The Show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
Just enjoy the show

my photoshoot

Two of my favorite photos from what I have received. Am excited to see how the others will look like. A photo shoot offered by an event company for free ... my first time trying. It's fun but tiring too. Hmm the next one should be coming up soon but I'm having second thoughts. School work is kicking in and i gotta admit that this semester I have been far too lazy than before.

CNY is tomorrow! Hope my luck is as good as last year in gambling lols. Still can recall that I actually get 15 blackjacks in a day. hmm that will certainly increase my hongbao so that I can save it up to go grad trip with Sirius! Oo, we have bought the tickets to Taiwan for grad trip on the 17th - 26th. Looking forward to it, i'm sure it will be fun with them around.

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! Have a nice reunion dinner.

a day to be remember - 23rd Jan

dear diary,

it's a special day... moment
good music, nice ambience and great company.
one step into a whole new world.


timbre at the Art House is not bad... but i think i still prefer the one at Substation. Maybe the only thing nice about The Art House is the scenery which you could enjoy after chill out. =)

adelphin ~ my new life.

red cliff ii

Never felt like standing far away from my car not until today when the alarm went off. The sharp and irritating sound pierced into the ears of innocent passengers awaiting for their bus. For that split second, we became the center of attraction. Probably we look as though we are planning to steal the car but as hj said, the security is not that good coz no one bother to stop us. criminal of the case : the remote control that went low battery
verdict : sentenced for service


i almost miss out on this great movie. but thank goodness, my bro invited me to join him =)
It's the 1st time i actually went out with my bro since the past 21 years.
can't believe that i actually enjoy a movie on china history... n i missed out on part i
my fav scene is where they are planning the strategy and the war.
will catch red cliff 1 when i have the time.

i'm looking forward to weekends!

sleeping is never enough

the holiday sleeping hours is setting into this fragile body. is it insomia? or am i sleeping way too much in the noon? i think it affect in both way...
i have to get 8-10 hours of sleep everyday. yet on other days, 4 hours is enough to put me through the night but it's rare.
i gotta learn to sleep just right... sleeping is a waste of time seriously.

on a side note, i got my elective! yea, motivating pupils to learn ( i'm interested in this elective since the last 2 semesters) ... 3 days of school week for my last semester. happy =) having 7 hours of lessons on every thursday, maybe this will give me an excuse to try out mega mac breakfast later in the morning. lol.

mickey is getting naughtier and she got her lesson quite a few times today. sigh... wanna help her to get away from the beatings is difficult cos she is really way off. i dislike seeing all these since young looking at my siblings. n now that i have grow up, it's mickey- the baby which i have to witness. i can only be there after that... stroking her. sigh, hope you learn soon.
climbing up onto our dinner table and eat our food when no one is looking. today is the 2nd time and mummy had to throw away the food she cooks when no one has eaten yet.
mickey... it's not a smart move to mess with your master.

testing... haha i'm trying to blog using my phone . having my elective now and it's so boring! but should be a rather slack one too if you've studied chemistry before in jc. testing over. dad's calling gtg !
edited version

finding you

running under the vast blue sky
racing against the fast speed vehicles
my thoughts erupted like a volcano
stifled in the mist of polluted air
catching each breath to fill my lungs
for as long as my legs could carry me
flipping through each images
i found what i wanted.

When life comes to an end

i saw it through their eyes and expressions.

i felt the breakbreaking moments.

i held it back...

she may be young yet she is old enough the understand the meaning of death.

she knows what it feels like when someone who brought her up left her.

it brought me back to years ago when I was 14.

love everyone around you...

take a few seconds, send a message of care and concern...

you probably will brighten up someone's day =)

i love my family and friends.

chance

CHANCE

school begins with homework on my very 1st day, my very 1st lesson. Great... i will be expecting more.

Played tennis with yanni and for nbs today after my elective. it's feels good to be exercising once again =) haha... i feel so lousy at court! omg, when will i ever learn how to serve?

after tennis, i rushed home as I have a funeral to attend, my dad's eldest bro's wife has passed away due to cancer. meet up with my long lost cousins who are married with kids. my dad is the youngest kid in his family so that makes us one of the youngest in the family too. Wow.. my dad's side has really smart kids around.

it's surprising and guilty when i compare my family to them but i still love my family.
1st uncle - his son and wife is working in their own company... i think it's motorluck selling
cars
- daughter is a vice principle in a secondary school who is only at her 30s.
2nd uncle - eldest son is holding a high position and current in hongkong. his kids are damn freaking smart... my niece is top in school at primary 2 - Omg. his wife is working in comfort.
- 2nd son working in oracle.. his wife in IBM and they also have 2 kids.

