My dearies...

OUR DINNER AT DING TAI FENG at Wisma





Doesn't it looks yummy? hee

More pictures coming up as soon as i get them for yesterday outing.

Yesterday, we went out from early afternoon till 9+. Went shopping , n the three of us bought earrings including me despite having so many already but i dun care.. haha. Bought 3 big pairs of earrings.. n i bought a pair of jean shorts. Haha we were so broke till the point when i wana buy my shorts, the three of us only manage to dig out $18 n i tell the auntie,"can sell mi at $18? cos i left $18." lol, the shorts cost 19... so the auntie agree readily. Think back, i should have bargain with her ...well, too late!

Rowena and I insisted on going IKEA to have our dinner cos we plan to give her a present. Took bus 33 at 7.45 n only to reach ikea at 8.30 due to traffic jam! N cheryl had to meet up with her family at 9.30 a Lido for movie.. we were afraid n yet wanting so much to give her the present. Luckily, she took a cab n managed to reach there in time. Gave her the cookies and chocolate we had made specially for her. Hope you enjoy it gal, hehe ya, we wanna make u fat :P

I have one more week of work .. which left me with 4 more weeks which include 2 weeks of camp. The following week, I had booked my facial appointment and has the mission to take care of the house for at least 3 days cos my parents are gg overseas. My new maid is here... she's nice. I'm not sure if this is out of sympathy or something else.... sometimes i feel sorry for my maids esp when they are small n skinny and having to carry the heavy stuffs. N language being a barrier, there seems to have misunderstandings quite often...

i think this is like a cycle. Jus like in the past, we have the King n Queen follow by the princes and princesses, those working for the royal family. The commoners are the last... without the power, they could nothing. Life has always been this way isn't it? Blame it on your fate to be born to this era, to this country, to this family surrounded by these people. What else can we do? People always say look forward into the future, don't turn back and look into the past. Can we always do that? How many days a year are we looking forward to the next day? If today is a happy day, if today is the most memorable day, will you still wanna look forward? You wish time could stop at this moment and you can stay happy forever. Times when you were sad, u turn back and remember those happy times and wish things went back to the past and remain there n then. As humans, we only tend to look forward to good times, days where we feel great.
Greed and Want has always been part of mankind... we'll never be satisfy with what we have, do we?

Life...

Dear diary,

Came to realise actually I had been pretty busy at work for the past two days... doing countless of quotation, surfing the net/ flipping those thick books to search for suppliers who sell items like torchlight? Dial the countless no. of phone calls till I lost track with whom I'm suspose to talk to. Blur me once again... However I enjoyed yesterday lunch , i had chicken soup with rice. It was yummy! I wanna try other soups that auntie is selling... today can?

Not sure if today is my last day or wait till my boss tell me... cos I do not know how to ask him about it. As in " Hmm, Mr xxx, is today my last day?" or should I phrase it, " when is my last day?" haha, no idea and i haven really got the intention to quit yet. Perhaps wait till next week ba, so that i have at least 2 more weeks to myself just before the horror begins all over again.

Been sleeping early these few nights like before 11.30... or latest 1am. Too tired... last night, xxx(u know who u r) and I bake chocolate cookies andmade some chocolate melt. We failed initally n i know why now hee. Later den tell u. But the rest of the baking was great! haha... though it's quite greasy. After which we met helen n zhi xiong in ikea when we were there to buy a glass jar. They came over to my house to look around n we sat by the pool side to chit chat till 10.45. Yupz, that's when my day came to an end too... sleepy.

People come and go in everyone life. For some, they leave you and come back in the years to come. But for some, they leave and never return... My maid who has been working for us for 4 years is leaving this morning at 10am. It's hard to describe my feelings when I was about to leave home to work.
All I ask was, " how long is your flight? will you be going to other countries?"
Then just as I was wearing my shoes while she help me to open the door, I told her " Bye bye, take care and be happy. " I regreted not saying thanks... cos i really really wanna thanks her for taking care of me all these years. Now u should be on the plane.. n hopefully you will be able to sense someone out there who thank you for all you have done for her.
N this morning was the last time i drank the milo and egg that she made for me. Hearing the same words everyday but it sounded and feel different to me today" Bye..." \

And tomorrow there will be another new person who will come into my life again... looking forward to meet her.

Bored!

Dear diary,

Met my girlfrens last friday ... Rowena and Cheryl. We went to town, ate Ding Tai Feng n took many photos in the washroom. Haha, girls as usual. Den we went to Cinleisure where i saw my ex-students, one of them who jus came back from USA. Nice to see you guys there :)

Soon Cheryl had to leave , she's gg clubbing n i went to join lyn n gang at bukit merah macdonald. Seat there n chit chat till dunno what time. But we went fang lay hse after tt. They played majong while I slp despite the 'pleasant sound'. U must be thinking, y i didn't go home and slp right? Hmm, i didn't felt like gg home and would like to spend time with my frens even if I'm slping or just sitting there. Times with people whom u treasure, even the most silence moments can be precious.

Hmm met up with vanessa on tues, had dinner at ikea. Haven seen her for a long time so there's pretty alot to catch up. But hopefully i will be able to see her more often when sch starts which we both aren't looking forward. Lol...

