spending non-stop

dear diary,

just came home from east coast park. daddy, mummy brought us there to see used to be Big Splash area... there's only a few cafes around, nothing much. Then, we went to Macdonald area and sat at Irish Bar. Had some finger foods and drinks while chit chatting =) Enjoying every seconds with my family so much. Feel so loved!

Gosh, i have been drinking since tuesday till today n tmr too! Omg, i so dun wanna have belly. haha. Well, went out with cheryl and susan on tuesday to vivo. Had our shopping trip and i really really control myself haha. Spent alot on food though. Met up with sirius at night, they came over to my house for drinks after steamboat and arcade. Heart-to-heart talk... wasn't really very keen but realize some stuffs. Hmm, still i prefer my way of thinking so far haha. I dun wanna be 21! On Wednesday, my parent brought me to suntec city and we had kushinbo lunch buffet. Yummy =) Den we went shopping... Came home and book my hotel at thailand immediately. Waited for my sisters to come home and we ransacked our room till it was super duper messy, haha.. as usual, mum went 'high'. All of the kids headed out last night, I went holland village with helen. While my two havoc sisters went zouk. N my bro should be out watching soccer if he's not studying i guess. Left my parents at home... n i was the earliest.

Woke up early for my long awaited facial cos finally had the time! It was shiok... den sun-tanning in the afternoon with sis as i fell asleep with the breeze. The kind of life i wanna live forever man!
Shoots.. i keep spending money just because i feel like. Spend $49.90 today for 3 CDs which i dun even know why i buy in the 1st place. Jus wanna spend money.. it's a bad habit. Gonna control...

Haven meet up with my 2e2 peeps. Kinda miss them. But i think they're still having their exams. Hey guys, meet up soon ya! Weekends outing...

adelphin counting down - 6 days...

after everything...

Having survived another semester... certainly hope that nothing goes wrong. it was a 'new' experience, something i have never tried before during the every period. Wasn't something special but the drive wasn't there. Nevertheless the thought of it still arise.
Thoughts were flying everywhere, chances of heart attack seems to get closer as the clock ticks. Even when the time is up, looking at it helplessly till it disappear, the thought of what happened still remains. Till when? endless...

Booked the air tickets in the mist of everything and we are flying off to thailand next week. Yes, it was an abrupt decision and i hope it was a good one before NOL come into my picture. Can't imagine what's life like working as an intern. I hope the people are nice be'cos i'm not there to snatch their rice bowl.

The thought of you came into my mind sometimes when I am so engrossed with the pile of papers. Wanted to talk to you but i held back... refusal. guess i will never know what i really want.

Had a call all the way from Europe and I'm missing her. her laughter, her presence... i should have sounded happier and excited. It was a rare opportunity since i last talk to her 4 months back. hope you are having fun in Paris.

Same name but different person, I'm thankful for everything, the days we spend through mugging, having small chats even though we may not understand each other fully, i appreciate every moment spent. You make a difference in my university life, and I'm glad that i met you.

Feel so numb the whole day, it was not as bad as last semester. it's not everything... sorry for letting you down. i know i could have put in more but I'm just so tired of doing so. Even if it concerns the future which i may regret.. but i rmb your words. Never to regret for whatever you decide because it was already done. Thanks for sending me to school, waiting for me and prepare my meals. Nobody can replace the things you have done for me... your dying love was unconditional. thank god for giving me this blessing.

Took the night road with the ipod, walking my way down the route... quiet, alone, dark. My favorite time of the day, bought supper for my dad n bro. A moment for calmness. As the night strike twelve, took the car key ... along with baby, i drove to town for swensen. Had our mini sister talk, it was nice. Thanks baby! Just do what you think is right =)

Watched The Guardian... an enlightening show. Wished I had a guardian beside me for the past two weeks.

i know i should
but i couldn't

wish i wasn't here

bad start

bad time

bad days

bad dream

finding good

exams mood

nothing but stress...

new car

dear diary,

dad's new car arrived on Friday! so exciting... now there's four 87 in front of my house. Y say so? take a look...

our new car ; our precious 12 years Benz; n the Altis


Dad's favourites! Both my sisters and definitely my dad will be reluctant to see his Benz sold off to the buyer. Initially, he didn't want to sell it off but the COE is due and there's someone interested to buy. Anyway, the new car is damn cool!!! I love it =) The wheels, lights and even the car plate is specially requested by daddy... can't see the difference from the photos but it's really nice!



