Dear diary,
After a week of school after prelim, i didn't really study but still got do homework that was given. Hmm.. only subject that i met my target was math. But still i'm so disappointed with my paper 1 , expect to do better. Paper 2 which i give up actually surprised me. Chemistry was quite expected that i won't do well. Econ haven get back yet so no comments. The one that is very worrying for me is gp. Today i get back my paper n i think i'm the lowest in class. I get an F9 for gp.. can't believe it! Nv get so low an F9 before in my whole life lor. What should i do to pass gp? thinking...
After school, we celebrated keng ee n mei xuan birthday. To both gals, happy birthday! Hope u guys will have a great weekend celebrating ur birthday with ur loves one ya? Mei xuan, sorry that i nv write in ur card, no one pass to me... rmb to give mi on monday ya. I nv atend the talk on grad nite cos i wanted to go home so that i can go out with my family! Daddy n mummy, love u guys lots! My sisters n bro wanted an adidas bag which they mentioned last sat n on tuesday, my parents walked around orchard for 3 hours just to find the bag they wanted. But i was rather pissed off with my siblings when they saw that what my parents bought was not the one they liked. I was pissed off because they only think of themselves, can't they see how much dad n mum putting in so much effort n time to buy for them? Also, the bag isn't cheap. Even if the bag isn't what they like, they shouldn't 'criticised' it. My parents walk for 3 hours to find it , they went to so many shops till mummy's foot got blisters. So we went to change the bag today. went to city link, spend abt half n hour or more thinking what to change cos that adidas shop also dun have what they want. The guy
there told us that we can go over to suntec city to see if they have what we wanted. Argh, there goes my tennis! Suppose to play tennis at 5, but since we are going over to suntec city, it is imposible to make it for tennis. Luckily we managed to find the bag they like... den we went over to nike to take a look. We look at their bags n dad took one of them. I saw it n say ' hey this looks better'. I only commenting but didn't ecpect dad to say ' den buy it lor' I dun wanna buy cos it is very expensive since we have already bought the adidas bag. So i say dun wan.. so expensive. Dad says it's ok.. as long as u all study hard den it's fine. Aiyo, i feel so bad! I rather he dun buy it for me cos it will make me feel guilty if i did not do well for my exams which i did ( my gp flunk!)In the end, he bought it for me. Also i'm not really in need of a bag even if i like it , i should have stop him but it's difficult to change dad's mind. well, we eat prata in suntec den walk to topshop. Hmm.. another surprise! my sisters saw the colour of the adidas bag they wanted whihc was already out of stocks in most outlets in s'pore. Den we saw a bigger version their bag which kor says he wanted to buy it. moreover, it got the colour he wanted n there is only one left. We gave him a call den send him mms. The assistant told us not to buy cos it is not worth the price (69)so we nv buy. But.. when we reached home my youngest sister says she like the bigger bag den she will pay 50 bucks. we had a bet, cos my youngest sis (cynthia) n I said we saw the same bag in queensway while mum n third sis ( cindy) says they saw a different one. so mum gave cyn 15 bucks n cindy gave 10 bucks to bet while cyn fork out the rest. If it is the bag, she will get sponsored but if not, she will den have to buy it herself in suntec if she wants it. As expected, the bag was sold. Dad n mum are really nice! They called topshop to ask to reserve the bag cos it is the last one n went to buy it for her. Where to find such parents? I'm so blessed! In a day, my house got 3 more sling bags.. n total cost more than 200 bucks! plus all the carpark fees, 3 days of shopping.. the cost of petrol... those sports wear.. n foods. Accumlate to be an awesome amount.
@de|ine => thankful to god for giving mi such a wonderful parents n a great family!
Friday, September 30, 2005
Sunday, September 25, 2005
My short n after prelim holidays
Dear diary,
Finally prelims is over but there is still a levels! Well, just have to take one step at a time...
Went to the dental on friday, my teeth got holes! argh.. but i brush teeth at least 3 times a day la. when i ask the dentist why got hole, my dad laugh my mi den the dentist smile! so throw face.. end up i got no answer! it hurts so badly that i nv want to talk in the car to my parents when they talk to me. The dentist says i have to go back after two weeks cos this is just a temporary refill, the nurse says if it really hurts very badly den give them a call. Gosh, i already feel tt it's so painful after the thing , can't imagine the extreme pain.
That afternoon, i went out with cheryl to orchard. We went far east den walk around... spent some time in one of the shop to choose a flower rubber band den end up we nv buy. i think we spent abt 10 minutes. den go to the third level n see earrings. I bought a pair of dolphin n butterfly earrings. but i gave the butterfly earrings to her :) den we walk to wisma n taka. end up eating at the food court .. one of the jap food, we share it cos wanna leave some space for our yummy shake. After which, we went to hereen ( one of the accessories shop)haha.. rmb just now i was saying abt the flower rubber band? we saw it again but this tiem round we were more interested in the flower pin which we bought. It was nice n sweet. Den cheryl bought 2 pairs of butterfly ear stud. one is purple n the other one is white.. we each have one of the colour n she gave it to me. lol... hmm den we went to take neoprints with our flower. Oh next is the best par, as promised, i bought cheryl to billy bomber's to try their shake. each of us order cookies n cream shake. we were sitting inside den every table like have food so we thot better order some food too, end up we order potatoe salad. i dun expect it to be such a big portion cos it is not very expensive given that it's an amercian restaurant! We ate till we ere so bloated la but still left half a plate! our shake also left alot.. den cheryl suggest to play game. we play cai quan. i dunno how to play den cheryl teach mi.. end up i keep losing. or rather, i nv win once at all. den we play siscors paper stone.. i also keep losing. hmmp.. eat so much lor! in the end, i quit playing den we try to eat a bit more. both of us wanted to drink more of the shake cos it is so delicious n really nice. Each of us pay 10 bucks.. walk to centre point to buy cheryl's young cousin present. Initially wanted to buy barbie doll for her once but cheryl's mum says buy sth useful so we bought stationary set instead. Cheryl n I walk to the mrt station den she took mrt while i walk to the bus stop. Kinda weird walking alone in orchard... waited rather long for bus. watched tv the whole night n turn in at ard 2?