Another week is about to end soon.. Maybe gg to re-rebond my hair this sat. This entry is bored cos i'm really bored!!!

@delphin=> slacking my time away

Phobia...

Dear diary,

Received a phone call... to arrange for an appointment to sgh. I thot it was over since the last time i went there for ECG and told I was officially discharge. A period of sleepless nights and nighmares I had, and now it's going back then again! The thought of seeing them just give me goosebumps and this cold feeling while waiting for my turn or even inside there. It has been like this ever since i was young.. the fear.

How much she wanna turn back time and not to stay there alone. As simple minded as she was back then, know nothing until it brought upon fear. Looking around for help but all she saw was white walls with these strangers whom were told as her saviours. A child struggling hard to break free. But to them, it's effortless to keep her still. Only to step out and carry that heavy heart with her all these years.

How much longer is it going to stay with her, just how much?

Fear of doctor adapted from website:
Often medical phobia is the result of traumatic experiences in childhood. I've spoken to many people with medical fears who had terrible experiences of being held down at the doctor or dentist to force treatment. The mind then attaches that level of fear to situations involving medical procedures. Fear of needles or blood being drawn are among the most common problems relating to medical phobia. Symptoms may include excessive sweating or clamminess, rapid breathing, rapid heartbeat, nausea and dizziness. Doctors can sometimes mistake these symptoms for other medical problems.

Should I or should I not?

2) Need to plan my timetable soon. But I'm considering whether to go for exchange in sememster 2, if so, den i will need to take up different subjects as my fellow schoolmates in group A accountacy. If i wanna go, where should i go? Who should I ask for more advice?

3) When will it be a good time for me to resign? Izzit nice of me to request if I can take so many days off for camp? Or would it be better for me to have at least my last 3 weeks of holiday to myself?


Decisions... something one can never escape.

Jokes in office

Dear diary,

Ever since I'm back from thailand.. there are laughters almost everyday in the office n I became of the joke of the day.

Story 1:
Christopher ( my colleague) : Hello Adeline, Can you help me get the address cos we are gg to collect the namecards now.

Me: ok, call you back shortly.

....

Me: Ya christ, the address is ... #02-02. k, bye!

After 10 minutes,

Chris: Hello adeline, you sure is the correct one? It's a clinic!

Lol, realised i gave him the wrong unit no n he landed up in a clinic instead of a printing shop.

Story 2:

Me to Mr Yeo: Hi Mr Yeo, would like to ask if nc4400 is windowxp or vista. Called you just now but no one picked up.

Yeo( the ah beng vendor) : no.. window xp or vista. migrain.

( is there such a system that is migrain? maybe have so..)

Me: Loke, yeo says is not window xp or vista but is migrain leh. I nv hear b4.

then.. laughters all ard. ( loke replied: izzit you having migrain?) dot dot dot.. den i realised what yeo replied!
Gosh, super throw face! but i still laugh at myself...

Story 3:

Muthu ( on-site worker for my company) : Hello Adeline, you help me call xxx to order safety shoes size 7, ask got stock or not.

Me: Ok, what model/brand you want?

Muthu: I wan good good one. ( i was thinking -how would i know what is a goodgood brand?lol )

me to xxx: hello, can i ask if u have stock for safety shoes size 7?
xxx: ya, what model you want.
me: i wan good good one. haha
xxx: hmm, here all good one. low cut or high cut?

me to muthu: hey, you wan low cut or high cut?
muthu: low cut .. ( n he emphasis again: i wan good good one!)

lol, he's cute la. Next time i just ask for good good brand.


Last night i had dinner with melvin. Haha, he brought mi to 'my backyard'( is in bracket cos i m not sure if it's really my backyard( in Italian) or is his backyard. Anyway, we went to al dente for dinner at the rooftop - it is nice! haha but i eat not alot cos while waiting for him at city hall , i ate 3/4 bar of crunch. Had calmari, pizza n.. fondue! hee... i'm so full. Thanks for the treat, melvin! :) Had a short walk den headed home. The journey is freaking long! bus 195.. was really having migrain, tried to sleep on the bus but i couldn't.

Reached home, cynthia ask mi to teach her A math. dotz, was really tired n didn't feel like but i had to cos she has been waiting for me to teach her function. Wanted her to do well for her exam too.. hee, asked daddy for massage cos my shoulders is really aching. After which, i only managed to teach her the basic n i fell asleep, shall continue again today after my dinner with my dears. yea, eat ding tai feng! yummy :)

Just had my lunch- chocolate cake from awful chocolate n apple. Still having my slight headache. Hopefully tonight i will feel better! Yupz.. what shall i do now at work? Hmm.. disturb pple. haha

@delphin... blur queen!

1st day - we got conned by the tuktuk... but

it's a good experience

The King and Princesses of Gambling!

Looks great ya? But the bill is even nicer!

This is where we got conned - $200 over dinner!

Even the room service is cheaper! N nicer :)

The twins... gluttons!! but CUTE.

Our lovely nails... earrings... unique mirrors
.. gucci perfume... n my favorite accessories hangers!!

Our Harvest!! It's splendid!

from the plane to the hotel
n when you have nothing to do ...
it's self shots even in pyjamas!

I'm at the airport now.. waiting for my flight :P

HALL?