All my nieces and nephews have been to japan. And they are all below 8 years old! One of the family is going to Hawaii this year, how lucky! Going to phuket last year for them is said to be a pathetic family outing. zzz... is that being sarcastic or it's just a remark? Well, i still stand firmly that so long as being together with my family, anywhere is great! this is my 1st time meeting all the older cousins after 11 years when my grandma passed away.

3rd uncle - only son.. working in Motorola. and he is going to get married soon i think
4th uncle - 2 sons and 1 daughter.. all of them are very smart with A grades.

hmm my family is not close to any of my dad's side siblings... and there is really a great difference between my family and theirs. My parents are more happening so their kids are also more playful. We have no curfews since secondary school which was a shock to my older cousins when we spoke to them... my parents hardly stress us over studies but we are all good kids who know what is right. My parents value a lot on family time and i love the way it is. Can't imagine if i am born in a family who demands straight As just like those of my nieces and other cousins. Phew... lucky!

tmr is a long day and i should really head to bed. Lights out people!

it's ending today when the clock strikes twelve.

the adventures that i've been through since 20th November. not very adventurous though lols.

celebrate boat birthday... and i receive my scrapbook finally! It's so beautiful.. i love it alot.
Boat is holding hers, i like hers too coz it's all in hearts.
Dear, you see how much we love you. haha

on xmas eve, i countdown with my bro's frens at home with drinks and charades. Leaving the special day for my lovely sirius, i heart them lots. This will never be our last outing =)

lixian is back! and here we are back at our very 1st date with helen - wala wala, on the same day with the same band. how cool is it! haha it's amazing how come she never gain weight but lose a lil over there. that's the result of playing too much right?

what's sirius without frisbee? lols. our last year to play for NBS and i'm glad to join them this year. it's been long and lazy since i get myself to excerise.

my gals are back!!! Michelle and Melissa. Finally i feel like we are back to our PW group, with endless girls talk. but something about us is different at least for me, cheryl n melissa is that... we can cook! haha. ta-da... r u hungry? healthy and yummy snacks for picnic. i learn how to play bridge too from this outing at botanic gardens.

the rest of my holidays are spent on my bed watching online dramas till 5am daily. n my days begin only at 2pm.

i love serena.. she's so hawt! and nade too... he's charming. i like the fashion sense , the gossips, the music, the scenes but it's morally wrong. lols. it hardly ever happens in our local university and i'm glad it doesn't though it would be interesting.

90210 is still more right as compared to gossip girls but not as interesting. haha. it's the 1st drama i completed.

n i finished watching the little nyonya, credits to mobtv. jeanette ow is beautiful n i gotta respect joanna peh courage in some of the scenes. will not be surprise if she win any awards instead of jeanette aw. but both are good... it's is one of the best show i watched from channel 8.

movies caught this holiday - madagascar, high school musical, four christmases, ip man. All of them are good. And i should really learn how to kick my habit of falling asleep in the cinema haha. i never fail to take a short nap since i watch The Treasure and think that the cinema is such a nice place to sleep haha.

i wanna go back to timbre again... it's simply nice. but i'll make sure i take the right bus home this time.

I hope this semester will be good coz it's my last. To begin off... i'm already short of one elective.

love,

adeline

$13.80

omg... how can i be so blur!!!
i was so happy from the songs played by goodfellas at timbre and I happily went on board with 147 coz opposite my house there is 147. The bus was very crowded and i sat on the 2nd deck beside this guy who looks like malay. so the bus past by my fav you tiao stall near paradiz centre -> little india -> serangoon -> potong pasir.
Half way after little india, i woke the guy beside me and ask,' excuse, do you know where is the last station for this bus?"
" i think the bus will be going to yio chu kang and end at seng kang. I'm from Philippines so i'm not very sure, you can ask the driver."
thinking - shit... how come i so blur. ( i still considering whether to get down the bus lo!) a normal person will quickly get down the bus .. n i dunno what i am hesitating. zzz
still take my time to walk to the bus driver and ask the bus driver. the bus driver is nice to drop me opp the bus stop which i am suppose to take and told me that i should be able to make it for the last bus.
i walk all the way to the traffic light just to cross the road when i can just cross the road to get to the opposite... when waiting for the green man, my 147 drove past me. That's it! last bus gone and i have to take a cab which has midnight charge.
i feel so cheated... all because of my blur-ness!
Don't know whether to laugh or be angry with myself but i was laughing in the cab when the uncle ask me what I am doing this late at potong pasir.
What a joke! My 1st blur incident in 2009.

