Tons of thoughts

Dear diary,

It has been months since i blogged... these 2 months have been busy with projects and revision for exam which is finally over! I'm overjoyed.

Where should i start blogging from? Hmmm, this semester i have been through many happy moments doing ob project. I m so proud with my group members for coming up with our very own coca cola video acted by james and directed by zhen hao. Hee, it's one of the most memorable project team cos we spend many nights eating pizza and meeting up so often working hours and hours. Having to skip my only day free on friday just for ob project but nevertheless, i still had fun! You guys can view their work in youtube -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acwZgopFU7M Thank you for giving mi such a wonderful experience. As much as i had fun in ob project, accounting project wasn't that great. I was so stressed over both the projects, often having to seek help from my frens esp kelvin, cheryl , enguene, james n zhen hao. Remembering the day when i actually had to run to hand up my pbl, having to stay up till 5am everyday facing excel. N those emails we had to send just to gather more information and rephrasing.Luckily all these hard work is paid off cos we get A- and A for the projects. Well done gal! Way to go!!!
In school, I wasn't chill at all.. i wonder what's my limit of stress. I feel so different during school and holiday. In school, i also complain like how stress i am and those sleepless nights and empty stomach. I even can skip meals the whole day and only eat in the middle of the night, only to realise how hungry i was. Sounds like i'm torturing myself but i think of it as a good way of dieting haha. This exam is different from others.. i have been studying with my new found friend - cheryl choo. Slept over at her air-con hall for the past 1 and a half week. We had very little time for revision for this exam due to project ending only at the last week of the semester. I never felt so unprepared for any exam until i came to university. For my elective, i had only 1 day to study for it.. and i had an instinct that it will be my worst paper. As for accounting, i can only say both cheryl n I were lucky. Cos out progress was so slow that we never complete the chapters before the papers. I wonder what we were doing for the 5 days - power napping and chilling out too much? lol, phew.. luckily we went through the tutorials. Well, i can only prayed that I can achieve my goals for this semester but not pinning much hope anyway. Having the give up mentality for few papers, i already lost the motivation. The only thing that kept me going is because I didn't want to disappoint my parents so i will hang on. This exam period is one of my most relaxing period all thanks to cheryl and enguene- i had all my meals as well as ice creams for supper plus many power naps in the afternoon haha. Spend a few days studying till we see the sun then crawl into the bed. hehe.. it was fun. Thanks Cheryl for being there with me to go through this tough time.

After paper yesterday, we went out to town! Cheryl bought 2 tops and we went to catch a movie - 200 pounds beauty. It very nice!!! I was laughing right form the start of the movie- nv laugh till so happy b4 lo. Haha, i really felt it was from the bottom of my heart but i also tear at the end. it was so touching. both the lead actress and actor are so hot!

I'm gonna make plans for this holiday.. today went to body shop and spend 300+.. dunno what i buy also but it's a lot! PLans:
to go hongkong with rowena
oversea trip with my e2 frens
watch central affairs I, II
shopping
facial n dental appointments
hair treatment
n not forget to work! i need the cash for my traveling...

to all my friends who have yet to complete their papers.. please preserve! All the bests :)

A lonely soul

Dear diary,

These 3 weeks passes without me knowing that it...
An overwhelming feeling came over me. Like how much away I was from everyone emotionally, mentally and physically.
As much as I enjoyed those times i spent with them... many of the times when I'm alone, i really thought I'm staying on an island.