Dear diary,

Great... alison told me she received successful letter for hall application. On the other hand, I got the rejection letter today. Hmm, wasn't really upset perhaps I'm loving home right now so din really bother to think about hall. Called alison n she said she dunno how cos she will be roomieless. Cheer up gal, anyway.. you can choose not go stay there everyday right? Lol, thanks for your offer ah to rent mi the corner area!

Today was a busy day at work.. cos need to chase supplier for quotes and the delivery of goods. Busy till like 2+ den finally i started to feel sleepy and began to slack. Something funny happen at work. I went to the pantry to make milo n hc is there to make coffee. As usual, i always get cheated by people lor den he keep laughing at me. Cos there are three ways to dispense the hot water: 1) is to press the auto dispenser button 2) the normal kind, in the centre at the top ( jus need to push the big thing.) 3) a trigger where u just have to push ur cup upwards. I didn't know tt there is a trigger la. So i was amazed when i saw water coming out when he didn't push any of the button n jus nice his finger is on the plastic of the flask.

I ask him 'eh, how come got water come out? I thot u must press this ( pointing at the auto dispenser).

He said in a amazing tone, " no, u put ur finger here( the plastic of the flask) can already. It's auto one, u dunno meh? "

Curiously, " really? but tt time u told mi must press the auto dispenser. Hmm.. but gt water coming out leh."
So i tried.. nothing came out! I told him," eh, u see i tried le, but cannot leh. how come jus now u did it den it was alright?"

He took my cup n told mi to place my finger there n got water lor. " Why u hold the cup can, but just now i do cannot? Why?"

Then he started laughing uncontrollably. N he told me about the trigger... silly me! Gosh, felt so cheated lo and at the same time laughing over myself. Lol, i walk back to the office n told lynn. She laugh n ask if i get cheated easily? The answer is 'yes.. i always do. Right, lyn n ave?" As usual..

I dun wan school to start - i'll be all alone again without hall, without yanni ( cos she is gg to appeal to NUS), without nicole ( application for acc failed n gg to business)... left cheryl but it's gg to be tough cos we stay quite far n not even sure if can go same class next sem. I dread school without frens. I love pri, sec n even jc.. cos i get to see n have fun with all my good frens in sch. Seeing them everyday is such a wonderful pleasure , it's nv a chore.. But now, what can I say about school? IT'S BORING! Imagine getting to know a new bunch of frens again every sem.. nv knew who are the ones u can trust.

I dun wanna stop working right now.. i like the pple there n i hate UNIVERSITY. It sucks! Please get me out of the horrible place.

Daniel Henney

daniel Henney
Izzit he cute? haha.. i'm gg crazy! He're the Mr Perfect :) Standing at a height of 188, weighing at 72kg. A model..

I wan to find someone like him lol. I must be dreaming right? ya.. but i dun care!

Operation A.I.D.S

deaR dIaRy,

I'm in Operation A.I.D.S now haha guess what it means? It means => Operation As If Doing Something! Lol, Sounds cool huh? but it means slacking in a professional way. Tt's y i'm blogging -waiting for someone to give mi something to do.

Last night tennis match was nice! Nadal won : 6-3, 4-6, 6-3, 6-4. Though i kinda wan federer to win but dad says cannot like tt, must let one be the king of clay n the other one rule the other court. I rmb in he 1st set - there's this super long game where they keep having deuce advantage. den deuce again. In the end nadal won. In fact both of them are equally gd jus tt federer can't run as fast as nadal i guess with the left n right balls. Can see that federer volley many times in the 2nd set. Nice!! Sign.. i think my tennis std will always remain the same now tt i have no more coaching cos i'm lazy or izzit no time? lol.

I'm going out for dinner with nicole, mak n zhi xiong.. yupz, it's been long since i met them. Hope it will not be awkard cos i scare we have nothing to say haha. Opps...

@de|phin operation A.I.D.S

Sun Burnt!!

Dear Diary,

Woke up at 8.30 this morning and getting ready to go to the new NUS law school to play tenni with cheryl and her frens. It's been long since i play tennis outside. The weather was good.. SUNNY day, that's y i got my slight sun burnt which i like it with the pinkish/redness on my face - as though I have a natural blush haha. But it's nt that obvious.

Anyway, enjoyed today tennis which we played from 9.30 till 1+ and had lunch at Cornation. The western food there is cheap lol + free flow of drink. Next time can go there if wanna save money. Cheapskate right? but who cares when right now I left $40 in my bank account and it is gg to last me till I get my next pay which is like endof the month. DANG!!! $40 for 2 more weeks. Luckily i'm gg thailand which I had already set aside a small amount for my own shopping. gONna withdraw out and ask dad to change for me. On a typical sports day esp when I had it in the morning, the rest of the day it is a goner for me. Which means this ...


and even though i'm awake.. i still look like tt..
still sleepy!

Yesterday at work, i was slacking throughout the whole day tt i almost finish watching Seducing Mr Perfect. It's nice!! and after lunch i was really bored and thot of something to do... guess what?

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that is my boss room..

After work, i went home had dinner and headed down to vivo city wih my parents. We waited for like 30 to 45 minutes just to enter the carpark! It's so filled with people. Finally we got into the carpark... walked around den sat down in Gloria Cafe for coffee. Ate chocolate mud n bought home new york cheese cake. Yummy!
Saw this at vivo..

