life was meant to be...

Dear diary,

Another week of this tertiary lifestyle has just past.

Went for hall production last friday. I like it esp the singing n dance... Stayed in school to study my 'FM' chapter 1 n accounting chapter 1 n 2. Accounting 101 is getting better for mi , i hope. That night after hall production, chun sent a few of us home. Hmm left karen n I, so i didn't felt like going home n we went to holland village to snack again although we had bah ku teh after hall production. Den we went to his house .. haha, played othello n saw pictures of them in usa. Went home only like 4am?

Saturday
Zhen hao birthday... 21st! So kinda sirius mini party? Yupz, went to his house .. had lotsa fun with sirius pple as usual :) love their company always! Played the food game, took lotsa pictures. We gave him a shirt n $100 vouchers. Went home ard hmm 11 plus i think.

Sunday
I felt so guilty for nt studying during the whole weekend. Ended up in queenstown library frm 2 to 6. Had lots of preious thoughts .. it was like back to jc times. CHeryl n I used to mug there almost every other day we were free? Ya, miss u girl! We were so close yet so far... it was jus a phone away /a gd news away for us to hang out like we used to be. Truthfully, i was kinda sad when i heard that at the pt of time when i knew everything planned can't work out at all. But, i'm still wanna tell u - study hard n hopefully u find someone to company u in ur studies too :) As i walk along the same old route home.. memories came pouring.
Long - sweet memories - happy times - stressful conversations... all n all, it was a moment to revive.

Super cold on every monday in sch... forgot my jacket. Ate spaghetti.. nt bad but still lose to mum! i miss mummy's cooking. Aww Rmb last yr when i had to eat outside food everyday, the moment i see food, i just felt like puking. It took me like 2 weeks to get used to outside food. Told mum once that i cannot live without home cooked food.. n she was staring at me n say ' how r u going to survive next time? 'Erm.. no idea. Maybe i can learn to cook?

Reading room is a gd place to study in hall 7, it's gonna be my favourite hangout place every night i suppose. Suppose to had dinner with sirius at canteen 4. I did went but jus when the food came, my phone rang. Ya, so off i went to wait for the shuttle bus. So pissed off! Waited so long n in the end it is terminating like the next stop? Wth.. anyway thanks allan for the ride back n kk company :)
to u, hang on strong ok. Everything is going to turn out fine. Life is never fair to anyone... but if we hold a positive attitude towards what God is going to put us through this test, we will pass it. Times when u feel low, do know that I'm always there - a call, a walk or just sitting just beside u.

Watched lakehouse last night with alison.. it is a nice movie but i dun really understand. Hmm sounds weird right haha.

After dinner, i came back n changed into my tennis outfit. Off alone i went to the court... practicing my service. It sucks initally but i saw it coming when i was at my third bucket of balls till the fifth. Used to serve n treat it as one way to vent my anger. It does helps to vent ur anger but nt to improve ur service. Tennis is a game of concentration and focus.


Mission to be accomplished - 2 presentations, 1 quiz.
- all tutorials ( sucks)

Yea! This weekend, i'm gg to catch westlife concert with meli! Hehe.. looking forward. 1st time gg to a concert like this one! Can't wait to hear them sing life!
Saturday, i just got plans.. sometimes a phone call can really makes u smile. Receive a call from my student frm qwss. He n grp of frens call to trick me... n also to ask help for their coming prelims or rather o levels. So saturday, i'll be down at holland village n being bombarded with questions which i hope is familiar n easy.
Tennis training on sunday.. hmm how m i gg to find time to studying for monday quiz n concentrate on monday presentation?

DESSERTS!

many times, i always said to myself ' IF ONLY...'
many times, 'IF ONLY..' come true
i wouldn't be sitting down here!

Time management

Dear diary,

Jus finished my biz law tutorial where i m really lost. The terms tey used are so chim.. catch no ball --> so i must play more softball. =x this is nt a joke

Last weekend was busy. On friday, i went shopping with rowena to marina square as she need a top for her talent time performance. The previous fri, we were there shopping too n i came across this pretty dress n this time roundi bought it. N a necklace to match with the dress. That day, i spend ard $80. Then rush to tiong baru..

Sat
Doing acc 1 tutorial in the afternoon. Nbs dnd at night. It was fun... our pagaent girl - kathleen did a great job:) We're siriusly proud of u! Took lots of pictures but i dun have them with mi now as i forget to bring my camera. Will post them next time. After dnd, hui shan, li xiang n mi took allan car. It was decided last minute to go holland v. swensen. Yea, ate a new flavour of their sundae - Mad mac. Nice nice~

Sunday
Basically sleeping almost the whole day... den getting ready to go back to hall7.

Monday
Had tennis with chun n yi hao. This time round, i think i m more or less back to my form. Went to jp with the seniors for dinner - subway. Eversince i stay in hall, fast food seems so far away from mi which is good for health but nt when u urge for it. Super tired but still i must hang on for the sake of studying. Obviously, i didn't absorb anything esp right now biz law tutorial is over.

Tuesday
Slp till 11.30am. Today, i ate a whole load of food but none of them is a proper meal. Banana, biscuits, cake, bread, cheese prata, waffles, milo, teddy bear cookies, milk
Sounds alot right, it's really alot haha.
After lecture, played inter block volleyball for my block cos there is nt enuff girls. My 1st time playin volleyball.. i can't serve for nuts! Either can i play well but the point is my hands hurts. They looks blueblack now. Ouch. i wonder y volleyballers enjoy torturing themself?

Wed
I'm suppose to take a nap now b i start falling asleep during later Fm seminar where the chances is high. So ciao, off to bed! Shall forgo lunch to catch ball in FM later.

@deine=> when u have nothing to do, the best thing is to sleep zzz.

stress!

Human beings are weird. We love everything that we don't own.

Just moments ago, I miss my family so much. Yet minutes b4 when mummy calls, i gave her tt piss off attitude cos i was rather piss of with my studies. She seems to always call at the wrong timing...
I don't complain my troubles to my mum cos she never will understand. Sometimes i wish daddy is right here with me every night like we used to hang ard in the living room. Talking about things ard us... at times i'm able to hint my problems to him n hear him talk about life stories n experiences. Yet calling my dad is something i hardly do.. afraid tt my parents would thot i'm in deep trouble or sth. Haiz. At home gt my two little twins sisters n giant bro to entertain me. Just miss them when i'm feeling sad.

Uni is so different... perhaps i haven found a fren who is willingly to study n work hard together with me like how cheryl n I motivate each other. But still alison is a super duper gd roomie! She is ever there to lend mi a listening ear. Love ya gal! Ya, i might start to pray whenever i need to.

little ones running through
stomping on the ground
feeling the touch of a pistol
a slight push, down lay one
seeking solace
turning away, it drips
life is a train on a steep edge.

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Hectic life

Another week passes by filled with excitment, frustrations, sporty, stressful, starvation, enjoyment.

Excitment
Yanni's birthday falls on wednesday. Sirius decided to give her a surprise at hall 16. At 11.30, those staying including in staying hall 7 went over with her birthday cake. Thanks chun for the ride :) Ordered mac by mak... we were in the lounge. Lights off, yanni walked in... birthday song was sang. There is this unexplainable feeling or peace i felt. We had fun playing zhong ji mi ma, the snake game , mrt game.
It was the snake n mrt game tt kathleen n I had no choice but to agree that hall 7 girls like us do not have the sense of lamer others do. Or izzit we have no brains? Lol.. we are the only two who knew the trick after many times of ' again , again!' n still gave the blur look. N silly me, ask a qns tt is the ans.

Frustrations...sporty
Wednesday... I had a rather bad day with biz law tutorial n FM seminar. I DISLIKE having to speak in class. Not a vocal person at all. So this sucks when it comes to class participation. Had this PRC tutor who pronouns present values as prison values. The speed he is talking can immediately make my head drop on the table. Worst still, i do not have the same lecture notes nor the tutorial worksheet. Lessons end at 5.30... alison called to ask mi play netball for interblock games. With my mindset , i seriously not up to play but still went as there isn't any enuff pple. Game suppose to start at 6.15, we started only at 7? All of us were late. Hmm my block won :) though i think i fouls a few times n nv really play. Tennis on tuesday was the best! I won without playing the 1st females doubles as block 38 has no girls participating. N i lost without playing too cos the guys lost 2 matches. Great, i change n warm up for nothing...
Tennis trials sucks bad time! Their standard is super high .. n someone like cheryl n I who could not play well under pressure juz gotta get our ass out of the courts.