Happy New Year 2009

While waiting for new year ... i shall write what i had achieve in year 2008
1) Set up my own online shop but i'm closing it soon
2) Got myself a job once I graduate at KPMG
3) Get to travel with my friends alone to thailand twice with my own savings
4) Had my 1st birthday party for my 21st with all my friends on Halloween Day
5) Been to wala wala for the 1st time this year and i never stop going there since then
6) Get to enjoy the most expensive dinner which was unexpected and will never forget in my life at The Cliff
7) Get to have a taste of what it feels like to be treated as a princess
8) Completed the most number of drama series this year
9) Overcome my fear of dogs coz I own one now lols.
10) Helped my tuition kids achieve their grades. thank god.
11) Be able to drive the car on my own without my parents around.
12) Went to the zoo since primary 6 i think.. this year i went with helen. FUN
13) Had my very 1st picnic in Singapore with my girls.
14) Had my first internship with NOL, a smooth sailing experience
15) Enter into one of the pubs at tanjong pajar with helen which i never wanna try it again lol
16) Had my emo drunk ... but that kinda relief all my sorrows this year. I'm glad i did it but not again.
17) My relationship with my brother has never been so close before, i have grow up from our childish quarrels. Same as him haha
18) Had the most number of suppers this year.
19) I feel so happy to be able to sustain my long years of friendship with everyone.
20) Glad that my family stay on together despite all that happen this year... it was hard but we never give up =) thank god for giving me a wonderful family.

Hmm the above are those that i can remember but i believe i definitely enjoy a lot more than all these =) My havoc times out with my friends in chill out places, dining areas, movies, beaches etc etc. I savor every single moment. And now year 2008 has come to an end... a fresh brand new 2009 will begin ...

My new year resolutions:
1) Complete my studies with a satisfactory cert
2) Save enough to go for my graduation trip
3) Sleep early so that I can get rid of my eye bags
4) Be able to find what I really want in life
5) For good health and happiness everyday

Haha.. these are the very basic i guess. I never really have new year resolutions... what ever lies ahead, i will live it and taste it!

Happy New Year to all!

Picnic with my girls

photos say it all...
Event: Picnic with project work
Venue: Singapore Botanic Gardens; Ben & Jerry @ Dempesy









I wanna get a haircut.. should i cut short? It has been a long time since i wanted a short hairstyle. What if it's ugly?

This is so freaking true!!!

http://www.goldinuniverse.com

Name: Adeline
Date: 12/23/2008
Colorgenics Number: 37265041

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You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

You are working extremely hard - perhaps even above and beyond the call of duty. You are preparing for the future and therefore trying to build a firm trouble-free foundation upon which you may base all of your dreams and aspirations.

Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offence, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.

You are experiencing extreme emotional disappointment because it would seem that a particular relationship is no longer running smoothly. You would like to break away from this involvement completely and yet, if this were to happen, then its possible that something very important to you would be lost. You are in a quandary. You are not sure which way to turn. So on the one hand, you would like to free yourself from this attachment altogether, yet on the other, you do not want to lose anything nor risk uncertainty and the possibility of further disappointment. These contradictory and opposing emotions are now causing you considerable stress but you are putting on a brave face - pretending that you don't care.

Anxiety and a restless antagonism, as a result of unfulfilled emotional needs, has resulted in considerable stress. You are trying to overcome this by working and playing extremely hard - but at all times you have your future in mind. You are a worker and as a result of your inherent enthusiasm you cannot fail.

90210

This week is like a busy week for most accountancy students in NTU coz it's interview week! Ya.. and there goes having to prepare, read up on the company, getting sweaty palms, nervous wreaking moment, fixed smile during the interview.... and after all these is gone, you thought finally, it's over! Sadly, it is not over yet... the outcome is even more stressful. Will my phone ring? And as the clock ticks, your heart pumps even faster coz time is running out.
Any phone call will probably get you jumping out of where you are just to answer it.
Gosh... I gone through that ytd and today. Tmr will be the last and I hope things go well.

The upcoming addiction for me is 90210. It's interesting and nice =) Been watching 9 episodes since yesterday night. Haha, think i went tooo fast and have to wait for the upcoming episode.
After tmr interview, it's gonna be a week filled with activities. Can't wait for it to come! And I'm hope to be able to work on this Sunday and next Tuesday to earn some money for my holidays coz xmas is coming.

My family has another new family member... xiao hei (the parrot) flew away quite long ago. And this is Mickie, west highland terri. She's one year old. But i have really play with her coz i'm kinda afraid of animals. But I will grow to like her eventually I hope. Will post up some of her pictures soon.

Back to 90210...

Happy day

Attended Michelle's 21st belated party last night. Nice to see my darling gal back from australia. And my other jc classmates... I left the party at 9+ and couldn't help but feeling damn freaking bored at home. Well, but this feeling is much better than having to stress over exams haha. I could not deny how much i hate exams.
The boredom is killing me and I managed to ask Allan out for movie. And da-ta i actually watched a cartoon movie without falling asleep. Oh ya, i'm one person who never fail to sleep while watching cartoons, which I have no idea why. Madagascar is nice.. the animals were cute.
Thereafter, we went to chit chat at my favorite Macdonald all times till around 5a.m.
A simple day like this just make me feel good. Thanks you for the company despite the super last minute request. =)

Counting down to Thursday... where all my games will begin.