My Colorgenics - very true!

At this time you are really feeling quite exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling that is going on about you and you are looking for some sort of protection from this state of affairs. Ideally you are seeking a peaceful condition and a tranquil environment in which you can be afforded the chance to relax and recover......

You dislike playing the field in every sense of the word. When you develop a relationship it needs to be a close fulfilling one, one that has deep meaning for all parties concerned.

The situation at this time is one of considerable distress. You feel trapped and you are looking for some way out. You can find solace in the arms of someone who cares so long as there is no long-term emotional involvement.

You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. This may be the result of subconscious conflict between hope and necessity. The tension that you are experiencing following your unfulfilled hopes have given rise to anxious uncertainty. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, you are likely to vacillate and concern yourself with trivialities of little consequence.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

http://www.paulgoldin.com/colorgenics.htm

Results are out

Dear diary,

Results are out... i'm really disappointed cos of the grades that I got. All B+, no As! Why? Why? Why? It's always like that.. everytime i score almost the same for all my subjects but why isn't there something special like an A- or A? Although my GPA did improve but it's still not what I wanted. Study hard is pointless! Working so hard for projects is also nothing! Exams is still my greatest fear...

Came to the office with a light feeling.. den jason was online gave me a sad face. Says results are out. My heart was beating hard and fast as though I'm sitting on a roller coaster getting ready to go down the slope. Den i told my colleage that results are coming out today and i'm scare. I asked her to help mi check... was hiding behind the computer like a timid mouse.

then I starting questioning her.. " Any B-? Any C+? " cos i was worrying for my electives.

then come the question - " Any A?" She looked at me... " no B-, C+ or A..." There i knew.. must be the same as last sem

"izzit all B+?" ...

"ya.." initally i was thinking quite expected.

Then i started thinking.. "no.." i wanted badly to do well for stat n acc. Why? I knew i was tearing..

Now, i'm blogging.. feeling numb. I need someone to company me, just a companion.

all about ME

Everyone is in the meeting room and i can hear our boss telling some story or stuffs regarding the business world. Also heard about some rules and regulation like no smoking? n turning off the pc. blah blah. Hee.. so that left mi alone again! Da-ta.. found some website to cure my boredom

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

You are 67% Scorpio

How Scorpio Are You?

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

You are a City Girl!

Whether you live in the city or not, you've got the heart of a city girl. You're up on the latest trends - what's hot in music, food, and fashion. And you love to be on the go. Your perfect day is filled with tons of fun. Your perfect guy is a city guy, so head to LA, NYC, Sydney, or London to find him!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Dear diary

I went shopping today with my mum and spend more than $100. Lol... cos i got my pay for 2 days yesterday! And there goes my money haha. I like going with my mum cause she has great taste and the best thing is can take cab home cos she don't like to wait for bus neither does she likes the sun. Bought a Guess belt for 42.95, a dress for 35 and a pair of shoes for 23.90. So happy! It's hard to resist these... In fact I was pondering if I should really buy now as my family is probably going to Thailand this june but these few days the security there seems to be low and there are strikes. Hmm.. pray hard that all these will stop within these days den our flight n hotel will be confirmed. After coming home from shopping, I went back to my normal routine that is sleeping! Woo.. damn shiok to sleep for 4 hours after having a delicious dinner.


@delphin--> that's my life!

Nice song...

Who am I - Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

Shopping on Vesak Day

Dear diary,

It's a public holiday yesterday... n guess what I woke up at 2.30 when early in the morning like 2plus am I was still asing rowena whether i should eat burger king or mac breakfast haha. Looks like i shouldn't have thot of it at all cos i can't even wake up man!

Been wanting to shop for a pair of shoes/slippers/heels .. something that I can wear to school, to work, to shop cos the pair of low heels is killing my right foot. I have big feet hurhur so that makes it quite difficult for me to find something I like and have my size :( Manage to have Lyn company to shop something comfortable and nice for my feet... Lyn says it's difficult to earn my money haha. Maybe can say so ba cos I would not buy something that I like instead i will only buy it if I really love it. So that explain my empty handed. But that didn't stop me from spending money, lol.. the moment I step out of home I will definitely spend money. this time round, is on food as requested by mummy.

On tuesday night, i went out with Melvin for dinner at Ding Tai Fung. Yummy! I love the xiao long bao and fried rice with egg. Though it is a simple dish but it's really nice! Also ate the yam paste xiao long bao hehe. Will love to go there again, anyone wants to join me? Haven been watching any movies since 200 pounds beauty .. everyone were having craze on catching Spiderman 3, Pirates.. , Shriek 3? But I doesn't seems to have it haha - i'ma weirdo huh. No idea why too.

Tml is back to work again .... wonder what will I be doing. Izzit more time to slack? Or doing something new? hmm.. I wanna make sure I learn the process of the documents and do it well. Yupz, maybe when Loke is more free, he can teach me. Not very nice to disturb him always but he has been nice. My boss , Mr Lew is also very good to me. Think of it, he's really afraid that I skip my lunch. I never see a boss who ask me to go to his office and says ," Adeline, there are two important things. 1st, remember to have your lunch den 2ndly, later when u r free, do the sales quote for xxx company." Lol, he's funny lo. In the 1st place, i am slacking and always free. and the part where eating is an important thing for me to do just makes me feel like laughing. Haha.. thanks Mr lew for your concern. This weekend I gonna make a trip to NTUC ba, den i can buy some snacks and keep it in the drawer.