On saturday, i went to my cousin's 21st b'day. Nothing special.. mi n my other female cousins were gossiping abt his friends... hmm i didn't drink this time round, dun wanna feel dizzy again after my last experience. Watched 'Full HOuse' in his house.. omg. rain is so cute la! haha, nowadays i'm really into korean shows! n this is really bad.. cos a level is so near. This short break, i've been slacking, nv touch my book at all n din even wanna look at them. slept at 3.30am
Woke up at 12pm... watch tv for hours, talk on the phone with melissa for hours too. went to queensway at ard 5pm. at 6, i went running ard my compound n queenstown stadium. ( i met amanda so ran with her) reached home only at 7.30... been lazing ard for a few hours le. Now i needa go prepare some sch stuff which have to be given by tml.
All i wish right now is - everyday after today, i'll be able to pull myself through. even if i fall, i must still stand up n walk it through. Determination n courage is all i need..
Finally prelims is over but there is still a levels! Well, just have to take one step at a time...
Went to the dental on friday, my teeth got holes! argh.. but i brush teeth at least 3 times a day la. when i ask the dentist why got hole, my dad laugh my mi den the dentist smile! so throw face.. end up i got no answer! it hurts so badly that i nv want to talk in the car to my parents when they talk to me. The dentist says i have to go back after two weeks cos this is just a temporary refill, the nurse says if it really hurts very badly den give them a call. Gosh, i already feel tt it's so painful after the thing , can't imagine the extreme pain.
That afternoon, i went out with cheryl to orchard. We went far east den walk around... spent some time in one of the shop to choose a flower rubber band den end up we nv buy. i think we spent abt 10 minutes. den go to the third level n see earrings. I bought a pair of dolphin n butterfly earrings. but i gave the butterfly earrings to her :) den we walk to wisma n taka. end up eating at the food court .. one of the jap food, we share it cos wanna leave some space for our yummy shake. After which, we went to hereen ( one of the accessories shop)haha.. rmb just now i was saying abt the flower rubber band? we saw it again but this tiem round we were more interested in the flower pin which we bought. It was nice n sweet. Den cheryl bought 2 pairs of butterfly ear stud. one is purple n the other one is white.. we each have one of the colour n she gave it to me. lol... hmm den we went to take neoprints with our flower. Oh next is the best par, as promised, i bought cheryl to billy bomber's to try their shake. each of us order cookies n cream shake. we were sitting inside den every table like have food so we thot better order some food too, end up we order potatoe salad. i dun expect it to be such a big portion cos it is not very expensive given that it's an amercian restaurant! We ate till we ere so bloated la but still left half a plate! our shake also left alot.. den cheryl suggest to play game. we play cai quan. i dunno how to play den cheryl teach mi.. end up i keep losing. or rather, i nv win once at all. den we play siscors paper stone.. i also keep losing. hmmp.. eat so much lor! in the end, i quit playing den we try to eat a bit more. both of us wanted to drink more of the shake cos it is so delicious n really nice. Each of us pay 10 bucks.. walk to centre point to buy cheryl's young cousin present. Initially wanted to buy barbie doll for her once but cheryl's mum says buy sth useful so we bought stationary set instead. Cheryl n I walk to the mrt station den she took mrt while i walk to the bus stop. Kinda weird walking alone in orchard... waited rather long for bus. watched tv the whole night n turn in at ard 2?
On saturday, i went to my cousin's 21st b'day. Nothing special.. mi n my other female cousins were gossiping abt his friends... hmm i didn't drink this time round, dun wanna feel dizzy again after my last experience. Watched 'Full HOuse' in his house.. omg. rain is so cute la! haha, nowadays i'm really into korean shows! n this is really bad.. cos a level is so near. This short break, i've been slacking, nv touch my book at all n din even wanna look at them. slept at 3.30am
Woke up at 12pm... watch tv for hours, talk on the phone with melissa for hours too. went to queensway at ard 5pm. at 6, i went running ard my compound n queenstown stadium. ( i met amanda so ran with her) reached home only at 7.30... been lazing ard for a few hours le. Now i needa go prepare some sch stuff which have to be given by tml.
All i wish right now is - everyday after today, i'll be able to pull myself through. even if i fall, i must still stand up n walk it through. Determination n courage is all i need..
Friday, September 23, 2005
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Runaway
I dun wish for more... i just wish for long legs. I wanna run away, away from this relistic world. A world that I dun wanna live in. I dun see happiness that other people get to see in life cos my life has nothing to make me feel like wanting to go on. I wanna give up everthing I have to go to paradise...
Where is our happiness?
Every cycle of life, we undergo different stages.
Begin a toddler is the best.
That's where I define my happiness
Too bad that none of us can turn back time
Looking back the past 17 years,
I dun remember any memorable memories
I turn back , only to see a river
I saw the tears from my eyes
These stream of unfateful events occuring in my life
Every now and then, I dun have the courage to live
So far, I have encounter 5 major events that affect my life
Leading to where I m today.
It may be few but it change my life.
Each n everyone give me the same feelings
DISAPPOINTMENT, FEAR, LOST
I knew it's coming near me once again
It's so near that I'm so afraid of seeing the sun out.
Yes, my life is 100000 times better than a majority of ppl in the world.
I have a wonderful family, many friends...
But I dun have the 'luck' of moving towards success
The endless effort put into something
Only always to result in the opposite
Am i wrong in wanting to achieve something?
Am i wrong in believing that i can do it if I put in my best?
Am i wrong in not wanting to face failure?
Tell mi!
I m tired of thinking where n what i did wrong.
I m tired of telling myself yes u can do it
I m tired of everyone placing hopes on me
STOP telling mi i can when i myself dun even know how
Begin a silly, foolish n immature individual
I only have a solution...
It's another new day, it's raining heavily outside.
I want everyday to rain ... so that i hide my tears
I cry to release all my unhappiness
Catch me cos i'm falling...
Where is our happiness?
Every cycle of life, we undergo different stages.
Begin a toddler is the best.
That's where I define my happiness
Too bad that none of us can turn back time
Looking back the past 17 years,
I dun remember any memorable memories
I turn back , only to see a river
I saw the tears from my eyes
These stream of unfateful events occuring in my life
Every now and then, I dun have the courage to live
So far, I have encounter 5 major events that affect my life
Leading to where I m today.
