So many things...

Dear diary,

Din realised that I have neglected my blog for quite sometime... There's so much going on the past 2 weeks. More updates and photos coming up!

Now, where do I start from?

On Saturday night, I spent my night with my sec sch pals at the service apartment. It's a nice place to hang out with.Denis cooked dinner for us like 9-10 of us? Simple dishes with soup. Played mahjong, watch movies and sleep. Went home only on sunday morning.

Last Tuesday. Meet up wit Rowena and we ate at Jack's Place for lunch. It's really a good deal esp for their lunch set. Had a big feast ... totally yummy with a light desert n tea after the main course. Way to go Jack's Place! Went to sch for co. law lecture and i feel good cos I was awake and attentive during this particular lecture. Perhaps a good mood does make a difference :P
Dear.. see, you make my day just by having lunch together. Hahaha... After lec, i went to the library- print stuffs n try to study while waiting for yong shen to end his Missions ( 4 missions possible!) Left sch only ard 7? Yup.. we had subway for dinner and went to the airport to send Cheryl off. Gosh, i was so afraid that she left without me saying goodbye. The atmosphere is like everyone feeling kinda bu she de but still have a smile on their faces those kind. I hold back my tears though there were 1-2 moments, i really thot it gonna flow. Phew, I survived it!
Dunno if she will be free to read this but... Cheryl! Where are you having fun now? Haha ... did you appear offline again? Maybe you forgot to change it to online or busy? Cos i dun see you around on msn. Blur Queen, don't be so blur there ok? Take more pictures and enjoy yourself :)
Yong Shen and I went to terminal 3 to walk walk n we took some pictures. Is pretty nice with the new concept of environmental in T3.


Thursday night
Went to Yanni's room at midnight where we have a mini gathering. Toon lee, ahmad, zhong, mi and hj. Ya.. play mahjong and cards. Zhong n I won! Good job...

Friday
It's finally the end of the week again. Met up with Helen in JE lib trying to be hardworking BUT i failed. Cos i was having headache and couldn't concentrate at all :( Ended up at JE food court munching. Hehe... gal, have you made up your mind to do rebonding? She's just one of a kind - fiddle minded. Lol.

Sunday
Met up with nicole for lunch ( had sakae sushi) at Heeren. It's been long since i saw her last Oct. Nice to see you again gal! And we took alot of photos with our camera. Bought her a soft toy rabbit and we took neo prints. it's nice! Yup, pardon us for thinking that we are still young with all the neoprint stuffs. But i really enjoy it. It's fun how we panic for a few seconds and flash go there a nice picture. Couldn't help it :P It turn out to be very sweet. Don't tink i will see her till she comes back in June from switzerland.
Opps, left jolene in the room alone again. Sorry gal... din mean to but I do enjoy staying home too other than being sick. This freakin cough of mine just refused to go away. I dun like you. Boo...
caused me to lose some nice sleep at night. Only managed to get into sweet dreams at 4am. Sigh. Tiring. One of my new year resolutions definitely has to be sick- free. But apparently - Nope, the virus attacked me since day 1. Anyway, I'm glad to stay at home last night cos my family went our for supper to Xin Wang HK cafe! Yea.. cos it jus opened in achorpoint till 2am everyday. We went down ard 11+/ 12 . Ate porridge, tim sum, noddle, bread n yuan yang. I'm loving it! Yea, what's more loving than having hanging out with your close ones? Nothing beats it!














Monday
Thanks mum for coming to fetch me after school and company me for lunch! Appreciate it so much :) Hmm... i Sleep for 4 hours when i reach home. I just concussed. Woke up only at 8+ and have been slacking since then till now - 12am. Time flies! One moment, I was trying to get myself out from bed to go to sch, next I'm back on that cosy bed again and yet again. Haha.. this means TIME OUT! time to slp...zzz. I have officially became a sleeping beauty which sounds nicer than pig.

Tea Party

dear diary,

Went to TEA PARTY at bt timah sixth avenue for dinner with Michelle, Wenda n Cheryl. So what's the occasion? Cheryl is leaving next Tue to Holland on exchange. Sigh.. one more close friend gg to MIA for like 5 mths?
Cheryl dear, hopefully i can still meet you at least one more time before u leave and it's hard to chat with u cos u hardly come online. U r my one of my closest fren who i confide everything about. Hopefully I can contact you and still share with you everything that's happening around me through our advanced technology. Gonna miss you so much gal. In case I really go on exchange, we will only see each other prob next year. Gosh... can't imagine that. The thought of it just make me feel sad.

Alright, some happy moments we spent together just now. It's really a nice place to chill out... the scones are nice, n greedy me, i ate two of it! Opps.. is that like hmm 1kg more? haha can't calculate the calories so nvm. We also played taboos which is FUN. still rmb that time i played with qing fu, li xiang and helen after surf and sweat. Qing fu n I won! Yea.. great job :) Alright, pictures up!

boring...