Just about bringing this week up is a misery and what make it worst was the special days we had.
On Monday, i spent all my break time in the reading room trying to study which of cos didn't work out the way i wanted. Tuesday was not any better... woke up early in the morning to get my ob presentation slide done. Having to study for my quiz and getting the biology report done before i get to bed which was already like 3am. Worst still, Melissa is leaving to Australia at 12am flight n i wasn't able to be there to send her off. It's was a sad feeling back alone in hall, having a close friend leaving you n only like 9 months after will i be able to see her. What a lousy fren i am ! Melissa, if u r reading this - I'm missing you and was hoping you were to here to talk to me. Now that you're in Australia, it's so hard to reach out to you as compared to when you're in Singapore. Nevertheless, i know you are standing by me to give me that extra mental support. Do take real good care of yourself there... you might be sneezing right now cos someone is missing you so much.
V day happily came along on wed which started the nightmare. Had elective quiz and spending my day in hall studying for accounting two quiz till 4am. Had early lessons on thursday n continue mugging - my mind was so concentrated upon entering the lec theatre n after i step out, i knew finally everything was over but again, i jus didn't have the mood for anything. Had reunion dinner with my hall n colors award meeting which lasted for 7 hours. Had a talk with sadaf till 7am n went to bed. Headed home around 10am but slept thru the day till it was dinner time.
Came to realize, it's new year holiday and i haven got any new clothes. I wanted to go out to take a break n to shop too... but as i think through. Who can i call?I only needed someone who can accompany me. Melissa whom have been going out with me for the past 3 years to get new year clothes is in Australia. Cheryl nv pick up her phone.. Rowena is in bugis waiting for her mum... Shili and frens gg to zouk... I felt so away from everyone. I felt as though i haven been home for 3 weeks.. my non- presence at home seems to diminish my closeness with my family members.

It's time to retreat back to my little own world. Guess my presence is not important.... Adeline, u r such a loner and insignificant. This world would have still survived without you... you are not needed!

All i was looking forward was a time when i had nothing going through my mind. I'm such a complicated person to comprehend. God, would please change me? I'm weak!

endless help needed

dear diary,



It's another phrase of life i have to go through
A point where I have dozen of things that I have to do
Home is no longer a place I am used to be
Home is just a place for me to be loved.
A place where i desire to stay.
School can never be like in the past
A place I am looking forward to go.
It's like part of my life...
And a new term came into my life
That's hall.
Hall used to be a place where talks are given
But now hall is a place I breathe and live in.
An envirnoment I learn to be on my own...
And never fails to think of home when i'm there.
Is there even a time where I can think of home?
Times when I'm feeling depressed
Times when I feel I need a hug from dad.
Times when I needed the extra smiles from my siblings.
Times when I miss the delicious foods from mum.
These times... can never be replaced as each day passes.

Next week is full of craze.
Doing tutorials for stat, accounting before tuesday.
Having to spend my vday studying for accounting II as well as having to take my quiz for my elective It's also the deadline for my assignment for biobiz. My group will also be doing presentation early on vday.
Thursday - quiz at 7pm... 10pm to attend a meeting.
Friday - might be another ob meeting.

Where are the beautiful days?
I go through a living hell of days just to see the beautiful things in life to keep me going on... I'm pissed!

Birthday celebration

Dear diary,

Last saturday night, I went mos with my secondary sch fren - lyn, kc, shili, shuyan, roger, denis, ee mei, seth, fanglay,elmo... it was really fun to be out with them . Kc and lyn reserved a table, we went ent really off after that glass. All of us drank some... i had 2 shots, 1 red wine ( it's very nice!) , voka cranberry and tequilla.

Went in ard 11pm and by 12.30, lyn and kc are drunk haha. We open three bottles - red win, whiskey and tequilla. Kc and lyn drank one full glass of tequilla and that's when they were became drunk and started puking.
. Shili went a little high at the start, siao one. While the rest were resting upstairs from the excessive drinking, shili, mi, shuyan,elmo, seth and denis went to the dance floor. The music at the start sucks but when we went down the second time, it was much better :) We left ard 4am and went for supper at river valley.
Went home, i stinks from the smell of cigar... wash up and went off to bed. Woke up at 8.30am to go back to my dear hall 7. Due to the shortage of exercise, after walking from hall 7 to src, i felt my muscles aching till now. Was at the softball pitch , the guys were in finals vs hall6. We got second... then go to the swimming pool. My hall is the organising this event , i was one of the lane judges. Didn't know that swimming also got so many rules one. Was quite bored , luckily yuan bo and lixiang came over to talk to me. After the event, i went back hall to slp. Mum called mi just before i was about to go out with hall 7 people for dinner and tell mi that they are coming to pick me up for dinner. I felt so happy that moment. Dad, mum , bro and I went to lot 1 to eat ramen. Yea, i finally found my winnie the pooh bedroom slipper from mini toons.

My phone is flooded with water.. i'm unable to see the screen. It was totally white, was afraid daddy would scold . Anyway, mum came over to exchange a spare phone with mine yesterday morning and bought prawn noodles and soy bean for me. Thank mum!