Stressful
Wenli, i totally agree with u that whoever says uni life is much easier than jc..hell with them! At this moment in time, i dun see it tt way. Given that i have to do my readings n tutorial till early morning every single day? It like so not me in sch days last time. Yea, more activities in hall but still y such a tremendous change? Anyway, will still work hard for as long as i can :)

Starvation
Hall 7 being isolated on this small NTU island. Foods is available on climbing uphill but still inconvenient. Laziness play a heavy role so i dun really have a proper diet. Most of the time having eat 1 meal per day n snacks ard in betw when i like it. Sleeping late will jus make u feel hungry ... so far not so much of supper this week. Jus tt dinner was super late which i think more towards supper time ya? I shall stock up more foods. Btw , i have a fridge already! Yea.. can buy chocolates le!


My parents arrive already.. time to leave. This is enjoyment - family love :)

This is a business that breaks your heart. You're emptying an ocean with a teacup, and every time you think you make a difference, the ocean fills up again faster than you can look.

36-4-688

Dear diary

I almost completed my entry BUT this com jus doesn't like mi ! It disappear... i'm so angry. Argh

Will try to recall what i wrote...

Sch has finally started yup. N give mi a round of applause for having a 5 day week when chun wei can get a 2 day week lor.

Hall life is not as bad as i thot it would be as compared to Alison. Perhaps she's rite... in camp we were feeling tired, dirty n thus the other place that came to mind will be ur home. Thus this explains our homesick :)"

Went to yanni room that day.. hall 16 is so alluring! Everything is new n close to heart. But hall 7 gave mi a different feeling. People are friendly there... n maybe cos iknow more pple in hall 7 too. Hall 16 with the air con n new environment , so it's hard to be close to pple near u.











time to dress out n party all night long!

Hall camp

Dear diary,

The silence of familiar voices
The scenary of familiar places
The smell of delicious foods
The feeling of blissful


A room of empty spaces
A lack of happy faces
A solidary environment
A feeling of being abandon


Staring out of the 4 walls
Lies a recogizable panarama
Out of the room
Stands 100 over souls


Survivor was the theme
Tough was the word
Reality Tv all became true
Running has to be everyone forte


When day falls, dawn came
Struggling with time
You yearn to close your eyes
Only to think of your loved ones


Awoke wishing you were there
Only to realise, it was a dream
A dream you truly wanted to be real
How difficult can life be?


Back to the small beachy island
Being the smallest no of survivors,
We manage to be the champion early in the morning
Lady luck wasn't smiling in the afternoon


Dinner was simple n nice
The night is still young
Soon, we were living in darkness
Performing stuns you thought you would


With sticking gluing stuffs everywhere
The weather changed
Begun to shiver
Felt like puking


A sharp pain on my right
Extra shirt was worn over
Cold was all I could felt
Home was all I think of


Written on my forehead was
I'm a show gal. Name it n i'll show it.
My hair was damn nice
Guess most of the seniors had a part to play


Gross was the word to describe
Took hours to bathe
Woke up 1 hour late
Had oily breakfast n headed home



I feel my throat begin to close and my eyes well up with tears because I know it is time for you to go. The look you give me at that moment haunts me. I feel your saddness and my own loneliness, and the ache in my heart that had been silent only a short time grows stronger as you release me. And then you spread your arms and step back into the fog because it is your place and not mine.


And I watch with breaking heart as you slowly fade away. I find myself straining to remember everything about this moment, everything about you . But soon, always too soon, your image vanishes and the fog rolls back to its faraway place and I am alone on the pier and I do not care what others think as I bow my head ad cry and cry and cry.

Hall camp

Dear diary,

I'm now in my hall camp. It was not as fun as NBS camp n i'm home sick! I miss my bed, air con, family n the feeling of home! :(

Going to sentosa today... my timetable is a five day week with mon-wed... there is only 2 hrs of lessons lo. Damn sian! Can't i have a 4 or 3 day week?

@deine=> homesick

Packing all day long

Dear diary,

Woke up at 12+.. i felt so blessed that i was at home. Had a long dream or rather a nightmare.

Hall 4 ... my sisters, parents n students all tied up. walking pass them with 3 packets of foods - chay kuay tiao, bak ku teh n nasi lemak. They ate hungrily.. continued my walk 3 to 2 to 1. the whole singapore is there.

Hall 1.. facing a big screen. There was a face. then, a few... disappear. Appear 6 faces which look like those wearing The Scream mask. Oh dear.. they walked out from the screen! Immediately, the group of us including mi kneel down. Our face were facing the ground.

I felt the person behind me being pulled away. No sounds at all... all vaccum. Soon, my turn! Terrified i was but then when i looked up, i saw the hk actor. He let mi go. I asked for my sisters along but NO. He refused.. i could only bring 1 along. He asked for reasoning...

On the stage, i seem to be giving a talk. The actor cried n said my sisters are allowed to be with me. Everyone seems to be treating me as someone big.

Back to our old house at jurong. Level 10.. met korkor, we were walking down an endless flight of stairs. running away from people wearing orange. Level 7... we change route. Bragged into one ang moh hse cos sisters wanna go washroom. Korkor suddenly disappear... n then

'wake up! what time already still sleeping!' My dream stops ... it was the familiar voice which makes sisters n I so frustrated. Early in the day this happens means there will be no end for the rest of the day. Days like these.. i feel like sleeping outside home. that's where hostel will be of great help in future - a week more.

Wanted to bring my stuffs over today but hall office close :( Pack stuffs for NOTHING! Anyway my room will be quite cute i think with my cute bedsheets... think i will bringing my stuff toys over soon. I want to make my room more towards the beach theme. Seashells, dolphins, rainbow, clouds.. hee Just thinking over it makes mi smile. can cute mix with beach ? I think it can.. so winnie the pooh will be hanging out in the beach!

Tml i will be busy in my hostel le! Den hang around till 6pm for camp. Not very excited for camp though.. the thot of powder bath dun appeal to me. Bought along more stuffs than nbs camp.

@de|ine=> cross her fingers

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Shopping rawks!

dear diary,

I had an enjoyable day today with my girls - cheryl, rowena n melissa despite the 1st two being super late! N rowena waking up at 12+ when i'm suppose to meet her at 1pm. Anyway, i was late too haha.. but i went for my manicure at 1.45 n ended ard 3pm. Didn't it took so long .. i had blue nails right now with stars on my thumbs. Cost mi $11 so i think it was rather cheap. But still, i'm thinking gals are really spending way too much on hair, health n clothes... but it's life! We are born to do these... tt's how the money goes round around the earth rite?

Shopping trip commences at ard 3.30pm. Walk around n i'm looking for shorts. My hands are damn itchy , i just feel like spending alot today. Entered into this shop which sells half toys n half clothes. We all saw something we like except for melissa. I tried on a few shorts n finally my girls decided i look better the last piece which costs $32.90. It was under 10% discount then we asked for more.. that's when we say we are still student. so yea, 20% ... so we keep in view! Walk to the other shop.. we saw the exact shorts for rowena.. n it cost only $23 while hers was at $28 i think.

Bought them to the shop where i bought my belly button earrings... they took a very very SHORT time to choose the earrings ok. It is really very very SHORT! haha... i'm stressing it too much. total we bought 5 of it... n thanks to mi, they gt it at $4.50 each haha.

Went back to the 1st shop again cos i was very afraid my short is sold as it was the last piece n i think i really like it. So back there, i tried again n this time round.. the tops caught our eyes too. As we were taking a rather long time trying since there is only 1 fitting room, we share it. Tried on 3 shorts n 2 tops for me. Cheryl n rowena took hold of the same design but different colour. We told the guy, eh.. the shorts there sell $23 only leh.. so he calculate n say ok la, i charge u $21. Den i ask hmm.. mine u charge $25 la. Haha.. he agree! Big smile when we asked how much is the top which is at $25.90.. rowena n I agree tt if he sell us at $23 we will buy n -- the price he gave was $20. BUT.. gd thing nv last.. it was the last piece. Rowena rmbs tt the other shop also have it... so before we went to the ATM , we went to the other shop to ask for the price.. n it was $15 only .. the reason given, it was a little dirty but seriously i can't see anything! of cos.. we wouldn't let go this cheap top.

Withdraw $50 bucks.. total $80 today. Fly away 25, fly away 15 .. come back shorts, come back top. Bought a pair of earrings to match my top.. i think it's rather cute hee. Ytd sister show mi the webby that sells clothes online.. my heart xin dong le! I feel like buying tt off shoulder with halter. Nice n cheap :) but how to buy without mummy knowing it?