Dear Diary,

Sch has started... n I ain't excited about it. It's not gg to be easy but still has to go through it like any other sem.

Anyway, went home ytd with Vanessa. It's really nice to see you again like since last yr aug? Glad to know that at least someone share the same thoughts as me and we are not drifted apart. Hopefully, you'll stay somewhere near to my house :)

Watched some tv programme with daddy and he showed me how smart is the parrot. Chit chat with my silbings , fry eggs for supper... i still love home BEST! The weekend is coming n i'm gg out. YEA!!!

@delphin alone in the room...

New year eve celebration

bored.

Sick... lack of sleep last night.
Today it was TIRING! i slept throughout the bus tri back to Bishan Park Sec. Hmm it was not as fun as I expected. Perhaps, i didn't have the mood too. Too early in the morning already lo

Slept for near 4 hours after I came home. It was really a deep and peaceful sleep.


regret

my thoughts

Have you ever been in a situation where
You once long for it
But when it's there...
You were afraid
And that's holding you back
What if it is not what you expect to be?

Life is full of contradictions.

That feeling I never felt it before
It's like your heart is so weak
Every now and then I look away
Wondering what's next?
One moment i was throwing words over
Next, it was mere silence
But you... just surprised me
Your moves, your ideas, your word
Maybe you're different ... is that the right word?

I do not want to pin any hopes
Let things happen as God path it
For I believe in miracles
And you might be one of the miracles he created
He created my happiness - my family and friends
I'm grateful for everything that happens

Spent my day with my dearies - meli, rowena and cheryl. Had lunch at Sushi Tei and we went partyworld after which. I haven sang for such a long long time. We could not decide where to go so ended up there. It was fun... but i got my sore throat n fell sick when I got home. Flu...
N tmr i'm working as an instructor. Having to wake up at 5.45am cos we had to gather at Bishan Park Sec. Sch by 7.30am. Well done! tIme now is 1.36am n i'm nt yet in my cosy bed. Gonna run ard in sentosa tmr while educating the young people on National Education. Haha, hope it will be fun :)

Guess I better get gg to my lala land before I et into trouble tmr morning for failing to wake up.
Goodnite ppl! Dearies.. i love you girls! Hope to meet up soon before meli and michelle flying to aus and our miss piggy (cheryl) gg to holland/netherlands. N there left the two of us - my twin. We're twins cos our mind think so damn alike!

More to come gal!

Happy New Year

Dear diary,

Happy New Year everyone! Had both great days on the last of 2007 and start of 2008. Spend my night over at gallery hotel with Lyn, Avena, Hui fan, Charmaine, fang lay, denis, roger, yuan xun, kc and seth. Played lotsa games - indian poker, five ten, big fish small fish, pictionary, riddles, brain teasers... all FUN!!!Drank quite alot too...

Spent my 1st of day of 2008 at nydc and a move at lido. We watched Dan in the real life, quite funny but the pace is kinda slow. Was tired after the 2 days. It's the last week of the holiday... gonna be busy and hopefully fun too. i wish that time can stop on this Sunday, let it pass by slowly and peacefully. Really don't feel like gg back to that hall of mine facing books again :(

love is everywhere

Dear diary,

i feel it! It's in the air... from family, friends even the flowers, the pet my dad bought home. Yes! It's LOVE.

Daddy brought a parrot home - xiao huang is his name haha. cos tt's out sir name. It's really beautiful.. a rare and expensive species.Think it costs 300-400 bucks.

izzit it beautiful? But he looks kinda scared right now.. perhaps not used to the new environment. It's lovely...

New year is coming and guess it's the same as always to spend my year end festival with my good old friends :) 7 years of friendship and i know there's more to come!

Will be working on next thurs and fri. Hee, finally there's this small amount of 'income' which i know it will be spend within 1-2 days.

Looking forward to a new year and the last day of 2007.

the mysterious feeling

dear diary,

somehow i feel elated today. the feeling was so light and cosy ... this mysterious feeling coming from my sub-conscious mind.
hopefully everything will turn out well.
these little words appearing just make put a smile across. how amazing that these words could bring happiness to people.

was quite tired cos i came home only this morning with Joanne. Spend my xmas eve with my lovely pals having dinner tgt and playing cards in hotel 81. Though it sounds wrong but it's not what u r thinking... haha. We played and drink .. I left to join Joanne and her friends over at Chinaone (if i'm nt wrong) in clark quay. It was quite fun, after all there are many westerners over there so it wasn't kinda our place. glad to make new friends... had a nice breakfast and headed home.

Though xmas is over, still.. Merry Christmas everyone!

New Year is coming!!!
i'm going to steal my sister's teddy bear!

shopping!

Dear diary,

i went shopping today with Sherlyn... we went town. It was a nice shopping trip :) Thanks for buying me the Christmas present and "dinner". Haha, we shopped for pretty long from 3pm till near 9pm. So crowded and everywhere i walk.. almost every shop is playing R&B songs. Can't wait to go next wed with my cousin, friends and prob my sisters too. How nice to have siblings who you can hang out together. i wanna go Thailand shopping!

