Sun Burnt!!

Dear Diary,

Woke up at 8.30 this morning and getting ready to go to the new NUS law school to play tenni with cheryl and her frens. It's been long since i play tennis outside. The weather was good.. SUNNY day, that's y i got my slight sun burnt which i like it with the pinkish/redness on my face - as though I have a natural blush haha. But it's nt that obvious.

Anyway, enjoyed today tennis which we played from 9.30 till 1+ and had lunch at Cornation. The western food there is cheap lol + free flow of drink. Next time can go there if wanna save money. Cheapskate right? but who cares when right now I left $40 in my bank account and it is gg to last me till I get my next pay which is like endof the month. DANG!!! $40 for 2 more weeks. Luckily i'm gg thailand which I had already set aside a small amount for my own shopping. gONna withdraw out and ask dad to change for me. On a typical sports day esp when I had it in the morning, the rest of the day it is a goner for me. Which means this ...


and even though i'm awake.. i still look like tt..
still sleepy!

Yesterday at work, i was slacking throughout the whole day tt i almost finish watching Seducing Mr Perfect. It's nice!! and after lunch i was really bored and thot of something to do... guess what?

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that is my boss room..

After work, i went home had dinner and headed down to vivo city wih my parents. We waited for like 30 to 45 minutes just to enter the carpark! It's so filled with people. Finally we got into the carpark... walked around den sat down in Gloria Cafe for coffee. Ate chocolate mud n bought home new york cheese cake. Yummy!
Saw this at vivo..

My Colorgenics - very true!

At this time you are really feeling quite exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling that is going on about you and you are looking for some sort of protection from this state of affairs. Ideally you are seeking a peaceful condition and a tranquil environment in which you can be afforded the chance to relax and recover......

You dislike playing the field in every sense of the word. When you develop a relationship it needs to be a close fulfilling one, one that has deep meaning for all parties concerned.

The situation at this time is one of considerable distress. You feel trapped and you are looking for some way out. You can find solace in the arms of someone who cares so long as there is no long-term emotional involvement.

You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. This may be the result of subconscious conflict between hope and necessity. The tension that you are experiencing following your unfulfilled hopes have given rise to anxious uncertainty. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, you are likely to vacillate and concern yourself with trivialities of little consequence.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

http://www.paulgoldin.com/colorgenics.htm

Results are out

Dear diary,

Results are out... i'm really disappointed cos of the grades that I got. All B+, no As! Why? Why? Why? It's always like that.. everytime i score almost the same for all my subjects but why isn't there something special like an A- or A? Although my GPA did improve but it's still not what I wanted. Study hard is pointless! Working so hard for projects is also nothing! Exams is still my greatest fear...

Came to the office with a light feeling.. den jason was online gave me a sad face. Says results are out. My heart was beating hard and fast as though I'm sitting on a roller coaster getting ready to go down the slope. Den i told my colleage that results are coming out today and i'm scare. I asked her to help mi check... was hiding behind the computer like a timid mouse.

then I starting questioning her.. " Any B-? Any C+? " cos i was worrying for my electives.

then come the question - " Any A?" She looked at me... " no B-, C+ or A..." There i knew.. must be the same as last sem

"izzit all B+?" ...

"ya.." initally i was thinking quite expected.

Then i started thinking.. "no.." i wanted badly to do well for stat n acc. Why? I knew i was tearing..

Now, i'm blogging.. feeling numb. I need someone to company me, just a companion.

all about ME

Everyone is in the meeting room and i can hear our boss telling some story or stuffs regarding the business world. Also heard about some rules and regulation like no smoking? n turning off the pc. blah blah. Hee.. so that left mi alone again! Da-ta.. found some website to cure my boredom

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

You are 67% Scorpio

How Scorpio Are You?

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

You are a City Girl!

Whether you live in the city or not, you've got the heart of a city girl. You're up on the latest trends - what's hot in music, food, and fashion. And you love to be on the go. Your perfect day is filled with tons of fun. Your perfect guy is a city guy, so head to LA, NYC, Sydney, or London to find him!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Dear diary

I went shopping today with my mum and spend more than $100. Lol... cos i got my pay for 2 days yesterday! And there goes my money haha. I like going with my mum cause she has great taste and the best thing is can take cab home cos she don't like to wait for bus neither does she likes the sun. Bought a Guess belt for 42.95, a dress for 35 and a pair of shoes for 23.90. So happy! It's hard to resist these... In fact I was pondering if I should really buy now as my family is probably going to Thailand this june but these few days the security there seems to be low and there are strikes. Hmm.. pray hard that all these will stop within these days den our flight n hotel will be confirmed. After coming home from shopping, I went back to my normal routine that is sleeping! Woo.. damn shiok to sleep for 4 hours after having a delicious dinner.


@delphin--> that's my life!

Nice song...

Who am I - Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

Shopping on Vesak Day

Dear diary,

It's a public holiday yesterday... n guess what I woke up at 2.30 when early in the morning like 2plus am I was still asing rowena whether i should eat burger king or mac breakfast haha. Looks like i shouldn't have thot of it at all cos i can't even wake up man!

Been wanting to shop for a pair of shoes/slippers/heels .. something that I can wear to school, to work, to shop cos the pair of low heels is killing my right foot. I have big feet hurhur so that makes it quite difficult for me to find something I like and have my size :( Manage to have Lyn company to shop something comfortable and nice for my feet... Lyn says it's difficult to earn my money haha. Maybe can say so ba cos I would not buy something that I like instead i will only buy it if I really love it. So that explain my empty handed. But that didn't stop me from spending money, lol.. the moment I step out of home I will definitely spend money. this time round, is on food as requested by mummy.

On tuesday night, i went out with Melvin for dinner at Ding Tai Fung. Yummy! I love the xiao long bao and fried rice with egg. Though it is a simple dish but it's really nice! Also ate the yam paste xiao long bao hehe. Will love to go there again, anyone wants to join me? Haven been watching any movies since 200 pounds beauty .. everyone were having craze on catching Spiderman 3, Pirates.. , Shriek 3? But I doesn't seems to have it haha - i'ma weirdo huh. No idea why too.