My childhood memories

exams is over!!! spanish was my last paper and i should be able to get S i really hope so.
Went to malaysia with my parents on friday and they freaking know how to enjoy life! We eat alot alot... but i couldn't eat as much as them lols. hmm quite tired after the whole day.
Anyway, i was feeling bored at home coz most of my frens are still having exams so i'm stil lonely!
Decided to open my drawer where i kept alot of 'rubbish'
And this is item 1: Tissue papers


These are not the normal tissue papers that we use. Inside of every packet, there are prints... and used to have scent. N i bu she de use them so kept it since i was in primary school.

Item 2: Letter pad
My whole collection of pretty letter pads. It's so nice =) Wonder if anyone still write letters to their friends.

I used to write letters to one of my primary school friend after I have moved to my current home. She is Jody Ng. I'm glad I kept all her letters and ytd when I was reading the letters, I felt kinda different. In our letters, we update each other of lives in school, exchange neoprint photos andeven had rules to include poems and songs in our letters. Those were the times... n the last letter I received from her was in 2003 - secondary 3. We communicate through letters since 1998 till 2003 and all these while, I haven met her till 1st 3 mths in JJC. But now we lost contact again, this holiday I shall write her a letter. Hopefully she is still staying at the same place.


Item 3: My 1st wallet. Used to lve Bobdog and my first diary was bobdog too.



Item 4: Journal
Remember in secondary 2, my form teacher asked us to hand up journal every week... I was reading through every single page and i realised my life haven changed much since then. Lols, n i can totally picture every images in my mind while reading. Miss 2e2. After close to 6 years, I guess most of us have split ways. Hopefully one day we can get together for a dinner.

Item 5: My artwork
This was my artwork in secondary 2. The topic is :DISGUISE.
Haha, can't believe i can draw and shade quite well. But right now, i doubt i can do the same.

Item 6: Space jam sticker
This sticker is nothing special and I nv ever used it at all! But space jam was the very 1st movie i watched at Jurong Entertainment with my siblings. It's about basketball i think.


Item 7: My chinese composition book
Hah.. i don't know why I kept this but it's quite amazing. As i flip through every composition I wrote, i realised something...
My composition tend to start with ' yi ge feng he ri li de zao shang..' Lols, typical primary school kid i guess.




Item 8: My treasure chest
This is the longest piggy bank i kept with me since primary 5. Got this in the arcade - Timezone. Anchorpoint used to have Timezone and i think my sisters and I went down every single day to play lo.
Item 9: A card from Mdm Suhaidah
This card is meaningful to me. She is someone whom I would like to thank for. Someone who saved my life and always been there to give me advice. Thank you so much!

Item 10: A compiled card from my secondary 2 friends
This is so sweet. It's always nice to know what a friend you are to people around you. 2e2, my beloved class ever.


Item 11: A card from Melissa
Melissa, I haven been able to talk to you nor see you for almost 10 months. Having known you since jc and we carry the same bag, we have almost the same build and our econ teacher always get confused over us. Haha. My dear gal, I miss you soooo much. I wish we will still be able to talk to each other like we did in the past. Looking forward to meet you when you're back in Singapore. Love ya always.


There're still lotsa precious things to me... i kept all the cards and letters from my friends only to realised that I lost contact with most of them and had no idea where to look for them. My primary 5 friend- azlina. She left Sg to go back to Malaysia and her last letter to me was quite sad. Sigh, she nv leave me an address to reply. Hope she is doing well no matter where she is...
And melissa seow, i wrote you letters but i nv sent them. Saw her marriage photos 1-2 years back. Yupz, will try to contact her soon.

To everyone who is still having their exams, hang in there! It'll soon be over and the party is gg to begin!

Cheers,
Adeline

dear diary,

it was my 21st birthday yesterday ... thanks for all the sms-es. =) All the best to everyone who is having your exams!
every year, i celebrate my actual birthday with books and notes.. zzz, hopefully next year would be better.
spent my whole day at MacDonald mugging.
wrote a page of letter to God. praying hard for everything to happen smoothly.

Have not been updating my blog and i realized my blog has been drowned with all my sorrows, complaints, anger, etc. etc.

So the next entry which is after my exams will be much better, I promised. Till then, I'm a stressed up kid who can't wait for exams to be over from my LIFE. That will be next semester if NOTHING goes wrong. (cross my fingers)

@delphin - wanna travel!

31Oct 2008

Photos of super pre-21st birthday celebration.
Special thanks to my family and friends who make this party a success =)