The kids have been messaging me... and one even called me! They are so cute la, asking me questions which really make me wanna laugh. Been eating a lot till I'm really broke already. Think I might go for another ear piercing soon. Sherlyn had hers done today... maybe next week i go :)

Joanne is coming tonight.. yea, we're gg to have a good chat tonight! hee.. waiting for her arrival and stories :P

Adelphin ... feeling happy :) i love holidays!

my holiday is meaningful

Dear diary,

I had been so busy the past few days... and many photos to upload.

15th Dec 2007
I went fisherman wharf for dinner, TCC and watched The Golden Compass. I enjoyed myself , the show is nice. Is my 1st time seeing polar bears fight :P

16th Dec2007
It's my dear birthday... Happy Birthday Rowena! Woke up early to eat tim sum at liang court. Wow, it's so nice! Lucky us, they have 30% promotion, not only did we eat tim dum, we also have desserts. Shall upload the pictures later. We took many pictures after lunch, walk around at The Central and took a shuttle bus which was free around town :) haha, i felt like a tourist. We alighted at city hall, went esplanade to The Chocolate Bar and had our fondue!
I felt so fat.. and sinful. Because....
My family went to Sushi Teh for dinner and somehow i ate again. My 1st time there, the food is nice:) Esp got one beef dish.

17th - 19th
These 3 days, i really feel so happy, tired and meaningful. It was a SUPER GOOD experience. It was Kids' World. My group is group 9 - Winnie the Pooh ( my favorite cartoon character). Together in my group, I have 9 volunteers and 9 kids ( initially got 10 kids but one left to join the other group) They are from underprivileged families and really adorable. We cheered, play games and won champion! Hooray!

Day 1
We had ice-breaker games - wacko, H2O , trees and squirrels. Then we had life skill lessons where the kids do face mask and 3D origami. Next, we play sports games and we won 1st :) I can see our potential soccer and captain ball players.

Day 2
We played The Great Monopoly in school , it's like amazing race. Ran from one station to another.. shag but fun. And the kids bully me! Boo.. but nvm, for more points it's alright :) Haha, they pour a big bottle of water on me... and i was totally wet. We kinda play cheat cos the kids learn to earn more bonus points by cheering. It's so cute having to see them asking the programmers for more points. They go like ' please... give us more points. we do cheer for you." After the cheer, everyone will crowd around the programmer and see how many points they give. Completed 8 stations and we are the champions!

Day 3
Went to the science center. It's has been long since I went there... before i went in, i thought it would be quite boring but apparently i was wrong. Went around with Irfan and it's really interesting! It's his first time there and everything is like wow... press the buttons here and there, run around. Looking at them playing at the same games over and over again without getting tired of it is so weird. Maybe when we were younger, we were like them too.

I really learn how to appreciate things around me more. Ask yourself when was the last time you ate MacDonald?
My kids... some of them couldn't even remember when was the last time they ate MacDonald. On the 1st day, we gave happy meal to them with fillet o fish, nuggets and fries. Many of them either could not finish it or they don't want to eat because they wanna bring home for their siblings at home. When my friend told her that the fries will be cold by the time you reach home but she says, "nvm, my mummy will make hot. My sis likes nuggets and my bro likes fries." How sweet right? If it's any one of us, I'm sure it will land in the bin. I never thought eating MacDonald is a blessing... guess i always take it for granted.

When you were at the age of 10, do you buy your own slippers?
My little girl has to work for her own slippers at the price of $12.50. She has to do the house chores to earn the money. She said it was her favorite slippers and she really cherish it.

Today was the last day of the camp and i felt sad to leave them. Don't know if I will be able to see them again. Hopefully, they will call me someday... missing them already.

Girls night out

Dear diary,

Meet up with cheryl n michelle last night. So nice to be together :) We went to 2am dessert bar to enjoy some delicious desserts and wine. It was a short and sweet meet up. Took many photos.. and probably we are one of the customers who took the most pictures there. haha...

Played frisebee this morning in school. Fun to be with sirius and nbs people. Hope they do well on monday! Went to queensway, ikea and anchorpoint with hj after that... a tiring day indeed.

Hope mummy will have fun in Penang... i feel so bad cos tml night daddy wanna bring us out for dinner but i won't be home. :(

My Star

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

Who and What..

Dear diary,

Finally, the connection is fixed. Everyday i am still enjoying my holidays and so glad to stay this way. If only i can have these days forever...

Have been watching a lot of TV shows... like project runway, Amercian next top model, Amercian idol etc. Every now and then, I faded into a dreamy mode wondering who do I wanna be in the future. What is my talent? Do I have one? Imagine myself staying in an office seems so boring! And i really really don't want to.. yet again, do i have a choice? I admire people who have talents.. that creative brains and magical hands of theirs drawing fascinating designs and turn them into gorgeous pieces of artwork filling up the body parts of a human being ... the beautiful voices that touches the hearts of people around the world... isn't it WOW?