It may be few but it change my life.
Each n everyone give me the same feelings
DISAPPOINTMENT, FEAR, LOST
I knew it's coming near me once again
It's so near that I'm so afraid of seeing the sun out.
Yes, my life is 100000 times better than a majority of ppl in the world.
I have a wonderful family, many friends...
But I dun have the 'luck' of moving towards success
The endless effort put into something
Only always to result in the opposite
Am i wrong in wanting to achieve something?
Am i wrong in believing that i can do it if I put in my best?
Am i wrong in not wanting to face failure?
Tell mi!
I m tired of thinking where n what i did wrong.
I m tired of telling myself yes u can do it
I m tired of everyone placing hopes on me
STOP telling mi i can when i myself dun even know how
Begin a silly, foolish n immature individual
I only have a solution...
It's another new day, it's raining heavily outside.
I want everyday to rain ... so that i hide my tears
I cry to release all my unhappiness
Catch me cos i'm falling...
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Dear diary,
Been having my prelims lately... n it's not going to end till next thursday! argh... had a bad chemistry paper 3 yesterday. I already fail it! despite what i had learnt, i had a mental block during the exam.. just cannot think. I nv do environmental chem till as i totally forgot abt it ( leave the ans booklet below my desk) only to realise the last 5 minutes. my organic chem is a total disaster. Hai... i knew this was coming. a bad phenonmenon of my phy chem test. Study till 4.30am makes no difference :(
The only paper i will do well is math paper 1.. paper 2 i tink can also forget abt it le. dunno how to do statistic at all.stupid math .. test so much on memory work for what?
I hate A levels!!! I really need a miracle pill urgently to pull me through this horrible, terrifying n disgusting EXAM. Dunno why i'm feeling so pissed off at this moment in time...
who can help me in math paper 2? ( feel so lost)
i'm a saddist...
@de|ine => desperate help needed .. call 995
Been having my prelims lately... n it's not going to end till next thursday! argh... had a bad chemistry paper 3 yesterday. I already fail it! despite what i had learnt, i had a mental block during the exam.. just cannot think. I nv do environmental chem till as i totally forgot abt it ( leave the ans booklet below my desk) only to realise the last 5 minutes. my organic chem is a total disaster. Hai... i knew this was coming. a bad phenonmenon of my phy chem test. Study till 4.30am makes no difference :(
The only paper i will do well is math paper 1.. paper 2 i tink can also forget abt it le. dunno how to do statistic at all.stupid math .. test so much on memory work for what?
I hate A levels!!! I really need a miracle pill urgently to pull me through this horrible, terrifying n disgusting EXAM. Dunno why i'm feeling so pissed off at this moment in time...
who can help me in math paper 2? ( feel so lost)
i'm a saddist...
@de|ine => desperate help needed .. call 995
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Dear diary.
I'm feeling so happy today! It is teachers' day n i sort of quite high cos it is our last year celeberating teachers' day. yesterday i spent hours doing a 'card' for mr low on behalf for the tennis gals. the card is full of roger federer pictures.. his idol! yupz.. i enjoy the performance put up by then new teachers... den oh ya we also bought a nike watch for mr low. His fav too..
reach home at 10.. hurry to find pictures of daddy n mummy. den print it out before they r home. Den i paste them on construction paper n decorate them. wactch tv till 1pm n slept till 4. pig right? i woke up n read chem equilibrium. i flunk my physical cehm test.. so sad though i knew i'm gonna flunk. hai~.. like mich says prelim is just 12 days away.. i nv tried having a full paper before. Can only do well in topical tests in the past, i think this time i will still be dead. I'm still far from finishing half of my syallbus cos i nv touch econ except 1 topic. i hate economics!!!
Went for dinner with my aunt to celebrate daddy bday den bought him to esplande ( chocolate bar!!) we reach there quite late den can only order drinks. but we wanted to eat the desert so we like keep asking. finally, the girl says ok though she looks abit bu shuang. The guy is better.. he was much friendlier. yummy was all i could say.
I love daddy lots n lots.. more than anything in this world! I dun wanna disappoint him for my 'a'levels but now i needa overcome the problem of time shortage! Die die also must try to pass my subjects. All my wish for daddy is to stay healthy!
@de|ine=> thankful for a happy family!
I'm feeling so happy today! It is teachers' day n i sort of quite high cos it is our last year celeberating teachers' day. yesterday i spent hours doing a 'card' for mr low on behalf for the tennis gals. the card is full of roger federer pictures.. his idol! yupz.. i enjoy the performance put up by then new teachers... den oh ya we also bought a nike watch for mr low. His fav too..
reach home at 10.. hurry to find pictures of daddy n mummy. den print it out before they r home. Den i paste them on construction paper n decorate them. wactch tv till 1pm n slept till 4. pig right? i woke up n read chem equilibrium. i flunk my physical cehm test.. so sad though i knew i'm gonna flunk. hai~.. like mich says prelim is just 12 days away.. i nv tried having a full paper before. Can only do well in topical tests in the past, i think this time i will still be dead. I'm still far from finishing half of my syallbus cos i nv touch econ except 1 topic. i hate economics!!!
Went for dinner with my aunt to celebrate daddy bday den bought him to esplande ( chocolate bar!!) we reach there quite late den can only order drinks. but we wanted to eat the desert so we like keep asking. finally, the girl says ok though she looks abit bu shuang. The guy is better.. he was much friendlier. yummy was all i could say.
I love daddy lots n lots.. more than anything in this world! I dun wanna disappoint him for my 'a'levels but now i needa overcome the problem of time shortage! Die die also must try to pass my subjects. All my wish for daddy is to stay healthy!
@de|ine=> thankful for a happy family!