So sad, i won't be at home to see the car that stay with us since primary school when it's taken away. Though i don't like to drive it, but i definitely love to sit on it especially when my parents drive me for exams cos it doesn't give mi headaches when I'm studying in it unlike the Altis. Hahaha...

it's you...

many a times, i don't mean what i say ...
yet, i can't express myself the way i want to
i can only pray that you continue doing what is right
i may not say more than 5 sentences to you in a week.
but that few words meant more than what you think.

if only you understand what i mean

alright, i'm gg to lx's 21st birthday party soon. Gonna get ready! Black and Blue - the theme.

friend or foe?

dear diary,

it's been 2 weeks since i blog... had a super long weekend last week and finally mt sisters and I have set up our own online store. my dear friends, so help me advertise to your frens, relatives.. etc etc too ya :) Thanks in advance!

hmm... well, i will still continue to treat you as my friend and talk to you. but somehow you look unfriendly.. so does it mean something else?

exams is coming... i hope nothing is going to distract me. and hopefully this sem will get better =)

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another hole

dear diary,

i had a long day... n i'm sick. Have been feeling this since sunday night. Must be those nights where i'm working my sleep off the computers doing project. Suppose to go club tonight but can't... later it get worst, i will not be able to study le.

got my ear pierce again since jc2. my parents came to fetch mi home den bring my neighbor to our old neighbor shop to sell her gold jewels. . . so as i waiting n seeing them chit-chatting, i walk over to mum n say i wan to pierce my ear but scare daddy dun like. Den she says won't la and told the uncle to help me. Haha, i was quite scare but i know the pain is only for a split second.

Well should be slping early tonight but guess my body clock has spoil. It doesn't slp till 3am. Oh no.. i must change! adeline.. u gotta learn to be a mugger if u wanna do well this sem man :P self-encouraging haha. i always do tt but only works on some day. As for today, it failed cos i'm concussing.

Lights-out everyone!

slacking time...

dear diary,

it's finally over! after 4 days of 205 ... i'm glad it's done even though we submitted late with some errors and i missed my phase 2 INSTEP dateline .. but still heaved a sign of relief.

bought a pair of heels ytd at vivo... had been wanting to buy it since recess week. Luckily they still have it! It's blue and loOks elegant. I love it!

It's pretty slack this week with only 3 sch days! yIpEE... oh no, i keep wanting to go out! Lock mi in the door!

hate to be in this situation. having to make a simple decision ain't easy.

Break free!

Just stole this pic from lx's blog.
Really hope i have more time to get to know you better :)

Dear diary,

i went wala wala again with helen... cos i need a break out of school! School sucks totally!

Had been staying up all night long to do marketin project since monday night which i slept only at 6.30am! Thankfully, coy law lec is e-learning... so i woke up super late. Den on tuesday, i met up with cheryl at canteen A and we work on it till 2+am when our presentation is at 8.30 lesson. Phew, i was so happy everything turns out fine! All the videos, music, animation etc...

Ytd night at wala wala.. it was crowded by the time we reach there n we've to each buy a drink before we can go up. den helen suggested to go DXO.. which we went via cab. Happily in the line, i was telling helen tt i can't go in lo cos i was wearing slippers! True enough.. after dunno how long, finally it was our turn and... the guy jus said, ' i'm sorry I can't let you in cos u're wearing slippers. We would love to have you here but .... blah blah blah." So we walk away.. n helen brought me to tanjong pagar - one of the bars. Gosh, it's such a horrible place to be in! Except that the bartenders are good-looking. LoL... but still, i'll never ever step into that area of bars again!

Had my 205 project meeting in my house... went to eat dinner with my family. Feel so tired! Gotta take a warm bath, finished up my 205 n go to bed. Cos tmr morning i've prj meeting again :S Hang in there gal.. u're doing such a good job:) self-motivating...

@delphin - it's time to think what i really want.

The leap years

" A saint once decreed that a man would agree to a woman's proposal today... to fufill the tradition of February 29th"

"It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves"

"It's better to have loved and lost, than never to have love at all"

"You don't need anyone approval to love someone, so why bother what other people think."

Yes... these WoW ( words of wisdom) are so true, real and inspiring. A touching and beautiful behind a simple movie title ' The Leap Years' . 4 yrs may seem long for just a date... but that 4 yrs kept someone moving on his life just to wait for that special day to come. Will you be able to wait for the right one to come along?

I guess I have always been waiting... n all you need is just patience. Never ever get together just because you need someone beside you because that is self-deceiving. But always be courageous to take a step forward if you feel that person is everything that you have dream of because it's might be seconds before you lose him/her. I would love to watch this show again... it's not a sad show but I feel at different scenes, there's some lines that kind of express each and everyone of us which we feel the same way.