Tml is back to work again .... wonder what will I be doing. Izzit more time to slack? Or doing something new? hmm.. I wanna make sure I learn the process of the documents and do it well. Yupz, maybe when Loke is more free, he can teach me. Not very nice to disturb him always but he has been nice. My boss , Mr Lew is also very good to me. Think of it, he's really afraid that I skip my lunch. I never see a boss who ask me to go to his office and says ," Adeline, there are two important things. 1st, remember to have your lunch den 2ndly, later when u r free, do the sales quote for xxx company." Lol, he's funny lo. In the 1st place, i am slacking and always free. and the part where eating is an important thing for me to do just makes me feel like laughing. Haha.. thanks Mr lew for your concern. This weekend I gonna make a trip to NTUC ba, den i can buy some snacks and keep it in the drawer.

On wednesday, I actaully spend 1hour plus searching for a wallpaper and yupz finally found a very cute winnie the pooh wallpaper. Guess I needa think of something to surf le tml just in case I'm slacking again! Can't imagine how am I going to spend my time when the new permanent girl come den she will do most of the stuffs leaving me with only answering the phone call and taking down of message as well as doing sales quotes perhaps.

Shall watch one more esp of corner with love before going to bed! tata..

@delphine , i finally found something i like but not love...

blogging at work

I'm waiting for IBM customer service to pick up my phone while blogging lol... My 2nd day at work. I like working here cos quite slack. hmm.. 2 more hours to go! Gotta hang on.

Updates...

Dear diary,

Bascially, this whole week i'm like spending most of my time watching prison break.Beside from prison break which I am so addicted to... having in on screen like 12 hrs cos the other 12 i will be in dreamland. Prison break is so freaking NICE!!! n the best thing everyone in my family is watching it n we manage to influence our parents to buy the dvd so we can watch it together! Haha...

I'm loving my family esp this holiday i really get lotsa of time to spend with my sisters talking stuffs like we used to do it last time before we sleep. So fun! Girls talk is interesting :P We have lots of common between us. Love ya sisters.

I did my rebonding on wednesday. It didn't turn out tt well but it's ok. So that was half day gone.

On friday morning, cheryl and I went for an interview at bugis. It is a marketing company. The company sounds suspicious cos everything went well too smoothly. They agree to everything we want ... n confirmed us like so quickly before we could even think about it. N ask us to go down for training on saturday. When we went home, I told my parents about it.. daddy asks it's weird. Cos they never tell us abt our pay den the office looks weird also. So we didn't go. Both of us didn't really have the mood to go shopping or think of other stuffs. There were other things that was running through my mind too but it's over now. Yupz...

You ponder everyday
Talking to yourself, debating with ur inner self
Is not as easy as choosing an apple or an orange
It like making a choice out of a basket filled
Choosing the perfect one that provides you the sweetest taste.
To the point that you can only take one
Choosing to let go the others...

I was asked to went for an interview for Samsung Mobile for communiasia 2007 . Pinned quite high hopes on that cos i had the experience before. There were two girls who are pretty n look familiar , think i saw them last yr there too. I was told that I will not be considered because I won't be in singapore on the 17 /18 for training.. I will be in Thailand SHOPPING! Haiz. Why so unlucky? But after daddy talk to me, i was feeling better. He told me that at least I went for the interview and nt rejected because I am not up for the job but is because of other reasons which if there isn't, it won't be a rejection. Dad is right ... ya i shouldn't be upset. Thanks daddy, u has never fail to always let me look at things from a different point. Bought a dress from mphosis at half price. I like it...

Went to support ee mei for her beauty pegaent ytd. The girls are gorgeous. Though she nv get through but gal, u r brave! I wouldn't have the courage to go up the stage lo. Hee i like your QnA answer. Nice one! We went to mac, town n lyn's house for movie. I understand everything now and what's happening... I wish i didn't have to go through all these and if I had know it earlier , I wouldn't give it a chance to happen. Limits...

Went to elmo house to transfer some of your pictures over. Den left for dinner with dad's side. It was boring! We were never close to them.. so i was like falling asleep after dinner while the adults were chit chatting. After that, my family went to tiong cos we wanna buy prison break. But looks like it's too HOT.. there's no more stock in both shops. it's not cheap btw. $79.90. We bought amos cookies and a pair of slippers. Jus enuff to take part in a lucky draw. U can choose to go japan, korea or china but u will have to throw a paper plane into the box before u can enter the draw. Haha.. we ask daddy to throw n he's damn good la. I saw the tip of the plane n it disappear in a blink - it got in! All of us were laughing.. like it's super fast n gone like nobody business. even the girl there who was in charge said she nv see the plane flew in. We were joking say daddy u always put pple aeroplane right? that's y u can fly the aeroplane so well haha.
Den.. we also talk about the future like we wanna stay near to our parents. Haha.. wanna stay in anchorage like buy over the part of our block. den just nice for each of us. We 3 girls say , we gonna find rich husband so tt we can buy anchorage hse haha.. den korkor says he will go find rich gf. We gonna built a lift in our current home.. den all the kids will let our parents to take care. Dad say bring all the kids to the playground n let them crawl the whole day , on the tennis court too while they play haha. Laughters all the way in the car.


adelphin... letting go a balloon into the sky.. that's what i wish

amazing life

From the book - Tuesday with Morrie

Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says

The tension of opposites?

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing ,but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you don't know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.

"A tension of opposites like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."

Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.

"A wrestling match." he laughs. "Yes, you could describe life that way."

So which side wins, I ask?

"Which side wins?"

He smile at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

"Love wins. Love always wins."


My thoughts

Does love always win?
Perhaps it does... many times when you are watching drama, see the lead actor or actress who usually give up and chose something that he/she didn't like. Why?
It's because of this powerful word 'LOVE'.
Like how people used to say, if you love someone, you wish that he/she is happy.
Because of love, you forsake something that you yearn.
Because of love, you are able to forge good friendships.
Because of love, you find yourself surrounded by people who cares, who is willingly to give you a helping hand, a listening ear...
Because of love, you see people giving up their life
Because of love, I'm here on a place called earth.


Tension of opposites... it's way too truth. A phrase that could enter into every single part of my daily life. For every decision to be made, I'm sure we always think of the alternatives. Being indecisive, i think it happens more often on me. Part of me feel like doing this..
yet part of me doesn't feel like because... humans beings are complicated creatures, so hard to fathom. It's as though you are solving for a mystery within a person. What really lies beneath? Stays forever unknown.


Just came home after going out with elmo since 5plus? We went to kiddy palace in jurong point.. oh, it's so cute and nice to see these cute little stuffs once again. The small fork and spoon, pretty lil bowls with three partition, super small shoes. Haha... so CUTE! I want a kid to play with!