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Bad week again
Dear diary,
i feel like every thing is happening again.. what happen to me in the past repeats.This whole day hasn't been that great afterall. n definitely, tomorrow wun be any better esp when there is gp paper ( my worst subject) On monday, we had our mock math paper. the questions are not as difficult if i had study harder for it. However, i'm glad to see that they are not so alien to me , at least i know how to start all the questions. Tuwsday went home to study for chemistry though i had math paper as well. I study from 3.30 to 2am, trying hard to know what is going on for ionic quilibrium. Just can't get myself to understand it. The paper really was a disaster... i nv felt the way i had ydt after the paper. it was really really frustrating n i knew i'm going to flunk the paper badly. Not a single question i got it correct when ms yamuna came in for the last lesson which really turn me off. Just after a motivated talk, the next lesson was hers. I do agree with her that we are not performing well but not her assumption that we flop the paper cos we have two tests today. Because i knew everyone study for chemistry and not math. The paper wasn't difficult at all after she gone through it but they just weren't so straightforward. Also there isn't really enough time to complete the paper for a few of us... i hate to see this happen when it is so near to our major exam. I was thinking that if i do well for this paper, i can so call complete my revision for physical chem but nope, it demoralised me cos despite the effort i put, i get nothing out of it. Hope it doesn't mean my grade for chem is going worst cos in the past once my grade drop before a major exam, it always bring me sth bad. pray hard it wun!
Went home ydt anly at 7pm , my brother pick mi home. at ard 8plus, i felt pain ard my eye. i told my mum but she nv say anything... only at 11 plus i felt sth different den look into the mirror n realise my left eye is swollen. haha.. thot today can dun go school le. morning woke up, it became worst but i dun wanna miss lessons so go school lor. It subside after a few hours so i thot nothing lor but during econ lesson, it started swelling again. by then , i already got an early form from mdm lim. thinking if should go for gp anot cos tml got mock paper ma. when asked who is lecturing, haha it solve my problem. cos mr chan is going to lecture n i dun think will learn anything much. so went home! step out of school, my eye like better alot le. ah ha.. the problem lies within the school. go home n slp for very long... woke up to watch da chang jin. so sad... my eye got swollen again. mum ask mi to go se doctor tml during break cos now all the clinics are close! see how first... ok needa do half of revision 7 before i can go slp...
hope tml gp can pass can le.
@de|ine => swell eye
i feel like every thing is happening again.. what happen to me in the past repeats.This whole day hasn't been that great afterall. n definitely, tomorrow wun be any better esp when there is gp paper ( my worst subject) On monday, we had our mock math paper. the questions are not as difficult if i had study harder for it. However, i'm glad to see that they are not so alien to me , at least i know how to start all the questions. Tuwsday went home to study for chemistry though i had math paper as well. I study from 3.30 to 2am, trying hard to know what is going on for ionic quilibrium. Just can't get myself to understand it. The paper really was a disaster... i nv felt the way i had ydt after the paper. it was really really frustrating n i knew i'm going to flunk the paper badly. Not a single question i got it correct when ms yamuna came in for the last lesson which really turn me off. Just after a motivated talk, the next lesson was hers. I do agree with her that we are not performing well but not her assumption that we flop the paper cos we have two tests today. Because i knew everyone study for chemistry and not math. The paper wasn't difficult at all after she gone through it but they just weren't so straightforward. Also there isn't really enough time to complete the paper for a few of us... i hate to see this happen when it is so near to our major exam. I was thinking that if i do well for this paper, i can so call complete my revision for physical chem but nope, it demoralised me cos despite the effort i put, i get nothing out of it. Hope it doesn't mean my grade for chem is going worst cos in the past once my grade drop before a major exam, it always bring me sth bad. pray hard it wun!
Went home ydt anly at 7pm , my brother pick mi home. at ard 8plus, i felt pain ard my eye. i told my mum but she nv say anything... only at 11 plus i felt sth different den look into the mirror n realise my left eye is swollen. haha.. thot today can dun go school le. morning woke up, it became worst but i dun wanna miss lessons so go school lor. It subside after a few hours so i thot nothing lor but during econ lesson, it started swelling again. by then , i already got an early form from mdm lim. thinking if should go for gp anot cos tml got mock paper ma. when asked who is lecturing, haha it solve my problem. cos mr chan is going to lecture n i dun think will learn anything much. so went home! step out of school, my eye like better alot le. ah ha.. the problem lies within the school. go home n slp for very long... woke up to watch da chang jin. so sad... my eye got swollen again. mum ask mi to go se doctor tml during break cos now all the clinics are close! see how first... ok needa do half of revision 7 before i can go slp...
hope tml gp can pass can le.
@de|ine => swell eye
Saturday, August 20, 2005
dear diary,
it had been a busy week due to all the tests. But i had survive them all :) Went to school on monday with a heavy heart knowing it'll be a busy week. On my way to chem lab, i was in a daze till meli ask mi ' did u hear what they say?' cos we met keng ee, cheryl n yvette.. i say 'no' den she says... miss yamuna says there is no chem prac, den wan us to do self revision cos wed got chem test on 3 topics. My mood totally change... hate to do things last minute!! moreover, we have tests on tue n wed.. den she only give us two days to prepare. End up we go lib to study.. lucky still got bring one set of notes.
Tuesday
Drq as usal always fail so nv place high hopes on it too but of cos if pass i'll be glad! nothing special cos wed got two tests... whole afternoon=study
Wednesay
The questions on essay i spot was right!!! But when mr tan gif us see the qns - i was so shock n scare cos i saw the word 'trade deficit' which i thot omg.. study wrong topic liao. The qns damn long la.. i sit so far, can't really see very clearly. was figuring out what the qns asking den after 10 minutes, den i realise is the one that i studied. part of me was feeling happy cos i spot the right one but the other was i don't have enough time!! End of the day got chem test... thanks to the principal it was cancel. i dunno whether to be happy or sad. happy cos test postpone but sad cos there is no reason to do the test badly which means today must study for the test! argh...
Thursday
School ended late... finally there isn't any gp homework today! I did slack a bit but still got revise math. erm.. Only thing i remember was i was disappointed that junyang was out. sob sob.. i think he deserve to get into the final round. Saddned! was glad that kelly got in! Hope she win in the final...