By the time we done with shopping.. it was 7+. I haven had a decent meal.. only with a doughnut when i woke up till then water. Went to the hawker near bugis.. n ate fried bee hoon. $1.70 only.. cheap n nice but oily. Yet to see any pencil case for school so went to wallet shop. I saw a few not bad one but being indecisive i nv buy.

Rowena n cheryl went to town while meli left cos she is nt feeling well n me... not being home with my family the past few days , i just dun feel good. Moreover, hall camp is coming n i'm moving to hall. I'm gonna miss home so much! Going to hall means i must learn to cook - or can i eat magi mee everyday? Tomyam flavour is nice.. mee goreng also nice! anyway mee goreng for the past two days n i still craving for more right now!

Back home, i realise i haven talk to my parents for a decent 15 mintues for the past 3 days. So tml i'm going to stay home n only go out with my family! Needa pack my hall stuffs.. thanks melvin for helping mi to think of what to buy for my sp :) 7-11 i'm coming tml!

Yesterday I kinda regret doing something. I shouldn't have agree to star gazing at night! Though it was nice but i still feel weird. Moreover the place is at sentosa which i once had my worst experience there too... so afraid my nightmares will come again. But thankfully it never .. thank god! Nex time i better think hard before making any decision esp when i'm alone! Nevertheless, star gazing is something i never did b4.. nt including the one in obs :) Just chit chat... n had 3 miss call from home which i thot was from mum.. but it was from my sister. Went home ard 1am.


i like this!

distorted on purpose

1st day as a salesgirl

Dear diary,

Woke up at 10.15am though my alarm was at 10.30 .. too excited i supposed. Watched tv then went to bathe. From 11 till 12 , i was walking around my house, double check if i m missing out anything. Finally I got myself out of the house n off to bugis street. My 1st day n 1st time as a salesgirl. Stood outside for the shop to be open...
time passes tick tock tick tock... no business.
1st item sold - a dress. for $19.
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one of the more 'interesting' thing that happen today was 2 ah gua who came into the shop. They took 3 of the $5 item n asked mi to charge them 3 for $12. i refused cos $5 is really damn cheap ok! Then they started to touch mi n saying can la, u see.. the thread coming out. see the button like falling off. Wth! so many complaints dun buy la.. still touch mi! so gross ok. I super cannot stand them.. hear their voice also i wanna go argh.. shut up! i dun understand what u talking. I give in so tt they will stop 'sayang' me. disgusted!

regina came over... den came allan. Thanks for buying me dinner n the bird nest.. the carrot cake was nice! Avena n fang lay came by too.. never expect them to come though :) hmm, lyn came over too. When they were there, i manage to try on some of the clothes lyn recommended n some is i want to try. Wore this black dress which i quite like it. but like what cheryl says, maybe i just like it now but not in the long run. not buying! Looking forward to sat to shop for shorts with rowena, cheryl n meli have our very own foods tasting.

After we closed the shop, i was thinking if i shuld go find my camp frens or go home.. but i really dun wan to go home so i pester lyn n gang to accompany mi to anywhere. They insist on having their impt lecture tml lor... so must come up with a jue zhao. So i decided to treat them supper.. well done girls - immediately say OK! Had maxwell porridge n noodles... ta bao porridge home for my family to share.

Yea, will be receiving seashell from my 'bro'. haha, so sweet.. despite the mirky sea, u are still able to get mi a seashell. Thanks so much! No supper nvm, th seashell will make do :)

tml gonna be another day of - slacking. n ya, hopefully meeting e2 gang. Dai dee n drinks on ur hse fang lay yea?

@deline=> the debts are increasing!

post foc at sentosa

Dear diary,

After a whole day with sirius.. i can't help but falling in love with sirius. There's a breakfast meeting at 9.45 n i was expecting alot of pple but the truth is - everyone just loves bed more than breakfast! So end up only regina, mi n 4 seniors at macdonalds. Waited as usual for more pple n off we are to sentosa!

We played frisbee ... this time i really perspire lots.

Had lots of juicy news though i dun really know alot. After all i'm still rather low profile , in a big group i will never be the attention hee. I do not like atttention :)

Had singing session with yii ying, yuen bo n the guitarist cos qingfu had his guitar ... gosh, admire is the word.

This is my 1st time wearing bikini .. feel damn fat lor n cannot make it. I needa lose some weight but it's tough! i love eating too. How?

Went to marina square for dinner. Is really a mass dinner .. everyone went to get their foods den we gather just outside marina square. think we could be caught of illegeal gathering if there's a police passing by. N there, we were back to our questionaire of the nite again! Went round with names of the opp sec begin said. N we have to rate the person recommend to us.. i felt so mean! had lotsa scandals going around n i ended up knowing one secret . Shhhh

Tmr it's my turn to work at bugis! But there's also og outing, being broke i choose money than spending it! So i decided to go to the library to borrow some books to keep me company. Hope i dun screw up anything .. n yea, i may have time to try on the clothes i like n buy them whaha. Just book my facial appointment this morning the min i woke up, luckily there's an empty slot. So shuang! today facial is not painful at all! Got massage , mask - damn cooling! I love this life haha. All thanks to daddy. got a call, hall camp next monday to 5 aug. Excited? not really... i need more sleep.


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Foc

Dear diary,

I'm finally back from FOC - Freshman Orientation Camp in NBS in Ntu. Sirius Rawks!!!

1st day, we were slacking alot n was rather bored by the talks in the lecture room. hmm, the food is quite bad n i didn't had a single bite of the chicken. OO, we had field games in NTU. Fun!! Sirius won all the stations... hurhur. One of the games is gross - we had to sit on the chairs with eggs, soy sauce , flour n some other things. In the night, we were blindfolded n was asked if know how to swim n trapped water for about 30seconds. We were told that we will be going down a slide n down to the water. While we were blindfolded, our seniors will guide us around. nicole, mi n zi ying were asked to hold a big leaf. Also, we are supposed to shout a opposite sex name so that he will save u. In the end, we slided down a long slope filled with soapy water. Wanted to shout when i felt like how come the slide is not ending but landed soon. Lol, felt quite cheated lo esp by my jjc seniors. anyway, i drop into a hole when climbing up the slope n got scratches all over my left leg.

2nd day, went to sentosa n played lots of games. The weather was damn hot! Took part in one of the sea games where we were to sit on the shoulders of a guy n had to pull our opponent girl down. I was the first to drop cos too kan chiong. Also played frisbee.. the game is so taxing as u had to run on the sand. It was fun though - brings back memories to our e2 times. Sirius is a very zi high grp...
Had fright nite... we were blinded folded 1st then one of the ghost unfolded me. they were nt scary so i said hello. haha think they are quite sian. I was grouped with zhixiong, kathleen n one more guy( opps, 4got his name). 1st station, i was asked to pick up a note on the ghost left. Was so scare tt i forgot where is her left... den 2nd station kathleen did it. the most scary part for mi is the sudoku part. While walking up the slope, i'm like saying - ghost please b kind to me. There, a ghost directed mi into sth like a room. when i peeked in, i was horrify by sudoku cos she is wearing red n with her long hair covering half of her face. The ghost beside her asked mi to comb her hair. The moment i comb, she scream damn loud, i was shocked n dropped the comb. It was this station tt make mi more afraid n tear.

3rd day
Had pool games but i cannot take part cos of my period. So sian! Just stand there n cheer for my grp:) It was the day we had to perform that night. Had a dance n a skit. We won the best n humourous perormance! Well done sirius. It really means alot to us cos we only came out with everything on tuesday nite in sentosa. Then came the secret pal nite. My secret pal is frm njc, play hockey n he likes jay's songs. Try to tell him lames jokes but my seniors very fast said the answers le. No fun :( We nv talk anything very interesting though. He's a good guy.

4th day
we had shi zhi lu kou today! Yummy foods in chinatown - durians, fried sweet potatoes balls, sauguages, peanut paste, chay kuay tiao. All of us are walking with our hair stuck with gel, leaves, flowers - look like aliens in the streets haha.. but evening time the girls are getting ready to meet our secret pals. Haha... we are like having matchmaking sessions. Put of makeup, wear meimei... n see how the guys got made fun with pole dance, eat 'kaya' bread.. n lotsa of different stuns. My sp is a senior so i was the last few to leave. we went on double date with another guy senior to clark quay. My sp is so hungry cos he didn't get to eat almost the whole day - poor thing! Anyway, we had dinner in like a beer place so the food ain great. After which, we walk to club momo n there the party begins. Enjoyed myself :)

5th day
Went ard ntu to play our finale games... then got forfeit but it's not our fault. damn pai seh can? The guy was told to do 30 pumpings with the gal lying on the floor n we had to sing xiao wei. hmm, den came the ending of the FOC - gave out best freshie award frm each grp then did the shake hand thingy n finally i stayed back for dinner with Sirius.


