to work. And with it, it gives more meaning and of cause a sense of achievement too. Relief teaching is challenging where i have to learn to dela with situations on the spot , also enabling mi to learn new things form the students. It's fun too! While roadshow i can gain new knowledge from our customers too.
Ever since i started working, i sleep right after dinner till 12 plus den wake up to watch tv and chit chat with my youngest sister. Cindy fell down yesterday.. it looks damn painful lo. She fell down while training for roller blading for this ndp.
Friday
I fell asleep only at 4plus near 5 after my entry is gone! Woke up at 7 cos today i had to bring elmo to work den went to meet my parents at bukit timah hawker center. Wa... the cab fare damn expensive cos it's peak period. My breakfast is super costly lo. Lol, cab fare is 6.50 from bukit batok to bukit timah. Not sure if i'm going out today... Cheryl is still sleeping. Otherwise, we will go International Plaza to apply for other jobs.
Had a short conversation with mummy the other day.
" Didnt you realize that daddy has aged?"
"Nope... i don't think so leh. He looks the same to me."
" Recently, he become thinner and older. Told him not to think so much already cos he keep thinking how to earn more money for you all. In 3-4 years time, all of you will start to work already. But he wouldn't listen."
After hearing this, i was upset. I didn't like to hear tht my dad is aging.. cos it means i might lose him someday. Being someone who is very important to me , I can't imagine a life without him around me. Thinking back, maybe i never really put myself n his shoes. Hopefully, i can save these amount that i have earned this holiday so that i dun have to rely him on my expenses... Might not be gg to hk le.. cos rowena parents' like disapproved. yupz... it's ok, can go next time ba.
adeline
it makes me think that the scars represent the regrets of life.
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