On wednesday, I actaully spend 1hour plus searching for a wallpaper and yupz finally found a very cute winnie the pooh wallpaper. Guess I needa think of something to surf le tml just in case I'm slacking again! Can't imagine how am I going to spend my time when the new permanent girl come den she will do most of the stuffs leaving me with only answering the phone call and taking down of message as well as doing sales quotes perhaps.

Shall watch one more esp of corner with love before going to bed! tata..

@delphine , i finally found something i like but not love...

blogging at work

I'm waiting for IBM customer service to pick up my phone while blogging lol... My 2nd day at work. I like working here cos quite slack. hmm.. 2 more hours to go! Gotta hang on.

Updates...

Dear diary,

Bascially, this whole week i'm like spending most of my time watching prison break.Beside from prison break which I am so addicted to... having in on screen like 12 hrs cos the other 12 i will be in dreamland. Prison break is so freaking NICE!!! n the best thing everyone in my family is watching it n we manage to influence our parents to buy the dvd so we can watch it together! Haha...

I'm loving my family esp this holiday i really get lotsa of time to spend with my sisters talking stuffs like we used to do it last time before we sleep. So fun! Girls talk is interesting :P We have lots of common between us. Love ya sisters.

I did my rebonding on wednesday. It didn't turn out tt well but it's ok. So that was half day gone.

On friday morning, cheryl and I went for an interview at bugis. It is a marketing company. The company sounds suspicious cos everything went well too smoothly. They agree to everything we want ... n confirmed us like so quickly before we could even think about it. N ask us to go down for training on saturday. When we went home, I told my parents about it.. daddy asks it's weird. Cos they never tell us abt our pay den the office looks weird also. So we didn't go. Both of us didn't really have the mood to go shopping or think of other stuffs. There were other things that was running through my mind too but it's over now. Yupz...

You ponder everyday
Talking to yourself, debating with ur inner self
Is not as easy as choosing an apple or an orange
It like making a choice out of a basket filled
Choosing the perfect one that provides you the sweetest taste.
To the point that you can only take one
Choosing to let go the others...

I was asked to went for an interview for Samsung Mobile for communiasia 2007 . Pinned quite high hopes on that cos i had the experience before. There were two girls who are pretty n look familiar , think i saw them last yr there too. I was told that I will not be considered because I won't be in singapore on the 17 /18 for training.. I will be in Thailand SHOPPING! Haiz. Why so unlucky? But after daddy talk to me, i was feeling better. He told me that at least I went for the interview and nt rejected because I am not up for the job but is because of other reasons which if there isn't, it won't be a rejection. Dad is right ... ya i shouldn't be upset. Thanks daddy, u has never fail to always let me look at things from a different point. Bought a dress from mphosis at half price. I like it...

Went to support ee mei for her beauty pegaent ytd. The girls are gorgeous. Though she nv get through but gal, u r brave! I wouldn't have the courage to go up the stage lo. Hee i like your QnA answer. Nice one! We went to mac, town n lyn's house for movie. I understand everything now and what's happening... I wish i didn't have to go through all these and if I had know it earlier , I wouldn't give it a chance to happen. Limits...

Went to elmo house to transfer some of your pictures over. Den left for dinner with dad's side. It was boring! We were never close to them.. so i was like falling asleep after dinner while the adults were chit chatting. After that, my family went to tiong cos we wanna buy prison break. But looks like it's too HOT.. there's no more stock in both shops. it's not cheap btw. $79.90. We bought amos cookies and a pair of slippers. Jus enuff to take part in a lucky draw. U can choose to go japan, korea or china but u will have to throw a paper plane into the box before u can enter the draw. Haha.. we ask daddy to throw n he's damn good la. I saw the tip of the plane n it disappear in a blink - it got in! All of us were laughing.. like it's super fast n gone like nobody business. even the girl there who was in charge said she nv see the plane flew in. We were joking say daddy u always put pple aeroplane right? that's y u can fly the aeroplane so well haha.
Den.. we also talk about the future like we wanna stay near to our parents. Haha.. wanna stay in anchorage like buy over the part of our block. den just nice for each of us. We 3 girls say , we gonna find rich husband so tt we can buy anchorage hse haha.. den korkor says he will go find rich gf. We gonna built a lift in our current home.. den all the kids will let our parents to take care. Dad say bring all the kids to the playground n let them crawl the whole day , on the tennis court too while they play haha. Laughters all the way in the car.


adelphin... letting go a balloon into the sky.. that's what i wish

amazing life

From the book - Tuesday with Morrie

Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says

The tension of opposites?

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing ,but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you don't know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.

"A tension of opposites like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."

Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.

"A wrestling match." he laughs. "Yes, you could describe life that way."

So which side wins, I ask?

"Which side wins?"

He smile at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

"Love wins. Love always wins."