Just today.. I realise so many things had happen in my life this year since day 1. Besides than school projects, there's CNY, PA, INSTEP, chill out nights with friends, movies, family and friends... so many things that spice up my life with sorrows and happiness. My roommate just told me that she feels that i'm feeling pretty happy these few days - i had no idea why. Then after i suddenly talked about some sad stuffs.

All along... i wonder if people really understand one another, even the close ones. As an individual.. having to go through so many tough times on your own, do people really know what you're undergoing? Even though a simple question like ,' how are you?' may seems like they care... but still, no one can help you except yourself. Everything is in the mind and heart...

@delphin - i pray to God for a miracle to happen once more. all i need is just this last journey...
Thanks for your company... I had fun at the arcade.

Fruitful Day

Dear diary,

yesterday was fruitful day cos it's a balance of work n play.
Woke up at 7.30am and headed off for coy law tutorial.. yes, even though it's the recess week but there's still make up class. How sad :( but it's alright.
After class i meet up with raymond for lunch and study. We went all the way to bukit timah cos i found another new place to go :) haha.. internet is really a gd place to explore singapore! No more same old stuffs.. yea. He brought me to coronation plaza to eat , even though the place may look left out.. as in bukit timah izzit a common place to hang out esp where there's no MRT station nearby. Yup, nevertheless the food is gd .. simple n nice n cheap. Haha, love it! What's more is my new ice-cream hangout place other than ben n jerry at dempesy road - oo
check out Swirl Gelateria at Crown Plaza #01-04/05.
The service is excellent, even the person serving looks good haha- oops out of point but ya still i can't deny. LoL. Definitely gg back there to chillout and play games :)
Ya.. n so we studied 1 chapter of tax after the nice ice-cream.. yum yum.

That's me looking so engrossed in my hazelnut+choco ice cream.

he stole my ice-cream!

for the photo...

After studying, i rushed home to put my stuffs and went to meet my lovely sirius for steamboat in bugis... nice steamboat session. I haven had it since elmo's birthday which was a few years back. Tomyam and chicken soup tastes great. The crabmeat.. beef.. prawns.. fish.. everything is wonderful!
After steamboat, we went to play arcade... haha, all of us played the basketball machines. It's fun fun FUN!

My ex-link card is gone... the bus drive took it from me cos i think it kinda spoil and i couldn't tapped it. Now i have no ex-link card to take transportation. Boo.. feel so tired once i reach home. But took a quick shower and went online to discuss sch work :S But very soon.. i was caught asleep on my bed soundly n peacefully till this morning 11+

Went to the body shop - total damage $809 but all thanks to yanni.. it's reduced to $404. Phew, it's not only my stuffs but also others too. So chill... i'm not that a spendthrift!

@delphin - enjoyed myself :)

Nice song to share...

The truth

What happen to her?

The gal who used to work so hard for everything she wants
The gal who believes in effort
The gal who knows what she wants
The gal who loves her friends so much
The gal.. the gal... no longer belongs

The gal has so much thoughts in her mind
The gal sits and wonder how
The gal wants to take back all she said
The gal has sunk into the deep ocean
The gal lied... the gal hates...

The gal wishes everything hadn't happen
The gal wants to know how
The gal wants to get away
The gal long to be free from thoughts
The gal pray... the gal dream...

But
the truth is...
icstoy

think you understand a gal?
Sometime to ponder...



how about a boy?

random photos

nice day

dear diary,

i just came home from wala wala with li xian and helen. It's a nice place to chill out with really nice songs which i enjoyed. Hmm.. we got free drinks from somebody whom we have no idea who and trying to deduce who are they. N we conclude that it should be these 2 working guys who have too much money. Anyway, we were treated with a jug and 3 glasses. Haha, thanks to qing fu n garry who can't make it here. Lol

Had dinner with helen in bugis village... n shop around. Ah.. so tempted to buy stuffs but luckily i controlled myself! yUpz... whats up for tmr? no idea man.. i'm feeling a lil dizzy now cos we drank quite a lot! Thanks mummy n daddy for fetching mi :) Love you lots!!!



gOtta get a warm bathe.. prob wanna grab some food n slp.

have an enjoyable recess week gal!

@delphin- wondering if i should...

it's over

Just had my interview with NOL this morning... i was feeling pretty nervous. waking up at 9a.m. started to perpare myself. I nv wear such formal before with blazer, shirt, skirt n even stockings! haha. Hmm, was afraid i m overdressed but i think it's always good to be overdressed than underdressed. yUpz... said some wrong stuufs during the interview BUT it's over! time to move on with life gal... been wasting my life away for the past few days.

yUpz... gotta take a warm bath, n have a positive attitude! time to get some work done before going out with my lovely sirius frens chilling out at timber tonight! some.. heart-to-heart session lol. We're grown up.. no longer clubbing but pubbing! spiritual... lol.