How i wish i have something...

Met up with a fren recently... n i realised that there's always this small personality in everyone of us that refuses to grow up. It come so naturally like a small kid. Anyway, we did an art an craft thingy like those u see in the shopping centers using sand but we were using plant fibre. Just last sunday, i went to popular and bought materials to make stuffs. If given the choice, i wouldn't mind playing with barbie dolls,polly pocket, hugging all my bears to sleep as though they were my kids. I used to be very silly and still am.. where i will cover blanket over my bears thinking that they will get cold in the air-con. Alright.. guess i just don't wanna grow up.

Will be meeting my gers tml night at holland village... anticipating for camera time! whahaha.
my body clock is screw. sleeping after dinner, waking up at 2/3am till 5/6 plus den slp again. Today is so tiring cos i went back to school to do my flag for Kids' world and play 3 games. As simple as it is.. and indeed it was, still I had to stayed in school from 9am till 5pm cos they drag it for DAMN LONG! Nvm... realise that there are a no. of things for me to think these few days.

i have a wish for this christmas...

Internet connection Breakdown!

Dear diary,

It has been 2 days without the internet connection at home and it's killing us ( my siblings and I) ! So... here we are at tea garden MacDonalds surfing the net since it was 12.30am and currently the time is 3.30am. Haha, this is maddnes i know.
Gosh...singtel has such poor service! Have to wait till Tues before the technician come to fix it la! N i have to register my subjects on tuesday :S Argh.. looks like i have to go back to sch if not somewhere else to reg my sub. Sian!!! So sad.. i lost my gate access card to my hall. I really have no idea how i lose it cos nv take it out b4. *scratching my head* n $20 is gg to fly again jus like tt...

There's nothing i can do except for tv and going out without the internet. Finish watching the prison break till esp 8 today. Looks like i have no choice but to start on Heros...

Next week i have my whole week fully booked. Have to go back to sch on monday to wed cos of my volunteer work preparation. My group is winnie the pooh ... so happy :) Tue after registration, will be gg out... Thursday, there might be still some slot available haha. Mummy is flying off to penang on friday - no more nagging for at 5 days! Yea.. lol. N we, the kids will be bringing daddy ard to spend money lol. Very evil kids ya? Lol, we are nice... company daddy when mum is not around. Going to bring him to all the hip places lo. When we told dad, he says he's gg to hide one corner for the 5 days haha. Think one of the days, we are gg to New Asia Bar - if i'm nt wrong it's the tallest building in Singapore. So excited! I will trade in any of my activities for that... family first! hee

On teh 17th to 19th, i will be spending my time with the kids at Kids' World. Hope it'll be fun :) I love children!! They are so adorable... looking forward to meeting and taking pictures with them. I jus had dinner with one of my Jc Fren at Manhanttan Fish market. Thanks for the present and treat !I think the prawns there are nice but the fish is nt tt good. StIll prefer Fisherman Wharf which i will be gg next sat.

Tml i will be gg to rent shows/movies with korkor... i hope he DON'T slp till 6pm! Such a pig ,owl and rat in the house! Anchorpoint has a disney cafe gg to open soon. Seems like it's selling ice-cream but i just love the furnitures there. I wanna take photos .. with mickey and minnie! Lalalala, i'm in my dreamland again. Love all the cute stuffs lo. Most girls are like that one right? Hehe... i am!

4am le.. going home now. Good morning Singapore! Goodnite ...

Butterfactory

Yesterday night was quite fun... look at the happy faces :)

Facebook

haha, was reading through dawn blog and saw this video about facebook. It's pretty funny! lol...

Random entry

Dear diary,

I just woke up at 3pm... had mac breakfast with my youngest sis at tea garden and back to my sleep after that. I love my family so much that i enjoy every moment with them :)

Just that night how she cuddle and squeeze onto my bed and lie beside me even though she has a much bigger bed which she share with her twin. And there my big brother also wants a share of it.... if it were a few years back, perhaps we can all sleep tgt but now that we have grown up, that's kinda tough.

Was msn-ing with guo xiang while I was reading my hand-written diary. Such funny entries I had... din know i could draw quite well and write such interesting poems :)

This holiday is flying pass me so fast that i want time to stop. There's so many people I have not meet up with esp my frens from overseas and those gg to overseas. Argh... i wanna get out of singapore too! Mum has some kind of humor too, when i told her that, she says ' go sentosa also can'. Hehe... sentosa is still part of singapore, Mum.

Went shopping with helen yesterday and bought a shirt dress.. however it's kinda short for me to be a dress. But i still love it still. I should go back to my dance school to pick up some moves. Dancing is fun and cool! It got all i love.. the music and exercising.

Will be meeting nbs people tonight at butterfactory... hopefully it will be fun even though there might be very few of us from sirius.

Every night I have been watching Prison Break till bedtime...I love his eyes.