Friday
I slept at 2.30am this morning n got up as usual for school. These two days keep haiving mood swing.. argh, can't stand myself! ( i knew woonli would say den sit lor) haha... lame eh gal but still manage to break into my smile. went home n sleep for hours. at night, i watched tv... read math book 1 till ap gp den daddy came in to ask wanna eat swensen? Hee.. of cos i said yes! den he ask us to go get change. i was wearing like home clothes cos thot go holland eat den go home le. My parents dress quite nice so when we meet out in the living room.. my dad says eh going to orchard leh u sure u wanna wear like that? so i change... it was 10.45pm n there was quite a long queue. we waited for abt 30 minutes den went in. Inside there were still quite a no of empty tables.. i wonder y they kept us outside so long! hmm... we share a regular earthquake, fries n a plate of fish n chips cos everyone seems so full. when we went out... again we saw a long queue but inside there's like abt 4 to 5 tables empty. Think it is one way to do business ba... it's a tactic. Felt so fulll, went home to watch tv again till near 2am den i went to sleep
Saturday
Woke up very late at 11 plus. slack till 1.30 den comtinue my math. done reading book 1 by 4. get ready to go tuition... today is a boringn tiring day. at night.. i nv touch my books. watch tv all the way n went online to slack. time = 11.29pm i'm turning in soon. tml shall be my last tennis training just before my a levels. So sad... i wan to continue but it is not a very wise choice right now. studies some first ya. will enjoy tml training!
Next week
Mon n wed - mock math paper
Wed - inorganic test
Friday - gp papers
@de|ine => mentally n physically drained
it had been a busy week due to all the tests. But i had survive them all :) Went to school on monday with a heavy heart knowing it'll be a busy week. On my way to chem lab, i was in a daze till meli ask mi ' did u hear what they say?' cos we met keng ee, cheryl n yvette.. i say 'no' den she says... miss yamuna says there is no chem prac, den wan us to do self revision cos wed got chem test on 3 topics. My mood totally change... hate to do things last minute!! moreover, we have tests on tue n wed.. den she only give us two days to prepare. End up we go lib to study.. lucky still got bring one set of notes.
Tuesday
Drq as usal always fail so nv place high hopes on it too but of cos if pass i'll be glad! nothing special cos wed got two tests... whole afternoon=study
Wednesay
The questions on essay i spot was right!!! But when mr tan gif us see the qns - i was so shock n scare cos i saw the word 'trade deficit' which i thot omg.. study wrong topic liao. The qns damn long la.. i sit so far, can't really see very clearly. was figuring out what the qns asking den after 10 minutes, den i realise is the one that i studied. part of me was feeling happy cos i spot the right one but the other was i don't have enough time!! End of the day got chem test... thanks to the principal it was cancel. i dunno whether to be happy or sad. happy cos test postpone but sad cos there is no reason to do the test badly which means today must study for the test! argh...
Thursday
School ended late... finally there isn't any gp homework today! I did slack a bit but still got revise math. erm.. Only thing i remember was i was disappointed that junyang was out. sob sob.. i think he deserve to get into the final round. Saddned! was glad that kelly got in! Hope she win in the final...
Friday
I slept at 2.30am this morning n got up as usual for school. These two days keep haiving mood swing.. argh, can't stand myself! ( i knew woonli would say den sit lor) haha... lame eh gal but still manage to break into my smile. went home n sleep for hours. at night, i watched tv... read math book 1 till ap gp den daddy came in to ask wanna eat swensen? Hee.. of cos i said yes! den he ask us to go get change. i was wearing like home clothes cos thot go holland eat den go home le. My parents dress quite nice so when we meet out in the living room.. my dad says eh going to orchard leh u sure u wanna wear like that? so i change... it was 10.45pm n there was quite a long queue. we waited for abt 30 minutes den went in. Inside there were still quite a no of empty tables.. i wonder y they kept us outside so long! hmm... we share a regular earthquake, fries n a plate of fish n chips cos everyone seems so full. when we went out... again we saw a long queue but inside there's like abt 4 to 5 tables empty. Think it is one way to do business ba... it's a tactic. Felt so fulll, went home to watch tv again till near 2am den i went to sleep
Saturday
Woke up very late at 11 plus. slack till 1.30 den comtinue my math. done reading book 1 by 4. get ready to go tuition... today is a boringn tiring day. at night.. i nv touch my books. watch tv all the way n went online to slack. time = 11.29pm i'm turning in soon. tml shall be my last tennis training just before my a levels. So sad... i wan to continue but it is not a very wise choice right now. studies some first ya. will enjoy tml training!
Next week
Mon n wed - mock math paper
Wed - inorganic test
Friday - gp papers
@de|ine => mentally n physically drained
Saturday, August 13, 2005
I'm already there
i love this song... so touching
I'm Already There
(Richie McDonald/Gary Baker/Frank Myers)
He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already
There
I'm Already There
(Richie McDonald/Gary Baker/Frank Myers)
He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already
There
Friday, August 12, 2005
Flustered!
i'm feeling very piss off right now. argh...stop disturbing me u !@#$$%$%#$%%^$#^%#^$. LEAVE ME ALONE FOR GOODNESS SAKE..
Sunday, August 07, 2005
regrets.. lost.. troubled
Dear diary,
Walking home with my headphone
Thoughts ran through wildly
Flashes come n go
Words floating by
Walking as slow as a snail
The thought of going home was far
Seven o'clock in the evening
The wind is blowing against me
As I past by my house
Tears rolled down
I dunno what is going through my mind
Soon, i reached the front of the swimming pool
Settle down just before the pool.
Took the phone, i wrote down my feelings
'Message sent' was all i could see
No reply ... the phone was down
The phone rang
Had to pretend i was fine
That wasn't really easy.
Scrolling down my contact list
I rang someone...
Just need someone to talk to me
Keeping me company.
'Someone' isn't free
Just after 'someone' ask why
I cried. Silence.
'Nope, nothing I'm fine. Really I'm fine. Bye'
I couldn't stop tearing...
All I did was sit there
Staring... blasting the music...
9 o'clock time to head home.
Couldn't believe it happen to me.
@de|ine=> fear
Walking home with my headphone
Thoughts ran through wildly
Flashes come n go
Words floating by
Walking as slow as a snail
The thought of going home was far
Seven o'clock in the evening
The wind is blowing against me
As I past by my house
Tears rolled down
I dunno what is going through my mind
Soon, i reached the front of the swimming pool
Settle down just before the pool.
Took the phone, i wrote down my feelings
'Message sent' was all i could see
No reply ... the phone was down
The phone rang
Had to pretend i was fine
That wasn't really easy.
Scrolling down my contact list
I rang someone...