3-day rule passed!

@delphin - more relieved!

what's wrong with me?

if only you could read my mind
give me what i want...
free my mind from thinking what's next
my life would be a fairytale =)

i have no mood to study at all... 4th day.

P.S. I love you

dear diary,

did anyone ever mention that a female instinct is accurate? or rather her sixth sense... i kinda agree with it cos I knew this was going to happen last night!
Haha.. it wasn't anything great btw. I slept at ard 4.30am or near 5am when my class is at 8.30. I was lying on the bed tossing n turning realising i couldn't slP and in my mind i was thinking what if i cannot wake up tmr? N gt a really bad feeling i will overslp so i set my alarm to 7.45am. On the other hand .. since my coy law tutor is always late - i also thot of maybe if i wake upearly, i could drop by mac to buy breakfast!

True enough... jolene said, " eh adeline, u nt gg class ah?"
Omg... i jump up , " shoots! now what time?"
" 8.45.."
"oh no.. i'm so late! how? i nv go to class so late before"

Quickly went to the washroom, wash up n change n rush off... was kinda thinking if i shld go for class cos it was pretty late by the time i reach there.. prob 9.10? but i dun wanna miss a class. Even thot of which is the shortest route that will get mi there la. So embarrassing to walk into a class late - i dun like the feeling.

Anyway, meet up with rowena today at vivo... walked ard n we saw a few pairs of heels that are really nice. It looks like those fairytale ones - i m so tempted to buy! n maybe will go back to buy it if i can't stop thinking abt it. haha. that's me...



I like this show... i think it's a nice show. If only all the guys were as sweet... then perhaps there will be more love in the air. Anyway, it made me tear - only a drop. it literally roll down from the corner of my right eye. it wasn't the touching part tt made mi teared but cos i kinda feel how she felt. In between the movie, my thoughts drifted away here and there. there were some stuffs that went through my mind - unexplainable. But ya, i enjoy the company of dear , the shopping and the movie. Thanks for the pressies :)

i wanna buy the book... but it's out of stock :(
@delphin - deeper...

i'm silly...

dear diary,

i guess i'm really should brush up on my vocabulary before i start asking the wrong questions and become the joke of the day. gosh... i really throw myself into the deep sea! and happily make solomon, hong jing and raymond laugh without me knowing what is wrong except knowing that i should not be saying some stuffs. Great... until i asked helen. And she went laughing at me in the bus and in JP.

as usual.. thursday is my slackest day of the week.even though this week was special cos i started slacking ytd haha after the quiz but slept at 6am this morning n skip coy law lec + marketing tutorial. Oh no.. this is a bad start but i know this will hardly happen again :)

Companied helen for dinner at jp just now.. and i really enjoy times like these where we catch up with one another life. I'm grateful that I'm blessed with so many friends around me even though not everyone i can share my woes with but still... feel blissed.

Yea.. meeting my dear tmr for movie! Long time nv see dear.. since the day we sent cheryl off. N she seems to disappear in holland... n recess week is next week! But it's pretty packed with stuffs. Still, i gotta give myself a lil break in between n definitely more time to sleep. I'm so nervous for the interview on monday - NOL.

i hate it when pple say stuffs so indirectly and thinks that they are smart. i dun give a damn!

@delphin - i'm falling...

Thoughts

It's been a long time since I looked up the sky
Wondering which star belongs to me
Bringing me to where I belong
The endless journey have yet to end

Sometimes it felt like a beginning of a new road
Filled with beautiful lights
Anticipating to walk through ...
Yet, the traffic light remains red

When it turns green,
Walking through one light-post to another
Seems to be tougher
It is more than a flat surface

There were passer-by..
Joining you in this journey,
Offering a helping hand...
But who will be the last one standing strong?

What hurts the most...
Is you leaving without saying goodbye.
Wondering did I play a part in your life?
Disappointment was all I want to say.

@delphin -all i need is words

It's only words
And words are all I needed
To make my heart believes

how long can i last?

dear diary,

i'm eating my favourite snacks for dinner now while blogging. N that's milo n butter cracker. Yupz.. simple n nice! Wasn't hungry to eat a full meal. Was studying in the library just now and once again i fell asleep. Went to quad ard 7pm to buy the butter crackers, saw li xiang n qi mei. Li xiang walked mi back to hall :) Thanks! Cheer up k?

this morning i woke up, felt so light n weak. Prob due to the lack of sleep for the past week n coming week. but.. i'm looking forward to watch P.S. I love you on thursday!