I've been sleeping a little too much in hall now. Gotta change that habit! In the afternoon, zhen hao was in hall 7 with 2 other frens and ask mi to join them in celebrating zhi hao birthday. So nice of them to buy birthday cake and give him a surprise. Of cos, there's always fun with a cake around.. they played. Haha... it was gross.

Will upload the mos pictures once i get them from shili and eemei... needa get some work done before stat tutorial. So fast, it's week 4 already and tests are coming in 2 weeks more! So dead.
I needa to concentrate more..

I love my family!

Dear diary,

I'm back in hall again. Came in on monday morning , while unpacking my stuffs... there's an ANT ATTACK in my drawer! Gross... no pesticides so i took the tissue paper to kill them instead. Though it didn't help much but there's nothing to do. After stat lect, join regina, wei liang, guo xiang for lunch.Shortly li xian joined us too.. since we know, it's the 1st time we have lunch tgt on a sch day. Regina, li xian and wei liang left for lessons and i asked guo xiang to help mi kill the ants in my room. Apparently, there must be a hole somewhere in my room or a miracle had happened cos the ants DISAPPEAR. hmm weird... anyway had a short chit chat with guo xiang ( he's damn funny..) and off to do my stat tutorial for this week. Took a nap before going for acc 2 lecture. Acc2 is tough! I don't know what is happening...

I had a wonderful weekend last week. On Friday, i went to NUS to meet rowena and cheryl for lunch. We ate Subway. Rowena had lesson so i hang around with cheryl in the central library sleeping haha. Also, had a tour around the school with the school shuttle bus. Was feeling dizzy after a long ride. The halls in NUS looks nice from the outside like hall3 and hall 16. After rowena's lecture, we head our way to town to buy pressie for melissa. Bought a notebook for her :) It a very nice notebook.. wanted to buy her an organiser but it was out of stock :( We had dinner at New York NewYork at ard 5 plus which was really early. Haha.. went to play with the candy floss machine where cheryl try to do it n she did it! The waiter asks us to guess the flavour of the candy floss - mango, banana or lime. Cheryl choose mango , row and i chose banana.. n we are all wrong! haha. It's long since the three of us went out together so as usual, we decided to take neoprint! hee.. shall post it up when i get home this weekend to scan it. On saturday, i went to cut my hair in the morning. It's shorter now... then went to juntion 8 in the afternoon cos dad sent his car for servicing. On sunday night, we had a late dinner at ard 9.15pm at riverside view. Waited for winnie to knock off so that we can have dinner together. Yummy... the foods are nice. Took a stroll along the singapore river with my family- it's a feeling of happiness when we joke and laugh at each other. Korkor send winnie home while we went to mount faber. It's like years since i was last there with my secondary school friends during lantern festival. Had a really great time with my friends and family this weekend... and on monday i really feel that it's time to get some work done after all the enjoyments i receive.

Just changed my timetable again just before add drop period ended , now i got 4 days of school with a long weekend :)
Thank Him for everything that happen.
<--- this picture looks like it's able to capture u with all the force it has into a beautiful world , a place filled with light and warmth...

i live my life carrying each breath to enjoy the moment of happiness.

It came over me just it used to come and go
A moment of silence that never fails to put my mind from thoughts
One phone call could make a huge difference
Like how everything that happens around, influence me so much
If every single of tears can drip away 1% of my thoughts
I would have cry a river.
Wishing that I am not a deep thinker
To be able to take things lightly...

This process of growing up hasn't been easy for anybody
Will there be a turning point in life?
I pray for things to work out well in the end...
And I believe in Him for He has decided my life.

School

Dear diary,

It's the seond week of my school 1year 2nd semester... hectic life begins since add drop period. It's like a war where everyone starts to 'fight' for slots that fits their desire timetable. Haha.. it's pretty fun if u're able to get what u want but not when there's nothing for you.
The holiday mood is still around within myself and only myself i think. Been travelling to and fro as i didn't want to stay in hall alone. Staying at home is like a luxury for me - having the entertainment, no fuss over foods, the company of my naughty twins sisters makes life more enjoyable and meaningful. This sch term.. i'm learning to be a loner. Got into a class where i know like only 1 or 2 pple? It's a totally new and not exciting experience.