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Sirius rawks!!!

Pre foc

Dear diary,

Meet up with the people in my group for the camp which is tml - Sirius. We had some ice breaker, learn new cheers which i seriously sucks at it. Maybe it was the first time meeting them n i'm alone so i do not feel really comfortable. Separated ourselves in two groups - 1 for the banner design n the other to work out a performance. I decided to join the banner grp cos i think it's easier :)

Only had a day to complete our banner which is today. Meet up for lunch, den went to istana park n filled up on eof the pathway to get our work going. I think our banner is nice n the dog is really cute. It's just like a pre foc - rather nice to know them actually. Hopefully i will be able to make some good friends yup.

Gonna get myself to pack my camp stuffs. Have to wake up at 5.30am, took a train/bus to the place i m so familiar with - boon lay station.

Till then.. do miss me! hee.

see you guys next weekend!

Day with melissa

Dear diary

Melissa came over to have lunch with me , we had kfc - still wanna act young ar by buying student meal hurhur. Anyway we walked to n from my house to anhcorpoint then queensway. Thanks meli for treating mi fondue at haagen daz. yummy but it is too much for the 2 of us.. had to stuff into my stomach cos it's expensive to waste it. Finally meet up since erm when was it tt we last met? It's nice ya to see each other again once in a while :)


see that chocolate? gosh.. how yummy can it gets haha

Today is korkor birthday. Happy 22 birthday if u r reading this but quite unlikely la u this pig. Only know how to play game, slp n disturbs ur 3 good sisters. Had dinner together.. food not so nice!

I want to be me really but i can't.

Being a good daughter is really important to them. How much i wanted to have late nites with my frens but i turn them down because of them.
Y?
Cos i want to spend more time at home to show that i m good? Rubbish! How can i express to them that staying out late at nite doesn't mean that I am playful or getting worst?

It so hard... after all these years I strive n struggle for them ( n partly myself too). I know the debts that i owe goes way beyond the walls of our home. The best u provided me I really appreciated it... but the best u gave me never fails to stress me out.

Times when I really feel like I need a wall to break through , u never understand. Of the 4 , u told me ' You make us feel proud of you.' I'm really touched, I am. But to achieve this sentence of yours make me go through years of hell. Of cos, it good for my future like u always said.

When i was 14 , i remember so clearly that day - that night. But they left me alone with the dark brown wooden block. I curse n swear never to forgive - for u left me the moment i really needed so much more than ur freaking dinner! The words u said make me look down on you.

Can I be a bad gal just for once, please?

The few mintues chat with rowena n cheryl was a blessing. It was hilarious when their senior actually asked ' are u two together?' Haha.. laugh till my head wanna drop. Can't blame the seniors for popping that question after all the same colour rubber band, same swim suit, similiar dressing... lol. Can't wait to see u girls again.. but when? Won't be home for almost the whole of next week den with the job following n sch starts the next. Gosh... can you give mi more time? This time I won't complain that it's long.. i promise.

@deine=> whining

Zouk

Dear diary,

I was pacing down my hall up and down since the moment i woke up yesterday. Was I too excited about nite? Ya i think very much so. Had my nails painted, watched tv, play com n slp for an hour till dinner. Only told mum about it so when i was getting ready ard 9... dad asked ' so late, still wan to go where?' I know he dunno what is zouk so i just say zouk. Haha, very bad i know.

Jain took cab down to my place to fetch me over. I felt awkard n scare after such a long time. In the cab, i told jain ' i felt like a bitch.' She happily laughing away ... Ladies nite = free entry :) Introducing me to mambo n back to my 1st place - phuture , the place where i stood for 2 hours n headed home. Sat down at mambo dance floor cos it's still early... den there's these 2 ang moh. Asked about happy hour and started to chat. Oh.. they are from usa. Heard something i think it's rather true... new jersey is not a nice place in usa. N from them, think 99% of the pple will say new jersey is nt nice! Alright... n i dun look like i'm 18. Shu yan came but forgot her Ic so jain had to go find her. Jain, u left mi alone with the ang mohs! i'm was scare but try to act calm. Follow them ard, saw denis's bro n zhiwen. Had our 1 for 1 orange vodka n 2 glasses of long island each frm someone beside cos he can't finish his jug. I think long island is nice but frm them, it's highly alcoholic. Worried i get drunk, i try to slow down with my drinking. Having someone to chat with is not so bad but not anything more :) Luckily with shu yan n jain around, they can deal with questions i do not know how to ans :) Mambo music rocks! Down on the dancing floor ... n walk over to shell station. They had cup noodles n i ate my yan yan then back to music. Miss calls from home twice at 3am , 3.15am. Had to go!

Nope... i'm not getting addicted to places like these. It gonna be once in a blue moon.
Woke up at 1pm n tennis later!

Good news from alison! We will be roommates.. yea! But i feel so terrible having to tell huiqi's fren about the last minute changes. Hate doing such things... very bad. Cos i wouldn't want her to play me out too if she got a fren last minute too. Mum says one person has to sacrifice, no choice. Alison is my secondary 2 partner in class. We wanted to study in the same class in sec 3 n 4 but she choose art thus differenent class. boo! Aim to go to the same jc but turn out to be opposite but nvm, we are in the same uni n roommates somemore! Excited ... we gonna mug n play together hehe.

@deine=> had lotsa fun gals :)

Late mornings

Dear diary,

Right now i m feeling so proud of myself. whahaha so happy :) Cos ... i m so satisfy with 'artwork' - my scrapbook pages. Feel like a genius. K, i may sound insane or maybe my 'artwork' is not nice to you but at least i put in hours n effort to do it. I just like it hee ( giggling to myself)


Love this lots! i drew n colour it myself - simple i know but it's the thoughts n effort that counts!


The very 1st piece that i truly adore


this is my bed cum my rubbish ground
Usually my bed is my victim during exams or even when i'm doing homework :P It's one thing I can't live without!
Mum used to place all the things that we do not want to keep on our bed so that when it's time to slp, we have NO choice but to be good n keep our stuffs. So i guess, it became my habit hehe. Shh.. actually i not so messy one just sometimes *winks*
Don't my bedroom looks like some children room with all the stuff toys n humpty dumpty wallpaper?


My study table since I was pri 5. See those papers on my whiteboard? They are some mathematics formulas n study schedules. Everything a scrapbook maker needs :P

Cold wars between parents ain't doing good for kids. Second day ... n i m the only one who knew what happens n knew about this cold war since nobody senses it. Few words, going out alone are hints. Yesterday i took the sufferings by having to eat 2 meals with each of them , nvm about having more food but it's the same food - subway. Both have same thots n taste huh. Stuck in the middle of NOWHERE. Great... tml nite i m going out. How am i suppose to tell them? Told mum today but she no reaction leh. Dun dare to tell daddy - i do not want him to think that i'm getting bad. It's not a bad thing but to our parents, it is! WHY??? Wish me luck ... I'm trying to be a good girl for these two days by not going out with hope of staying out at nite tml. (cross my fingers)

To my dearest bf, cheryl... Happy 19th Birthday my dear! Horhor.. old le. Now in nus camp should be having lots of fun rite? Hope ur secret pal is someone nice :) Wanted to give u a surprise but too bad.. u're not fated whaha. If only ur ntu appeal is successful then we will be able to see each other everyday le for at least 1 yr? Argh... things are just not meant to be that way. Anyway, may ur university life rocks n study hard ya. N bless us with a friendship that is round... get what i mean? hehe, love ya gal!

@deine=> is tml gonna be the right day?

Precious moments

Dear diary

On friday, jain n me went town. She got herself a number of stuffs :) N i got myself 1 stuff - neo prints. I wore the wrong footwear to go shopping. So my feets hurts when i reached home. But i enjoy jain's company.. like nothing much to talk but still can crap all the way from we meet till we go home. We walked from taka to wisma den to taka n back to wisma again n finally to centre pt den to hereen -> cinleisure (for dinner) -> far east -> home sweet home :P


Sat morning , the tennis girls are supposed to meet at 9am on the court but everyone seems to have the common thot of coming late. I woke up at 8am , walk myself to the bus stop near the police station. When i reached the traffic light near qweensway, i realised i didn't had my ezlink card with me! Damn it. i was feeling very warm despite the short distance. Had to drag myself back home n decided to slack a while hee. So coincidence having to meet suxian everytime we have tennis trainings :) We were the 1st 2 to reach there. Soon everyone is on the court, i kinda miss those times we had training together or rather hearing them gossiping lol, cos i m always the one lag behind of everything. Our captain- grace became so fair n she is in nursing in nee ann poly :P Vice captain- cheryl is leaving next tuesday to australia perth. Me, xiang ying n sim yee going to Ntu yea.. n su xian to nus business admin :) Our jj tennis courts finally is new! So nice to play on new courts , the feeling is different. Had lunch at swensen till 3plus...
At night, daddy treat us ice cream though i wasn't feeling tt well but the name of ice cream just brighten mi up. Looks like i m influenced by jain on the ice cream cravings.. So i had swensen ice cream twice today. Met malcolm there.