Went suntanning with my sis by the pool... breezy with just enough amount of sunlight to make me a little tanner. As usual, i fell asleep.. as though I'm on my comfortable bed. The breeze just make u feel drowsy.

I was amazed by this small Caucasian girl, her dad was holding her tiny hand while she is climbing up the stairs. You may think it's nothing to climb up this fleet of stairs but as I observed her. I could see how hard it was for her to get up to the next step, it's like such a difficult task for her. It never occur to me that climbing up the stairs is something so amazing tat not everyone can do her. It was kind of something new that hit me seeing her gathering all her strength just to get up to the next level. :) Just feel like going up to give her a lil hug. Kids are so adorable! hee... but that does not change my mind of having kids so far.

Another interesting thing that caught my eye was while waiting to board on a train. I saw two birds kissing. Haha. i really felt like laughing and take a picture of it. But before i could do so, the train came. Nature bring wonders.

I ate alot today! Die... i had a bowl of porridge, a raisin bun , long john combo 1, bubble tea, mrs field brownie , ice milo and a cheese prata. Gosh.. imagine the amount of calories that went into my tummy. It's like how "healthy" these foods are lo. I hope I have the motivation to go running tomorrow. Time to get some exercise! Im turning into a sleeping beauty.. not kidding man, i really can sleep. Think if you ask me to take part in a sleeping contest, i can win. Even today, i went out with elmo, i feel quite sleepy too haha sorry gal. Can't control my eyes. Too much rest already? Or was it not enough rest, that's y i am tired? Hmm.. i need to find something to keep me awake! Any suggestions? Feeling damn full.

Had dinner with my family last night at queenstown hawker. The western food is nice- we had to wait for 45 minutes lo. I miss the food there, Cheryl you must be missing it too. Haha.. remember last time we ordered 10 fried dumplings and 10 steam dumplings cos it's super nice and the uncle say cannot order 5 each so we ordered 10. Being gluttons, we finished it inclusive a big plate of noodles. That was in JC2... but studying just help me to lose these calories somehow. Maybe study hard does helps cos we need to work our brains and mouth for memorizing? lol.. any scientific proof? not sure...

Yea.. my family most likely is going thailand this June. The discussion went from Hong Kong to Korea to Australia and finally settle down in Thailand. Still trying to have some patience with my parents cos they keep bugging me to check out the hotels rates, the air tickets. Sometimes it can really get quite irritating. Why must it always be me who do all these.. can't my other siblings do it? I wish I am not home sometimes den i won't be able to hear the nagging, the quarrellings and not having to tolerate with stuffs that are unnecessary.

To you, will you please wake up and do something useful! I see no future in your life... stop acting like you are some big shot, cos let me tell you this " You are NOTHING!" Because of you, we have to suffer... Stop being so selfish and only think about yourself. Behave like who you should be at your age. Anyone of us here have the right to scold you cos we are much better than you. You are spoilt and you definitely don't deserve everything that you have now!

honesty?

You Are Somewhat Honest

You do tend to tell the truth a lotBut you also stretch the truth on occasionYou figure a little lie isn't a big dealAs long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howhonestareyouquiz/">How Honest Are You?

some pictures for thoughts

Homework assignment

missing you gal

dear diary,

it was 3.13am this morning when i actually wrote a long entry but it's all gone! Boo... lousy blogger, waste 1 hour plus of my time.

hmm let mi recall what I have wrote.

I'm pondering how human beings understand their feelings and know what to do at the right time... how our brain actually works. I felt my heart dropping at times just like i
'm sitting on a roller coaster. No idea why i feel this way though... Feelings we felt at a particular point of time is different and it might never occur again, that's why we keep dairies to write our everyday life. And as days passed, we can flip the pages and relish those days no matter it is a sad or happy entry.

Just finished reading a book by Mitch Albom-just one more DAY. Although i may not understood in depth about what the doctor is trying to convey but i love his writing.

From his book: the word 'divorce' in Latin means 'to divert' All divorce is to divert you, taking you away from everything you thought you knew and everything you thought you wanted and steering you into all kinds of other stuff, like discussions about your mother's girdle and whether she should marry someone else.
But there's a story behind everything. How a picture got on a wall. How a scar got on your face. Sometimes the stories are simple, and sometime they are hard and heartbreaking. But behind all your stories is always your mother's story because hers is where yours begins. Mother's day is around the corner... it's time to thank all mums for the beginning of our stories.

Wednesday
I finally managed to hear melissa voice! Talked to her over skype. It's wonderful having to hear from her again despite we being so far apart. Realizing how much we have missed in each other life like the white glasses she is wearing now, her birthday celebration with her hostel friends and having to do assignments. Jia you ba. Soon you will have your one month break le!

Thursday
Yea.. it's my last day of work! Hee...finally i can get over this dull life of working in the office. No more hearing og complains and seeing her irritating face. Nevertheless, it's one more job experience added into my resume on shipping logistics. Now i understand a little on the process that needed to be done before shipment can be process. Have to fo shipping advice, pro invoice, tax invoice , getting samples for customers. Yupz..This is my 6th job , of all i still like relief teaching and roadshows better. Both jobs offer different kind of sense of achievement and happiness. Hmm, from what i have learn in organizational behavior last semester in school , i totally agree that responsibility in a job task is important in motivating someone to work. And with it, it gives more meaning and of cause a sense of achievement too. Relief teaching is challenging where i have to learn to dela with situations on the spot , also enabling mi to learn new things form the students. It's fun too! While roadshow i can gain new knowledge from our customers too.
Ever since i started working, i sleep right after dinner till 12 plus den wake up to watch tv and chit chat with my youngest sister. Cindy fell down yesterday.. it looks damn painful lo. She fell down while training for roller blading for this ndp.

Friday
I fell asleep only at 4plus near 5 after my entry is gone! Woke up at 7 cos today i had to bring elmo to work den went to meet my parents at bukit timah hawker center. Wa... the cab fare damn expensive cos it's peak period. My breakfast is super costly lo. Lol, cab fare is 6.50 from bukit batok to bukit timah. Not sure if i'm going out today... Cheryl is still sleeping. Otherwise, we will go International Plaza to apply for other jobs.

Had a short conversation with mummy the other day.
" Didnt you realize that daddy has aged?"
"Nope... i don't think so leh. He looks the same to me."
" Recently, he become thinner and older. Told him not to think so much already cos he keep thinking how to earn more money for you all. In 3-4 years time, all of you will start to work already. But he wouldn't listen."