Went shopping with mummy last sunday, bought a pair of shorts. I think shorts are very comfortable and easy esp when i'm gg to school. It's like the best bottom which allows u to match with all kinda of tops and shoes be it slippers, sandals or even heels.

Brought in a toaster into my hall. Will be able to eat kaya toast , my own self made pizza using bread... yummy. No more starving!

Before sch starts, i finally went out with the pw girls to k-box. Fun fun fun! I'm gg to miss melissa and michelle once they are leaving singapore to australia. Oh man.. how sad is it for our pw group to split into two.But, no matter what.. we'll always stay close with one another even though we have lesser communication , i'm sure we can feel each other care and concern. Gals, we shall make it!

It's raining right now.. n after a long day yesterday and today... i shall make my way to my bed.

Create Your Own

Finally...

dear diary,

It's over... i'm kinda relieve to have the 1 week holiday left for myself , family and friends. On the other hand, i felt guilty and a tinge of saddness for letting my team down. I'm sorry...

Results are out - the reality is I did not get what i expected so after talking to alison yesterday night. We want to be like our secondary school friends - not very bothered about our sch stuffs as in if we make it, we make it and if we don't , just let it be. Go to school study den go out when we have the time to play. Sounds attractive cos it means no stress. Can we?

Last friday, I went to watch night at the museum with my hall people. The show was nice though i fell asleep for a short moment cos i was really tired but still i'm glad i didn't miss out the nicest part of the show. Sat down while they are having dinner cos i was waiting for my family to tell me where are we having dinner. Carrying all my stuffs , i headed down to Clark Quay and we had dinner at Fishermens Wharf. It's nice :) Took a stroll along the river, stopped a while to watch the bungy thingy. It is pretty scary, even if I'm offered a 1000, i wouldn't get my butt up there. Settled down for deserts at haagen diaz. Ice cream is one of the most delicious deserts n i'm always craving for more. Spending time with my family is a blessing. Thank God for giving me a wonderful family. Saturday morning, i followed my parents to clementi for brunch. After a long long time, i finally get to drive again. Oh dear, i really forgot how to drive as in i asked my mum which is the brake! It scare her off haha... On saturday night, we went to IMM cos my youngest sister is changing handphone to W850i. Some unhappiness among the twins , as u know twins would expect some same treatment. Walk around n headed home. Sunday morning, i drove to westmall with my parents and the twins to change out handphone plans to student plans. Yea, now i have free outgg calls in campus and 1000 free sms. Mummy bought a black dress though she wanted the bronze one but we insisted that the black dress looks gd on her with her super fair skin!

New year eve - spend the night with my secondary 2 classmates. Supposed to have steamboat at marina ... saw those super long queue as though they are having some great promotions. We ended up sitting at the hawker and eat chicken rice. Thitiratch ordered curry fish head too but it took such a long time to come that the chicken rice already filled our stomach. Wanted to cancel the order but can't. Thitiratch and simon left the table before the uncle found them ..when the uncle came over and asked kah chong said that we nv order. Lol... phew luckily we didn't have the curry fish head on our table otherwise we might nt be able to get up. It was 9pm after dinner.. walked to marina bay, there were drizzles. After a long trek, we arrive at padang at 11.20pm. Just in time to catch a breath and wait for the fireworks :) After countdown, had supper at maxwell - porridge. Then , shili, lyn and I went to central square apartment to meet up with denis, roger n shu yan who are so ready for majong. Wanted to watch step up dvd , partly the quality of the show is nt so gd n i was rather tired so i went to bed zzz. Woke up at 12pm , went to liang court for mac lunch den home to watch step up and take the lead. 6 more days... i want a fufilling 5 days.

i'm a bitch!

The feeling of wanting to know more... wanting to know what's wrong... knowing that it has already happen... finding hard to make a sound... pushing urself to a corner ... putting all the blame on oneself... having to face people with fake smiles knowing that it doesn't come from the heart. Don't even know if what u have done was right or wrong ... begin someone who cares abt people feelings ended up making urself in a state like this sucks.