Slacking my day away

Dear diary,

Tuesday
Had my facial den went to auntie connie house to see jasmine's baby. It's amazing to see a little life come to our world. He's so cute with his big eyes... Saw jasmine wedding photos n video. Oh.. so sweet! Somehow i feel so touched when the groom sang to his bride about his feelings n how he will love her forever. It would be a blessing moment if next time the person i love do the same to me :) Jas looks gorgeous in her wedding gown, i think every woman looks best on their wedding day rite? I forgo going to the doctor 2day .. i had the nightmares so i rather slp well tonight n go tml.

Wednesday
Wait for damn long in the polyclinic just to see the doc for like 5-10 minutes n was told i was refer to the heart centre in sept. Y can't they get over n done with? Walk around in people's park cos my mum wanna buy tea leaves but ended up buying other stuffs cos she couldn't find the tea leaves. Ate koo kee noodle n some mini buns - yum yum. As usual, i flopped on the bed once we reached home. Did some scrapbooking later in the night on niagara falls - i shall keep everything simple n nice! Was on the phone for hours i think... watched soccer for a while n zzz.

Woke up so late today, i wonder y. Haven had my breakfast nor lunch yet n the time now is 3.23pm. Not hungy leh.. n it's time to go on diet rite? Alright, stopping b4 i get some knocks on my head.


@deine-> more scrapbooking

Soccer cum scrapbooking

Dear diary,

Daddy n korkor damn lucky lor! I think majority of the world would have bet England n Brazil to get into the semifinal instead of Portgual n France la. There my sisters n I were saying 'kor, y u so silly? england n brazil sure win one lor!' N there we ask dad n said ' papa, y u follow ur silly son?' In the end, my silly kor n dad won both matches. So depressed! That england vs port was not really fair. Poor beckham...
Brazil vs fra was an interesting match though brazil lost. Interesting as in the way the commentor gave his comment was funny. Well, it's all over - the fun is over.

Sunday
Tennis under that bloody hot sun! I played 1.5 hr of tennis , walk ard westmall while waiting for my parents. Join them at the coffee shop with all the aunties n uncles. Had 1 hour of driving ard after i reach home with dad den learn more parking. Slp like a pig the whole afternoon! forgot what in did at night , watch tv?

Monday
Packed! Hair treatment ... hang ard in IMM till 2pm n went to NTU for medical checkup. I was like a little kid throwing tantrum at mum.. partly, i dunno where the place is n was hoping she drive me there.n party the thot of checkup jus pissed mi off, making mi frustrated. Took shuttle bus to jp n took 179 in. I dropped at the correct bus stop but walk overshot the place. I spent 45 minutes finding the place from admin building to student services centre den to business sch n finally medical centre. Wait not so long... yea i grew taller! but i grew fatter too - that's bad!(whining) perfect eyesights! Enter the doc room alone is scary. Check blood pressure 1st ( i tink) den heartbeat. Hmm i have heart murmur - 2 sound of my heartbeat. Not serious but doc recommend me to see specialist just for a more detailed checkup. Fated ar.. the more u dun like sth, the more it is likely to come to u. Went to jain house today! Hee.. i'm so honoured! I think i practically nv do much cos she help mi think of how to do the layout, n all i have to do is cut , paste n arrange. She's so creativity! Love her art works :) Thanks so much!

@deine=> bad memories appear

Friendship

Dear diary,

On thursday, I drove my dad's car. Felt the pressure afterall it's an expensive n my dad's fav car. It was so much difficult from my bro car - it is far more stable n i dun feel it going fast despite the km/hr i saw. Daddy tried to teach me to park the car but stupid me still cannot make it! Gosh.. i'm such an idiot. Tennis with uncle james was nice :) Haven been tennising for 1 week n my stamina just automatically deteriorate. After tennis, quickly rush home to get bathe n had my dinner. Met up with melissa n cheryl at tanah merah station n head towards the airport. We were going to sent chelle off. I didn't feel as sad till the point we hugged n saw her back facing us when she checked in. Can't imgaine if i were in her state at that point, i probably will keep tearing as i walk to the plane. As much as i wish i could go overseas to study, i didn't wanna to leave without my friends n family. But chelle, i'm sure 3 years will going to be over in a blink of ur eye even before we knew it.
Anyway, the 11 of us who were there to sent chelle off - MISS THE LAST TRAIN! We could only get ourselves to tanah merah station. Luckily for me, i get to catch my last bus with cheryl. While the others had no choice but to take cabs home. Cheryl sleepover at my hse. Our bus trip was damn long! 1 hour at least.. it was midnight already yet the bus still travel at a rather slow speed.
Friday
I bought another pair of footwear for just $10 from URS sales in anchorpoint. Hehe, it's pointed with shiny glitters n heels. I like it :) Didn't even realise how many pair of footwears i bought till I was counting while avena n I were shopping in far east. I bought 7 pairs already after my A levels! That's one nike dunk, 3 with heels, 2 pumps n 1 sandal. gosh.. that's alot lor. Think of it, i can quite confidently say that now half of clothes in my wardrobe are bought after my a levels. Cos i 'imported' 14 tops from USA. n bought lots of clothing since i was working as a relief teacher then. Now i know where all my money goes to. Plus the expenses which my sisters would say share but end up is I pay for the cosmetics.



Alright, going to my 1st scrapbook class. It was fun! I didn't think my work was nice , it didn't bring out the colours of my pictures however i like my background. It looks incompleted without words... Nvm, this is my 1st piece only! So elated that I'm gonna get help for an art expert - jain today :) We're going to ikea first for jain's furniture. Den we'll go to art friend in taka to get my materials. Just worry about the amount i gonna need to spend in there. N she will be coming over to my house n get my scrapbook thingy going! Hee.. i'm so excited. Tonight we'll be busy with my scrapbook while catching the WC. Hopes england go through :) Should be ok cos portugual has 2 players with red cards n c. ronaldo might not recover yet. Haiz, i dun feel like letting hamid to coach me anymore. 1st, is i'm really lazy to get my ass down to bukit batok taking that long trip home when i'm so tired after tennis. 2nd is i don't learn anything new.. it's always been the forehand n backhand that i'm practising for the past 1 year plus. 3rd, uncle james can teach me everything within a hour n it makes me feel great. I learnt volley, service n practice my ground strokes too. At least, i can do volley now n serve balls with speed. But the problem is when sch starts, i might not have time on every thursday to learn from uncle james. How? Tml morning there's tennis at 9am... it's bad cos it means i have to slp early tonight which i m not gg to! It's frustating having to think so much.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Dosha is Kapha

Calm and grounded, you are not prone to mood swings or anger.However, once you do get angry, it takes a lot to cool you down.You tend to think a little slower than most people, but your logic is astounding.Overall, you very loyal and trustworthy. You're not scared of being who you really are. With friends: You enjoy their company, but often listen more than talk In love: You crave connection and affection. It's hard for you to be single. To achieve more balance: Exercise vigorously (especially in the sun) and let go of attachments.

What's" Your Dosha?

Life

dear diary,

These few nights, I've been catching the WC fever. Yesterday brazil - ghana was a great! I feel that both teams are rather strong. At least ghana is better than italy! So france will be meeting brazil for the quarter finals - it should be interesting i hope :)

Went to takashimaya with my parents - had lunch. Den off to Ps , i had my tuition fee loan settled. I can't wait for my scrapbook making lessons den i can go to spotlight to get all my stuffs. This scrapbook gonna costs a bomb!

At 5.30, with my track shoes on wearing banister pe shirt. ran at least 2km n i could't make it anymore. Lousy! Walked to the nearest cc n i got the schedule of all the classes. None of them interest me :( Met my cousin's wife on my way home n we chatted for a very long time about my uni course, interest in taking up assignments in a tuition center... n b4 i knew it, i reached home at ard 7.45.