After hearing this, i was upset. I didn't like to hear tht my dad is aging.. cos it means i might lose him someday. Being someone who is very important to me , I can't imagine a life without him around me. Thinking back, maybe i never really put myself n his shoes. Hopefully, i can save these amount that i have earned this holiday so that i dun have to rely him on my expenses... Might not be gg to hk le.. cos rowena parents' like disapproved. yupz... it's ok, can go next time ba.


adeline
it makes me think that the scars represent the regrets of life.

Roller Blading

Dear diary,

I started working on Thursday at International Flavor and Fragrance... do those ad min stuffs but i was really piss off cos i did only filing the whole day. It like damn boring can! There are only 2 other females working there and one of them keep giving those kinda irritating face, as if i owe her money like tt. What the hell... i nv even offend u. Damn it! I tried to be nice lo, still try to ask her nicely. Idiotic, anyway i no longer have to see your stupid face! I'm quitting!!! Think i'm your slave? Hell you... i'm paid to learn something not to do stuffs which u dun wanna do and ask me to do hor. As i blogging, i'm burning hot fire. The whole day all i have done is to punch hole and file them. The cupboard is like above of her computer so of cos i will have to ask to get the files ma, den she give mi those face i feel like slapping her and ask if i offended her in anyway? Argh.. having to make mi feel better, i decided to listen to the music. Heck care le though i nv ask if i can listen to the music, i not happy can always quit since i'm helping out my uncle and they doesn't know. Haha, was sent there to be a spy. The second day.. i continue my filing and finally finished le! Den she ask mi to run errands for her, like get sample and documents. Nearer the end of the day, yea.. i have got nothing to do! Whahaha... i'm efficient man! So i read the newspaper till time to knock off.

Anyway, i'm worried.. i can't handle office work. I dislike it lot! How.. m i really going to be an accountant in the future? I will die of boredom! Remember the only time i last was 2 weeks at AAS doing data entry den the other one at Informatics i also quit after the 1st day. And now it happens again. Gosh... i told my parents i really dun like office work, told them i prefer interactive kinda job where i get to communicate with people and do different things everyday. So i told them maybe next time i go be air stewardness or teacher. They didn't seem to be approving of me wanting to be an air stewardness.. cos i have mentioned it to them since I get back my A level results. Thot they always wanted me to be a teacher dunno why they suddenly change their mind and say " bu yao la, hen xin ku.. ni kan leeyin jiejie ta men, toh bu yao zhuo le..." Haiz... what's wrong with being a teacher? Can interact with the students and make a difference in their life. everyday u will be facing challenges and never know what to expect. I love it lor although the pay might be low as compared to a accountant. Hmm.. never mind, still long ( 2 more years to decide)

I'm looking for new job again le after this wed or Thurs when i will stop working in IFF and pass it to Elmo to do it. Urgently looking for a job because i have book air tickets to hong kong with Rowena so gonna earn my own expenses which i calculated, think i need around 2000Sin ba, Crossing my fingers and hope daddy will sponsor my air ticket or give me some expenses haha. We will be going on the 11th of jul till 16 of july. I can't wait!!! First time gg holiday with my fren and just the two of us :) free and easy! so sad that cheryl can'y go cos her dad dun allow :( Dun worry gal, we will not forget u de esp your pressie :) and lotsa photos hee


And if i'm gg to pulau rendang with my secondary school friends, i will have to work extra hard le. haha what a good incentive to work right? work liao den can go holiday :) but thinking of long term, i wun have any savings :( so gonna spend wisely! i feel like working as a waitress behind my parent's back but yet afraid of getting caught.


Yesterday i had lotsa fun roller blading in east coast park with rowena and cheryl. i remember last year we did tt too. $8 fo 2 hours.. it's really worth it. Loving nature so much! the breeze, the trees, the sea. Hope i can go to pulau rendang with them cos i'm loving the sea lots and lots. anyway, we saw a few celebrity there - Felicia chin, mark lee, and two others. Both cheryl and rowena fell down while skating.. butts hurts ouch! But rowena injured herself - her leg and wrist there. I see le also scare. We went to parkway parade to buy bandage from guardian. While helping her to put the bandage in the washroom, i thot i was gg to faint cos my vision became blur and was feeling dizzy so i immediately went out to sit down. Think maybe i nv eat or lack of glucose in my body so i felt this way.. hee went to eat crystal jade! Yea.. i like the egg tart and char siew saw :) yummy. order macaroni - not nice. den we walk around the shopping center, bought famous amos cookies. Happy day! Maybe we can go roller blading every sat? haha den all my sat will be occupy with a healthy balance.

Recently, i hae turn to a pig! I sleep 12 hours every single day without fail.i slept at 2am last night and work up only to realise it was 2.30 le. then on days when i am working, i slp right after dinner! this is wonderful man, i never thot sleeping is such a pleasure - it helps you to skip meals and save money whahaha.


Life can be as simple as you want it to be
Look at it with your innocent eyes
Remember the good and forgo the bad
One with a generous heart will live life happily
Just as the way it works now...
I wish it will always be.
For you, I pray you will be here soon.

Tons of thoughts

Dear diary,

It has been months since i blogged... these 2 months have been busy with projects and revision for exam which is finally over! I'm overjoyed.