My thoughts

Does love always win?
Perhaps it does... many times when you are watching drama, see the lead actor or actress who usually give up and chose something that he/she didn't like. Why?
It's because of this powerful word 'LOVE'.
Like how people used to say, if you love someone, you wish that he/she is happy.
Because of love, you forsake something that you yearn.
Because of love, you are able to forge good friendships.
Because of love, you find yourself surrounded by people who cares, who is willingly to give you a helping hand, a listening ear...
Because of love, you see people giving up their life
Because of love, I'm here on a place called earth.


Tension of opposites... it's way too truth. A phrase that could enter into every single part of my daily life. For every decision to be made, I'm sure we always think of the alternatives. Being indecisive, i think it happens more often on me. Part of me feel like doing this..
yet part of me doesn't feel like because... humans beings are complicated creatures, so hard to fathom. It's as though you are solving for a mystery within a person. What really lies beneath? Stays forever unknown.


Just came home after going out with elmo since 5plus? We went to kiddy palace in jurong point.. oh, it's so cute and nice to see these cute little stuffs once again. The small fork and spoon, pretty lil bowls with three partition, super small shoes. Haha... so CUTE! I want a kid to play with!

Went suntanning with my sis by the pool... breezy with just enough amount of sunlight to make me a little tanner. As usual, i fell asleep.. as though I'm on my comfortable bed. The breeze just make u feel drowsy.

I was amazed by this small Caucasian girl, her dad was holding her tiny hand while she is climbing up the stairs. You may think it's nothing to climb up this fleet of stairs but as I observed her. I could see how hard it was for her to get up to the next step, it's like such a difficult task for her. It never occur to me that climbing up the stairs is something so amazing tat not everyone can do her. It was kind of something new that hit me seeing her gathering all her strength just to get up to the next level. :) Just feel like going up to give her a lil hug. Kids are so adorable! hee... but that does not change my mind of having kids so far.

Another interesting thing that caught my eye was while waiting to board on a train. I saw two birds kissing. Haha. i really felt like laughing and take a picture of it. But before i could do so, the train came. Nature bring wonders.

I ate alot today! Die... i had a bowl of porridge, a raisin bun , long john combo 1, bubble tea, mrs field brownie , ice milo and a cheese prata. Gosh.. imagine the amount of calories that went into my tummy. It's like how "healthy" these foods are lo. I hope I have the motivation to go running tomorrow. Time to get some exercise! Im turning into a sleeping beauty.. not kidding man, i really can sleep. Think if you ask me to take part in a sleeping contest, i can win. Even today, i went out with elmo, i feel quite sleepy too haha sorry gal. Can't control my eyes. Too much rest already? Or was it not enough rest, that's y i am tired? Hmm.. i need to find something to keep me awake! Any suggestions? Feeling damn full.

Had dinner with my family last night at queenstown hawker. The western food is nice- we had to wait for 45 minutes lo. I miss the food there, Cheryl you must be missing it too. Haha.. remember last time we ordered 10 fried dumplings and 10 steam dumplings cos it's super nice and the uncle say cannot order 5 each so we ordered 10. Being gluttons, we finished it inclusive a big plate of noodles. That was in JC2... but studying just help me to lose these calories somehow. Maybe study hard does helps cos we need to work our brains and mouth for memorizing? lol.. any scientific proof? not sure...

Yea.. my family most likely is going thailand this June. The discussion went from Hong Kong to Korea to Australia and finally settle down in Thailand. Still trying to have some patience with my parents cos they keep bugging me to check out the hotels rates, the air tickets. Sometimes it can really get quite irritating. Why must it always be me who do all these.. can't my other siblings do it? I wish I am not home sometimes den i won't be able to hear the nagging, the quarrellings and not having to tolerate with stuffs that are unnecessary.

To you, will you please wake up and do something useful! I see no future in your life... stop acting like you are some big shot, cos let me tell you this " You are NOTHING!" Because of you, we have to suffer... Stop being so selfish and only think about yourself. Behave like who you should be at your age. Anyone of us here have the right to scold you cos we are much better than you. You are spoilt and you definitely don't deserve everything that you have now!

honesty?

You Are Somewhat Honest

You do tend to tell the truth a lotBut you also stretch the truth on occasionYou figure a little lie isn't a big dealAs long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howhonestareyouquiz/">How Honest Are You?

some pictures for thoughts

Homework assignment

missing you gal

dear diary,

it was 3.13am this morning when i actually wrote a long entry but it's all gone! Boo... lousy blogger, waste 1 hour plus of my time.

hmm let mi recall what I have wrote.

I'm pondering how human beings understand their feelings and know what to do at the right time... how our brain actually works. I felt my heart dropping at times just like i
'm sitting on a roller coaster. No idea why i feel this way though... Feelings we felt at a particular point of time is different and it might never occur again, that's why we keep dairies to write our everyday life. And as days passed, we can flip the pages and relish those days no matter it is a sad or happy entry.

Just finished reading a book by Mitch Albom-just one more DAY. Although i may not understood in depth about what the doctor is trying to convey but i love his writing.

From his book: the word 'divorce' in Latin means 'to divert' All divorce is to divert you, taking you away from everything you thought you knew and everything you thought you wanted and steering you into all kinds of other stuff, like discussions about your mother's girdle and whether she should marry someone else.
But there's a story behind everything. How a picture got on a wall. How a scar got on your face. Sometimes the stories are simple, and sometime they are hard and heartbreaking. But behind all your stories is always your mother's story because hers is where yours begins. Mother's day is around the corner... it's time to thank all mums for the beginning of our stories.