Just need someone to talk to me
Keeping me company.
'Someone' isn't free
Just after 'someone' ask why
I cried. Silence.
'Nope, nothing I'm fine. Really I'm fine. Bye'
I couldn't stop tearing...
All I did was sit there
Staring... blasting the music...
9 o'clock time to head home.
Couldn't believe it happen to me.
@de|ine=> fear
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
My weekends
Dear diary,
This weekend went out with my family to taka to eat lunch at crystal jade. ate quite alot den walk walk ... i managed to buy sth- a book by nicholas spark (true believer) these few weeks, i've read 2 books by nicholas spark n currently reading the wedding. Today i think i only spend 1 n a half hour being attentive in fact only 1 hour ba. During chem lecture, i've been reading the story book all the way den econ i copied notes for half an hour den ther it came the firm alarm. It's so soft la.. can't be heard. Well, jc fire drill is so different la.. we spend 45 minutes in the parade square listening mostly to the principal talking. i'm glad that the receptionist said that to the P haha... also he mentioned about those upgrade stuff in the sch which do not benefit the j2 anyway. After 45 minutes, we realise our break has gone one n only break of the day... need to go hall for civis which is also very boring though it shld concern us. i think everyone was to eat so hardly ask any qns. hmm... throughout the whole day i only listen to ms yamuna lesson.. she's too fierce to be slack in her class. Had to stare at her for the whole 1 hour otherwise i think u will be fry. It's either my eye sight is getting worst or i stare at her too long liao tt's y by the end of lesson i feel that my eyes are so tired. went running today. my timing is getting lousier for 400m. it's like 1.46min. hai~ dun think i can make it for the sports carnival.still thinking if i wanna join anot? i feel like joining cos it's the last year liao but i dun wanna join cos i scare will pull the whole team down. Read econ topic 8 today but had difficulty in understanding them so went running to relax myself n to exercise. but... i think all my effort is gone to the drain cos i ate ice cream after dinner. Toffee cream yummy! watch tv till 10, pack my bag n here i m blogging n chatting. These few days the air con in the bus are working so well that i feel like i'm in a cold c'try. Cold is better than hot i suppose.
An interesting happen on monday that is 'free lunch' in pizza with mich, aiting n wenda. While waiting for gp lesson to start at 4pm, we went to jp for lunch. we were standing outside pizza hut thinking if we shld eat it den a lady came over to ask us do a survey which i ignored her. den the uncle from pizza hut came n told us to help them do a survey in their new flavour of pizza den stil got 5 bucks of voucher. haha... of cos we went in cos , it's such a good deal. When we came out, i felt full lor cos they gave us a rather big piece.so there is our free lunch.. went to coffee bean for desert. my first time there n i ate a chocolate cake.. yummy. gp lesson was a total waste of my time. i regret going for it!
erm... still got quite a no of things i want to blog but i'm sleepy already.
To maria, glad that u drop by to see us. n i really hope to see u next year haha hopefully is in usa. :) take good care n miss ya !
@de|ine = tired
This weekend went out with my family to taka to eat lunch at crystal jade. ate quite alot den walk walk ... i managed to buy sth- a book by nicholas spark (true believer) these few weeks, i've read 2 books by nicholas spark n currently reading the wedding. Today i think i only spend 1 n a half hour being attentive in fact only 1 hour ba. During chem lecture, i've been reading the story book all the way den econ i copied notes for half an hour den ther it came the firm alarm. It's so soft la.. can't be heard. Well, jc fire drill is so different la.. we spend 45 minutes in the parade square listening mostly to the principal talking. i'm glad that the receptionist said that to the P haha... also he mentioned about those upgrade stuff in the sch which do not benefit the j2 anyway. After 45 minutes, we realise our break has gone one n only break of the day... need to go hall for civis which is also very boring though it shld concern us. i think everyone was to eat so hardly ask any qns. hmm... throughout the whole day i only listen to ms yamuna lesson.. she's too fierce to be slack in her class. Had to stare at her for the whole 1 hour otherwise i think u will be fry. It's either my eye sight is getting worst or i stare at her too long liao tt's y by the end of lesson i feel that my eyes are so tired. went running today. my timing is getting lousier for 400m. it's like 1.46min. hai~ dun think i can make it for the sports carnival.still thinking if i wanna join anot? i feel like joining cos it's the last year liao but i dun wanna join cos i scare will pull the whole team down. Read econ topic 8 today but had difficulty in understanding them so went running to relax myself n to exercise. but... i think all my effort is gone to the drain cos i ate ice cream after dinner. Toffee cream yummy! watch tv till 10, pack my bag n here i m blogging n chatting. These few days the air con in the bus are working so well that i feel like i'm in a cold c'try. Cold is better than hot i suppose.
An interesting happen on monday that is 'free lunch' in pizza with mich, aiting n wenda. While waiting for gp lesson to start at 4pm, we went to jp for lunch. we were standing outside pizza hut thinking if we shld eat it den a lady came over to ask us do a survey which i ignored her. den the uncle from pizza hut came n told us to help them do a survey in their new flavour of pizza den stil got 5 bucks of voucher. haha... of cos we went in cos , it's such a good deal. When we came out, i felt full lor cos they gave us a rather big piece.so there is our free lunch.. went to coffee bean for desert. my first time there n i ate a chocolate cake.. yummy. gp lesson was a total waste of my time. i regret going for it!
erm... still got quite a no of things i want to blog but i'm sleepy already.
To maria, glad that u drop by to see us. n i really hope to see u next year haha hopefully is in usa. :) take good care n miss ya !