Where should i start blogging from? Hmmm, this semester i have been through many happy moments doing ob project. I m so proud with my group members for coming up with our very own coca cola video acted by james and directed by zhen hao. Hee, it's one of the most memorable project team cos we spend many nights eating pizza and meeting up so often working hours and hours. Having to skip my only day free on friday just for ob project but nevertheless, i still had fun! You guys can view their work in youtube -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acwZgopFU7M Thank you for giving mi such a wonderful experience. As much as i had fun in ob project, accounting project wasn't that great. I was so stressed over both the projects, often having to seek help from my frens esp kelvin, cheryl , enguene, james n zhen hao. Remembering the day when i actually had to run to hand up my pbl, having to stay up till 5am everyday facing excel. N those emails we had to send just to gather more information and rephrasing.Luckily all these hard work is paid off cos we get A- and A for the projects. Well done gal! Way to go!!!
In school, I wasn't chill at all.. i wonder what's my limit of stress. I feel so different during school and holiday. In school, i also complain like how stress i am and those sleepless nights and empty stomach. I even can skip meals the whole day and only eat in the middle of the night, only to realise how hungry i was. Sounds like i'm torturing myself but i think of it as a good way of dieting haha. This exam is different from others.. i have been studying with my new found friend - cheryl choo. Slept over at her air-con hall for the past 1 and a half week. We had very little time for revision for this exam due to project ending only at the last week of the semester. I never felt so unprepared for any exam until i came to university. For my elective, i had only 1 day to study for it.. and i had an instinct that it will be my worst paper. As for accounting, i can only say both cheryl n I were lucky. Cos out progress was so slow that we never complete the chapters before the papers. I wonder what we were doing for the 5 days - power napping and chilling out too much? lol, phew.. luckily we went through the tutorials. Well, i can only prayed that I can achieve my goals for this semester but not pinning much hope anyway. Having the give up mentality for few papers, i already lost the motivation. The only thing that kept me going is because I didn't want to disappoint my parents so i will hang on. This exam period is one of my most relaxing period all thanks to cheryl and enguene- i had all my meals as well as ice creams for supper plus many power naps in the afternoon haha. Spend a few days studying till we see the sun then crawl into the bed. hehe.. it was fun. Thanks Cheryl for being there with me to go through this tough time.

After paper yesterday, we went out to town! Cheryl bought 2 tops and we went to catch a movie - 200 pounds beauty. It very nice!!! I was laughing right form the start of the movie- nv laugh till so happy b4 lo. Haha, i really felt it was from the bottom of my heart but i also tear at the end. it was so touching. both the lead actress and actor are so hot!

I'm gonna make plans for this holiday.. today went to body shop and spend 300+.. dunno what i buy also but it's a lot! PLans:
to go hongkong with rowena
oversea trip with my e2 frens
watch central affairs I, II
shopping
facial n dental appointments
hair treatment
n not forget to work! i need the cash for my traveling...

to all my friends who have yet to complete their papers.. please preserve! All the bests :)

A lonely soul

Dear diary,

These 3 weeks passes without me knowing that it...
An overwhelming feeling came over me. Like how much away I was from everyone emotionally, mentally and physically.
As much as I enjoyed those times i spent with them... many of the times when I'm alone, i really thought I'm staying on an island.

Just about bringing this week up is a misery and what make it worst was the special days we had.
On Monday, i spent all my break time in the reading room trying to study which of cos didn't work out the way i wanted. Tuesday was not any better... woke up early in the morning to get my ob presentation slide done. Having to study for my quiz and getting the biology report done before i get to bed which was already like 3am. Worst still, Melissa is leaving to Australia at 12am flight n i wasn't able to be there to send her off. It's was a sad feeling back alone in hall, having a close friend leaving you n only like 9 months after will i be able to see her. What a lousy fren i am ! Melissa, if u r reading this - I'm missing you and was hoping you were to here to talk to me. Now that you're in Australia, it's so hard to reach out to you as compared to when you're in Singapore. Nevertheless, i know you are standing by me to give me that extra mental support. Do take real good care of yourself there... you might be sneezing right now cos someone is missing you so much.
V day happily came along on wed which started the nightmare. Had elective quiz and spending my day in hall studying for accounting two quiz till 4am. Had early lessons on thursday n continue mugging - my mind was so concentrated upon entering the lec theatre n after i step out, i knew finally everything was over but again, i jus didn't have the mood for anything. Had reunion dinner with my hall n colors award meeting which lasted for 7 hours. Had a talk with sadaf till 7am n went to bed. Headed home around 10am but slept thru the day till it was dinner time.
Came to realize, it's new year holiday and i haven got any new clothes. I wanted to go out to take a break n to shop too... but as i think through. Who can i call?I only needed someone who can accompany me. Melissa whom have been going out with me for the past 3 years to get new year clothes is in Australia. Cheryl nv pick up her phone.. Rowena is in bugis waiting for her mum... Shili and frens gg to zouk... I felt so away from everyone. I felt as though i haven been home for 3 weeks.. my non- presence at home seems to diminish my closeness with my family members.

It's time to retreat back to my little own world. Guess my presence is not important.... Adeline, u r such a loner and insignificant. This world would have still survived without you... you are not needed!

All i was looking forward was a time when i had nothing going through my mind. I'm such a complicated person to comprehend. God, would please change me? I'm weak!

endless help needed

dear diary,



It's another phrase of life i have to go through
A point where I have dozen of things that I have to do
Home is no longer a place I am used to be
Home is just a place for me to be loved.
A place where i desire to stay.
School can never be like in the past
A place I am looking forward to go.
It's like part of my life...
And a new term came into my life
That's hall.
Hall used to be a place where talks are given
But now hall is a place I breathe and live in.
An envirnoment I learn to be on my own...
And never fails to think of home when i'm there.
Is there even a time where I can think of home?
Times when I'm feeling depressed
Times when I feel I need a hug from dad.
Times when I needed the extra smiles from my siblings.
Times when I miss the delicious foods from mum.
These times... can never be replaced as each day passes.

Next week is full of craze.
Doing tutorials for stat, accounting before tuesday.
Having to spend my vday studying for accounting II as well as having to take my quiz for my elective It's also the deadline for my assignment for biobiz. My group will also be doing presentation early on vday.
Thursday - quiz at 7pm... 10pm to attend a meeting.
Friday - might be another ob meeting.

Where are the beautiful days?
I go through a living hell of days just to see the beautiful things in life to keep me going on... I'm pissed!

Birthday celebration

Dear diary,

Last saturday night, I went mos with my secondary sch fren - lyn, kc, shili, shuyan, roger, denis, ee mei, seth, fanglay,elmo... it was really fun to be out with them . Kc and lyn reserved a table, we went ent really off after that glass. All of us drank some... i had 2 shots, 1 red wine ( it's very nice!) , voka cranberry and tequilla.