Wednesday
I finally managed to hear melissa voice! Talked to her over skype. It's wonderful having to hear from her again despite we being so far apart. Realizing how much we have missed in each other life like the white glasses she is wearing now, her birthday celebration with her hostel friends and having to do assignments. Jia you ba. Soon you will have your one month break le!

Thursday
Yea.. it's my last day of work! Hee...finally i can get over this dull life of working in the office. No more hearing og complains and seeing her irritating face. Nevertheless, it's one more job experience added into my resume on shipping logistics. Now i understand a little on the process that needed to be done before shipment can be process. Have to fo shipping advice, pro invoice, tax invoice , getting samples for customers. Yupz..This is my 6th job , of all i still like relief teaching and roadshows better. Both jobs offer different kind of sense of achievement and happiness. Hmm, from what i have learn in organizational behavior last semester in school , i totally agree that responsibility in a job task is important in motivating someone to work. And with it, it gives more meaning and of cause a sense of achievement too. Relief teaching is challenging where i have to learn to dela with situations on the spot , also enabling mi to learn new things form the students. It's fun too! While roadshow i can gain new knowledge from our customers too.
Ever since i started working, i sleep right after dinner till 12 plus den wake up to watch tv and chit chat with my youngest sister. Cindy fell down yesterday.. it looks damn painful lo. She fell down while training for roller blading for this ndp.

Friday
I fell asleep only at 4plus near 5 after my entry is gone! Woke up at 7 cos today i had to bring elmo to work den went to meet my parents at bukit timah hawker center. Wa... the cab fare damn expensive cos it's peak period. My breakfast is super costly lo. Lol, cab fare is 6.50 from bukit batok to bukit timah. Not sure if i'm going out today... Cheryl is still sleeping. Otherwise, we will go International Plaza to apply for other jobs.

Had a short conversation with mummy the other day.
" Didnt you realize that daddy has aged?"
"Nope... i don't think so leh. He looks the same to me."
" Recently, he become thinner and older. Told him not to think so much already cos he keep thinking how to earn more money for you all. In 3-4 years time, all of you will start to work already. But he wouldn't listen."

After hearing this, i was upset. I didn't like to hear tht my dad is aging.. cos it means i might lose him someday. Being someone who is very important to me , I can't imagine a life without him around me. Thinking back, maybe i never really put myself n his shoes. Hopefully, i can save these amount that i have earned this holiday so that i dun have to rely him on my expenses... Might not be gg to hk le.. cos rowena parents' like disapproved. yupz... it's ok, can go next time ba.


adeline
it makes me think that the scars represent the regrets of life.

Roller Blading

Dear diary,

I started working on Thursday at International Flavor and Fragrance... do those ad min stuffs but i was really piss off cos i did only filing the whole day. It like damn boring can! There are only 2 other females working there and one of them keep giving those kinda irritating face, as if i owe her money like tt. What the hell... i nv even offend u. Damn it! I tried to be nice lo, still try to ask her nicely. Idiotic, anyway i no longer have to see your stupid face! I'm quitting!!! Think i'm your slave? Hell you... i'm paid to learn something not to do stuffs which u dun wanna do and ask me to do hor. As i blogging, i'm burning hot fire. The whole day all i have done is to punch hole and file them. The cupboard is like above of her computer so of cos i will have to ask to get the files ma, den she give mi those face i feel like slapping her and ask if i offended her in anyway? Argh.. having to make mi feel better, i decided to listen to the music. Heck care le though i nv ask if i can listen to the music, i not happy can always quit since i'm helping out my uncle and they doesn't know. Haha, was sent there to be a spy. The second day.. i continue my filing and finally finished le! Den she ask mi to run errands for her, like get sample and documents. Nearer the end of the day, yea.. i have got nothing to do! Whahaha... i'm efficient man! So i read the newspaper till time to knock off.

Anyway, i'm worried.. i can't handle office work. I dislike it lot! How.. m i really going to be an accountant in the future? I will die of boredom! Remember the only time i last was 2 weeks at AAS doing data entry den the other one at Informatics i also quit after the 1st day. And now it happens again. Gosh... i told my parents i really dun like office work, told them i prefer interactive kinda job where i get to communicate with people and do different things everyday. So i told them maybe next time i go be air stewardness or teacher. They didn't seem to be approving of me wanting to be an air stewardness.. cos i have mentioned it to them since I get back my A level results. Thot they always wanted me to be a teacher dunno why they suddenly change their mind and say " bu yao la, hen xin ku.. ni kan leeyin jiejie ta men, toh bu yao zhuo le..." Haiz... what's wrong with being a teacher? Can interact with the students and make a difference in their life. everyday u will be facing challenges and never know what to expect. I love it lor although the pay might be low as compared to a accountant. Hmm.. never mind, still long ( 2 more years to decide)

I'm looking for new job again le after this wed or Thurs when i will stop working in IFF and pass it to Elmo to do it. Urgently looking for a job because i have book air tickets to hong kong with Rowena so gonna earn my own expenses which i calculated, think i need around 2000Sin ba, Crossing my fingers and hope daddy will sponsor my air ticket or give me some expenses haha. We will be going on the 11th of jul till 16 of july. I can't wait!!! First time gg holiday with my fren and just the two of us :) free and easy! so sad that cheryl can'y go cos her dad dun allow :( Dun worry gal, we will not forget u de esp your pressie :) and lotsa photos hee


And if i'm gg to pulau rendang with my secondary school friends, i will have to work extra hard le. haha what a good incentive to work right? work liao den can go holiday :) but thinking of long term, i wun have any savings :( so gonna spend wisely! i feel like working as a waitress behind my parent's back but yet afraid of getting caught.