@delphin -> i found ...

Happy Valentine's Day!

dear diary,

it was a sleepy day to begin with this morning.. having to drag myself up to go Lee Wee Nam lib and force myself to do taxation tutorial. But i din know how to do - shrugs- ended up reading through the presenting group answer and took a nap till time for class. Haha.. my roomie and i toally agree that the lib is so super condusive to sleep.

Happy Valentine to all my friends! Everywhere I walk in sch... saw girls holding on to balloons, flowers etc... haha, it's another season of giving.

Thanks ahmad, zhong, toon n eddie for the rose. It's lovely! hee .. n Thanks mond for the chocolate.

On Monday i went to eat Kuishinbo with Melvin. Totally enjoyed it. Hahaha.. but it's pretty expensive. Still... i wanna go again!!! Chuckles...

Great... i just wasted 7 hours of my time watching shows, surfing the net, chat and sleeping once again. Yes. i'm such a pig. But forgive me cos i have been sleeping at 4am the past two days with an extremely tiring day ytd - 8.30 - 7.30. Ooo.. did i mention that i love my elective? The movies she showed are so nice! Outbreak - is good! Even though i fell asleep for a while nt b'cos it's boring but i'm really tired - i must say i like it.

Yea, it's the end of another week but means that more work are piling up! Uh-oh... so many things to do n places to go. Should stop ranting...

Good news - NOL called mi up for an interview on recess week. Ah... scary! my 1st formal job interview in my life! Gosh... anyone can tell mi what to do or what to bring?

@delphin - happy and sleepy day!

Blackjacks!

dear diary,

guess what? till now i still can't believe that i'm soooo damn lucky. haha... i got 15 blackjacks today! Wee... my relatives ask mi which god i pray to? Lol. so happy!!! hopefully this luck will stay with me for the rest of the year that things will go well :)

@delphin --> still amazed!

eNjoyed myself alot over at li xian house apart from the questionings... like i always say, FUN = SIRIUS n Sirius = Zi High. ever played before monopoly that is exciting? U gotta try it someday with sirius.. it's CRAZY! if i'm the banker.. i probably get confused. Aside from that, i learnt how to play bridge. Also played in-between and blackjack till 7pm when korkor came to pick me up to go to er-yi house.

Weird that this year some of my relatives told me that i don't look like local. Haha.. then where did i come from? Is it a good or a bad thing? Looking on the bright.. it's good - at least i look different. Lol... that's what a happy girl would say :)

@delphin wish that she will always stay happy!

Chinese New year

dear diary,

it has always been the usual routine on chu yi.. to visit dad's side den mum's side. The kids in my family used to ask my parents why must we go daddy side family? Cos it's pretty boring... dad being the youngest also means that we are the youngest among my dad's side.. 4 of my cousins are married long ago with kids and i haven seen them dunno how many years le. left. the adults and us.. lucky we were close enough to keep ourselves entertained throughout and sleeping tgt at the same time lol.
Mum's side is always so fun with lil baby cousins running and playing with u. With 1-2 hip aunts ard.. setting up the gambling den. it was fun talking to cousins whose age gap are closer.
One of them successfully proposed to his gf in switzerland when he was there pursuing his Masters while hi gf went over to join for holidays. It's sooo DAMN SWEET and ROMANTIC. haha.. k, m i over reacting? i think so.. but still you can't deny that it's nt sweet and romantic! I'm sure a few years down the road.. going back to switzerland for them would be a wonderful memory esp. the place he proposed. And the enagement will be held at Sentosa. Happy for him after so many years .. he's an example of first love = true love = happy ever after :)

I won a lil from gambling with my relatives haha.. hope this luck will carry with me throughout the year!

2nd day of new year was boring... was woke up by my parents' fren. As u know.. how loud the aunties can be. But it's ok.. means more ang baos haha so must wake up! Hahaha. Cousin Joa asks to join her at zouk tonight. Prpb not gg ba.. all her frens. I used to rmb CNY is nt that boring when i was younger. We visited countless of places till we were so tired that the 4 of us will asks daddy to let us slp in the car. What happen to us now? perhaps.. economy is bad ba.