Went in ard 11pm and by 12.30, lyn and kc are drunk haha. We open three bottles - red win, whiskey and tequilla. Kc and lyn drank one full glass of tequilla and that's when they were became drunk and started puking.
. Shili went a little high at the start, siao one. While the rest were resting upstairs from the excessive drinking, shili, mi, shuyan,elmo, seth and denis went to the dance floor. The music at the start sucks but when we went down the second time, it was much better :) We left ard 4am and went for supper at river valley.
Went home, i stinks from the smell of cigar... wash up and went off to bed. Woke up at 8.30am to go back to my dear hall 7. Due to the shortage of exercise, after walking from hall 7 to src, i felt my muscles aching till now. Was at the softball pitch , the guys were in finals vs hall6. We got second... then go to the swimming pool. My hall is the organising this event , i was one of the lane judges. Didn't know that swimming also got so many rules one. Was quite bored , luckily yuan bo and lixiang came over to talk to me. After the event, i went back hall to slp. Mum called mi just before i was about to go out with hall 7 people for dinner and tell mi that they are coming to pick me up for dinner. I felt so happy that moment. Dad, mum , bro and I went to lot 1 to eat ramen. Yea, i finally found my winnie the pooh bedroom slipper from mini toons.

My phone is flooded with water.. i'm unable to see the screen. It was totally white, was afraid daddy would scold . Anyway, mum came over to exchange a spare phone with mine yesterday morning and bought prawn noodles and soy bean for me. Thank mum!

I've been sleeping a little too much in hall now. Gotta change that habit! In the afternoon, zhen hao was in hall 7 with 2 other frens and ask mi to join them in celebrating zhi hao birthday. So nice of them to buy birthday cake and give him a surprise. Of cos, there's always fun with a cake around.. they played. Haha... it was gross.

Will upload the mos pictures once i get them from shili and eemei... needa get some work done before stat tutorial. So fast, it's week 4 already and tests are coming in 2 weeks more! So dead.
I needa to concentrate more..

I love my family!

Dear diary,

I'm back in hall again. Came in on monday morning , while unpacking my stuffs... there's an ANT ATTACK in my drawer! Gross... no pesticides so i took the tissue paper to kill them instead. Though it didn't help much but there's nothing to do. After stat lect, join regina, wei liang, guo xiang for lunch.Shortly li xian joined us too.. since we know, it's the 1st time we have lunch tgt on a sch day. Regina, li xian and wei liang left for lessons and i asked guo xiang to help mi kill the ants in my room. Apparently, there must be a hole somewhere in my room or a miracle had happened cos the ants DISAPPEAR. hmm weird... anyway had a short chit chat with guo xiang ( he's damn funny..) and off to do my stat tutorial for this week. Took a nap before going for acc 2 lecture. Acc2 is tough! I don't know what is happening...

I had a wonderful weekend last week. On Friday, i went to NUS to meet rowena and cheryl for lunch. We ate Subway. Rowena had lesson so i hang around with cheryl in the central library sleeping haha. Also, had a tour around the school with the school shuttle bus. Was feeling dizzy after a long ride. The halls in NUS looks nice from the outside like hall3 and hall 16. After rowena's lecture, we head our way to town to buy pressie for melissa. Bought a notebook for her :) It a very nice notebook.. wanted to buy her an organiser but it was out of stock :( We had dinner at New York NewYork at ard 5 plus which was really early. Haha.. went to play with the candy floss machine where cheryl try to do it n she did it! The waiter asks us to guess the flavour of the candy floss - mango, banana or lime. Cheryl choose mango , row and i chose banana.. n we are all wrong! haha. It's long since the three of us went out together so as usual, we decided to take neoprint! hee.. shall post it up when i get home this weekend to scan it. On saturday, i went to cut my hair in the morning. It's shorter now... then went to juntion 8 in the afternoon cos dad sent his car for servicing. On sunday night, we had a late dinner at ard 9.15pm at riverside view. Waited for winnie to knock off so that we can have dinner together. Yummy... the foods are nice. Took a stroll along the singapore river with my family- it's a feeling of happiness when we joke and laugh at each other. Korkor send winnie home while we went to mount faber. It's like years since i was last there with my secondary school friends during lantern festival. Had a really great time with my friends and family this weekend... and on monday i really feel that it's time to get some work done after all the enjoyments i receive.

Just changed my timetable again just before add drop period ended , now i got 4 days of school with a long weekend :)
Thank Him for everything that happen.
<--- this picture looks like it's able to capture u with all the force it has into a beautiful world , a place filled with light and warmth...

i live my life carrying each breath to enjoy the moment of happiness.

It came over me just it used to come and go
A moment of silence that never fails to put my mind from thoughts
One phone call could make a huge difference
Like how everything that happens around, influence me so much
If every single of tears can drip away 1% of my thoughts
I would have cry a river.
Wishing that I am not a deep thinker
To be able to take things lightly...

This process of growing up hasn't been easy for anybody
Will there be a turning point in life?
I pray for things to work out well in the end...
And I believe in Him for He has decided my life.

School

Dear diary,

It's the seond week of my school 1year 2nd semester... hectic life begins since add drop period. It's like a war where everyone starts to 'fight' for slots that fits their desire timetable. Haha.. it's pretty fun if u're able to get what u want but not when there's nothing for you.
The holiday mood is still around within myself and only myself i think. Been travelling to and fro as i didn't want to stay in hall alone. Staying at home is like a luxury for me - having the entertainment, no fuss over foods, the company of my naughty twins sisters makes life more enjoyable and meaningful. This sch term.. i'm learning to be a loner. Got into a class where i know like only 1 or 2 pple? It's a totally new and not exciting experience.

Went shopping with mummy last sunday, bought a pair of shorts. I think shorts are very comfortable and easy esp when i'm gg to school. It's like the best bottom which allows u to match with all kinda of tops and shoes be it slippers, sandals or even heels.

Brought in a toaster into my hall. Will be able to eat kaya toast , my own self made pizza using bread... yummy. No more starving!

Before sch starts, i finally went out with the pw girls to k-box. Fun fun fun! I'm gg to miss melissa and michelle once they are leaving singapore to australia. Oh man.. how sad is it for our pw group to split into two.But, no matter what.. we'll always stay close with one another even though we have lesser communication , i'm sure we can feel each other care and concern. Gals, we shall make it!

It's raining right now.. n after a long day yesterday and today... i shall make my way to my bed.

Create Your Own

Finally...

dear diary,

It's over... i'm kinda relieve to have the 1 week holiday left for myself , family and friends. On the other hand, i felt guilty and a tinge of saddness for letting my team down. I'm sorry...

Results are out - the reality is I did not get what i expected so after talking to alison yesterday night. We want to be like our secondary school friends - not very bothered about our sch stuffs as in if we make it, we make it and if we don't , just let it be. Go to school study den go out when we have the time to play. Sounds attractive cos it means no stress. Can we?