God, i pray for everyone to be happy at least for this christmas to forget all troubles and lead life as it was before everything happens please...

nothing pays to be good..

who will ever care even when u wake up early in the morning, making an effort to go all the way to this isolated island... when i could have stayed at home, have more sleep and have breakfast with my family!
making mi like a fool to wait on the court for 2 hours?
so what if the technology is so advanced when no one even bothers to use it!
i could have been more irresponsible and dun even care to make any arrangements.. i could have went thailand with my family and dun even give a damn shit for IH.
To be able to go snorking, enjoy the beach, look at the fishes and see how much freedom they have. Hitch a ride on a jet ski from daddy... shopping...

Damn it! it doesn't pays to be good.. to always do the right thing. I DUN WANNA CARE ANYMORE!

A week of blogging

Dear diary,

Daddy, mummy and sisters went to thailand last thursday and will be back in singapore tml morning 1am. These few days of them being absent from home... it's peaceful and quiet. Certainly, it is nice to have such days being alone at home doing things u want. On thursday, i went for softball training in the morning and suppose to have tennis training in the afternoon but the weather in dec is just so rainy. Ended up watching soccer hall 7 vs hall 10 or 12 ( nt sure) . Ayway, hall 7 won 2-0. Congrats! So tired... i went back to my room n slept till 8.30 and headed home. Drop by at jp subway to get my dinner while eating it on the trip home ia bus. At home.. there's only my bro. Guess i slept ard 1 after watching scv ba.

On friday, it was back to hall 7 again for tennis. It's our first prelimary rounds with hall 13. Somehow, i felt the nervousness... as i woke up with a weird feeling in my stomach. It hurts - it was the same pain i felt when i was in sec 3 before my cross country. I almost didn't want to go to hall for that early warm up... but i still dragged myself to do so. After warm up, i went to sadaf room ( my senior staying on the same level as mi) .. had a little chat with her and ate a doughnut. Went out for lunch with yi hao, mario and sadaf before yi hao and I headed off to help out as empire and linesman. The sun was hot! I'm so tanned but sadly an uneven tanned i got here... Soon it was our turn to play. Our men doubles has easily won with 6-0. Mixed doubles too 6-0 , women doubles 6-0 and woman single won too. Man single lost but it was alright afterall it's tough to beat an ivp player! Good work everyone :) We shall strive harder :)
After the match and a bath, met up with my hall people and off we go for dinner! Where? the nearest shopping centre - jp. Everyone ate from the same stall... it brings mi back to where we usually eat after tennis training with my jjc tennis girls with mr low. Stayed for the night cos we are having a drinking session. Hmm... had some chat with my hall people, one of them is an exchange student from switerzland. I didn't drink much .. two glasses. One with orange juice and the other with sprite, that's all. Didn't want to get drunk. Anyway, it was my first time staying overnight in hall , drinking and chatting till like 4am i tink.

On saturday, it was a special day. It's my dearest rowena birthday! Woke up at 10 plus am.. n had to quickly rush home cos cheryl, melissa and I were planning a birthday surprise for her. Haa.. meet up with cheryl in town to shop for rowena present. We really wanted to buy her a watch but it was too much for us to afford so we bought her a top, earrings and necklace. Hope u like it girl:) Rushed home from town too cos we haven bake our brownie nor cook the spahgetti . Quickly, we get all the ingredients from cold storage and landed ourselves in the kitchen. Got help from my maid in cooking. We bake the brownie ourselves and cut it into a heart shape. I also bought some special candles called the relight candles. We want to play a trick on her. Also, had her earrings placed in an ice. Rowena thought we will be having dinner at secret recipe so when we bought out her a plate of spaghetti... haha. Ate dinner tgt with garlic toast and nuggets. Shortly, melissa bring her to the swimming pool area while cheryl and I bring the lighted cake and present to her. It was a nice place to celebrate her birthday :) The most humourous part was having to see her blowing the candles and it went off but was relighted again. Kept teasing her that she was so lousy even after eating dinner and still had no strength to blow off the candles.