Yesterday i had lotsa fun roller blading in east coast park with rowena and cheryl. i remember last year we did tt too. $8 fo 2 hours.. it's really worth it. Loving nature so much! the breeze, the trees, the sea. Hope i can go to pulau rendang with them cos i'm loving the sea lots and lots. anyway, we saw a few celebrity there - Felicia chin, mark lee, and two others. Both cheryl and rowena fell down while skating.. butts hurts ouch! But rowena injured herself - her leg and wrist there. I see le also scare. We went to parkway parade to buy bandage from guardian. While helping her to put the bandage in the washroom, i thot i was gg to faint cos my vision became blur and was feeling dizzy so i immediately went out to sit down. Think maybe i nv eat or lack of glucose in my body so i felt this way.. hee went to eat crystal jade! Yea.. i like the egg tart and char siew saw :) yummy. order macaroni - not nice. den we walk around the shopping center, bought famous amos cookies. Happy day! Maybe we can go roller blading every sat? haha den all my sat will be occupy with a healthy balance.

Recently, i hae turn to a pig! I sleep 12 hours every single day without fail.i slept at 2am last night and work up only to realise it was 2.30 le. then on days when i am working, i slp right after dinner! this is wonderful man, i never thot sleeping is such a pleasure - it helps you to skip meals and save money whahaha.


Life can be as simple as you want it to be
Look at it with your innocent eyes
Remember the good and forgo the bad
One with a generous heart will live life happily
Just as the way it works now...
I wish it will always be.
For you, I pray you will be here soon.

Tons of thoughts

Dear diary,

It has been months since i blogged... these 2 months have been busy with projects and revision for exam which is finally over! I'm overjoyed.

Where should i start blogging from? Hmmm, this semester i have been through many happy moments doing ob project. I m so proud with my group members for coming up with our very own coca cola video acted by james and directed by zhen hao. Hee, it's one of the most memorable project team cos we spend many nights eating pizza and meeting up so often working hours and hours. Having to skip my only day free on friday just for ob project but nevertheless, i still had fun! You guys can view their work in youtube -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acwZgopFU7M Thank you for giving mi such a wonderful experience. As much as i had fun in ob project, accounting project wasn't that great. I was so stressed over both the projects, often having to seek help from my frens esp kelvin, cheryl , enguene, james n zhen hao. Remembering the day when i actually had to run to hand up my pbl, having to stay up till 5am everyday facing excel. N those emails we had to send just to gather more information and rephrasing.Luckily all these hard work is paid off cos we get A- and A for the projects. Well done gal! Way to go!!!
In school, I wasn't chill at all.. i wonder what's my limit of stress. I feel so different during school and holiday. In school, i also complain like how stress i am and those sleepless nights and empty stomach. I even can skip meals the whole day and only eat in the middle of the night, only to realise how hungry i was. Sounds like i'm torturing myself but i think of it as a good way of dieting haha. This exam is different from others.. i have been studying with my new found friend - cheryl choo. Slept over at her air-con hall for the past 1 and a half week. We had very little time for revision for this exam due to project ending only at the last week of the semester. I never felt so unprepared for any exam until i came to university. For my elective, i had only 1 day to study for it.. and i had an instinct that it will be my worst paper. As for accounting, i can only say both cheryl n I were lucky. Cos out progress was so slow that we never complete the chapters before the papers. I wonder what we were doing for the 5 days - power napping and chilling out too much? lol, phew.. luckily we went through the tutorials. Well, i can only prayed that I can achieve my goals for this semester but not pinning much hope anyway. Having the give up mentality for few papers, i already lost the motivation. The only thing that kept me going is because I didn't want to disappoint my parents so i will hang on. This exam period is one of my most relaxing period all thanks to cheryl and enguene- i had all my meals as well as ice creams for supper plus many power naps in the afternoon haha. Spend a few days studying till we see the sun then crawl into the bed. hehe.. it was fun. Thanks Cheryl for being there with me to go through this tough time.

After paper yesterday, we went out to town! Cheryl bought 2 tops and we went to catch a movie - 200 pounds beauty. It very nice!!! I was laughing right form the start of the movie- nv laugh till so happy b4 lo. Haha, i really felt it was from the bottom of my heart but i also tear at the end. it was so touching. both the lead actress and actor are so hot!

I'm gonna make plans for this holiday.. today went to body shop and spend 300+.. dunno what i buy also but it's a lot! PLans:
to go hongkong with rowena
oversea trip with my e2 frens
watch central affairs I, II
shopping
facial n dental appointments
hair treatment
n not forget to work! i need the cash for my traveling...

to all my friends who have yet to complete their papers.. please preserve! All the bests :)