Last friday, I went to watch night at the museum with my hall people. The show was nice though i fell asleep for a short moment cos i was really tired but still i'm glad i didn't miss out the nicest part of the show. Sat down while they are having dinner cos i was waiting for my family to tell me where are we having dinner. Carrying all my stuffs , i headed down to Clark Quay and we had dinner at Fishermens Wharf. It's nice :) Took a stroll along the river, stopped a while to watch the bungy thingy. It is pretty scary, even if I'm offered a 1000, i wouldn't get my butt up there. Settled down for deserts at haagen diaz. Ice cream is one of the most delicious deserts n i'm always craving for more. Spending time with my family is a blessing. Thank God for giving me a wonderful family. Saturday morning, i followed my parents to clementi for brunch. After a long long time, i finally get to drive again. Oh dear, i really forgot how to drive as in i asked my mum which is the brake! It scare her off haha... On saturday night, we went to IMM cos my youngest sister is changing handphone to W850i. Some unhappiness among the twins , as u know twins would expect some same treatment. Walk around n headed home. Sunday morning, i drove to westmall with my parents and the twins to change out handphone plans to student plans. Yea, now i have free outgg calls in campus and 1000 free sms. Mummy bought a black dress though she wanted the bronze one but we insisted that the black dress looks gd on her with her super fair skin!

New year eve - spend the night with my secondary 2 classmates. Supposed to have steamboat at marina ... saw those super long queue as though they are having some great promotions. We ended up sitting at the hawker and eat chicken rice. Thitiratch ordered curry fish head too but it took such a long time to come that the chicken rice already filled our stomach. Wanted to cancel the order but can't. Thitiratch and simon left the table before the uncle found them ..when the uncle came over and asked kah chong said that we nv order. Lol... phew luckily we didn't have the curry fish head on our table otherwise we might nt be able to get up. It was 9pm after dinner.. walked to marina bay, there were drizzles. After a long trek, we arrive at padang at 11.20pm. Just in time to catch a breath and wait for the fireworks :) After countdown, had supper at maxwell - porridge. Then , shili, lyn and I went to central square apartment to meet up with denis, roger n shu yan who are so ready for majong. Wanted to watch step up dvd , partly the quality of the show is nt so gd n i was rather tired so i went to bed zzz. Woke up at 12pm , went to liang court for mac lunch den home to watch step up and take the lead. 6 more days... i want a fufilling 5 days.

i'm a bitch!

The feeling of wanting to know more... wanting to know what's wrong... knowing that it has already happen... finding hard to make a sound... pushing urself to a corner ... putting all the blame on oneself... having to face people with fake smiles knowing that it doesn't come from the heart. Don't even know if what u have done was right or wrong ... begin someone who cares abt people feelings ended up making urself in a state like this sucks.

God, i pray for everyone to be happy at least for this christmas to forget all troubles and lead life as it was before everything happens please...

nothing pays to be good..

who will ever care even when u wake up early in the morning, making an effort to go all the way to this isolated island... when i could have stayed at home, have more sleep and have breakfast with my family!
making mi like a fool to wait on the court for 2 hours?
so what if the technology is so advanced when no one even bothers to use it!
i could have been more irresponsible and dun even care to make any arrangements.. i could have went thailand with my family and dun even give a damn shit for IH.
To be able to go snorking, enjoy the beach, look at the fishes and see how much freedom they have. Hitch a ride on a jet ski from daddy... shopping...

Damn it! it doesn't pays to be good.. to always do the right thing. I DUN WANNA CARE ANYMORE!

A week of blogging

Dear diary,

Daddy, mummy and sisters went to thailand last thursday and will be back in singapore tml morning 1am. These few days of them being absent from home... it's peaceful and quiet. Certainly, it is nice to have such days being alone at home doing things u want. On thursday, i went for softball training in the morning and suppose to have tennis training in the afternoon but the weather in dec is just so rainy. Ended up watching soccer hall 7 vs hall 10 or 12 ( nt sure) . Ayway, hall 7 won 2-0. Congrats! So tired... i went back to my room n slept till 8.30 and headed home. Drop by at jp subway to get my dinner while eating it on the trip home ia bus. At home.. there's only my bro. Guess i slept ard 1 after watching scv ba.

On friday, it was back to hall 7 again for tennis. It's our first prelimary rounds with hall 13. Somehow, i felt the nervousness... as i woke up with a weird feeling in my stomach. It hurts - it was the same pain i felt when i was in sec 3 before my cross country. I almost didn't want to go to hall for that early warm up... but i still dragged myself to do so. After warm up, i went to sadaf room ( my senior staying on the same level as mi) .. had a little chat with her and ate a doughnut. Went out for lunch with yi hao, mario and sadaf before yi hao and I headed off to help out as empire and linesman. The sun was hot! I'm so tanned but sadly an uneven tanned i got here... Soon it was our turn to play. Our men doubles has easily won with 6-0. Mixed doubles too 6-0 , women doubles 6-0 and woman single won too. Man single lost but it was alright afterall it's tough to beat an ivp player! Good work everyone :) We shall strive harder :)
After the match and a bath, met up with my hall people and off we go for dinner! Where? the nearest shopping centre - jp. Everyone ate from the same stall... it brings mi back to where we usually eat after tennis training with my jjc tennis girls with mr low. Stayed for the night cos we are having a drinking session. Hmm... had some chat with my hall people, one of them is an exchange student from switerzland. I didn't drink much .. two glasses. One with orange juice and the other with sprite, that's all. Didn't want to get drunk. Anyway, it was my first time staying overnight in hall , drinking and chatting till like 4am i tink.

On saturday, it was a special day. It's my dearest rowena birthday! Woke up at 10 plus am.. n had to quickly rush home cos cheryl, melissa and I were planning a birthday surprise for her. Haa.. meet up with cheryl in town to shop for rowena present. We really wanted to buy her a watch but it was too much for us to afford so we bought her a top, earrings and necklace. Hope u like it girl:) Rushed home from town too cos we haven bake our brownie nor cook the spahgetti . Quickly, we get all the ingredients from cold storage and landed ourselves in the kitchen. Got help from my maid in cooking. We bake the brownie ourselves and cut it into a heart shape. I also bought some special candles called the relight candles. We want to play a trick on her. Also, had her earrings placed in an ice. Rowena thought we will be having dinner at secret recipe so when we bought out her a plate of spaghetti... haha. Ate dinner tgt with garlic toast and nuggets. Shortly, melissa bring her to the swimming pool area while cheryl and I bring the lighted cake and present to her. It was a nice place to celebrate her birthday :) The most humourous part was having to see her blowing the candles and it went off but was relighted again. Kept teasing her that she was so lousy even after eating dinner and still had no strength to blow off the candles.