Before rowena came, we had called to reserve place at The Settlers. It was so fun having to play games there .. there was this particular game we were so super noisy and i came to realise I am slow in reacting. Cheryl is the one who reacts fast and won the title of Miss violent haha, right cheryl? After 2 hours there.. all of us felt so full than before. Cos we have been eating non stop from my home - spaghetti, garlic toast, brownie, nuggets to The settlers - black pepper fries, tibits and drinks. Took cab home - wow, it's a tiring day indeed.
Sunday - i spend my whole day gluing my eyes on the tv jus dun wanna do anything. Actually i planned to go sun tan myself so that i have a more even tan but it seems like i woke up on a rainy day. So there goes away my sun... Was becoming really bored so i decided to open the drawer and see if there are ny shows to watch. Didn't know we had the vcd of 'Princess Hours' . Anyway, i watched from 4pm till it was bedtime and continue watching it today after 'Worlds Aprt' ended at 1pm. I thot there was only 12 esp but came to realise that actually there is 24 but the other 12 esp vcd, i just couldn't find it! It's infuriating and now i'm back to doing nothing so blog... in another 5 hours and a half, i would be seeing them at changi airport :) Hope sis bought mi some stuffs though i dun expect much since they are gg to an island. Maybe i will hear complaints from mum cos she dislike the sun and always love to have that fair skin haha. That's my mum :)

I love being alone sometimes. It's the only time where you can think about stuffs you really wanna know about urself. Every year I wish something special would happen but it isn't as easy as wishing for it to happen. Perhaps, time is unable to explain everything that happen even though the saying always go ' Everything happens for a reason.' To find out the reason for every single thing that happen is too tireous... just let it come and go for what will be, will be.

There's no point to ask why. Each and everyone gives a different reason so why bother to ask? Does it helps to make one feels better this way? Maybe you are hurting someone without knowing that a word from you can cause pain like a stiletto that stab through the heart.

sisters rocks

They are that bored when i bought them back to hall with me to stay over the night...

Said' Jie, i felt so cheated!'
haha

Queen of Queens 2006

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One litre of tears

Dear diary,

Was there any point of time you feel like God is treating you unfairly?
Was there any point of time you feel that this world isn't a place for you?
Was there any point of time you ask yourself so many times ' Why?'

At one point of my life, I ask myself all the above questions...

We live in the same world but lead different life.
Who we are to blame for the imperfect things in our life?
Our parents? Ourself? God?
No one can answer.

I had completed watching this japanese drama ' 1 litre of tears' in two days. It's really the saddest drama i ever seen. Nevertheless, I learn... that we should always be satisfy with who we are now and what we have now. No matter what plight you are in, you are always luckier than someone around you.



Based on a true story, One Litre of Tears is about the life story Kitou Aya (1962-1988) a girl who had an incurable disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease (also known as SCA type 2; spinocerebellar ataxia type 2)at a young age of 15. Although the girl in the drama - Ikeuchi Aya, lived in the 21st century, her character was based on Kitou Aya's life, how she struggled and fought her disease and how she wrote her deepest thoughts until the last day she could hold a pen. Before she died, her writings were published including the poems she wrote while she is staying in a school for the disabled. This gave new hopes to people who suffers the same disease as she did and soon Aya received letters of appreciation and thanks from those people. At the age of 25, she succumbed herself into a sleep where she could no longer feel any pain.

I went to the library today... hoping i was able to borrow her diary to read. I couldn't find it however i came across another book. Sat down on the floor n flip through the pages. One particular sentence is so true - 'We should be bless that we never know what the future lies ahead of us. Because if we know about the obstacles we were to face, we may never want to step out and learn to be a successful person in life. '

On the other hand, if we were to know about the future ad learn about the challenges we were to face. We learn how to treasure the time we have now and do everything we can, treating it as though there is no tomorrow.

I shall learn to cherish everything around me, knowing how wonderful it is to be able to look up the sky n say ' It's a beautiful day! '

@deine = > thank you for everything i have :)

exams are finally over

Dear diary,

I've finally tide through this half a year in uni... this long yet short 2 weeks, there seems to be endless thoughts passing through my mind. However, thanks to all the people around mi whom i study with, giving me moral support which i needed so much. Thanks!