@delphin

SHOW concert

Some pictures from SHOW concert...

Quite a good one :)

He's funny!

In my dreams ...

Dear diary,

I had a tiring day yesterday.. woke up at 7am and head my way back to that lil corner of Singapore - NTU to play tennis with cheryl, hj n raymond. it was fun... i haven play tennis since dunno when. 4 hours of stroking n laughing on the court. What i took away from the court was a nick - no. 10. All thanks to mond! Had a big feast at crystral jade.. it was yummy! I enjoy my lunch but all that workout on court is gone...

Meet rowena at 4.30and we went vivocity. We watched enchanted. It was really enchanting :) I also wanna be in a fairyland and there you'll always live happily ever after. Silly as it sound.. but i never want to wake up from this dream :P

gg to meet my sec sch frens soon. Tml will be gg to SHOW concert. I can imagine both my sisters going CRAZY! They are two mad girls who look alike. haha

Next week all be another week of 'outings'. I wanna work in the weekend... any jobs available?

@delphin ...

and after all the studying and torture...
here we are with our smiley faces!
my eyes are much bigger now n i m more awake!
hee.

Hey gal, i enjoyed your company. More to come!!! ( but u have your minor :S)

A post birthday

I celebrated an early birthday with cheryl, hongjin and raymond at Crystal Jade. Thanks a lot! It was after our paper... n i really enjoyed myself. Just received the photos from hj, realize that i haven seen myself smiling for so long already. Hmm... but i look pretty tired too :(

That day... they sang birthday song n i felt so embarrassing haha. Well.. i'm shy.
We had Anderson ice-cream too n played the arcade! Cheryl partner with hj.. while i partner raymond to play the basketball game. Initially we lost to them but the second match we won! N got to stage 3... by the time we're at stage 3, i'm perspiring lo. My hands are aching .. the basketballs just fly everywhere. Lol, but it was fun! :)

IT'S BOTHERING ME WAY TOO MUCH AND I CAN'T TAKE IT!

I WANNA SLEEP.. GIVE ME MY SLEEPING PILLS. PUT ME INTO THAT DEEP SLEEP AND EVERYTHING IS OVER WHEN I OPEN MY EYES.

adeline... u love your life. it's once and never... let it go!

what s semster...

Dear diary,

I do not know where to begin with... anyway it's the lat day of my papers. And i can't believe that it's getting worst each semster. Ya, life ain't easy but must it be that difficult?

Initially the thot of having just 3 papers was like.. well, u can do it! it' only 3.. but when u started to pile up the amount of notes, textbook, tutorials etc.. n see that mountain stacking higher and higher and what you know is that i have to get all these words into that small little brain , that's why stress enter.

It's always like that... n i do not understand why I always have to break down during exams. It was not once nor twice.. but thrice on/off. I'm so sorry for having my frens around mi to having to worry about me... comfort me and telling me that everything will turn out well. But i'm also grateful and thankful that i have friends around me who i can rely on esp cher n hj. To my parents whom i cried over the phone for almost an hour just before my last paper because i was so scare and panic. It's really nice to see them when they came over to send me dinner and tonic at 11.30pm. I feel like giving them a hug but i didn't.

I'm always thinking and worrying about every single thing... my brain is working the wrong way. Ever since my last paper till now, i'm still stoning the whole day. it's a feeling i do not know how to describe, it was not happiness definitely. i'm going aimlessly... just have to pray the outcome is what i wanted. i hate myself for being such a weakling.

i wanna sleep but i couldn't sleep depite of the 2.5 hrs i had this morning before the paper...
I wanna fly into my dreamland! leave this real world and enter into my comfort zone...

Boat and piggy are still having exams, it' been long since i see them! Miss you so much... Chelle, thanks for your call and we will be able to meet up really soon maybe next week? Meli, i din receive your msg but saw it at friendster jus now.. thank you. Are you having fun travelling? Bring me along!!!

Tonight, Dad is bringing me out to chill out... i miss the small talks we had in the past.
What else have i missed out? hmm... going to groom myself up for the next one week and start tennis-ing plus lotsa and lotsa of movies n drama. i wanna watch prison break 3 :)
Hopefully my parents have plans to bring me overseas.. anywhere is good. I misses the beach...

@delphin -> nothing means more to her as compared to ...

yet another exam...

It has been a crazy sem...
I just been through another crazy weekend. Doing project overnight at my house for IT.
My team members took turns to sleep jus like the other time over at Cheryl's house.
What's now?
It's getting closer...
A voice within me saying ' pls don't let this day come'
how much i need the energy to keep me awake every single day
I ain't wanna get tired anymore
some magical shine needed to sprinkle on me.