Before rowena came, we had called to reserve place at The Settlers. It was so fun having to play games there .. there was this particular game we were so super noisy and i came to realise I am slow in reacting. Cheryl is the one who reacts fast and won the title of Miss violent haha, right cheryl? After 2 hours there.. all of us felt so full than before. Cos we have been eating non stop from my home - spaghetti, garlic toast, brownie, nuggets to The settlers - black pepper fries, tibits and drinks. Took cab home - wow, it's a tiring day indeed.
Sunday - i spend my whole day gluing my eyes on the tv jus dun wanna do anything. Actually i planned to go sun tan myself so that i have a more even tan but it seems like i woke up on a rainy day. So there goes away my sun... Was becoming really bored so i decided to open the drawer and see if there are ny shows to watch. Didn't know we had the vcd of 'Princess Hours' . Anyway, i watched from 4pm till it was bedtime and continue watching it today after 'Worlds Aprt' ended at 1pm. I thot there was only 12 esp but came to realise that actually there is 24 but the other 12 esp vcd, i just couldn't find it! It's infuriating and now i'm back to doing nothing so blog... in another 5 hours and a half, i would be seeing them at changi airport :) Hope sis bought mi some stuffs though i dun expect much since they are gg to an island. Maybe i will hear complaints from mum cos she dislike the sun and always love to have that fair skin haha. That's my mum :)

I love being alone sometimes. It's the only time where you can think about stuffs you really wanna know about urself. Every year I wish something special would happen but it isn't as easy as wishing for it to happen. Perhaps, time is unable to explain everything that happen even though the saying always go ' Everything happens for a reason.' To find out the reason for every single thing that happen is too tireous... just let it come and go for what will be, will be.

There's no point to ask why. Each and everyone gives a different reason so why bother to ask? Does it helps to make one feels better this way? Maybe you are hurting someone without knowing that a word from you can cause pain like a stiletto that stab through the heart.

sisters rocks

They are that bored when i bought them back to hall with me to stay over the night...

Said' Jie, i felt so cheated!'
haha

Queen of Queens 2006

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One litre of tears

Dear diary,

Was there any point of time you feel like God is treating you unfairly?
Was there any point of time you feel that this world isn't a place for you?
Was there any point of time you ask yourself so many times ' Why?'

At one point of my life, I ask myself all the above questions...

We live in the same world but lead different life.
Who we are to blame for the imperfect things in our life?
Our parents? Ourself? God?
No one can answer.

I had completed watching this japanese drama ' 1 litre of tears' in two days. It's really the saddest drama i ever seen. Nevertheless, I learn... that we should always be satisfy with who we are now and what we have now. No matter what plight you are in, you are always luckier than someone around you.



Based on a true story, One Litre of Tears is about the life story Kitou Aya (1962-1988) a girl who had an incurable disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease (also known as SCA type 2; spinocerebellar ataxia type 2)at a young age of 15. Although the girl in the drama - Ikeuchi Aya, lived in the 21st century, her character was based on Kitou Aya's life, how she struggled and fought her disease and how she wrote her deepest thoughts until the last day she could hold a pen. Before she died, her writings were published including the poems she wrote while she is staying in a school for the disabled. This gave new hopes to people who suffers the same disease as she did and soon Aya received letters of appreciation and thanks from those people. At the age of 25, she succumbed herself into a sleep where she could no longer feel any pain.

I went to the library today... hoping i was able to borrow her diary to read. I couldn't find it however i came across another book. Sat down on the floor n flip through the pages. One particular sentence is so true - 'We should be bless that we never know what the future lies ahead of us. Because if we know about the obstacles we were to face, we may never want to step out and learn to be a successful person in life. '

On the other hand, if we were to know about the future ad learn about the challenges we were to face. We learn how to treasure the time we have now and do everything we can, treating it as though there is no tomorrow.

I shall learn to cherish everything around me, knowing how wonderful it is to be able to look up the sky n say ' It's a beautiful day! '

@deine = > thank you for everything i have :)

exams are finally over

Dear diary,

I've finally tide through this half a year in uni... this long yet short 2 weeks, there seems to be endless thoughts passing through my mind. However, thanks to all the people around mi whom i study with, giving me moral support which i needed so much. Thanks!


Blessing of bubbles floating in the air
Felt your love and care
It means so much to me
Hiding in a corner, from a distant from you
The feeling of long lost love came stumbling upon
Making me realise...
U stand a place within me far more than i know

This holiday seems a little different from others cos of hall activities.
Hopefully it will still be fun though the travelling to n from will be tiring!
Going to vivo city later with nicole for shopping n movie :) wanna get a new wallet, pair of low heels ...
Last night i was angry. I lost all the photos in the computer, everything was gone cos my sister save the wrong folder and the computer was reformat! Damn... all the photos of memories are gone :( I'm so frustrated... is there anyway where the com is reformat n still able to retrieve the lost files?

@deine => wishing for an endless holiday

A year older

Dear diary,

How lucky can I having to celebrate the day i was born for 4 consecutive years when coping with examinations :( Had my IT paper yesterday morning which i shall not elaborate cos I'm jus an IT dummy.

Went home ard 3 plus today ... slack around till dinner time. Thanks to my family especially daddy who brought me to Michelango ( nt very sure how to spell it) , a very expensive place to go. DUn think i will ever step in there without having a heavy pocket. We actually spend around 45 minutes going to holland den to bukit timah n back to holland again.. just to decide where to eat :P This restaurant is famous for it's pasta.. we ordered 6 plates to share. Yummy.. but i feel damn bad when the bill come. It cost $255! Gosh.

I have been staying in hall alone for the past few days.. being alone is so sad and gloomy. I dun like it.. it's always nice to have someone for companion. N this makes mi think twice about gg back to hall tml morning. Studying with friend is nice.. but staying at home makes u feel so cosy. Now that i have to go back tml morning, i shall go to my cosy bed to slp for that few hours.. b4 heading back to the 4 walls. Can anyone please invent a teleport or a machine which allows me to travel one place to another within like a few minutes? It really makes my life so much better!

I'm so not prepared for the exams for next n following week. So dead!

lovely bed n aircon makes u feel good..

happy birthday to myself :)