Blessing of bubbles floating in the air
Felt your love and care
It means so much to me
Hiding in a corner, from a distant from you
The feeling of long lost love came stumbling upon
Making me realise...
U stand a place within me far more than i know

This holiday seems a little different from others cos of hall activities.
Hopefully it will still be fun though the travelling to n from will be tiring!
Going to vivo city later with nicole for shopping n movie :) wanna get a new wallet, pair of low heels ...
Last night i was angry. I lost all the photos in the computer, everything was gone cos my sister save the wrong folder and the computer was reformat! Damn... all the photos of memories are gone :( I'm so frustrated... is there anyway where the com is reformat n still able to retrieve the lost files?

@deine => wishing for an endless holiday

A year older

Dear diary,

How lucky can I having to celebrate the day i was born for 4 consecutive years when coping with examinations :( Had my IT paper yesterday morning which i shall not elaborate cos I'm jus an IT dummy.

Went home ard 3 plus today ... slack around till dinner time. Thanks to my family especially daddy who brought me to Michelango ( nt very sure how to spell it) , a very expensive place to go. DUn think i will ever step in there without having a heavy pocket. We actually spend around 45 minutes going to holland den to bukit timah n back to holland again.. just to decide where to eat :P This restaurant is famous for it's pasta.. we ordered 6 plates to share. Yummy.. but i feel damn bad when the bill come. It cost $255! Gosh.

I have been staying in hall alone for the past few days.. being alone is so sad and gloomy. I dun like it.. it's always nice to have someone for companion. N this makes mi think twice about gg back to hall tml morning. Studying with friend is nice.. but staying at home makes u feel so cosy. Now that i have to go back tml morning, i shall go to my cosy bed to slp for that few hours.. b4 heading back to the 4 walls. Can anyone please invent a teleport or a machine which allows me to travel one place to another within like a few minutes? It really makes my life so much better!

I'm so not prepared for the exams for next n following week. So dead!

lovely bed n aircon makes u feel good..

happy birthday to myself :)

Is it right?

Dear diary..

It's hari raya pusa - public holiday! But what m i doing in hall right now.. when i can go home n enjoy family love and cosy environment. Had to stay in hall cos of FM project almost the whole day. I miss home badly last night .. i dunno y when the past three days at home i wasn't feeling happy at all. Or was i really moody.. or was it the amount of work i had to complete just turn me off.
Last friday, i told mummy ' can i eat something nice?' I never asked a question like this in my entire life but somehow i asked her. I must have sounded I m starving in hall to her. Actually last week, i was really stressed up over my accounting quiz tt i really didn't feel like eating at all that whole week.

It didn't turn out to what I thought i might have felt after the quiz. Some regrets over things here n there.. but it's over. No point turning back on stuffs that u cannot change anything. I can only say.. I really tried my best.


Something crop up... affected!

It's nearing

Dear diary,

I've been rushing through all my tutorials for next week so that i can start studying my accountancy quiz next week. But time seems to run away faster than i expected. Everything planned was DESTROYED!

Time... is so priceless, so fast.

It's sinking so badly.. drowning deep down under the sea
keep swimming to look for the precious pearls
sometimes there's hope upon seeing an osyter shell
but when u open it, it's empty.
felt as if there isn't any chances of finding them
under the big sea w/o directions
it's tough.
Is it time to give up?

Went to the new shopping centre today , i think it's called vivo city. It's like one of the shopping malls in USA. Big stores with lotsa varieties. Bought a pair of shorts from Nichille. Like it :)

read my mind if you can...

I like them!

How wonderful life can be ...
Sitting around the table with homecooked foods
What is unique is not about the food..
Is about the people you are having with.
Interesting saturday at Fang Lay's house, with all my secondary sch friends.
We've Kah Chong, Denis n Fang Lay to be the chief for the day!
Had a table 2 plates of different kinda eggs, tomato cum chili sauguage n potatoes, wan tan soup, sting rays, nuggets, sotongs, oat prawns.. sounds delicious? Yea!
Nice nice.. with all the conversation, laughter. I feel that we are like back to the e2 family!

Was thinking like next time when we are older, can meet up every weekend n do the same thing.. even till we get married with kids haha. That'll be fun huh? lol.. but i dun wanna grow old!

Happy time with my fav hang out peeps tonight though the haze is really bad.
Gosh, gonna play tennis tml morning with such bad weather is horrible.

@deine=> it's worth putting aside time for your frens:") they bring happiness...