Spent a few hours online doing research on my photos in usa. I wanna make my scrapbook a more informative n memorable one. Was finding related article on zero ground. As i read, i felt.. i felt the feeling of losing special people. The bravery of our heros who survive the tragedy. I salute everyone esp our young ones having the courage to move on despite the pain. Of all these, i share your sorrows. The actions of people struggling in the tall buildings is beyond imagination. Heartbreaking was the only word that could describe my feeling.

In my room, i was pondering about life. About relationships between pple, about miracles, about careers, about happiness, about everything. N above of all, i still do not understand the underlying reason behind everything that happens.

Can't I have the best things in life?

Dear diary,

Does everything good really have to come to an end? I once thought studies was the biggest mess in my life. Now that I had got my choice of school, I do not have my choice of people around me. But in the past, it didn't really bother me that much. I stepped into Hss without any familiar faces nor did i have close pals around mi when i went to Jjc. Of coz i had my worries , just that it wasn't as bad as this. I went there n it widen my circle of friends. Why did it matters so much to me now? I just have to go through it once more will do rite? Is that so tough?
As the saying goes - do not have high expectations cos the higher u have, the more likely they gonna hurt you.


@deine => Is life gonna get better this way?

New blogskin

Dear diary,

Finally, i can miss out my habit of typing the date of today. It's all back to 1 month ago - waking up to have the house to myself. Sisters went to school, parents on the ground of bukit timah hill n korkor slacking in his army. I woke up at 8+ this morning, was not feeling that good. Cramp sucks. Took shower n glue my eyes on the tv for hours. Michelle gf msg that she can't make it tml nite.. so sad :( Nvm.. understand that you're busy with ur packing n getting everything ready for thursday. I miss you lots gal!
Everyday i walked past my bro room n the guitar always appear right at the corner of my eyes. I was damn lazy to pick it up to learn it. New skills .. hell since i started saying i want to learn something new. Can anyone enlighten me or motivate me to do it? My reading habits has long since disappear.. i could never complete the whole book now.
I took the wheels to drive home from orchard. Seems like I m rather afraid on heavy traffic. My parking seriously horrible!
Medical checkup suppose to be last thursday but i was working so decided to postpone to this week but seems like i can't make it again cos it's my inconvenient time of the month. Argh.. y must we have medical check up n still got chest x-ray. The thot of having to go for medical check up just turn me off. I know it's normal to go see a doctor when u're sick. But my frens around me can tell you, i m not someone who will heads to the clinic :) So my records in school is perfect.. i haven miss school days since primary 6.
Last night i was watching WC with my sisters. Woo.. england rocks! Beckham scores a goal at 60'. Beautiful kick there.. he's such a hunk! Whatever haircut he has, he still looks good as ever! I think england could have scored more but wonder what is Lampard doing ytd? Hmm he's not bad looking too - similar to lee ryan from blue rite? He had a no of good chances of getting a goal but misses it! Saw the effort that Rooney put in n he should have been given the penalty kick la when the two players blocked them.


Been enjoying life after A level, kinda worried when sch starts. This morning, I was considering if i should stay in a hostel afterall cheryl might not be staying with me. What if my roommate is someone i cannot hang along with? I will be unhappy everyday right? At home, i have everything - tv, computer, meals, air con n my family. Hmm.. shall put the thought of staying in the hostel on hold 1st.
Another day of rotting home huh?

@deinelookingforwardtopartying!

Sat nite

25th June'2006

Dear diary,

I'm in trouble! Never realise that the deadline for my NTU forms was on the 23th June. Shucks big time! Only to found out from Cheryl yesterday afternoon. Qucikly filled them up but need to take pic.. thanks to my digital cam, daddy took it n print it out for mi :)
Cheryl went to NUS business interview and was accepted. Glad that now she can make a choice to study business in Nus however tat would means I would get someone whom I dunno as a roommate n that's pretty scary. Well,as for cheryl,do what u really wants ya ..
Went out with Rowena ytd to catch a movie n had dinner. We watched Just my Luck..it's just an alright movie. But it is hardly possible that one can be so lucky nor unlucky to that extent. More likely it happens to be unlucky for a day den everything will be back to normal the next rite? Anyway Mcfly songs are rather nice, I partiulary like their lyrics. We had swensen for dinner, we ate baked rice. It's amazing that we forgo ice cream cos i really feel full. Eversince that 4 days, i really feel that i'm fat lo. Girls there are tall, slim n beautiful. But i'm sure not everyone is perfect rite? So y m i complaining? Haiz.. human beings are such complicated creatures. Will there be anyone who will be happy with all that he/she has?
Didn't wanted to go home so early despite it being 11+ already. Msg lyn, they were planning to go her hse. But go there also nothing to do .. can singapore have more interesting night activities? Took the last train with rowena n met a few qwss students by chance. I was rather shocked n shy.. cos we will be alighing at the same station. I walked real fast, it was dark to walk home from the station. Yet it's nice to have the cooling breeze n peaceful surrounding. I wanna go for a drive... but when can i do it alone?

@deine=> there's something left in my head

Photo taking sessions

22th June' 2006

Dear diary,

My eyes hurts n my smile is numb. Today we practically had a phototaking session, at least 50 times. Gosh... we are pay to work not to take pictures! But it was fun cos the booth opposite us asked to take pic with us n in turn we asked for their free gifts which is a photo frame n moniter cleaner. Hee.. the free gifts in this exhibition very good lor cos only VIP can come in. However , my company quite budget leh. 1st day, we gave all the free gifts away den there is no more left for the rest of these 3 days. That explains our boredness. People from thailand, korea, japan, pakistan, brunei, usa etc... think all of them very rich ba. Haha.. never expet that I will get this kinda of work experience. Now i understand the sorrows of those models for car exhibititon le. Dun understand why people take so long to take a pic.. after a short while of smiling, it really looks fake n lips will tremble. Moreover, it's cold - i got a flu n my feets hurts frm wearing the high heels. Yea, tml i will get my soccer bag from germany! Haha.. that's the good thing about this job! Know more of the show girls from other company n u get free gifts from them hee. My eyes caught hold of some really nice handphone pouches by Gola. they are selling it tml afternoon . Dunno izzit expensive leh cos it costs $15 yet it is something that nobody will have it in Singapore i think. Yesh! tml last day of work le... hope next time also got these roadshows leh. Quite alright cos u get to see different pple. shall bring my camera tml n take more pictures abt the exhibition.

@deine=> sleeping

I'm not a hostress!

20th May' 2006

Dear diary,

My 1st day working in expo was not as bad as I thot. In fact it was rather relaxing n time passes real fast :") Reached there ard 9.30 den we get changed on at 10am. At first, winnie n I dun dare to step out of the washroom cos we feel tt everybody is like looking at us. But very fast I feel ok le. It wasn't as cold as we thot too. Our task was just to put all the brouches into packs with a gift. Pple frm all over the world are the SAME! Free gift queue how long also nvm lor! Wth.. we only got 2 pairs of hand.. how fast can we go? Then had half an hr of break... wanted to walk ard to get some gifts too haha ( y m i the same as others?) But we didn't... while working, we had photo shots too. Hmm winnie n i dunno how to reject pple leh. Well, we saw other girls who dressed with lesser cloth than us , some not so nice one while i think i like the soccer girls outfits. Two other girls working with us but they were seperated - one serve drinks n food ( gd leh, can eat) while the other promote phones ( not really promote , more of translating) so our tasks all quite slack.

Hope tml can go ard to see other booths too. N may it be a better day!
Goodnitez.. i'm tired.

@deine=> sometimes we have to give everyone a chance rite?

Bad job

17th June 2006

Dear diary,

woke up at 8am to get ready to go for my job training in expo next week in the afternoon. Met winnie to eat breakfast den off we head to expo. It was so disappointing - there isn't any training at all lor. Went down only to get our uniforms. I was shocked by our uniforms. Felt conned! It is a dress n we were wupposed to wear boots but my feet doesn't fits with gloves. gosh.. something which was beyond what i was told la- formal wear? pui.. what kinda of formal wear is this?
They should have hire models instead n these dress are so big lor. At first I hesitate to show mummy cos scare she scold but after i have shown her, she decided to alter it for mi. Thks mum! Hope these days i spent working will be pleasant n fast.

Went to changi airport after that to swensen. We ate banana crumble - not bad :) Sat down at the viewing area for a while before we left. Felt really tired... went home n off to my bed. doze off

Yea, tml no tennis training! Finally i had a day to rest. this week had been fruitful yet it passes rather slow, i wonder why. Tml maybe i wanna go jogging in the evening, gonna train my stamina.

@deine => tired..

essential brews nice!