Just played with my sister...all the tickles, messy hair and screaming lol. childish us. i enjoyed it still lol. Afterall cny is not that boring with 4 kids at home creating our own fighting den.

bling bling nails

dear diary,

there's no school today! Yea.. cos i have a super nice tutor - Prof Hooi who make our tutorial online :) thanks! Met up with helen at holl v - burger king. Only managed to study 1 chapter for coy law and we got distracted. Talking about our plans which is coming true soon haha...

And for the rest of my day..

check these out -->

Waiting for the show - face off to start... feeling sleepy le!

By the way.. Happy Chinese New Year to all.. may you get lots of red packets (and share with me whahaha)

precious thots

dear diary,

just came home from the movie - 27 dresses, with my youngest and cutest sis. Enjoyed myself during the show.. and it's so sweet! love it..love it! and it always hurtful when u have to hurt someone u love dearly. But still... know that no matter what, they are doing the best thing for you. n how wonderful the 28th dress fits in the movie... romantic. the girl in front of me just went oww... so sweet. hehe, n that's exactly how i feels. :)

well, i thot of the conversation we had in the afternoon. hmm, just wanna say that i think i wouldn't wanna change anything in my life as of now.

@delphin feeling chirpy. hee ( my msn emoticon)


What they say what they say what they say

You speak out all you feel is defiance
All you need is some self-reliance
Cuz this world is gonna always try us
And all you wanted was to run for cover
Well here's looking to yourself and no other
We're all searching for that special something
And we keep on running

We all have the choice to take the lead or follow
I want to feel the light shine on me

You're so afraid of what people might say
But that's okay cuz you're only human
You're so afraid of what people might say
But that's okay you'll soon get strong enough
You're so afraid of what people might say
But that's okay cuz you're only human
You're so afraid of what people might say
You're going to break
So please don't do it

You wanna spread your wings but you're not sure
Don't wanna leave your comforts
Wanna find a cure
We're afraid of who we see in the mirror
We wanna let got but it feels too pure
Who wants to be alone in this world
You look around and all you see is hurt
But the light it always finds us
If we move with a little trust

A diamond don't define what shine is
I don't need a Rolex to know what the time is
You got your let me find what mine is
I'm a survivor look how strong my mind is
I stand on my own it's all me
Regardless of whatever they call me

I'm a leader not a follower
And I'd rather be paid and popular
Ride homie get your dollars up
We're in the belly of the beast that already swallowed us

Relaxing...

dear diary,

i felt so relieved after rushing through the numerous deadlines for projects last week.. yup, though there's more to come but who care? CNY is coming!!! YEA...
Attended Kathleen's birthday party on Sat - it was fun with sirius people around :) All the gossips and lamest jokes ever... doing everything that no one will do in times like this. Haha, BUT that's where the fun are :)
Went to holland village with helen to study while working out my taxation questions which my team thought we are suppose to present on Monday. Walk around after the long day at burger king .. not that long but at least i completed my coy law tutorial.

Alright.. enough of studying. I wanna watch movie!!! I wanna watch 27 dresses - probably tmr night with my sisters. eat some good food tmr lunch with cynthia - haha, gg to suggest Jack's Place . I love staying at Anchorage .. cos there's so many yummy food in Anchorpoint. Not gg back hall to stay this week, so i shall enjoy my life at home!

Hmm, just that night i was thinking what i want for my 21st birthday this year. Though it's still long but somehow my mind drifted while studying. I told helen.. all i need for my 21st birthday is to get a photoshoot . Cos i wanna have memories of how i look like when i'm old. Nothing can replace youth... Imagine when u r old then one day u flip though i saw the time when your 21st.. how does it feels like? Of cos, simply me- i appreciate hand-made stuffs especially when it's decorated with my favorite stuffs and meaningful things. Remembering what melissa had gave me on my 18th - a painting with dolphins, sea and a flower and Cheryl - a handmade ' photo album + card'. As I would say - sometimes the best gift can't be bought with money. but still, it's good to own some vitamin M, that's what mum told me last night when i ask her what is she thinking.

@delphin - life is good now

dear diary,

i no longer understand myself... what exactly i want or need. everyday scenes of school days, family and friends past by me without having a real moment to sit down and think through what really make up of my life. Am i too complicated to understand myself? Sometimes you always wish for something to happen... but when it's there, u simply refuse to face the truth. As simplicity I see things, my inner thoughts shown otherwise.

i felt so bad... didn't mean it that way.

Hungry!

adelphin -> put me to sleep...

What's the point?

Dear diary,

was feeling pretty upset just now after risk class... it's so irritating and frustrating!
What's the point of trying so hard after those long hours of discussion, research, consulting..
In the end, all you get is to be shoot at. N he who knows everything just REFUSES to help until the end it over. Great. Spoil my mood for taxation class but hopefully not the rest of the day.