To meli, mich, cher n rowena,
Hey girls! All the best for your exams. I'm looking to your return and meet ups after this mugging period. Good luck :)

Adelphin wishes that everything will goes well smoothly and better...

i dunno why I'm feeling this way...
so emo...
in a daze. din feel like talking at all
the air is stagnant and cold
the sound of the fan so distinct

my eyes are tired.
but there wasn't a thought to go to bed
cos i'm guilty of everything
like how i have spent hours working on a freaking project
how i spent my time on my meals
the time i spent thinking about every other thing that seems so unimportant

not knowing where i should start...
i could easily stare on the screen on my computer...
n i felt my tears welling...my nose is stiffing
what's wrong?

mummy called in the evening...
how much i wanted to tell her i miss her cooking so much
how much i wanted to tell her not to hang the phone on me
all i said was i wanted to go home today but there're so many things to do...
asked if i have eaten? n remind me to take my meal later...

just when everything feels like falling apart in the lonely night
i miss my family most...
the frequent calls i used to get no longer ring.

i hate myself for getting emotional when things don't turn out well.
i shld be standing up strong like how i appear to be
keep that smile on... but it is not that way...

and there ... it happens sometimes...
"I cried myself to sleep last night
When I woke up
There were tear stains on my pillow
It hurt so much to sacrifice what I gave up
Without you in my life
I will always feel lonely
Losing the love
From someone like you"
....
Not a day goes by without something
Reminding me of you
The truth is that I miss you
It gets so hard not being with you
There are times when I go crazy
In the twilight of the night

maybe i shouldn't place any expectations...
i have made it so far...
i shld be contented.
it is just a want...
i do not need this burden..
it's burning my tolerance, my patience
so tired..

i just wanna walk through the endless peaceful road
someone enlighten me?

Having too much fun?

Dear diary,

This weekend i was staying over in school... went for shopping on Friday with Gina and Helen. Ah... this month is definitely the month where i spent most of my money on shopping :X Mummy cfm will nag at me if she finds out. i bought 2 cardigans and a top which costs mi a total of $62. In the afternoon, i went to play the game for IT, it was fun.. den report to LT24 where it seems as though i moment i step into and out, my knowledge is still the same! Ah, i din know what was happening in the lecture la.


Had street challenge on sat... i had fun though i feel more like gg there for showcase haha. Entertainment value was high in the finals and it was more relaxing! Anyway, we got 2nd! The weather wasn't very bad.. but bad enough for me to get my sun-burnt :S Like finally i got rid of my tanned lines and now it's back. BOO! I think the best part was after street challenge where zhen hao, yuen bo, guo xiang and i decided to have our own cooked meals. We went to The Sun, bought spaghetti sauce, canned food and chicken clam chowder. Went to hall2 to cook and eat on the stairs. It was nice n i enjoy it... Went to hall 2 tv lounge.. they were watching soccer. I was chit chatting with them cos i dun watch soccer. Was feeling tired but after we went back to hall for a bath, we gathered in hall 9 again. The guys watch soccer while i was in yuen bo room. His room got this huge tv , psp 2 ... after the soccer the guys came up to play psp2 -soccer again. 3am, we went down to watch rugby. Learn abit on the sports from yuen bo... i fell aslp, woke up n play with his hp. Slept ard 4plus i think...

I feel so tired today... n lost. Din know what to do the whole day, been surfing ard the net, walk to my bed n nap like every now and then. i'm such a pig! Jus had dinner with hj... n it's like 9pm already. Tml is another new week...


What's life without sirius? i guess i probably won't have tt much fun without them.

time for a new beginning

Dear diary,

Yea.. board meeting just ended! So happy...
Early morning i went for 214 and my classmates started saying that i nv eat my medicine cos i went a lil crazy... i think is more of the stress that's y i'm like tt.
After board meeting, went with hj n Cheryl for ice cream waffles. Then, they say i'm dramatic today. where got?
I'm back in hall and I've this very light feeling. Although there's still things for me to do BUT i dun care! I decide not to do anything tonight :P Haha, this week very slack. I slept for 10 hours on Tuesday night. Concussed at 12am n woke up at 10am.. sleeping is damn shiok! I LOVE sleeping!
Ate prata roll sausage at NIE den i saw my velvet slipper there. I wanna buy... maybe tml go there?
Shoot, my IT tutor ask my fren n i to help her to try out a game either tml or monday. Dunno is gd or not to be so lucky getting 'chosen' to play the game. Must be i too noisy in IT class already.. keep laughing when doing lab work if not sleeping when she is teaching the seminar -_- can't help but always fall asleep in IT class.

I'm thinking if i should go home tonight to grab all my stuffs for tml, sat n next week. I'm running out of clothes and i dun have my sports shoes for street challenge this sat. Also, i gt dance this sat... so lazy to go home :P

Actually come to think of it, still have alot of things to do esp IT project, 201 plus i haven start studying or rather i m lacking so much behind. i gg to watch some movie now. haha.. bye!

Can life get any better?

It's Saturday finally.. which means i have managed to pull through the last 5 days.
Fast, hectic, emotional, sleepless days and nights.