@de|ine = tired
Friday, July 29, 2005
,my week
Dear diary,
This week is rather packed with my inorganic chemistry test, continous random variable test n a written assignment for protectionism on wed, thur n fri respectively. Stayed back in school on tuesday to mug chem with cheryl, wenda n michelle. Hmm, we studied till 3.30 den went to spc den bought lots of food n had orange juice. eh.. can't really remember where mi n cheryl went cos we were heading back to the benches near the yoga room. Wanted to reach the bench first so i ran den cheryl found a shortcut which i din realise. when i saw her in front of mi, i was shocked .. the very next moment she fell. i'm even more stunned yet wenda was there laughing real hard la. cos she says the way cheryl fell is so funny. lol... in the end every1 end up laughing after wenda show us how cheryl fell. Poor cheryl, hope ur knee is doing fine ya? well, we studied till like 6? den korkor came to pick mi n send cheryl to je. Can't imagine how my brother actually passed his driving test! almost got into an accident on our way home ... every morning sit his car i dare not even sleep. Everytime red light his eyes auto will close one. cannot stand him .. argh!!! today he did it again. had to push him real hard den he will wake up. Back to tue, went to slp at 1am but my stupid tooth hurts like hell that i kept toss n turn till i can't stand it anymore. i woke up to brush my teeth again at 1.45am. the pain ease for a while n came back again .. only till 3am den i slp lor. The next day got chem test which is rather tough for me to concentrate cos i'm tired. i din know how to do those calculation questions but the others looks alright to me. my math test was quite sucky. i hate crv... dun understand the topic at all! lucky i pass , get 17/25. I can nv understand myself.. everytime the test is easy, i screw it all up with my careless mistakes. when everyone find the test easy, i beg to differ. everyday of my tests get worst! econ is the best... can't even remember what to write for that questions la.. just crap all the way.
Stayed back in school today fot the different courses of talks for different university. After hearing the talk on accountacy offered in NTU, i'm quite attracted to me cos i think the job prospect is huge so not scare cannot find a job. Wasn't really interested in the business cos i know it bound to have econ! DId my chem hw while waiting for my bro to fetch me.. ask him to come at 5 he dun want.. in the end have to queue up in the road! all thanks to him. the journey home was funny cos everytime he see a jam, he will says change road change road. end up everywhere also traffic jam! haha.. lousy la you... next time please come early hor. btw, ur car stinks! do spray more perfume .. i almost faint! haha... weekend is here le, aain thinking of where to haf fun this weekend.
@de|ine=?
This week is rather packed with my inorganic chemistry test, continous random variable test n a written assignment for protectionism on wed, thur n fri respectively. Stayed back in school on tuesday to mug chem with cheryl, wenda n michelle. Hmm, we studied till 3.30 den went to spc den bought lots of food n had orange juice. eh.. can't really remember where mi n cheryl went cos we were heading back to the benches near the yoga room. Wanted to reach the bench first so i ran den cheryl found a shortcut which i din realise. when i saw her in front of mi, i was shocked .. the very next moment she fell. i'm even more stunned yet wenda was there laughing real hard la. cos she says the way cheryl fell is so funny. lol... in the end every1 end up laughing after wenda show us how cheryl fell. Poor cheryl, hope ur knee is doing fine ya? well, we studied till like 6? den korkor came to pick mi n send cheryl to je. Can't imagine how my brother actually passed his driving test! almost got into an accident on our way home ... every morning sit his car i dare not even sleep. Everytime red light his eyes auto will close one. cannot stand him .. argh!!! today he did it again. had to push him real hard den he will wake up. Back to tue, went to slp at 1am but my stupid tooth hurts like hell that i kept toss n turn till i can't stand it anymore. i woke up to brush my teeth again at 1.45am. the pain ease for a while n came back again .. only till 3am den i slp lor. The next day got chem test which is rather tough for me to concentrate cos i'm tired. i din know how to do those calculation questions but the others looks alright to me. my math test was quite sucky. i hate crv... dun understand the topic at all! lucky i pass , get 17/25. I can nv understand myself.. everytime the test is easy, i screw it all up with my careless mistakes. when everyone find the test easy, i beg to differ. everyday of my tests get worst! econ is the best... can't even remember what to write for that questions la.. just crap all the way.
Stayed back in school today fot the different courses of talks for different university. After hearing the talk on accountacy offered in NTU, i'm quite attracted to me cos i think the job prospect is huge so not scare cannot find a job. Wasn't really interested in the business cos i know it bound to have econ! DId my chem hw while waiting for my bro to fetch me.. ask him to come at 5 he dun want.. in the end have to queue up in the road! all thanks to him. the journey home was funny cos everytime he see a jam, he will says change road change road. end up everywhere also traffic jam! haha.. lousy la you... next time please come early hor. btw, ur car stinks! do spray more perfume .. i almost faint! haha... weekend is here le, aain thinking of where to haf fun this weekend.
@de|ine=?
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
I'm bleeding profusely.
No passer-by... the road is empty.
What m I suppose to do?
No roadsign, no direction...
I'm stuck in my mind, my heart, my soul.
At this moment in time, I'm wandering off
Things look the same but they aren't..
Silence was appreciated in the past like u said.
Now silence is cold - strangers was what I felt.
It's not sadness nor anger, it's more of pain.
Mentally tired I am to go through this.
U know what I mean.
Eversince that day,
I had already lose you without saying anything.
I guess nothing could be done.
@de|ine=> been in a daze for days...
No passer-by... the road is empty.
What m I suppose to do?
No roadsign, no direction...
I'm stuck in my mind, my heart, my soul.
At this moment in time, I'm wandering off
Things look the same but they aren't..
Silence was appreciated in the past like u said.
Now silence is cold - strangers was what I felt.
It's not sadness nor anger, it's more of pain.
Mentally tired I am to go through this.
U know what I mean.
Eversince that day,
I had already lose you without saying anything.
I guess nothing could be done.
@de|ine=> been in a daze for days...
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Tennis gathering.
Dear diary,
Yesterday i had my inter-house tennis.. played singles but in the second round i got kicked out haha. was playing against xiangying in the first n cheryl in the second round. hmm... lucky cheryl is from owens too. hope she can help owens win :) all the best gal! After tennis, the team went out for dinner with mr low . It has about 2 to 3 months since we ate a meal together. as usual, mr low is so poor thing always got disturbed by us haha. shall not say anything here :P We had pizza den went to kfc to chit chat. I sat with grace, merilyn n mr low. I nv knew i was such a person to others eh... do i look the type who is easily bullied? do i always look like i'm always dreaming? m i the type who needs someone to shower lots of love on me in a relationship? m i someone who will not do anything really bad if i was to be provoked? haha... i dunno eh. but the way they say mi till i like cannot take care of myself eh , that i'm not fierce enough. Mr low always say i'm those qian jin xiao jie. aiyo, i'm not lor... ok la, i nv do housework at home doesn't prove that ma. in s'pore so many children also got maid at home ma. I dun like to get myself dirty also equal to qian jin xiao jie ar? hmm... maybe in a big group, i dunno how to express myself that's y i dun show alot of myself with the tennis team. anyway, surrently i'm reading a story book by nicholas sparks- the guardian. hope i can read finish by today or latest by tml. looking forward to read the last part of the story cos my fren says it's very sad.
