frustrated

the following post can be ignored... just a place to rant my frustration

2.05am
i can't fall asleep
i m a failure
spent my last 48 hours on a stupid thing
it's not even a thing.. it's a stack of shit made from nature
the many times i keep telling myself not to close my eyes
but even my eyes think that that was something not meant to be seen
my brain refused to get connected with the surroundings
it's pissing me off... wtf
n b'coz of you, i suffer insomnia? that's funny!
coz you don't deserve to be reminded of esp you.
be smart and we'll make friends.
else, get out of the way.
6.30am... that's when I'll try to wake up from the nightmare.

all the above was mentioned in respect to 3 digits.
drown me away... alcohols.