15th June 2006

Dear diary,

Pw outing is fun!!! I love these times when we talk and laugh over silly things n of cos making fun of each other. I was starving but the others were nt hungry lo! Went to wala wala n we odered salad, pizza n lagasa. They had a live band on the second level but i thot maybe we could walk around cos quite full. After which we went to essential brews. A really nice place to hang out esp with frens. I particalarly like the concept of the cafe at the second level. Something that is quite zen... sat on the soft cushion laid for us. We got one of the best sits beside window. Ordered drinks - mich ordered the berry tea which is rather nice. Nice smell! Hmm i had alpine mist which i enjoyed it most among our drinks :) Not sure what meli ordered but the taste is unique n cheryl's one not so bad - tangerine sth.. Felt that their service is too slow? N i was the last to get my drink sob sob...We were so obsessed into taking pictures that we took almost everything - the drinks, the desert n of cos us! In between we had some comedy between the waiter n us. Lol... it was hilarous. Think we look insane to the waiter n waitress. Had some deserts before we left - brownies n ice cream. The ice creams are yummy! 4 different flavours - mocha , hazenuts, macdamia n butterscrotch. The butterscrotch blend in perfectly with the brownies.
Think i wanna treat daddy to essential brews this fathers' day. Hope he likes it!




Our drinks! Guess who is the greedy one. ( it's meli) haha.. kidding, mine is full cos it came last n we took sips from hers. Michelle one looks like ribena :P


michelle with her berry tea.. hmm pleasant smell


i'm stuck beside cheryl!


some group photos cos we had NOTHING to do!


meli n mi :)


i like this pic cos we are at our right positions haha rite gf?


doesn't it looks cute - serving with mini sizes? but it makes u full!

it looks sinful!

Taken by the waitress


Gonna hang out there soon rite gals? 27th june, i'm overjoyed now.

Tml i m going for my job training le. Must be presentable! Looks like i can only go to my hairdresser either sunday or monday.

This week damn shiok! I saw potential in my tennis- finally i found the love of my life. Uncle james is very good! he's patient n willingly to teach me everything. If only he is my coach... All these while i haven't been giving all my power for every shots. But ytd, i did n i saw how fast n deep my balls went.
All of a sudden i remember a quote that i saw on this shirt ' Love means nothing in tennis'
ok, dunno what i can link it too.

Just drove my sisters n dad to mac to get supper. Lol, my parking really sucks badly. Wonder when will i every do parking without daddy helps. Comment from sisters - i drive very fas n kept asking how come i will pass due to my parking :0 . Gals, learning in sch is different ma.. got six poles to assist me! Now no poles, i dunno where to turn. next year u all learn le den u know whaha...

@deine is a happy gal.

1st time on the expressway

14th May 2006

Dear diary,

Haha.. took the car off to jjc to get my cert. Wooh, driving on the expressway is like crazy! The cars there just dun give a damn. But it was fun having the hit the accelerator petal full kick. 90km/hr... fast lane change... but i can't do the parking. Hmm maybe later got chance to drive again to yishun. Hope my bro get more leave then i can get more driving.
Back to jjc, i didn't felt anything at all - dun have the ' finally, i m back.' No flashes of memories appear - does it mean i did not have a gd time there?

No leh, i met so many wonderful frens n we skip lectures, tutorial to go meli hse to watch dvd once. Skip yoga lessons for shopping trips rite meli? Hide in the cafe den play cards, eat sandwiches, spaghetti, drink ice blended mocha, play tennis till we can't see the balls. Had a great time setting up our very own Haunted Mansion as well as selling cup corn ,sauguages n had to bbq under tt hot sun! During physical fittnes, despite the tough training we went thru it all. It was there what i learn pe is all about. Breaking records of my own in all the 5 esp standing board jump which i could nv pass or just pass in sec sch. Now i can proud to say i can jump! Izit b'os of meli blue shoes? haha... 2.4km which is so common for us as we run at least 2.4 every lesson. Did crunches which gonna very much make u groan for the next few days. One sweet memory was running with meli while studying for our chinese test. She just loves to run to matter what mood she is in. I will be the one accompany her to run den stop n say eh u run one round den later i join u. Lazy i know but she really run fast n very good stamina. Time spent talking crap, joking ard.. sitting at the last row every math lecture cos we want to talk n not copy notes or just tired so can slp. Think back, really should apologise to mdm lim - our class tutor. Patient + kindess = mdm lim. Glad that i did not disappoint her in the math papers. Miss yamuna is the best chemistry teacher u can ever find - her laughter is something i will nv forget. it's very contagious! Her stories some also dunno is real anot - quite exaggerated. But i love n hate her lessons. Love her stories telling but hate her questioning. See her big eyes staring at u when u r loss of words. N mr tan - he is very creative in his lessons. Enjoyed playing games which makes lessons more interesting. Economics is a subject i nv thot i could made it which I scored an O level pass when i was in jc1. Not so bad after studying everything ya. Well, 2 years gone in a blink. Time for a fresh beginning of 3 years.

After yesterday talk with winnie, dunno if the job i will still get it anot. Well, if dun have at least still have back up :) Anyway sch gonna starts n i think relief teaching is still available esp on the 1st day of sch.

@deine=> life is more interesting when everything goes smoothly.

courses

13th May 2006

Dear diary,

It's a busy week for me!!! Monday i had driving test.

Today, i was woke up by a phone call frm the job agency to fix a time to go for interview. Hmm went to wheelock place at 11 plus den walk into zara n bought myself a nice off shoulder. I think their stuffs are not as expensive as what i thot. Signed up under SDU - srapbook design university for one class which costs me $35 for a lesson. Hmm hopefully it's fun n interesting cos i wanna to learn n decorate my photos. It shocked the person when she asked how many photos i had lol which is abt 200 or more :) Treat my sister lunch to n off for my interview. Din know where the hell is parkview square but it was nice! A beautiful place - i think night time even better. Had two person to iterview me.. bombarded me with situations and ask how would i react? den ask y i choose this job when i had no background on customer service line. Since it's a china company - speaking n listening to chinese is essential. Luckily i still can make it so chinese is after all impt. Hmm.. they look like they are looking for models cos must be at least 1.65. Haha.. i'm just nice! Felt that so far my jobs gave me good pay. Yupz. so expo hall 5 IT exhibition i will be there working frm 20th to 23rd. Think my legs will break after long hours of standing.. n my mouth will be numb cos need to talk n smile. Quite excited though..

Yea, if i can wake up at 6.30 tml. I will be able to drive for the very first time after i pass. Should i be lazy? or shld i get myself to the ground of bukit timah hill? N tml night gonna meet my PW girls - chilling out at holland village! Yea.. finally a gathering since jan. Gf is leaving to further her studies so it could be our last time meeting before she leave. Must take pictures n enjoy ourselves. Right now, i'm cracking my brains on where to go for dinner.

Thursday- after dental i need to rush for my facial appointment. Then tennis coaching by uncle james in late afternoon. Tiring to rush here n there . argh!

Friday still on hold - might on sentosa. But i might have to forgo it cos i'm going to my hair dresser. Gosh i dun want to miss sentosa outing again!

Saturday - lol, daddy just told me i will be having my driving lessons on sat. Hee.. learn how to park which will be held at mei ling street near the stadium. Cool!

Sunday - usual tennis training.

@deineispraying

Pass my driving test!

12th June 2006

Dear diary,

Nike rocks! Good tennis match yesterday night. Nadal - a raging bull with lethal forehand wins it all! Well played!

Wooh!!! I pass my driving test. Yesh.. no more trips to bbdc for lessons, no more worrying abt tt crazy instructor n what's more, who cares if i can't do my parking well. I just did it! Hee... got 16 pts off. Suppose to be 12 but silly me, so honest n own up my mistake. I strike the kerb abit while doing vertical parking. The tester wasn't sure n after the whole thing he ask if i knew my mistakes? I say ya.. my vertical parking. wrong turning pt ( actually the parking was damn screw up) Den he nod his head den flip n tick. Dang! I thot tt's it.. i saw a lot of 2. Den he started counting... 19 was what i saw sitting opp. den he says ok go down to the briefing room, u passed. Gosh! The test was less than 30 minutes.

My warm up, i alredy fail right at the start. Was nervous while waiting. There were like 15 pple in the room. One by one.. names were called. Waiting for mine - time passes damn slow. My heart pumping real fast. I thot i was forgotten for good cos left me alone in the room. Only after 15 minutes, the tester came in. He looked fierce, strict, white hair n old. Got test route 8 ( one of the toughest one) but it's ballot so no choice. Hehe.. think he is good cos he shorten my test route n there's no u turn when there suppose to be one. Really very short only, moreover i nv drive some of the roads b4. But overall, thank god for letting me pass my 1st attempt n for the good weather too . :) Appreciate it so much!