Today i finally pluck up the courage to give u a letter n a gift. To u my dear, i had no intention to hurt ur feelings but i hope u understand that this letter i hope can bring us closer and not to pull us apart. U know that u are special to me n by giving u this letter, i hope we can clear our problems so that life still carry on. I hesitate to give to u cos i'm so afraid of losing someone like u but i gave u cos i wanna go back to the past like how we had been through the one n a half years. Like i said, if only things were as simple...
@de|ine=> back to reading!
Yesterday i had my inter-house tennis.. played singles but in the second round i got kicked out haha. was playing against xiangying in the first n cheryl in the second round. hmm... lucky cheryl is from owens too. hope she can help owens win :) all the best gal! After tennis, the team went out for dinner with mr low . It has about 2 to 3 months since we ate a meal together. as usual, mr low is so poor thing always got disturbed by us haha. shall not say anything here :P We had pizza den went to kfc to chit chat. I sat with grace, merilyn n mr low. I nv knew i was such a person to others eh... do i look the type who is easily bullied? do i always look like i'm always dreaming? m i the type who needs someone to shower lots of love on me in a relationship? m i someone who will not do anything really bad if i was to be provoked? haha... i dunno eh. but the way they say mi till i like cannot take care of myself eh , that i'm not fierce enough. Mr low always say i'm those qian jin xiao jie. aiyo, i'm not lor... ok la, i nv do housework at home doesn't prove that ma. in s'pore so many children also got maid at home ma. I dun like to get myself dirty also equal to qian jin xiao jie ar? hmm... maybe in a big group, i dunno how to express myself that's y i dun show alot of myself with the tennis team. anyway, surrently i'm reading a story book by nicholas sparks- the guardian. hope i can read finish by today or latest by tml. looking forward to read the last part of the story cos my fren says it's very sad.
Today i finally pluck up the courage to give u a letter n a gift. To u my dear, i had no intention to hurt ur feelings but i hope u understand that this letter i hope can bring us closer and not to pull us apart. U know that u are special to me n by giving u this letter, i hope we can clear our problems so that life still carry on. I hesitate to give to u cos i'm so afraid of losing someone like u but i gave u cos i wanna go back to the past like how we had been through the one n a half years. Like i said, if only things were as simple...
@de|ine=> back to reading!
Sunday, July 10, 2005
I want all the luxury in the world!
Dear diary,
It's a sunday today! As usual i had my tennis training... only one word can describe - Joy! Can't believe that i'm so into tennis now that i enjoy playing it so much :) Yesterday was my very first time i think i a little drunk haha. After tuition, I took a cab to my sunt house coz they having a birthday party for my second sunt. hee.. happy birthday! Well, met up ith all my big n cute little cousins. Kids just grow very fast n they are becoming so smart! In the near future, think at my generation really have to lower ourselves to understand them better le. So adorable .. love them all! Near to midnight... my cousins n I gathered n we talked n play games. haha... had two male cousins they were playing hmm a different version of hei bai pei. it was so funny... End up i dunno why, al of us were drinking red wine - cornerstone. Never heard before but it tastes alright la...We chatted n drink till we all lost counts of how glasses were being drunk. By ard 2.45am, all of us were like so dead. my cousins are uttering rubbish.. can't stand them. Went home at 3am... i felt sharp pain on the left side of my stomach.. tink drink too much le ba cos i nv drink so much b4. luckily my parents nv scold haha...
had to wake up at 7.30am this morning. Came home at 12pm den watch tv till 3 plus n sleep till 6pm. My sunday is gone just like this... A levels is just 4 months away.
please... let mi pull through another obstacle this year.
Everytime i think of my studies, i felt that i've disappoint my parents n myself. Perhaps i'm someone with very high aims that's why great disappointment always come. Since young... nothing goes smoothly for me like what my parents alway say.. i'm so unluckily. things always happen bad for me. just hope these are tests set by god for me n things will change for the better. I'm thankful for having the determintion to do everything in my life otherwise i'll be long be defeated by these tests. Most of all, i'm thankful for having such wonderful parents who give me a great family!
@de|ine=> emotional
It's a sunday today! As usual i had my tennis training... only one word can describe - Joy! Can't believe that i'm so into tennis now that i enjoy playing it so much :) Yesterday was my very first time i think i a little drunk haha. After tuition, I took a cab to my sunt house coz they having a birthday party for my second sunt. hee.. happy birthday! Well, met up ith all my big n cute little cousins. Kids just grow very fast n they are becoming so smart! In the near future, think at my generation really have to lower ourselves to understand them better le. So adorable .. love them all! Near to midnight... my cousins n I gathered n we talked n play games. haha... had two male cousins they were playing hmm a different version of hei bai pei. it was so funny... End up i dunno why, al of us were drinking red wine - cornerstone. Never heard before but it tastes alright la...We chatted n drink till we all lost counts of how glasses were being drunk. By ard 2.45am, all of us were like so dead. my cousins are uttering rubbish.. can't stand them. Went home at 3am... i felt sharp pain on the left side of my stomach.. tink drink too much le ba cos i nv drink so much b4. luckily my parents nv scold haha...
had to wake up at 7.30am this morning. Came home at 12pm den watch tv till 3 plus n sleep till 6pm. My sunday is gone just like this... A levels is just 4 months away.
please... let mi pull through another obstacle this year.
Everytime i think of my studies, i felt that i've disappoint my parents n myself. Perhaps i'm someone with very high aims that's why great disappointment always come. Since young... nothing goes smoothly for me like what my parents alway say.. i'm so unluckily. things always happen bad for me. just hope these are tests set by god for me n things will change for the better. I'm thankful for having the determintion to do everything in my life otherwise i'll be long be defeated by these tests. Most of all, i'm thankful for having such wonderful parents who give me a great family!
@de|ine=> emotional
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