It all begin with a strong mindset but gets beaten down with an alphabet at the end of the day 1.
All i need was some jokes, some enlightenment, some encouragement to put me into ease or rather into sleep. Back into my pondering mood... always wondering why things turn out this way. Was glad that 1 presentation was down. During the ppt, i was like a joke myself holding on to a toy mircophone - the thought of it, makes me wanna laugh.

Entering into day 2, saw so many pictures of little kids in my class. I suddenly felt the love around with these innocent eyes and smiles. These cuties pies brings me into a state of admiration. In the afternoon, our team presented for IT. It was not a bad experience afterall cos i wasn't much prepared to do this ppt without a speech. Was just rattling off the slides and think of what i could add on the spot. Thankfully it went well though not excellent. End of day 2 begins with lots of readings for quiz.

The whole of day 3, the 3 of us were mugging for 202 quiz. Of cos, i din managed to finish all of them... it was a stressful day

Skipped my morning class cos i couldn't wake up... n the quiz was a disappointment n i predict it would not turn out well anyway. Sigh, will this semster be a real turnoff? Went to cheryl house to stay overnight with my 3 other group members to complete our IT project.

I din managed to last the whole night... think i fell into deel sleep after macdonalds breakfast at 6.30am. Woke up at 8.30 but went back to slp again till 10 plus. Last minute check through, printed photos, wanted to make video but no time ( but the plot was really funny) , finally call a cab n bring us back to FAL. Do all the final printing which was scary.. we have 50 over pages :S. I hope the tutor give us marks for effort if the quality is not tt great. The last day of a school week put me into a 15 hours of sleep.

I'm working on my elective report now - 2000 words. hopefully i can complete it by tonight. Hopefully i dun get too tired in the night, cos i wanna go out for a breathe. I need this! All i need is to be in a peaceful surrounding, enjoy the breeze and fell asleep.

During my whole recess week.. it was very much of a routine. Cos there are project meetings almost everyday! Except for this special day - Friday, where i meet up with my secondary sch friends because our dear miss avena is leaving to USA for 3 months not to study but to WORK n PLAY! Admire her ... haha. Anyway, we had dinner at kenny roger in great world city. It was my first time eating the famous chicken.. n indeed i like it! Though it's very fattening cos the portion is really big n i finish all with the extremely cheesy macaroni and yummy mashed potatoes. I wanna bring my parents there! hee... maybe after next week - the week i fear most.
So happy to see joyce, lingli n vanessa cos i rarely meet up at all. in fact since nbs camp, i haven meet all of them there. Bought a g2000 top which costs $59 n thanks to jolence who told be she bought it at half price .. i wanna scream. lol. Just so conicidental that both of us bought the same design but different colour :) i bought blue while she bought yellow. After kenny roger, i went holland village to essential brew. i just love that place :)

On sat night, i had dinner with sherlyn n kor at koufu food court in anchorpoint. I must say that the standards of anchorpoint food court has risen alot. Yummy foods there. Korkor ordered a special dish from the western stall which is unique n nice.. th0ugh it's filled with vege n mushrooms still it delicious.

So excited to get all the new clothes i bought online later in the afternoon from regina. I'm so going to have a collection of blue tops in my closet. Bought a beach dress n a top which is super versatile. Quite excited to wear them too but looks like i gotta wait till after exams? Hopefully not.. perhaps next weekend ba.

Next week is horrible! So far i already have:
1) AA202 class presentation (mon)
2) Elective report draft (mon)
3) AA213 class presentation (tue)
4) AA202 quiz (thurs)
5) AA 213 prj deadline (Fri)

later in the morning.. i really pray hard that there's no presentation or assignment due next week. though the chances is slim cos everyone whom i know in 214 classes seems to have assignments or presentation.

sigh.. today i nv study at all :(
spend alot of my time on my report for my elective n was viewing my IT project part a.

To my ex-roomie, i may not know what has happened but to you my dear, please hold on and stay strong no matter how hard life is going to be. i may not be able to share your burdens but know that i do care and will always be there for you when u need a listening ear like how we used to when we were staying together.

it's funny when you find yourself telling others to stay strong and have faith in themselves when all you ever did was to give up on yourself. so tired of pretending to be who you wanna see...

strolling down the park
having memories of being a young kid on the playground
playing with packs of candles,
protecting it from the wind.
if our childhood never ends...
life will never be so complicated.

what you need is not only time...

life at 20

dear diary,

is it wrong to be someone nice?
is it wrong to treat everyone as friends?
why do human beings differ so much?
does everyone has a motive behind all their actions?

i wanna get out of Singapore and NTU ...

family day!

cam-whoring... with my sisters n cousin.