@de|ine is blessed.

Long last frens knows me best!

10th June 2006

Dear diary,

I'm suppose to meet jain but last minute she is not feeling well. So met up with lyn n gang. They are a bunch of friends i love hanging out with. From shopping to nothing to do to sitting down chatting to going home - there is always a smile on my face. Lyn and shili are damn funny la. While walking ard or buying things, there is likely to be commotion among them n the sales people. It is interesting just looking at them talking, bargaining , finding sponsor. Lol.. can't see me nor any of my jc frens doing suh things :) It' a good way of entertainment!
We had really late dinner though i was starving. N i ate alot! Get to have my aunt amy chewy chocolate at cafe cartel again. Yummy yummy!
Had nothing to do after dinner, i wanted to get photo album to have my pictures placed nicely. But can't find any nice albums but it's ok. Take my time ... Walk from cini down to i dunno where but still town area to find a place to chill . Landed in coffee bean and left as it closed at 1am den headed to the nearby mac. Mac provide real good service huh - 24 hr delivery, live world cup telecast. Good money there too :) Some some weirdo with his hair all stand up n it looks like it pricks if ur finger touches it like the thorns of a rose. Alright.. i'm exaggerating.

All i wanna say is i really had a good load of time together with lyn, shili, fang lay, kc and roger. Big hug for all of you who made me day a pleasure one! Looking forward to hang out with u guys more often! Sentosa tml? Pray hard weather is good pls...

@deine loves humour!

Driving

8th June 2006

Dear diary,

This morning, i was woke up by the bustling and lightings. This is the result of having to share ur bedroom with ur siblings! Argh.. early morning one by one make noises while getting ready to school.

watch some tv den go nee soon with my parents to bai bai that everything goes well for me. Haha.. my parents trying to be funny la say that they will follow behind my car den help me get rid of any cars that are in my way during my test. Lol... siao. if like that can pass, then everyone can pass easily le! Went driving lesson again today n damn it. This was the day! Ya, i met him n i learn from winnie to be quiet. Phew... i did some mistakes n when he start saying anything.. i just say sry. Darn... today my mistakes all quite serious. Anyone of this happens during my test, i gonna get immediate failure! Traffic, predestian n the lights .. pls be nice to me. Come at the right time ok? I' m chanting something that is not within anybody control. Anyway, tml also gonna get him lor. Wth. I try to be nice .. try to answer his questions. n try not to repeat my mistakes that i made today.

Supposed to have tennis but it was drizzling. Was rather tired too. Tv is such a wonderful invention! Wonder what life will be for me without the tv. I practically living off the tv from the moment i wake up till the moment i slp. With the scv - i watched beauty and the geek, french open, some police show n a lame show ( from 8-9.45) , singapore idol results. Hmm i think jasmine is nice - she looks real sweet. But rahmina looks like another paul twohill who needs some haircut n less acting cool. Actually gryail ( is that how u spell her name?) she's not bad too. But once the world cup starts - i expect some squabbling between we the three girls n my bro. Been trying to play gods these days without having proper meals. Bread till 4plus den had peanut paste and dinner. Feel hungry now. Haiz.. haven been excerising this week yet. Sunday better not rain in the morning and evening

@deine- back to french open!

Same old day

7th June 2006

Dear diary,

Hanging around at home .. lying on my sofa with the tv on , clicking ard with my mouse staring at the com. Time up! Time to bathe, get dress up n off to the bus stop , alight at mrt station. Get down at JE den set off to Bukit Gomak. Shuttle bus .. car.. shuttle bus n the same routine repeat over n over again

Life is that boring huh? Late evening - went to the red track / tennis. Night time - it's the time for French Open 2006. It'll be semi finals soon... maria is out! Gosh.. she actually lost to Safina. Leading 5-1 n got defeated to 5-7! Ball is round as the saying goes. there's no certain victory sign despite leading far ahead.

I wanna pick up new skills but i m damn lazy. Izzit too late to learn now? I wanna learn dance .. n i'm inspired to learn piano( too late i think) so guitar would be a better choice. Anyone wanna offer to teach me guitar? Ever since i'm back from USA, the thought of going for a sun tan or a swim has been on n hanging ard forever. I wanna catch the summertime in sentosa someday.

Been looking out for some sportswear sales. I wanna get some tennis outfits! Any good deals out there? Been searching online for an hour but i found NOTHING. Will be meeting Jain this friday.. maybe we can go for some late night shopping / a movie / hang out n grab a drink somewhere nice. Looking forward!

@deinegetsnothingdone!

Sports is a way to put away troubles

4th June'06

Dear diary,


Running on a piece of green land
Bounded by the white lines
With a weapon to leash your anger
Wallop every bright yellow bullets with all your might
Your eyes are filled with hatred
Every sound of contact became victory
Deep and hard it goes




Looking far ahead
Run as your legs carry you
Look upon the sky
Engulfed with grey clouds
Catching your breath
With all your troubles behind you
Look back
Glimpse of the distance you ran
You're tired...

@deine=> solitary

Embarrassed

3rd June ' 2006

Dear diary,

These few days I haven been feeling good. I get easily frustrated and confused about the things that I do. Mood swing? Perhaps... n yesterday was the worst i can ever experience during driving. What's wrong with me? I got the instructor i wanted... but i did too many mistakes that i can't forgive myself too. Idoitic vertical parking that i can't work it out. Freaking hell! I did this for countless time n still get in wrong. He tried to help me yet i still couldn't do it rightly. Feel like giving up! After vertical parking, i went on to directional change.. halfway through i knew something was wrong. I wanted to amend it - an empty mind i had. Water was in my eyes. I tried to hold it back. It wasn't like those times when u can turn ur head away n pretend u weren't upset or bothered. Driving requires me to look at the road all time.. it was hard to pretend. I had no idea what happen n my tears just gush out in a split second. It was then he was shocked - asked if it was b'cos of driving . Insist on saying no b'cos it's not all his fault tt i cry. I'm just angry with myself for not being able to do things right despite all these practices.
Can't do the circuit courses in this state. I just felt like telling him that i don't wanna drive n i wanted to get out of the car. But I didn't- i didn't want my parents' money to go to waste. Went on the road.. n the more he asked, the harder i cry. No control over the amount of tears i had. On the road, i drive n stare at the road really hard that i think it's gonna pop out. Somehow after that drive, i felt better. I was really quiet - complete silence in the car.
In the end i just told him I'd a bad day. I've been getting more bad days recently. Apologise for scaring him ( though i m more sorry for not being able to learn what he taught)

Went tomeet up Cheryl to look for her evening gown. Went to tiong baru n walk around den to town. Spend quite sometime in Daniel Yen in Hereen. I think she looks gorgeous in the second piece that she tried on. Yupz.. anyway i bought a pair of sandals in Tiong baru. After walking around, both of us were felling hungry. She had ate bread with ham n cheese while i ate something light since we got up n those lasts us till like 6. Remembered of those happy times in Billy Bombers, we went in again. Ordered Oatmeal fish n fries course meal to share.. not bad. After the main course, cheryl says that there is ice cream to be served but i said i dun think so. Anyway. there is.. but i was feeling really full then. Headed to cinleisure den to taka. Cheryl bought a few cosmetic yesterday - lip gloss, lip sticks ( frm body shop) - cheap 2 for $19.90. then mascara , eyebrow liner while i bought za fountation ( great deal of only $12.90) and sheseidon blusher ( it was ex!) . Gss was good n bad- good that we ae able to afford more things with the same amount of money we had but bad as in i think we tend to spend more than we should. The sales n reduced price always give us the excuse that ' hey, it's cheap n worthwhile .. just buy it ' Cheryl got herself a converse top for only $13.90. Taka has lots of sales going around. We wanted to go to Holland Village for a drink but decided not to after we caculated how much we had spent within these few hours. Near $80 .. n if we were to continue with these happy moments - it will bounce up to $100. Keep it for another time!

By the time we were going home, i didn't want to cos i'm still bothered by what happen while driving even the whole night n now. CHeryl was so nice, she accompanied me home. Thanks! It gave me a phobia of doing vertical parking cos i knew no matter how many times i try, i still cannot do it. This feeling ain feels good. How am i going to react when i see him again? - pretend nothing has happened? How m i going to drive for the coming 5 days with the high chances of getting someone i dislike n worst still the test is in 1 week time. I wanna quit this game!

@deineisbothered - is she thinking too much?