Lookin forward to play during the weekends. Haven been shopping for chinese new year clothes and i wun be shopping for it anyway. No time... looking forward to more time to sleep in the weekend.

irritating parrot!

been feeling so tired these days...
trying to get more sleep as i sleep earlier each day...
yet there's so many distractions in between slp
was it a dream or a nightmare?
it keeps coming back to me...
i know the fear in me
perhaps i need a few days
how i always get these scenes
whenever i visit one... n needed time to get over it.
Sigh, when will the fear ever goes away?

was trying to get some sleep in the afternoon and the parrot irritates me! it kept making so much noise that I jump off my bed and went to scold the parrot. Apparently, it didn't understand human language and after staring it a while, i went back to my bed again. thinking back, i'm quite silly. haha... woke up and accompany daddy for a late lunch.

a busy weekend ahead with project meetings outside school days. risk... marketing... etc. well well, hang on there gal! it's just the beginning :P pop a CHILL pill!

gg to slp again. gotta drag myself out of bed at 8.45am. tmr gonna be a long day!

So many things...

Dear diary,

Din realised that I have neglected my blog for quite sometime... There's so much going on the past 2 weeks. More updates and photos coming up!

Now, where do I start from?

On Saturday night, I spent my night with my sec sch pals at the service apartment. It's a nice place to hang out with.Denis cooked dinner for us like 9-10 of us? Simple dishes with soup. Played mahjong, watch movies and sleep. Went home only on sunday morning.

Last Tuesday. Meet up wit Rowena and we ate at Jack's Place for lunch. It's really a good deal esp for their lunch set. Had a big feast ... totally yummy with a light desert n tea after the main course. Way to go Jack's Place! Went to sch for co. law lecture and i feel good cos I was awake and attentive during this particular lecture. Perhaps a good mood does make a difference :P
Dear.. see, you make my day just by having lunch together. Hahaha... After lec, i went to the library- print stuffs n try to study while waiting for yong shen to end his Missions ( 4 missions possible!) Left sch only ard 7? Yup.. we had subway for dinner and went to the airport to send Cheryl off. Gosh, i was so afraid that she left without me saying goodbye. The atmosphere is like everyone feeling kinda bu she de but still have a smile on their faces those kind. I hold back my tears though there were 1-2 moments, i really thot it gonna flow. Phew, I survived it!
Dunno if she will be free to read this but... Cheryl! Where are you having fun now? Haha ... did you appear offline again? Maybe you forgot to change it to online or busy? Cos i dun see you around on msn. Blur Queen, don't be so blur there ok? Take more pictures and enjoy yourself :)
Yong Shen and I went to terminal 3 to walk walk n we took some pictures. Is pretty nice with the new concept of environmental in T3.


Thursday night
Went to Yanni's room at midnight where we have a mini gathering. Toon lee, ahmad, zhong, mi and hj. Ya.. play mahjong and cards. Zhong n I won! Good job...

Friday
It's finally the end of the week again. Met up with Helen in JE lib trying to be hardworking BUT i failed. Cos i was having headache and couldn't concentrate at all :( Ended up at JE food court munching. Hehe... gal, have you made up your mind to do rebonding? She's just one of a kind - fiddle minded. Lol.

Sunday
Met up with nicole for lunch ( had sakae sushi) at Heeren. It's been long since i saw her last Oct. Nice to see you again gal! And we took alot of photos with our camera. Bought her a soft toy rabbit and we took neo prints. it's nice! Yup, pardon us for thinking that we are still young with all the neoprint stuffs. But i really enjoy it. It's fun how we panic for a few seconds and flash go there a nice picture. Couldn't help it :P It turn out to be very sweet. Don't tink i will see her till she comes back in June from switzerland.
Opps, left jolene in the room alone again. Sorry gal... din mean to but I do enjoy staying home too other than being sick. This freakin cough of mine just refused to go away. I dun like you. Boo...
caused me to lose some nice sleep at night. Only managed to get into sweet dreams at 4am. Sigh. Tiring. One of my new year resolutions definitely has to be sick- free. But apparently - Nope, the virus attacked me since day 1. Anyway, I'm glad to stay at home last night cos my family went our for supper to Xin Wang HK cafe! Yea.. cos it jus opened in achorpoint till 2am everyday. We went down ard 11+/ 12 . Ate porridge, tim sum, noddle, bread n yuan yang. I'm loving it! Yea, what's more loving than having hanging out with your close ones? Nothing beats it!