Enjoyable day!

dear diary,

i'm so happy...
firstly, i haven touch my books for 2 days. been playing and giving myself a break away from studies. but i know this is not what i'm suspose to do cos there are so many projects on hand now. hmm, next week is packed with projects.

on thursday night, we ( ahmad, toon lee n i) were in yanni's room playing cards n chit chatting till like near 5am. I couldn't take it so went back to my room to zzz..

had a fun time with my nbs camp frens. had bbq at my house with good foods. haven had such a great time with them bitching, making fun of pple... remind me of 2e2 gatherings every yr at my hse there bbq-ing. really hope that the friendship with my nbs frens will always remain ... having gatherings once in a few months is really nice. so fun-loving, interesting n real...

my cousin is staying overnight today ... had a chat with her a while ago. tml gg to my dance class, meet up with jas den meet up with my mum's side relatives to celebrate grandma birthday! haha, can see all my young n noti cousins.

i wanna go on DIET n i wanna run, play tennis and do something challenging to spice up my life!

Yea, i'm so happy! It's my last day of the mid term break though i'm still i hall because tml there's project meeting. Well, guess there will be prj meetings like everyday of next week. Sigh... isn't it suspose to be a BREAK?
I have nothing to do so went to my sis blog to 'steal' some pictures.
According to her, that's my bro who was caught by her when he missed the red light. Apparently, he is too engrossed in eating the chocolate...
Thanks daddy for buying us this camera. It's so slim n nice :) Hee, next time i can post more more pictures!


Mummy cooked me this PuRpLe PoTaToEs before i came back to hall last sunday. It's so unique ... i have nv see such potatoe b4. BUt it tastes really great.. mummy says it's from US. but i dun recall seeing that in USA. anyway, i love eating potatoes :P

Went home ytd to have lunch with my family. But it turn out to be a cold war... sigh, i know how lucky the kids in my family are. As in ya, we have everything we want.. but sometimes it's not the money that can solve things like our feelings. Sometimes I just choose not to explain things to u because we all come to realise that you will nv understand us. So what's the point? U shld know that everyone of us have different ways of leashing out our anger or pour out our sorrows. I may not be able to look things from your view.. but at least try to listen to us. To you my dear, dun worry so much... everyone will have to go through that stage. I have been there before, i know how it feels... but u gotta learn to face the reality n trust me, everything will be fine alright?

Happy birthday to my two mischievous sisters.. though u are older but u girls still look and behave like u r 14 lo. Haha... glad that u're happy with your results but please continue to strive harder cos i believe u have the potential to do better ok? Ya, happy collecting your presents and share with me too! lol...

i can't wait for the holidays to come!

dear diary,

i'm so looking forward to the holiday.
there's so much i wanna do that i think that 1 week of 'holiday' is NOT enough

so many projects on hand ... a no. of movies i wanna catch... i wanna go shoppin, roller blading... n slp!

it's just abt me.

dear diary,

i have just moved into hall 3 this week. Though i didn't really know my room-mate but she's nice and funny. enjoy her company...

i wanna watch musical highschool 2 and hairsray! hmm.. anyone wanna watch with me? this coming week is the last week before the recess week. I foresee a packed one.. but gladly i have only 3 days of school! yes!!!

yesterday night i went supper with most of the pryo n guoxiang. We had prata... well, i guess hall life is really much abt late nights n supper. But i will CONTROL.

All these while I have been listening to others about the way life should be. Like in university, so called the entrance to relationships... Although sometimes i really feel like being wanted, but it was never a 'yes i want this badly' kinda thing. People who knows me long enough will know that i'm pretty much a family gal. And of cos i enjoy the company of friends... The warmth i get from my family can never be replaced which partly also make me feel that I do not need the love of someone special. I cherish the many important people and pals in my life right now n glad that they have entered into my journey giving me love, happiness and support.

A near stranger asked me, ' What is my favorite animal?'

My reply, ' Dolphin'

He smiled and said , ' Your character should be somewhat close to a dolphin then..'

a whole new life

dear diary,

i slept almost the whole day... was moaning over what happen still.

I refused to do anything... was day dreaming the whole day till evening time when i need to go for my elective concert. It was pretty boring. Had supper with nicole at lau pau sa. Thanks gal, i enjoy your company.

will you be there if she need u?
will you stay by her when everything falls apart?
will you put a smile on her face even if she cry?
will you guide her through the journey when she's lost?
will you treasure the rare moments of silence?
because she is all of the above.
the one who needs you.
the one whose life get torn apart.
the one who cry to sleep.
the one who gets lost in her life.
the one who cherish silence moments.
for all you know,
she is not a ordinary girl.
unknown

Hate myself!!!

I hate myself!

how could i bloodly hell miss out the whole of part a of my 20% assignment? Argh.. it cost me 20 marks GONE!

The worst is I only realise it like after 10 hours! This is damn important towards my final grade n i have gave me away! All because I miss out that qns which i totally NEVER see at all.

Ah... being sick during an impt paper is bad enough... having to commit such a mistake is WORST!

Having to put in time n effort n to realise it has all gone down to the drain is heartbreaking... now my heart is really broken.

I dun wanna grow up... den i won't have any problems...
Sometimes i really wanna do nothing. CAN I DO THAT?

dear god, i pray for happiness and optimism in life.