Monday
Thanks mum for coming to fetch me after school and company me for lunch! Appreciate it so much :) Hmm... i Sleep for 4 hours when i reach home. I just concussed. Woke up only at 8+ and have been slacking since then till now - 12am. Time flies! One moment, I was trying to get myself out from bed to go to sch, next I'm back on that cosy bed again and yet again. Haha.. this means TIME OUT! time to slp...zzz. I have officially became a sleeping beauty which sounds nicer than pig.

Tea Party

dear diary,

Went to TEA PARTY at bt timah sixth avenue for dinner with Michelle, Wenda n Cheryl. So what's the occasion? Cheryl is leaving next Tue to Holland on exchange. Sigh.. one more close friend gg to MIA for like 5 mths?
Cheryl dear, hopefully i can still meet you at least one more time before u leave and it's hard to chat with u cos u hardly come online. U r my one of my closest fren who i confide everything about. Hopefully I can contact you and still share with you everything that's happening around me through our advanced technology. Gonna miss you so much gal. In case I really go on exchange, we will only see each other prob next year. Gosh... can't imagine that. The thought of it just make me feel sad.

Alright, some happy moments we spent together just now. It's really a nice place to chill out... the scones are nice, n greedy me, i ate two of it! Opps.. is that like hmm 1kg more? haha can't calculate the calories so nvm. We also played taboos which is FUN. still rmb that time i played with qing fu, li xiang and helen after surf and sweat. Qing fu n I won! Yea.. great job :) Alright, pictures up!

boring...

Dear Diary,

Sch has started... n I ain't excited about it. It's not gg to be easy but still has to go through it like any other sem.

Anyway, went home ytd with Vanessa. It's really nice to see you again like since last yr aug? Glad to know that at least someone share the same thoughts as me and we are not drifted apart. Hopefully, you'll stay somewhere near to my house :)

Watched some tv programme with daddy and he showed me how smart is the parrot. Chit chat with my silbings , fry eggs for supper... i still love home BEST! The weekend is coming n i'm gg out. YEA!!!

@delphin alone in the room...

New year eve celebration

bored.

Sick... lack of sleep last night.
Today it was TIRING! i slept throughout the bus tri back to Bishan Park Sec. Hmm it was not as fun as I expected. Perhaps, i didn't have the mood too. Too early in the morning already lo

Slept for near 4 hours after I came home. It was really a deep and peaceful sleep.


regret

my thoughts

Have you ever been in a situation where
You once long for it
But when it's there...
You were afraid
And that's holding you back
What if it is not what you expect to be?

Life is full of contradictions.

That feeling I never felt it before
It's like your heart is so weak
Every now and then I look away
Wondering what's next?
One moment i was throwing words over
Next, it was mere silence
But you... just surprised me
Your moves, your ideas, your word
Maybe you're different ... is that the right word?

I do not want to pin any hopes
Let things happen as God path it
For I believe in miracles
And you might be one of the miracles he created
He created my happiness - my family and friends
I'm grateful for everything that happens

Spent my day with my dearies - meli, rowena and cheryl. Had lunch at Sushi Tei and we went partyworld after which. I haven sang for such a long long time. We could not decide where to go so ended up there. It was fun... but i got my sore throat n fell sick when I got home. Flu...
N tmr i'm working as an instructor. Having to wake up at 5.45am cos we had to gather at Bishan Park Sec. Sch by 7.30am. Well done! tIme now is 1.36am n i'm nt yet in my cosy bed. Gonna run ard in sentosa tmr while educating the young people on National Education. Haha, hope it will be fun :)

Guess I better get gg to my lala land before I et into trouble tmr morning for failing to wake up.
Goodnite ppl! Dearies.. i love you girls! Hope to meet up soon before meli and michelle flying to aus and our miss piggy (cheryl) gg to holland/netherlands. N there left the two of us - my twin. We're twins cos our mind think so damn alike!

More to come gal!

Happy New Year

Dear diary,

Happy New Year everyone! Had both great days on the last of 2007 and start of 2008. Spend my night over at gallery hotel with Lyn, Avena, Hui fan, Charmaine, fang lay, denis, roger, yuan xun, kc and seth. Played lotsa games - indian poker, five ten, big fish small fish, pictionary, riddles, brain teasers... all FUN!!!Drank quite alot too...

Spent my 1st of day of 2008 at nydc and a move at lido. We watched Dan in the real life, quite funny but the pace is kinda slow. Was tired after the 2 days. It's the last week of the holiday... gonna be busy and hopefully fun too. i wish that time can stop on this Sunday, let it pass by slowly and peacefully. Really don't feel like gg back to that hall of mine facing books again :(